Sunflower2
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Well done on the losses 
Keep it up girlie xxxx
Keep it up girlie xxxxKaitie's Open Diary
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Kaitie
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Thank you Sunflower!
It has been an amazing busy week! I got to the gym on Monday....and that's it. Miraculously however, my scale is still going down. I'll take it. You'll never hear me complain about not going to the gym and still losing weight!
I put on some of my old fat clothes that I grew out of.....and they're looking pretty good. Jeans are a smidgen loose and the shirts are fitting again nicely. Now....on to getting back into my skinny clothes.
184.2? or .6 can't remember....but I'll go with the lower.
Happy losing everyone!
It has been an amazing busy week! I got to the gym on Monday....and that's it. Miraculously however, my scale is still going down. I'll take it. You'll never hear me complain about not going to the gym and still losing weight!
I put on some of my old fat clothes that I grew out of.....and they're looking pretty good. Jeans are a smidgen loose and the shirts are fitting again nicely. Now....on to getting back into my skinny clothes.
184.2? or .6 can't remember....but I'll go with the lower.
Happy losing everyone!
Kaitie
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Hola WLF Family,
183.8 today--weehee. I have cookie regret right now so hopefully it doesn't screw up my scale too much tomorrow morning.
The roof is leaking--oh joy. It's leaking onto the furnace and other electrical wires so I made John turn off the furnace, it'll be chilly tomorrow morning but better than than a fire. We have cups and cookie tins and a bucket trying to catch it all but I know it's going to fill up in the night---whaddaya gonna do?
I had a few clothing break throughs this week. I fit nicely into my size 14 jeans and they only got tight after I ate dinner--so wahoo! I took out a couple of shirts I wore in Paris---and I was 184 in Paris, so they can go on me but I feel a little lumpy in them. Maybe around 180 they'll look a little better. Found some pants and a skirt that I haven't worn in a LONG time---who knows maybe I won't be wearing yoga pants to work anymore....they're comfy but really, I only wear them because nothing else fits. Well, fit--because they are starting to fit again. I'm starting to think that maybe I can lower my goal weight to 160 for July. 4 more pounds until 180--that would leave April, May, June, and the first week of July to get to 170---I can totally do better than that!
Ya know, the last time I was on this journey I was super focused on getting it all off---but I think I missed the boat on a few major issues. 1st and foremost---even at my lightest, 145.5 I never saw myself as skinny. I was wearing a size 6---a 6!!!!! and it still didn't sink in that I was a skinny minny. I never thought of myself that way. Why? Why was a size 6 not enough to make me realize that I WAS thin? and 2nd...I was 145.5 for about as long as it takes to speak that number out loud. I reached it, said 'that's good enough' and the next day was 146, then 47....until low and behold, back to 198.2. Now yes, I did have some MAJOR mental trauma and depression between 145 and 198, I really cannot discount that. It did play a major factor in things. But I really don't want to go back to being a fatty again. (ok, I'm STILL a fatty now, but I am definately going in the right direction to not be anymore) I guess I'm just trying to work through some mental problems. I can't wait until I can fit back into my favorite blue size 8 A line skirt or my size 10 brown and white polka dotted skirt--or even that size 12 dress that you can see a picture of on around page 90ish of this diary. Skinny clothes, sexy clothes are awesome. I say all this after eating 10 peanut butter girl scout cookies---but what's done is done and tomorrow's another day. I can get to 179 by March 31st and then be 160 something by time I get to Italy. I can do it and this time---I'm going to believe the pictures---I'll be skinny and this time I'll actually be ok with it and recognize it AND stay skinny. Go Me!!!
183.8 today--weehee. I have cookie regret right now so hopefully it doesn't screw up my scale too much tomorrow morning.
The roof is leaking--oh joy. It's leaking onto the furnace and other electrical wires so I made John turn off the furnace, it'll be chilly tomorrow morning but better than than a fire. We have cups and cookie tins and a bucket trying to catch it all but I know it's going to fill up in the night---whaddaya gonna do?
