Hi all,
I've been looking for some form of accountability for myself and my weight loss journey and I'm hoping a diary may be it. I'm 22 years old, female and since the age of about 15/16 been struggling with my weight , then since I went to college 4 years ago I have steadily put on about 3 stone. it's only now that i'm in my final few months of college that I can realise how much weight I've put on. in the last year I have become so obsessed with losing weight, but my main problem isn't realy food, it's being too lazy to exercise.......that was hard to type.. I lead a very busy life between school, home, and I coach local sports teams, so I've always made the excuse that I'm too busy to exercise but I now realise that this is a complete excuse, I have time to watch tv, movies, socialise...i need to find the time to exercise.
I'm not saying that my diet is good either, but it's not terrible and I know i can easily improve it. Exercise has always been my problem, I do play a sport but this only involves 1 evening of training a week and I often miss training due to college. I've always been quite a good player but often don't make the team simply because I'm so unfit.
I need a change, I want a change.....I absolutely hate looking at myself , I hate people looking at me, I hate seeing people who knew me years ago and knowng that they know how much weight I've put on.
I'm ashamed of it, I'm embarrassed, I love to dress up and go out in bars/clubs but I never do it anymore because I don't like how I look.
I 've had a few very casual relationships but nothing serious in the last few years, because I can't understand how anyone would like me when I'm so unattractive, I'm not saying I want to lose weight to find a relationship but I definately feel it would increase my confidence...
Anyway, sorry for rambling on....on this forum, I'm just going to try and keep a diary for myself, so that I can look back and see what I've been doing exercise wise and food wise and maybe I'll begin to see patterns as to why I've never been able to lose this weight in the past...because believe me I'be tried! I'm not sure how interesting my story will be, but if anyone wants to read along and maybe give me some advice or tips I would welcome them.
ok, so starting off...its April 1st 2009, this morning I weighed in at 189 lbs. I'm 5' 7". My goal weight would be to be between 145-150 lbs....I haven't weighed less than 170 for over 4 year.
This morning I had a breakfast of a wheat cereal and 2 slices of brown soda bread with marmite. I'm currently in the middle of writing a thesis for college so I read some papers and studied for about an hour then I drove to local park and went jogging!.....Ijogged for 7.5 mins...walked for 3-4 mins....then I did some sprint/jog intervals twice up and down the park (ie sprinted for about 15 metres/jogged 15 metres ) I then walked for the rest of the time until i had done 30 minutes exercise.
lunch time now....and debating what to have...
Sorry this first entry was so long and probably boring, I'll try to make each days one much shorter and less detailed...
I've been looking for some form of accountability for myself and my weight loss journey and I'm hoping a diary may be it. I'm 22 years old, female and since the age of about 15/16 been struggling with my weight , then since I went to college 4 years ago I have steadily put on about 3 stone. it's only now that i'm in my final few months of college that I can realise how much weight I've put on. in the last year I have become so obsessed with losing weight, but my main problem isn't realy food, it's being too lazy to exercise.......that was hard to type.. I lead a very busy life between school, home, and I coach local sports teams, so I've always made the excuse that I'm too busy to exercise but I now realise that this is a complete excuse, I have time to watch tv, movies, socialise...i need to find the time to exercise.
I'm not saying that my diet is good either, but it's not terrible and I know i can easily improve it. Exercise has always been my problem, I do play a sport but this only involves 1 evening of training a week and I often miss training due to college. I've always been quite a good player but often don't make the team simply because I'm so unfit.
I need a change, I want a change.....I absolutely hate looking at myself , I hate people looking at me, I hate seeing people who knew me years ago and knowng that they know how much weight I've put on.
I'm ashamed of it, I'm embarrassed, I love to dress up and go out in bars/clubs but I never do it anymore because I don't like how I look.
I 've had a few very casual relationships but nothing serious in the last few years, because I can't understand how anyone would like me when I'm so unattractive, I'm not saying I want to lose weight to find a relationship but I definately feel it would increase my confidence...
Anyway, sorry for rambling on....on this forum, I'm just going to try and keep a diary for myself, so that I can look back and see what I've been doing exercise wise and food wise and maybe I'll begin to see patterns as to why I've never been able to lose this weight in the past...because believe me I'be tried! I'm not sure how interesting my story will be, but if anyone wants to read along and maybe give me some advice or tips I would welcome them.
ok, so starting off...its April 1st 2009, this morning I weighed in at 189 lbs. I'm 5' 7". My goal weight would be to be between 145-150 lbs....I haven't weighed less than 170 for over 4 year.
This morning I had a breakfast of a wheat cereal and 2 slices of brown soda bread with marmite. I'm currently in the middle of writing a thesis for college so I read some papers and studied for about an hour then I drove to local park and went jogging!.....Ijogged for 7.5 mins...walked for 3-4 mins....then I did some sprint/jog intervals twice up and down the park (ie sprinted for about 15 metres/jogged 15 metres ) I then walked for the rest of the time until i had done 30 minutes exercise.
lunch time now....and debating what to have...
Sorry this first entry was so long and probably boring, I'll try to make each days one much shorter and less detailed...