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moliss22

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A lil' about me: I am 23 years old and am THROUGH BEING FAT! I have always been pretty and am curvy so I have carried my extra weight well up until I crossed over the 200 pound mark... now I am just a pretty fat girl... sigh.. I have been pregnant 3 times and am blessed with an exuberant 2 year old son named Marcellus who is my whole world! I never knew I could love anyone this much! But losing 2 other babies has caused some depression which has lead to emotional eating... and I wasn't eating vegetables! With God's help I have been dealing with all the emotions and depression and I am ready to get on to weight loss! I am the minister of music at my church and am very involved in my church! I am engaged to one of the best men I have ever met and will be married on March 7, 2009.

I am choosing not to use the word diet but to instead replace it with the term journey! I am embarking on a new journey in which I will end up being the woman I have always aspired to be!!!

I have lost 11 pounds thus far and want to lose 70 more by Valentines Day 2009. I am 5'5" and weight 230 pounds! I am very curvy and don't want to be a twig! At 130 pounds I would look like a twig! My ultimate Goal is 150 to 160 pounds, depending on how I look and feel!

I am eating more vegetables, fruits, lean meats, and whole grains! I am drinking a TON of water, and cutting out fast food and Soda (my weaknesses)! I am also calorie shifting... If anyone else is calorie shifting PLEASE LET ME KNOW HOW THAT IS WORKIN OUT FOR You!!!

My Short Term Goals Are:
1:Lose 20 pounds... Want to accomplish by September 1, 2008

2:Looking good in my size 16 jeans.. Not just be able to fit into them again...not having to wear them unbuttoned or have the "muffin top" hanging over.. Want to accomplish by September 1, 2008

My Mid Length Goals Are:
1: Want to run a cancer marathon in my grandmother's honor in Spring 2009

2: Want to be a smokin' hottie in my wedding dress on March 7, 2009

My Long Term Goals:
1: Be comfortable and confident in my own skin!

2: Be a healthy example for Marcellus to see so he doesn't fall into the same fat trap that I did from watching my parent's unhealthy eating habits!

3:Be around to see Marcellus (my son)'s children grow up!


I need all the motivation I can get and would love to have a few e-mail supporters if anyone is interested!!!
 
Moliss22,

You have set yourself some very good, achievable goals. I wish you the best of luck on this new journey of yours and look forward to seeing pictures of you, smokin' hot, on your wedding day!

Tarazan :Angel_anim:
 
THe Last Supper

So Please tell me that I am not the only one who had a "last supper" of sorts this weekend for the 4th??? What is it about truly committing to a diet and exercise program that I feel like I need to have a total CARB FEST the day before? I bet I ate about 2500 calories... ugh... hamburger that wasn't extra lean... extra thick bun... potato salad.. deviled eggs... chocolate cookies... Sigh... and to be honest I felt like crap afterwards... not just emotionally but physically... my body went into that sugar drop... ugh...

COMMITMENT: NO MORE BINGE EATING! If I want to jump off the wagon for a day I will only eat 1 food that is bad for me!!!

Onward... the scale didn't reflect my binge last night... weird.. maybe I had lost a pound or 2 since my weigh in on the first that I just replaced yesterday.. who knows.. my body is too complex for me to ever understand...
 
My 4th of July seems like it was very similar to yours...I had 2 hotdogs (ground beef is on recall here so n hamburgers), vegetable pizza, baked beans, potato salad, about 20 peanut butter cookies, some sort of peach dessert, and nachos! So don't feel too bad.

But any way...good luck with your journey! I look forward to tracking your progress. :)
 
Moliss22,

Don't beat yourself up over one day's worth of eating. I don't know about you but I've had MANY days of eating like your "last supper" which is what got me where I am. I read somewhere on here, I think a sticky or even someone's signature tag, something like: Better choices, one day and one meal at a time.

Do me a favor and don't deprive yourself on your journey or you may end up binging again (and again... and again). Make one meal or one day a week your meal or your day (meal if you're going to binge, day if you want many things and can keep them to 5 small meals but of the yummy foods you really, really want).

Lastly, do as I say, not as I do! I'm off to binge now... Ha! (JUST KIDDING). I'm really going to either walk my dog or go to the gym, I haven't decided yet, but I'm going to do something before I fall asleep in my chair!

Pick it up where you left off with the good stuff.

Take care,

Tarazan :Angel_anim:
 
Beginning week 2

So today was weigh-in day and I dreaded seeing a gain or the same as last week... but much to my surprise... down 5 pounds!!! WHOOO HOO!! (I would have jumped up and down if I wasn't afraid of waking the baby with my vibrations lol).... Must have been the exercise because I didn't exactly stick to my diet this weekend... Nevertheless I will take this loss as a victory!!! Only 15 more pounds to drop an entire dress size!!!! And one of my work friends told me I was really slimming down... YAY!!!
 
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