Jenny's Weight Journal

Gotta hit the bottom before you rise to the top! T2 is right, you will rise above it before you know it. You are doing great. You are up against some challenges most of us aren't facing & there is hope in sight. Just don't lose sight of it. :D
 
:santa:MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!:santa:


Hey all! I hope everyone is having a great christmas. It is 20 minutes until midnight. Santa came early this year at my house. Usually he comes christmas eve afternoon but due to my sister and her boyfriend having too many christmas parties to attend to santa decided to come to my house on the 23rd rather than the 24th. This is what I got. 2 outfits, sweater, dress shoes, apples to apples, apples to apples party pack, a desk lamp, a computer chair, a wireless keyboard and mouse, and a new cell phone.

The cell phone was a complete suprise. I didn't think I would get a new one until after the 1st of the year. My younger brother got his first phone 2 for christmas. They had it activated and charged and in a sack ready to go. When he opened it, my sister was calling his phone. So his present started ringing before he got to the phone. He was so suprised as was I. I then opened my phone thinking still that I wasn't going to get one for a while and I did get one. I was so happy.


Well I just wanted to wish everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS!NOW THOSE WHO ARE READING THIS GET TO BED...SANTA IS COMING AND IF YOU ARE NOT ASLEEP HE WON'T COME..LOL
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Sounds like someone has been REALLY GOOD this year! Nice haul. I love Apples to Apples!

Hope your body is rewarding you too & you are feeling much better, or at least back to normal. If not you know it takes time to get yourself healed. Hang in there.
 
Sounds like someone has been REALLY GOOD this year! Nice haul. I love Apples to Apples!

Hope your body is rewarding you too & you are feeling much better, or at least back to normal. If not you know it takes time to get yourself healed. Hang in there.

yes i have been really good :Angel_anim: I absolutely love my gifts. Yes apples to apples is so much fun. In fact me and my family just got done playing a game. Last night we had my Dad's family christmas at my house and I got 10 people to play at once. I figured we would play for and hour and be done...but nope...it went on for 3 hours! One person would quit and another would join. We almost got through every car including the expansion decks...that's a lot of cards!

Yes my body is getting better. Not weight wise yet...but my knee is. I had PT today and they did a progress report. They compared my bad knee to my good knee in flexion and extension. When I started PT 2 weeks ago I had 13 degrees difference in the flexion between both knees now there is only 4 which is great. There was about 6 degrees difference in extension. You are suppose to have 0 degrees for extension and I was at 1.5. So I have been improving. There is still some swelling but the pain is pretty much gone. If it does bother me it's because it is stiff not sore.

I discovered the other day that I can go up and down a full flight of stairs without pain. Going up is still a little hard because of it's stiffness. But the pain is gone so that is the best part.
 
Good afternoon. I hope everyone is finding themselves well today. I'm doing good. Yesterday I had PT. And they did my progress report. The swelling in my knee has gone down considerably. I have twice as much flextion and extension in my knee than I did 2 weeks ago. I am so happy about that.

I have been thinking about my birthday a lot lately. It is in about a month and I will be turning 20. I remember last year around my birthday I have found this website and join. I had figured by now I would have lost a bunch of weight but instead I am 8lbs heavier. But there is a lot of reasoning behind it. Now that I have gotten my knee taken care of maybe by my 21st birthday I will be in a healthy range for my weight.

I can't believe it has been a year already. It still feels like yesterday to me. Time flies why to fast. Don't you wish you could just hit the pause button on life and catch your breath.
 
Time flies why to fast. Don't you wish you could just hit the pause button on life and catch your breath.

Oh do I ever!

Just think of all the knowledge you have gained in the past year. Sets up the stage to really get healthy after that knee heals. & I imagine you would have gained more if you hadn't maintained that healthy. I say pat yourself on the back & be happy for all you have achieved.
 
Hi Jenn :)

Glad to see your outlook is positive. What a great way to bag an old year and vault into a new one.

Keep that glow about yourself as the pages on the calendar turn :)
 
Hey all...today i need to post. I need to rant. Friday night I went out with my best friend. She said some things infront of her other friends (people that I really don't know) about me. Now when all of this took place it was like 2:30 in the morning and I was an hour from home. I wasn't about ready to yell at my best friend. I was scared of how she would react and leave me stranded an hour from my home. Now most of my family have bad opinions about my best friend. I understand there reasons and I'm not sure even why I can still be friends with her. She was pretty much my only really good friend through high school and the last 9 months of being friends with her has been really hard.

Right now I am avoiding her. Not answering her phone calls or text messages. Right now it looks like I will have nothing to do for new years. I am just so mad with her and she doesn't even realize and understand why. I have tried to explain my feelings about the subject to her but it just goes in one ear and out the other.