I had a few clothing break throughs this week. I fit nicely into my size 14 jeans and they only got tight after I ate dinner--so wahoo! I took out a couple of shirts I wore in Paris---and I was 184 in Paris, so they can go on me but I feel a little lumpy in them. Maybe around 180 they'll look a little better. Found some pants and a skirt that I haven't worn in a LONG time---who knows maybe I won't be wearing yoga pants to work anymore....they're comfy but really, I only wear them because nothing else fits. Well, fit--because they are starting to fit again. I'm starting to think that maybe I can lower my goal weight to 160 for July. 4 more pounds until 180--that would leave April, May, June, and the first week of July to get to 170---I can totally do better than that!
Ya know, the last time I was on this journey I was super focused on getting it all off---but I think I missed the boat on a few major issues. 1st and foremost---even at my lightest, 145.5 I never saw myself as skinny. I was wearing a size 6---a 6!!!!! and it still didn't sink in that I was a skinny minny. I never thought of myself that way. Why? Why was a size 6 not enough to make me realize that I WAS thin? and 2nd...I was 145.5 for about as long as it takes to speak that number out loud. I reached it, said 'that's good enough' and the next day was 146, then 47....until low and behold, back to 198.2. Now yes, I did have some MAJOR mental trauma and depression between 145 and 198, I really cannot discount that. It did play a major factor in things. But I really don't want to go back to being a fatty again. (ok, I'm STILL a fatty now, but I am definately going in the right direction to not be anymore) I guess I'm just trying to work through some mental problems. I can't wait until I can fit back into my favorite blue size 8 A line skirt or my size 10 brown and white polka dotted skirt--or even that size 12 dress that you can see a picture of on around page 90ish of this diary. Skinny clothes, sexy clothes are awesome. I say all this after eating 10 peanut butter girl scout cookies---but what's done is done and tomorrow's another day. I can get to 179 by March 31st and then be 160 something by time I get to Italy. I can do it and this time---I'm going to believe the pictures---I'll be skinny and this time I'll actually be ok with it and recognize it AND stay skinny. Go Me!!!
Biggerdude30
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Hi Katie
I think you and your Husband are very inspirational, I have been walking and jogging with a friend who was very supportive and helping me stay motivated for the first few weeks towards my quest to be leaner, now the last two weeks my friend has not been consistent and has made me less motivated to jog by my self as I am a little self conscious of my weight, I want to ask what does it take for you to stick to your training?
If you new what would be the one thing that would keep you going no matter what to reach your desired weight?
Biggerdude30
I think you and your Husband are very inspirational, I have been walking and jogging with a friend who was very supportive and helping me stay motivated for the first few weeks towards my quest to be leaner, now the last two weeks my friend has not been consistent and has made me less motivated to jog by my self as I am a little self conscious of my weight, I want to ask what does it take for you to stick to your training?
If you new what would be the one thing that would keep you going no matter what to reach your desired weight?
Biggerdude30
Kaitie
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Biggerdude:
Thanks for dropping by!
I think the thing that keeps me motivated is all the positive attention I get from people. People treated me VERY differently when I was losing weight, random men would hold the door for me and give little smiles.... no one ever smiled at 'the fat girl'. In fact, I felt like no one noticed me at all. Especially when I was talking, it was so curious that they skinnier I got the more power I had. And of course, vice-versa, the fatter I got the more I noticed that people wouldn't pay attention to me. I'm not sure if it's that people noticed me more or that I noticed me more. I felt better about myself so maybe I did have this presence about me that made people listen more...I don't know---I do know that I loved the attention. Don't even get me started on clothes---the biggest attention getter of them all! Every 10 pounds or so I would go shopping for 'better' clothes, smaller really and that just made me desire attention even more.
Now, I'm not vain and I don't think I let it get to my head....but being noticed as a pretty woman after years of being the fat girl---yeah that's enough to keep anyone motivated to lose the weight.
Thanks for dropping by!
I think the thing that keeps me motivated is all the positive attention I get from people. People treated me VERY differently when I was losing weight, random men would hold the door for me and give little smiles.... no one ever smiled at 'the fat girl'. In fact, I felt like no one noticed me at all. Especially when I was talking, it was so curious that they skinnier I got the more power I had. And of course, vice-versa, the fatter I got the more I noticed that people wouldn't pay attention to me. I'm not sure if it's that people noticed me more or that I noticed me more. I felt better about myself so maybe I did have this presence about me that made people listen more...I don't know---I do know that I loved the attention. Don't even get me started on clothes---the biggest attention getter of them all! Every 10 pounds or so I would go shopping for 'better' clothes, smaller really and that just made me desire attention even more.
