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Thanks, everyone! Cowboy, I would love that video. I want one where there's some chubby chick looking completely uncomfortable in her workout clothes, bending over panting to catch her breath every 10 minutes. At the end, they all need to lay on the floor gasping for air.... No high fives, fake smiles, or happiness. Happy to be alive maybe, but that's it. haha! :p
 
Recap on Saturday through today:

Saturday: Calories were at maintenance level. I wore my fitbit when we went shopping. Unfortunately, I was pushing a shopping cart a good share of the time, so my fitbit wasn't registering a lot of my steps. I also have a bad habit of putting my hands in my hoodie pockets. I was trying to remember to NOT do that, but it was hard. lol! I walked way more than I usually do, but my steps were about the same. Nothing I can do about it now. *shrugs*

Sunday: Calories were around 1450. Steps were 10,235.

Monday: Calories right now are around a 1000. I plan on having a good snack later, so that will be higher by the end of the night. Not gonna lie - that "good" snack is going to include chocolate ...or ice cream... or both. haha! I shouldn't have a problem getting my steps in by the end of the night.

Mood: :mad::(:cry::)o_O:cry::):rolleyes::mad:
 
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jen_renee said:
Thanks, everyone! Cowboy, I would love that video. I want one where there's some chubby chick looking completely uncomfortable in her workout clothes, bending over panting to catch her breath every 10 minutes. At the end, they all need to lay on the floor gasping for air.... No high fives, fake smiles, or happiness. Happy to be alive maybe, but that's it. haha! :p
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I think what you describe is more real life-lol. We have all been there trying to breathe and melting in a puddle on the floor!
 
Calories for today: 1460
Steps today: 10,077

I am so tired and ready for bed right now. I slept pretty good last night, but not enough. I stayed up too late, as usual. You'd think I would've learned by now... but nope. lol!

Oh, I forgot to mention the other day that I looked for workout DVDs when we went shopping, but couldn't find one I wanted. I have a few already, so I'll probably just do those for now, until I can find something else. I'd really like to join the fitness club that's here in town. The classes are pretty small, and there's a few different ones that look really fun. One of my cousins is friends with the lady that owns it, and I know a few other people that already go too. However, my biggest issue with it is that the lady that owns it is constantly posting pics or videos from the classes on facebook..... :eek: Uh, no, thank you! I have NO desire to have my sweaty, jiggly, chubby butt plastered all over facebook. haha! Maybe later on after I lose more weight I'll think about it, but not right now. I'll stick to my DVDs. lol!
 
Hi! :p
Just finished reading through your whole thread<3. Really motivating. I will be watching your progress and hopefully can lose weight alongside you.:rolleyes:
 
Wouldn´t it be normal to ask paying customers if they´d mind having their picture made public? That´s the norm over here even when you´re not paying (unless you´re out on the street or in a real crowd).
 
YouTube has a bunch of workout videos I ocasionally watch! Are the DVD ones much better/easier to follow? I've never bought one, So I don't know.
 
nyzeh said:
YouTube has a bunch of workout videos I ocasionally watch! Are the DVD ones much better/easier to follow? I've never bought one, So I don't know.
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Agreed. Youtube was a life saver for me when it came to tips and motivation for weight loss. This one sort of triggered me losing weight.
 
My sons did p90X a couple of years ago. The people in that video are way to fit looking for me to identify with. Lol but my sons are both really fit and ripped so I guess that's who they are appealing to. Not 51 year old fat guys like me lol
 
I don't mind Youtube. I actually watch a lot of videos on there, and follow certain people. I just prefer to do videos on the tv. I don't like looking at my laptop, and I'm not about to go through the hassle of hooking my laptop up to the tv just to do a video. So dvd's are just easier I guess.

LaMaria said:
Wouldn´t it be normal to ask paying customers if they´d mind having their picture made public? That´s the norm over here even when you´re not paying (unless you´re out on the street or in a real crowd).
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Normally I would say yes. If you were to go to a regular gym here, there wouldn't be pictures taken at all probably. This isn't a gym though. It's a lady that started an exercise group with her friends, ended up becoming a personal trainer, and she rented a tiny space to hold a few classes. So, it's mostly just her friends. The whole business is pretty much driven by social media. I'm sure if you didn't want your picture taken, she would happily oblige, but I'd rather just avoid it until I feel comfortable doing all the stuff that makes it look so fun.
 