I am soon to be 20 and have yet to have a real boyfriend. My best friend doesn't think this is good and has been trying really hard to hook or set me up with some guy. And a lot of these guys are not good at all. (drugs, drinking, disrespectful) you name it and that's the type of guy. She doesn't understand when I tell her that I am willing to wait for a great guy. I just don't want to date a guy for the sake of having a boyfriend. I want something real something meaningfull. I told her that I am not going to go out there and purposely look for a boyfriend, if God wants me to have a boyfriend then it will happen when it happens. My best friend thinks it is some great accomplishment to have dated 3 different guys in the past year and kissed 12 different boys in the past 2. She won't discuss her sex life with me because she know's my opinion on it and doesn't want to bother with it.

But what really pushed me over the edge this weekend is when she said that I will be a 40 year old virgin. That I am too impatient to have a boyfriend. That I am to damn picky then it comes to guys.

i'm sorry. i just don't want to be dating some random guy for 2 months that is going to disrespect me and hurt me in the end! I am better than that. I deserve better than that. And if I have to wait till i'm 40 to find it then so be it!!!!

This is only part of the conversation that went on that night. I want to yell at her and tell her how I feel I just don't know how I am going to do it.


If anyone out there reading this has any advice for me I am all ears. I'm at the end of my rope on this one. I have no clue on what to do or say.....
 
Man is my heart pumping lol...

I just finished 10 minutes of cardio. I would have done the full 15 minutes but my legs were just too sore.

This is what I have done today..

10 minutes of cardio
100 sittups
20 push ups
20 butt ups
20 bicep curls
20 side arms
 
Happy New Year!!!

Wow it's 2008....

yesterday was kind of a no go on exercise except for my PT appointment. I went out and celebrated the new year with my sister and her boyfriend and his friends and family. That was a lot of fun.

Today...well acutally the past 30 minutes I got some exercising in.

20 pushups
20 inner thigh squeezes
20 butt ups
100 sittups
10 minutes of cardio
20 bicep curls (3lb dumbell)
20 neutral arm curls (3lb dumbell)
20 tricep curls (3lb dumbell)

My home PT exercises

and I did my hamstring stretches

so 30 minutes of exercising for the day. I would have loved to go out and walk or ride a bike...but considering that it is snowing, below freezing, windy, and 4 inches of snow...I think that isn't going to happen for quite a while.

I am so happy. Every time I exercise now my knee doesn't bother me. Yes it is still a little bit stiff from surgery but the pain is gone...completely gone. God it feels so good to beable to exercise and not have any pain.


While I was out of comission due to my knee and also with being so stressed out from school I started up an old hobby of my...painting. I have completed 4 paintings since the begining of december and I am currently working on my forth. I figured I could show all of you the artist in me. Enjoy!
 
Hey all...today i need to post. I need to rant. Friday night I went out with my best friend. She said some things infront of her other friends (people that I really don't know) about me. Now when all of this took place it was like 2:30 in the morning and I was an hour from home. I wasn't about ready to yell at my best friend. I was scared of how she would react and leave me stranded an hour from my home. Now most of my family have bad opinions about my best friend. I understand there reasons and I'm not sure even why I can still be friends with her. She was pretty much my only really good friend through high school and the last 9 months of being friends with her has been really hard.

Right now I am avoiding her. Not answering her phone calls or text messages. Right now it looks like I will have nothing to do for new years. I am just so mad with her and she doesn't even realize and understand why. I have tried to explain my feelings about the subject to her but it just goes in one ear and out the other.

I am soon to be 20 and have yet to have a real boyfriend. My best friend doesn't think this is good and has been trying really hard to hook or set me up with some guy. And a lot of these guys are not good at all. (drugs, drinking, disrespectful) you name it and that's the type of guy. She doesn't understand when I tell her that I am willing to wait for a great guy. I just don't want to date a guy for the sake of having a boyfriend. I want something real something meaningfull. I told her that I am not going to go out there and purposely look for a boyfriend, if God wants me to have a boyfriend then it will happen when it happens. My best friend thinks it is some great accomplishment to have dated 3 different guys in the past year and kissed 12 different boys in the past 2. She won't discuss her sex life with me because she know's my opinion on it and doesn't want to bother with it.

But what really pushed me over the edge this weekend is when she said that I will be a 40 year old virgin. That I am too impatient to have a boyfriend. That I am to damn picky then it comes to guys.

i'm sorry. i just don't want to be dating some random guy for 2 months that is going to disrespect me and hurt me in the end! I am better than that. I deserve better than that. And if I have to wait till i'm 40 to find it then so be it!!!!

This is only part of the conversation that went on that night. I want to yell at her and tell her how I feel I just don't know how I am going to do it.


If anyone out there reading this has any advice for me I am all ears. I'm at the end of my rope on this one. I have no clue on what to do or say.....


I think friendships can sometimes be hard and taxing. It's like any relationship. You come to a point where you realize that there are certain things that you may or may not share the same values on. I applaud you for having enough self respect to hold out for a good guy. Despite what other people may tell you, that's the way it's supposed to be done.

The thing with women in their 20s, and I have to say this because I've been there, it seems that everyone is searching for a mate/partner either consciously or unconsciously. It makes sense biologically and socially. I mean, the early part of my 20s were spent clubbing in Hollywood and dating all the time. So it was for most of my girlfriends too. And it seems that because dating and getting to know potential love interests is what society seems to expect us to do, for some women it's hard for them to understand a different method than theirs.