Now, I'm not vain and I don't think I let it get to my head....but being noticed as a pretty woman after years of being the fat girl---yeah that's enough to keep anyone motivated to lose the weight.
Kaitie
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So I'm annoyed and unmotivated. My scale has just gone up and up this week. 186. Freaking sucks. So, steroids actually work. I was on prednisone for my ears and apparently that was the reason why my scale was moving down so nicely--ever since I finished the medicine my scale has gone up---it's annoying. Highly annoying. I was on such a high from dropping down to 183 and now I don't feel like doing anything. Grrr...
Kaitie
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Ok, so I've been working at weight-loss again since December 31st and I've lost 5 pounds so far. I joined the 3fatchicks forum but there's really no one there to talk to and there isn't a place for me to just ramble on and on about daily progress and set-backs. I was once super strong in this forum and through lots of support from you all I lost 60 pounds. Sadly, I gained it all back. I'd like to blame it on a lot of things, failed IVF's, and other sad moments in life but the reality is that I never actually saw myself as skinny. Even when I was skinny I thought I looked fat. Yes, I thought I looked good and I recognized that I was losing weight but I never saw myself as skinny. Weird, I know. Anyway, I am committed to doing this again but I now know that I will never be done losing weight. I will always have to be losing weight. So, I'm trying to start cooking--hey 40's not to late right? and I'm back at the gym. At the moment I am having some interference with my scale but hopefully that will go away by Wednesday and the real number will come back---or a new lower number will emerge.
Well, it's 7:40 and I most certainly did not eat enough today. I'm only at 941 calories, so I should stop typing and go eat something.
Sundays are my days off from the gym but I have off from school tomorrow so I can go to the gym earlier (not early) and I plan on putting away all the rest of the Christmas decorations that are still up.
I would also like to apologize to my former friends on this forum that were always there for me and then I stopped coming on, if you're still here I'd like to pick up where we left off.
Well, it's 7:40 and I most certainly did not eat enough today. I'm only at 941 calories, so I should stop typing and go eat something.
Sundays are my days off from the gym but I have off from school tomorrow so I can go to the gym earlier (not early) and I plan on putting away all the rest of the Christmas decorations that are still up.
I would also like to apologize to my former friends on this forum that were always there for me and then I stopped coming on, if you're still here I'd like to pick up where we left off.
Kaitie
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Hello!
Did an hour on the treadmill and 20 minutes of strength training. Now I'm making chicken tortilla soup--we'll see how that goes. I put things in the soup that I wouldn't usually eat so hopefully it's not to spicy or anything. My scale was super friendly this morning, which was very surprising. I'll take it though.
Did an hour on the treadmill and 20 minutes of strength training. Now I'm making chicken tortilla soup--we'll see how that goes. I put things in the soup that I wouldn't usually eat so hopefully it's not to spicy or anything. My scale was super friendly this morning, which was very surprising. I'll take it though.
Kaitie
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SO TIRED OF PUSHING A BLEEPIN CART!!! Seriously, I've been out of my classroom since before hurricane Sandy--all the mold is gone and the ceiling and lights re-done and the walls painted. I have been waiting 3 weeks for them to re-do the floors. WTH! Nothing, nothing was done AGAIN this weekend. I'm seriously going crazy be on a cart. I don't have my computer, I don't a printer, I don't a desk to sit at, I have nothing but a bleeping cart. I'm SICK OF IT! If a 'real' classroom teacher had had this problem their classroom would've been done by now, but because I'm only the music teacher there's no rush. I'm ticked off. Seriously ticked off.
Food intake was fine today, a little under 1500 calories. It's my no gym day, I wouldn't have time anyway. Auditions were pretty much a waste of time. Don't audition for a role and not know the lines or the song. I sat through at least 15 kids mumbling the wrong words to the song with the script covering their face as if that was going to hide their ineptitude.
