Jenny's Weight Journal

jennbabe06

jennbabe06

New member
Current Weight: 194lbs
Current Pant Sixe: 16-17
Shirt Size: Large-XL

Well today has been quite interesting. Every time I ate something my mind was running wild like is this ok? can I eat this? Then I thought to myself that as long as I control my portions and up my water in-take then I should not stress so much over what I am putting into my mouth. Yes I will have to cut down on pop and junk food. That's a no brainer. But I really don't ever pig out...only when I am really upset do I binge. So as of right now I will do exercise and portion control for my dieting. If I notice I am not getting the results I want then I can simply change something.

My parents when to the grocery store tonight. They bought me some healthier foods which is good and I am happy that they did. But they also bought a lot of junk food...or atleast some of our favorites that I too like to snack on. It kinda makes me mad that they brought such food home when they knew what I am trying to do. My mom plans to be creative this week in meals that she is gonna make for super...i don't think they are healthy plans either. This is going to be difficult. I am going to have to fight through my desire for all of my favorite foods that I know I really shouldn't have. My mom made chicken alfrado tonight...like an hour after I ate a salad and a turkey sub. She's like....jenny come eat...you want some chicken alfrado. I'm like mom I just ate...she gives me the look and says ok.

Why is it that parents must be so frustrating during this hard and trying time for me??? I know my family wants to be supportive...but it almost seems like they are preparing for me to fail in a few weeks like I did the last time...

I did my work out today...my inner thighs really hurt right now. I told my mom and dad that I will be complaining of my legs hurting for the next few days because of my new workout....I also told them to get use to it because I'm not sure how long it will all last. I am going to do a few more situps and push ups tonight...I got to keep moving is what I have been telling myself. I can't let myself get tight. I need to keep lose and energized so that tomorrow I can do it all over again.

Well that's it for now...who knows maybe I will add more as the night progresses...the night is sill young...
 
Heya's Jen,
Welcome and goodluck to ya! Maybe remind
your parents that you are trying to eat healthier and trying to
lose weight.I have a hubby that at 1st would offer pizza and
going out to eat and such and I had to remind him that I was
dieting but after a while it got easier.Weight Watchers makes
an awesome chciken fettuchini alfredo and I add reduce parmesan
cheese and yummy 330 cals 9 fat! Well Have a nice night and good
luck,Tammy:)
 
good afternoon

I think I am going to call this my second day into my fight for a better and healthier me. The day I choose to do it was half over with so I don't want to count that as a full day into this. When I went to bed last night I was sore from the day's exercise that I had did. I slept really good...better than I have in weeks. I woke up earlier than normal. I think it was because I was so ache that I needed to get up and move around. This morning I ate cereal with skim milk believe it or not. I use to hate using skim milk. But in all reality skim milk isn't that bad at all. Last night I went to the chat room where I met a nice girl that is trying to gain weight rather than lose it. While talking to her I realized once again that I give out great advice to others, but I am horrible at following it.:eek: I saw even more before and after pictures last night and I feel really inspired to get that. I want that after picture not just the before picture. Last night I also talked to one of my good friends. She asked me what I was up to and I told her about posting on this forum. I told her about being 194lbs my heaviest weight ever. I told her how scared I was when I saw that bip number pop out at me. She told me that she was proud of me and that she can't wait for me to be happy and healthy. She was the first person I have really talked to about my weight. I mean I've talked to my mom and dad about it, but I haven't told them how much I weight. I am scared to. I'm affarid to tell them because I don't want them to be ashamed of me because of that big number. When I start to shed the pounds and get closer to my goal and show my mom and dad my before and after pics...then I will tell them how bad it had really gotten. Then will I tell them that I was sorry for letting myself get that way. Then I will tell myself I am sorry for getting that way and that I will never do it again.

This new path is going to be hard for me. But I will make it to the end. And at the end of that path will be other paths. If I keep at this I will never go astray from the happy and healthy path.
 
Weight is something that happens to a lot of us. We weren't taught to eat right and other factors come in. All in all you are a person and what you look like shouldn't be something you are ashamed of. You should try to do better. And that you are looking at yourself and wanting to do better is the best start. Then just stick with it. All kinds of things will come between you and your goal to be thinner. You make choices everyday. Some will be good others will not. But there is no such thing as fail, when you do better next time around. Welcome to the forum!!:)
 
Welcome!