Your friend is playing a method I like to call the numbers game. Also known as "you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince." She wants you to play this game too and is probably frustrated with you that you're not. This frustration is probably what drove her to talk to other people about you, which doesn't excuse it, but explains it.

I suggest that once you understand her perspective you go to her and honestly lay out how you feel about the specific issues you're having. Address them one by one saying something like "<insert friend's name here> I wanted to talk to you about what happened the other night. It really bothered me that you were talking about me and personal information about me to other people. I felt like you were betraying my trust and disrespecting me by talking about me like that. I hope you can understand why I would feel that way and that you won't continue to do so." And I would probably flat out address the difference in dating approaches like this "I know that you want me to meet and date guys but you need to understand that you are my friend even though we don't deal with dating and guys in the same way but doesn't mean I don't care about you and respect you. I just want you to respect me and my method of dealing with men."

Now, if you really do look down on her for her method of dealing with men or if she can't respect how you approach dating without disrespecting you, then there's an entirely different friendship issue here.

That's all the advice I have to give. Let me know how it goes.
 
hey hey all!

Not much is going on around here. I went to PT today and then babysat my cousin for a few hours.

At PT they worked me hard. They thought my exercises were getting a bit to easy for me so they kicked it up a few steps. I went to do some exercising tonight and when I went to do my cardio I about fell over from the tightness of my leg muscles. So I decided to leave out the cardio for today and give my legs a rest. But this is what I did manage to do...

100 sittups
20 pushups
20 buttups
20 inner thigh squeezes
20 bicep curls
20 neutral cruls
20 tricep curls

maybe 5 mintues of cardio before my legs started to give out on me.

At PT they have me use 2 different machines to do squats. Well I was up to about 25 of them with both legs. Since the thought it was getting to easy for me that had me the 25 with both and then another 15 with just my left leg to really work my knee. I have PT on friday and then Next week is my final week! With graduating from PT I will get 30 free days at the gym next door (they share the same building). Plus I will have the gym at my school if that is any good lol.

Well that's all for now!!
 
Hey all just doing a little exercise log and weigh in log here...

Exercise Log so far:
100 sittups w/ 4lb medicine ball
10 (both legs) inner thigh stretch **new exercise
Free weight training

Weigh-in:
199lbs
 
I think friendships can sometimes be hard and taxing. It's like any relationship. You come to a point where you realize that there are certain things that you may or may not share the same values on. I applaud you for having enough self respect to hold out for a good guy. Despite what other people may tell you, that's the way it's supposed to be done.

The thing with women in their 20s, and I have to say this because I've been there, it seems that everyone is searching for a mate/partner either consciously or unconsciously. It makes sense biologically and socially. I mean, the early part of my 20s were spent clubbing in Hollywood and dating all the time. So it was for most of my girlfriends too. And it seems that because dating and getting to know potential love interests is what society seems to expect us to do, for some women it's hard for them to understand a different method than theirs.

Your friend is playing a method I like to call the numbers game. Also known as "you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince." She wants you to play this game too and is probably frustrated with you that you're not. This frustration is probably what drove her to talk to other people about you, which doesn't excuse it, but explains it.

I suggest that once you understand her perspective you go to her and honestly lay out how you feel about the specific issues you're having. Address them one by one saying something like "<insert friend's name here> I wanted to talk to you about what happened the other night. It really bothered me that you were talking about me and personal information about me to other people. I felt like you were betraying my trust and disrespecting me by talking about me like that. I hope you can understand why I would feel that way and that you won't continue to do so." And I would probably flat out address the difference in dating approaches like this "I know that you want me to meet and date guys but you need to understand that you are my friend even though we don't deal with dating and guys in the same way but doesn't mean I don't care about you and respect you. I just want you to respect me and my method of dealing with men."

Now, if you really do look down on her for her method of dealing with men or if she can't respect how you approach dating without disrespecting you, then there's an entirely different friendship issue here.

That's all the advice I have to give. Let me know how it goes.

Yeah, what Lana said!

Now is the time to focus on you. I know you're struggling with your knee and trying to lose weight, why throw the stress of having to deal with a boy? Focus on becoming the best you you can be because the guy you're waiting for is focused on himself as well becoming the best man he can be and when the time is right you'll meet.
 
Great job on the workout!

How did things end up with your friend?

Ty for the advice. I haven't really decided what I am going to do yet. Right now I am giving us both space. I want to be calm and collected when I talk to her about it. Being upset and angry all at once going into a conversation like that isn't a good idea. But I will let you know what happens when it happens.

I think she realizes that I am mad at her because she won't call me or talk to me online so maybe she is giving me space to cool down with...idk. we'll see.

Yeah, what Lana said!

Now is the time to focus on you. I know you're struggling with your knee and trying to lose weight, why throw the stress of having to deal with a boy? Focus on becoming the best you you can be because the guy you're waiting for is focused on himself as well becoming the best man he can be and when the time is right you'll meet.

Very true I completely agree with the 2 of you.
 
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