Janvier's Weight loss Diary

Hey Janvier,
It's been such a long time. I really do miss you.... It seems like you've had a rough go at it. Believe me I understand. My sister once stole checks out of my checkbook and wrote bad checks on me. I was so out done by that situation but we found our way back to a place of love and understanding (it took some time). I hope things get better for you. I am still struggling with my weight but I will also continue to fight this battle as long as I can. Chat with you later.


Theresa! I miss you too! Your post made me feel so much better knowing that you have been through a similar experience with your sister! It feels horribe to have your own sister do something like that. But its nice to hear that you both came to an understanding about it, I'm not sure that it will be the case for my sister and I because I don't think she is sorry about it, I think she was just sorry that she got caught. Lets fight this weight loss battle together, its so good to hear from you!
 
So Yesterday went fairly well, I ate really well all day, no cheating, no cravings which was new since I've been craving everything under the sun lately, but I was extreamly cranky after work, I have no idea why, but I had no desire to workout so I just went home, made my lunch for today and went to bed, I must have been really tired because I went to bed early and slept in by accident this morning, so I haven't worked out once for the week yet which isn't a good start but i plan to push myself to workout tonight. I'm so glad the biggest loser is back, last night I think it was Jillian that was saying no matter how your feeling, if your tired or hungry and not in a good mood you still need to be pushing youself and I think thats true and I need to keep pushing myself to workout and do well no matter what or how i'm feeling because I know in the long run I am happiest when I eat healthy because I feel healthy and I truly do love working out, it makes me happy to see how far i've come and I will be happy when I love my body and have confidence because of what I have accomplished. So to make a long story short I plan to kick my own butt tonight. I'm doing well so far today foodwise and plan to keep it up all day, here is what it looks like:

Breakfast: 1/2 cup scrambled egg whites and ff yogurt

Snack: 1 cup of cantolope and

Lunch: uncle bens bistro express rice

Snack: 3/4 cup of cheerios

Dinner: Lean cusine with steamed veggie

Workout: stepper and turbo jam

I hope everyone is having a great Wednesday!
 
I forgot that I finally have a picture to post from my trip to Vegas in August, i'm pretty much the same weight there that I am now, i'm just crazy tanned in the picture. I put a before pic in for comparison, it was from almost 2 years ago now.
 
Oh my god, you are GORGEOUS. I had a picture of what I thought you looked like in my head and just..no. You're SO pretty! (Not that I didn't think you were pretty in my mind--Just not *that* pretty!!)

And that dress is beautiful!
 
Janvier! Its' been so long, for the both of us! I don't get many posts in my journal, so I neglect it alot, especially since I have been doing awful lately. I came in here today, and I see that you are back and I am so happy that you are. Your picture looks so good! I love your dress! I know what you mean by seeing your journal and everything written down helps to keep you accountable. I am so upset with myself. I have been losing so slowly, and now when I'm finally seeing so much progress, I screw it up.
 
Wow, I haven't been here since the begining November??? That's pretty ridiculous! I miss all of you lovely ladies and I miss this site, it's so much easier to stay on track when you have others who are trying to reach the same goals are you and who are there to motivate you.
Work has been so crazy and stressful and has been preventing me from being on here, my boss and I used to get a long so well and now we can hardly stand the sight of eachother and it's making my days long and irritating and very difficult to stay motivated and I am SUCH an emotional eater. But I have new hours and I am going to try my best to make updating a new morning routine when I come in because I really should be putting myself and my goals first in my life. So, update...in mid November I met a great guy!! (finally!!! :hurray:) His name is Morgan, he is from Ireland and is here for a year for work, he's a sweetheart and we have been pretty attached by the hip since we've met. He's been a great confidence boost as well, after the first few dates he said that when he first noticed me he notice my "amazing body" and it was shocking to me, it was like who me :confused:??? I haven't heard that since some 15 year old said it to me in the 9th grade!!! The downfall of it all? My eating sucks because his eating sucks and my workouts are inconsantant if not nonexistant because I'm always so tired from spending time with him or because the stress from work just makes me want to curl up into a ball in bed. Now the last thing I want is to let myself forget all of the hard work I've done and let myself go just because someone new is in my life and I have somewhat explained how important a healthy lifestyle is to me and told him I can't keep eating out and I have to make workouts a priority but what I haven't explained that I used to be extreamly overweight and unhealthy and therefore this is a huge thing for me to be commited to and that I need to continue my journey to reach my goals. I am pretty terrified of being judged and I'm not sure if I should be telling him that or not.
I hate that I'm not the weight I was this time last year, I'm probably 138lbs right now and last year this time I was 123!!! I feel so disgusted by that :puke: and I feel like I'm never going to get back there, I wasn't as happy as I should of been about my weight then but I was soooo happy when I would go to a store and it seemed like everything fit just right, I had never had that before and now allll of my clothes are so tight, jeans that were too baggy can't even zip up! I'm trying not to let the numbers consume me and not get depressed about it but I really really need to get it under control before I let it slip too far away from me, so I really want to put in the effort to turn this year around, reach my goals and maintain them. I can't wait to catch up with you girls and join in on all of the hard work. Hope your all well and I miss you all!!
 