Try to keep in mind that if you are able to lose weight and then maintain a healthy weight while living at home with parents then you can keep it off forever!

Try not to work out too hard. Cardio workouts are best for losing weight, and you don't need to go so overboard that it really hurts. You might feel a little tight the next day, but it shouldn't hurt to the point of needing to complain about it. If it hurts that bad then you probably won't stick with it for very long.

If you don't mind me asking, how old are you? And how tall are you?

You're doing great - keep it up!
 
You're blessed to have youth on your side to nip this in the bud early in life. Obesity over time only makes it that much harder to fix and in some case irreparable. Dedicate one good year of effort to enjoy a lifetime is a fair trade.

I wish you well on your way to an improved lifestyle.


Great post Llamabean.
 
This afternoon I did my exercise. I felt the burn in my abs and inner thighs (which is a good sign to me) I'm not as sore and achey as i was before. My mom and dad came home this afternoon and we started to watch some old home videos (my dad is converting them into dvds before they get broke). We were watching my mom's family christmas from 2000. 6-7 years ago! I saw me who was in the 6th grade at the time and I'm like look at me....wow was I skinny. My mom and dad asked me what happend to her what happened to that skinny happy girl. We talked a little bit about me gaining weight after my freshman year. We've determined it was a mixture of things that caused me gain so much weight. A.)I stopped playing basketball and didn't replace it with something else. 2.) I was sexually harassed by another student my freshman year on my birthday and the school principal did nothing about it. 3.)I was depressed and let everyone's rude comments get to me and resorted to my comfort food and binged.

I think my parents are still unsure whether or not if I will win my battle with my weight this time around. I have tried multiple times and have failed. It's just so hard to talk to them about this. They want to understand what I am going through and how I feel on the topic, but there is no way they will ever know what it is truely like. I just can't seem to get through to them what I have all been through in high school. Yes I was depressed...but why I was is still kinda unknown. Trying to open up to my parents about my issues is hard...and it's even harder when I am not opening up to myself. I have come a long way in the past year. I'm not so self aware of comments and looks. I don't let people bother me like they use to. Now that I have that part of my like undercontrol it's time for me to start gaining control of my body. I keep realizing that it is going to take time for me to lose weight...which is fine...but it is also going to take time for me to discuss such an issue with my parents without it ending in a fight or me feeling like they just don't understand.

My 19th birthday is coming up here on the 31st. I would of never imagined myself being this big on my 19th birthday 9 years ago. Being overweight was not part of my future plans. By my 20th birthday things will be different. When I turn 20 I will be a new me.
 
I'm putting my before pictures with my journal so that they are easier to find...so once again...here goes nothing...lmao
 
The true you starts today.

No waiting a year for that true you to shine through :)
Yes, the you of today has a bit more weight on it then you'd like, but you're working to change that.

It's one day at a time, but never put off until tomorrow what you can start living, believing and enjoying today!

And while you're working towards getting to that outward physical goal, just take it one day at a time :D
 
So far today I have done my exercise. I have done 160 sittups today!!! I plan to make it to 300 if at all possible today...if I do half of the sittups in the morning and half in the evening I think I would like working out a lot better.

Now to my eating habbits. Like I said I am not going to count calories...I've done that before and it didn't seem to fit me altough it does work. I figure that if I eat healthier would be enough. I have once again given up driking pop. I did that back in November and went a whole month with out having one. I use to have 2-3 per day and since I gave it up the first time I am down to 1 a day if any. So now I am once again giving it up all togther. When it comes to meal time I think I am going to try and eat a lot of small meals rather than 3 big ones. I tend to get hungry between meals and snack a lot! So if i have a small meal every 2-3 hours I will be good to go.

So far today I have had:
Cereal w/ skim milk,
a salad w/ fat free ranch and some grapes,
and a turkey sandwich with very little mayo on wheat bread and a few grapes.
++++a lot of water!

My exercise has been:
using my gymball
-sittups (160)-reps of 20
-squats (40)
-lunges (20)....i have a bad knee so these are really hard
-some weight lifting for my arms
-push ups (20) i suck at push ups...even with the help of the gymball
-hoovers (20) these are like push ups but they are on your forearms rather than you hands...very hard to do.