Sucky day. S.U.C.K.Y. D.A.Y
Food intake was fine today, a little under 1500 calories. It's my no gym day, I wouldn't have time anyway. Auditions were pretty much a waste of time. Don't audition for a role and not know the lines or the song. I sat through at least 15 kids mumbling the wrong words to the song with the script covering their face as if that was going to hide their ineptitude.
Sucky day. S.U.C.K.Y. D.A.Y
Kaitie
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Ok, new floor not happening but I really don't give a rat's patootie, I just want my room back. Hopefully it'll be done for Friday or Monday. Tomorrow is just too much to ask for.
Anyway, scale was friendly this morning. I have 1.4 pounds to go to reach my first mini goal and 10 days to do it in so, I can totally do that!
Gym was fine, I was distracted because they were showing the Hilary Clinton hearing, still did seven miles on the bike though and burned 185 calories. wahooo!!
Anyway, scale was friendly this morning. I have 1.4 pounds to go to reach my first mini goal and 10 days to do it in so, I can totally do that!
Gym was fine, I was distracted because they were showing the Hilary Clinton hearing, still did seven miles on the bike though and burned 185 calories. wahooo!!
Kaitie
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Progress on the floor. I went down there this afternoon and the goo needed to stick the tiles to the floor was down, hopefully they get or got by now put down and I can go back in tomorrow. *fingers, toes, eyes, nose hairs crossed*
Scale is moving down and I'm happy about that. I wish it would move faster but I guess it took 4 years to gain it all back it's not going to all come off in 24 days. -5.8 pounds is a good thing.
Scale is moving down and I'm happy about that. I wish it would move faster but I guess it took 4 years to gain it all back it's not going to all come off in 24 days. -5.8 pounds is a good thing.
Kaitie
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Ok GOOD NEWS!!! The floor has been repaired, it just needs to dry this weekend and then the custodians will put my stuff back in my classroom on Monday and Tuesday so hopefully I can have my room back on Wednesday!!!!!! They are also putting in 4 or 5 huge racks that go from floor to ceiling on the back wall of my room to store all my instruments and other assorted junk PLUS they are putting a cage around it all with sliding doors that lock so all my instruments will be under lock and key so no one can steal them. That will be awesome. I can't wait!!!!
Play rehearsal started today and I went to a show so I did not get to the gym. It's ok though, I'm doing a song this week with a dance that is almost like a zumba workout, did it at least 6 times to day.
Calories were good and I had enough left over for a treat at the show---it was a super good chocolate brownie with chocolate chips in it--yum-a-licious. Hopefully it doesn't mess up my scale tomorrow. I'm hoping for 200.8 (or 6, or 4, or anything lower than 201.0.
Play rehearsal started today and I went to a show so I did not get to the gym. It's ok though, I'm doing a song this week with a dance that is almost like a zumba workout, did it at least 6 times to day.
Calories were good and I had enough left over for a treat at the show---it was a super good chocolate brownie with chocolate chips in it--yum-a-licious. Hopefully it doesn't mess up my scale tomorrow. I'm hoping for 200.8 (or 6, or 4, or anything lower than 201.0.
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MrVee
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The Rodgers and Hammerstein fitness plan. I like it!
Kaitie
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MrVee...we should market that! We could make millions!
Scale was SUPER friendly today. .4 pounds to make my January goal. I'm hoping that it wasn't a fluke, I get discouraged when the scale misbehaves.
Off to the gym to make up for missing on Friday. My goal was to exercise every day except Sundays and every second Tuesday, so I just need to make up for Friday and I'm back on track.
Scale was SUPER friendly today. .4 pounds to make my January goal. I'm hoping that it wasn't a fluke, I get discouraged when the scale misbehaves.
Off to the gym to make up for missing on Friday. My goal was to exercise every day except Sundays and every second Tuesday, so I just need to make up for Friday and I'm back on track.
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Kaitie
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STARVING!!!!! So I started out well but then I brought the wrong lunch with me (yuck, sweet potatoes suck!) so I ate the small bits of chicken out of my lunch and then a chobani (sp) yogurt, then around 4 I had a protein bar but boy I was freaking starving, I had a nice bowl of the chicken tortilla soup that I made and a 90 calorie pack of dorito's so I'm not hungry anymore but I think I messed up my body for the day because it was starving. Hopefully the scale doesn't misbehave for me tomorrow.