JennyBear...day by day....

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And so it begins! One small thing at a time will change bad habits to good ones....to look at the big picture is scary.

A short first entry for me as it's late and I have big plans for tomorrow!
 
so a bit of a later start this morning than I had anticipated, better though than in weeks past.

I moved to PEI, Canada from Ontario in August of 06. I moved there all alone running away from a bad relationship (during which the beginning of the weight snuck on) that ended terribly. In retrospect probably not the best move. I was alone and emotional and didn't know anyone where I lived. I worked a lot and got home late. This led to a lot of lunches on the road ie McFood and late dinners when I was hungry enough to eat my own arm...the last meal of the day was substantial to say the least.

I moved home to Ontario a couple of months ago and have found myself not wanting to see friends and family because I'm ashamed of the weight that I have gained. I have more or less become a loaner. Happy, outgoing, social me has barely left the house since I moved home.

I have never had to lose a significant amount of weight. I look back at pictures where at the time I thought I could lose a few pounds and find myself wishing that I could have that back now.

I have at least 60lbs to lose but my thoughts are only on what I can do today. If I think of the journey I already want to quit so all I can do is think about the choices I make today.
 
Prince Edward island - isnt that where anne of green gables lived? :D

welcome to the forum and to your diary... much success in getting to your goals.

moved home to Ontario a couple of months ago and have found myself not wanting to see friends and family because I'm ashamed of the weight that I have gained. I have more or less become a loaner. Happy, outgoing, social me has barely left the house since I moved home.
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People who are your friends love you for who you are... while you have to be happy with yourself - don't hide from those people just because you've gained a few pounds - those who really matter won't see it anyhow... and having some activity and socialness might help you on your quest.
 
I definitely understand. When I was going to my last university, I barely ate anything and got down to 160 pounds. When I moved back to my hometown, I ballooned back up to 187 from home cooking. For the first few weeks, I was embarrassed to go back to my old university and visit because everyone was used to seeing me so skinny...(Yeah, 160 is skinny to me...)

If I think of the journey I already want to quit so all I can do is think about the choices I make today.
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Great attitude! :cheers2:
 
Thanks very much to both of you!! I knew this forum would be good for me!! I know my friends would never think poorly of me....it's more my own issue with it. I have always been the fit, hot friend...now I'm the chunky funny girl...just not comfortable in my own skin.

Today has been a really good day so far...hiked 2 trails and went to the dog park with my pooch. I'm home for a couple of hours and then off to the gym!
 
My whole body hurts. My bedroom is down stairs and today I feared I may be trapped in the basement! Lower body workout yesterday with cardio was a success! Seriously though...I'm sore but that satisfying sore...not the oh crap over did it sore...I feel good enough to do it all over today but with upper body weights today. Sadly abs every day. :doh:

Post breakfast, pre workout, today is a good day!
 
Have had a great food day so far....but am bloomin' starving!!! I didn't get the way that I am with a lot of chips and chocolate...I am a portion eater. To me a meal isn't finished until I'm stuffed so I imagine these feelings of starvation are completely normal but can anyone tell me when they start to subside?? I realize that today is only day 2 and that it takes your body time to adjust to the new food intake but who knows how long????

My diet isn't anything outrageous just smaller portions of slightly healthier foods and a couple of healthy snacks in between....meals consist of a protein, small amount of a healthy carb, and veggies...snacks are fruit, seeds, nuts...things of that nature....

I am on my way to the gym shortly and will have to close my eyes while passing pretty much anywhere that sells food and perhaps any fresh roadkill as well! Wish me luck!
 
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