Well I am off to my math class for the evening...i have math class on tues. and thurs. in the evening (5:30~7:30) and 2 day classes on mon. and wed.
 
jennbabe06 said:
I mean I've talked to my mom and dad about it, but I haven't told them how much I weight. I am scared to. I'm affarid to tell them because I don't want them to be ashamed of me because of that big number. When I start to shed the pounds and get closer to my goal and show my mom and dad my before and after pics...then I will tell them how bad it had really gotten. Then will I tell them that I was sorry for letting myself get that way. Then I will tell myself I am sorry for getting that way and that I will never do it again.
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Honey you need to share with your parents… it will help them understand what you are trying to do. Your parents are always going to see you as their little girl and not realize what you are going thru right now. When I told my family that I wanted to lose weight they were like “Why? You are not overweight!” I was like “Are you blind?” It seems like those who love us do not see the weight…

Please don’t be hard on yourself… it is a destructive behavior. You have to love yourself regardless of your size.

jennbabe06 said:
My mom and dad asked me what happend to her what happened to that skinny happy girl. We talked a little bit about me gaining weight after my freshman year. We've determined it was a mixture of things that caused me gain so much weight. A.)I stopped playing basketball and didn't replace it with something else. 2.) I was sexually harassed by another student my freshman year on my birthday and the school principal did nothing about it. 3.)I was depressed and let everyone's rude comments get to me and resorted to my comfort food and binged.
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Gaining weight is a defensive mechanism. It is our way of putting a barrier between us and the world. But sometimes in our effort to protect ourselves, we actually imprison ourselves. I have no idea what you went thru but it is readily apparent that you are still in pain.

I am glad that you are being so proactive! You should be very proud of yourself!! There are people 2 and 3 times your age that do not have the courage to do what you are doing and that is taking back control of your life!!

You can do this!!

Michelle
 
Thanks Michelle for your advice I will take that into consideration.:)

I went to math class for tonight and now I am home. I made myself a grilled cheese sandwich and tomato soup. I have been drinking lots of water since I posted last. I am now going to watch the new season of american idol on fox and do more sittups as I watch it.

Hope you all are having a great evening:)
 
GOOD MORNING! It is 6:24am and I am up and getting ready to go to class. Man am I tired. I just wanted to wish everyone a good morning and wish you all good luck for another day into our battle against weight. I will post throughout the day if I have time.:)

Jenny
 
Good Morning Jenny! I watched Idol last night too... it is so funny. I can never tell if the people seriously think that they can sing or not. I mean come on!!! Tonight is supposed to be even crazier!

Have a great day!

Michelle
 
I am sitting here at school between classes with nothing to do. I sorta wish I was at home so that I could be doing my sittups or something with my gymball. I have a long break between 9 till 1:30...I just might have to find a gym or something to go to...not sure what my school's "rec" center is like. I might have to check it out. I go to a local college and I commute to school every other day so our "rec" center isn't like those big campus' big centers...no indoor pool or anying.

My alarm went off this morning at 6am and I ended up hitting the snooze 2 times be for I got up. I did my normal morning things and did 80 sittups this morning. I ate some cereal with skim milk again. I drove to school at 7am....got here around 7:30~7:40ish...class at 8am till 9...then my long break. I ate a few grapes and a turkey sandwich on wheat bread ...one of my small meals for today. I packed my lunch...I have a salad with fat free ranch...but I don't know if I will eat it or not. I signed up for this 1 hour crockpot cooking class for today last week sometime and so we get a free meal in this class. The class starts at like 12:30 so I have a little time before I must run off.
 
You are doing great. If you have time, grab some books or magazines at the library on diet and fitness. They are a huge help and motivation for me. Good luck!
 
Triva question for you all.....

Thanks amy I will have to try that out!

I just realized that I turn 19 in two weeks!!! 14 days...wow...my how time passes so quickly...

Oh a little triva question for you all....

There is a famous Children's book writer out there that has been around for many many many years. One of his most well known characters from one of my favorite books/movies that is turning 50 years old on my birthday which is January 31st!! In the book his character looks like he could be really old already but he is still one of the most on going children book characters today....any guesses??:confused: :confused:
 
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