Wow. I had to go the second page to find my journal, and I just posted yesterday. The forum is getting pretty busy.

Recap of yesterday:
Steps: 10,036
Calories: 1400
30 minutes of yoga

Yoga is hard. I always forget how hard it is until I start to do it again. I felt better afterwards - more relaxed. My anxiety is pretty high right now, so anything that helps with that -even for a few minutes- is a good thing.

Thanksgiving this year is going to be at my mom's. She has a new boyfriend, so she wants to do the cooking this year, and have it at her house. Good things: I won't be eating as much, and there won't be a ton of food left in OUR house. Bad things: We have to try to eat while watching my mom and her new boyfriend act like love sick puppy dogs. *gag* lol!
 
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Oh, hopefully they won't! I have been feeling very anxious lately too Jen. I just feel like staying at home. It sucks, doesn't it! I have been going for a walk & that helps me a little.
 
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I have been feeling very anxious lately too Jen. I just feel like staying at home. It sucks, doesn't it!
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Yes, yes it does!!!



I keep hoping one day I'll wake up and all my anxiety will be gone. It has gotten a LOT better over the years, but it's still there. I'm doing all I can to control it now. My fear is always that it will go back to how it was 10 or 15 years ago, which was horrible. Basically vomiting 3 or 4 times a day, and countless days where I spent most of the day laying on the bathroom floor, exhausted, covered in sweat from puking and/or dry heaving all day because my stomach wouldn't stop. Fun times! :rolleyes: Anxiety is no joke and it always irritates me when people act like it's something you can just stop doing. Like it's something we would choose to do. Trust me, I would not choose to be in a constant state of nausea all day if it were up to me. I would not choose to sit here and overthink every single thing if it were up to me. I just can't help it. :( Luckily, these days my bouts of anxiety are temporary and only last a little while. I'm actually feeling better today, despite a visit from my mom yesterday. She came over yesterday to visit with the kids and while she was here we had a conversation that made me cringe. It went like this:

Her: "So have you given anymore thought about having the surgery that I had(gastric bypass)?"
Me: :eek: "Uh, No. I'm not having surgery. I'll just calorie count and do it that way."
Her: "Well, you're probably going to regret that later in life!"
Me: Thanks for the vote of confidence, mom!!"
Her: Well, very few people actually keep the weight off. "
Me: o_Oo_Oo_O

My mother, people. Seriously, I can't roll my eyes enough when it comes to her. lol! Today is a new day though, and I'm going to try to focus on having a fun night out with my hubby and kids. :)
 
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O wow, your mom´s quite special, isn´t she? Sounds like you making it without surgery makes her feel inadequate. Which is rubbish; it´s hard work even with surgery. Don´t let it get you down, you´re way too awesome for that.
 
Yeah, I was really surprised when I read up on lap band surgery and similar procedures and saw just how many rules and regulations go along with it. It sounds like more work than just dieting and exercising! :eek:
 
Thanks, everyone! Yeah, she's a real gem for sure! I could go on and on about how "special" she is. haha!


So, I woke up this morning around 5 o'clock from a phone call from some weird number I'd never seen before, so I ignored it and went back to sleep. I get up at 6:30 and get the kids up. Then my daughter says one of her friends texted her and said there was no school. I look outside, and it looks perfectly fine. I was like..."Uh, there's school. Finish getting ready." Like, I'm going to take a 13 year old's word on that. lol! Then I remember the weird phone call(most likely it was a robocall from the school), check my messages... no messages. Get on facebook, didn't see anything about it on there. So I check the news site...... No school. *sigh* Apparently our secondary roads are covered in ice. I so love getting up and ready for no reason. :rolleyes: Usually the school calls if there's no school, but they always leave a message, so I'm not sure what happened there. At least I didn't get as far as actually TAKING them to school. haha!


The weekend went ok. I was around 1500 calories both days. I didn't get my steps in yesterday though, because I spent most of the day with my butt planted firmly on the couch. It was a lazy day, and I have no regrets. Today I want to stay around 1400 calories and get my steps in!
 
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