Good to see you again Janvier! And how exciting to hear you met someone new! I knew you would - no doubt about it! Looking forward to seeing you get back to it and posting more too! I'm sure your new friend would love to hear all about where you were and how you worked hard to get where you are now - don't ever be ashammed or embarassed because you accomplished so much and should be really proud. Let him know it's important to you and he will understand. Good luck and good to see you back!
 
Thank you Lisa! It's good to be back, I missed being on here, its so inspiring to be here, it makes me want to do well and keep up with everyone. Thank you for your advice, I agree with you, I shouldn't be ashamed because I think it changed me for the better, the sense of accomplishment and knowledge of how much better a healthy lifestyle is was worth the hard work. I'm going to gather the courage to tell him.

So yesterday went pretty well, I ate fairly well and worked out with my mom after work, we did her walk away the pounds dvd, the 4 mile version, its a little too mild for me but I was just happy to be moving, when it was over I ran on the tredmill for 6 minutes- I guess 6 minutes was all of the energy I had left. I was hungry after the workout and tried my best to keep my snack to a minimum and keep them healthy so I had a banana and a special k bar. Here is what my food for the day looked like:

B: FF yogurt and special k bar
S: apple sauce
L: egg salad sandwhich (I brought soup and it had gone bad so I had to buy the sandwhich)
S: 100 calorie pretzel pack and banana
D: Lean cusine and sauteed veggies
S: banana and special k bar

for today I have:

B: FF yogurt and 3/4 cup dry banana nut cheerios
S: apple sauce
L: beef and veggie soup
S: 100 calorie pretzel pack and banana
D: Lean cusine and steamed broccoli

I'm hoping to be on the tredmill and stepper during the biggest loser tonight, I haven't seen it since the new season started so I'm looking forward to it. During the christmas break I bought a book by Bob Harper and have been reading it everyday during my lunch break and love it, I'm hoping it builds my excitment to get back into the swing of things. Happy Tuesday everyone!
 
Yesterday had ups and downs, I had a few too many snacks yesterday, special k bar, small bowl of frosted flakes after dinner, one of those bite size halloween chocolates and then another small bowl of cereal after my workout :piggy:...The upside was that I did 70 minutes on the tredmill during the biggest loser, I walked at 3.8 and ran at 5.3 during all commercials and burned 500 calories which was probably my dinner so it was an okay day, could of been better or worse. I set my alarm to get up at 6am to work out but I couldn't pull myself out of bed, I think I woke up grumpy on top of it and I'm going to try not to let it drag my will power with food down, my grumpy mood usually has a big appetite. I have been soo hungry throughout the day lately and I think I need to start eating more protein in the morning to keep me fuller longer so I had some egg whites this morning and I'm hoping it does the trick. Heres what today looks like:

B: 3/4 cup of scrambled egg whites and FF yogurt
S: 3/4 cup of dry banana nut cheerios and an apple
L: chicken noodle soup
S: Vita muffin top (100 cals) and a banana
D: Lean cusine with steamed broccoli and coliflower
Workout:Tredmill and Turbo Jam

I feel like I used to be super motivated all the time and I'm struggling to find the motivation right now, hopefully I find it somewhere and soon! Happy Wednesday everyone!
 
I think the weather plays into our motivation too and it's been so cold and miserable lately and stays dark so late and gets dark so early - I'm sure once it starts to warm up a bit it will make things easier - I know it will for me anyway!
Workout looked good last night! Keep it up!
 
I think the weather plays into our motivation too and it's been so cold and miserable lately and stays dark so late and gets dark so early - I'm sure once it starts to warm up a bit it will make things easier - I know it will for me anyway!
Workout looked good last night! Keep it up!

I totally agree! The weather can be So discouraging! It's been cold and miserable here too and it just makes you want to stay in pajamas and watch tv all day- the warm weather makes it a lot easier, when its sunny out it makes you want to go out and enjoy it since its limited for us. Thanks for the support Lisa!

So I ended the week badly, I have been having soooo many cravings and had been having far too many snacks, not even really bad ones, just way too many healthy ones and that overly full feeling I had wasn't stopping me and it was making me too lazy to workout. My weekend wasn't too bad, on Friday I was exhausted and had my dinner in bed followed by a few pieces of dark chocolate that I could of done without and passed out early. I woke up at 4am and was sooo energetic I decided instead of just laying in bed wide awake I would put my enegry to good use and put on my workout clothes and did 40 minutes of turbo jam, 30 minutes of hip hop abs as well as some arm work with my 8lb dumbells, then showered and slept really well until about noon on Saturday. I ate really well all day, did a little grocery shopping and met Morgan in the evening, we were supposed to plan a healthy dinner- he's jumped on the healthy eating band wagon because he weighed himself and gained 5lbs in less then a month and wasn't happy with that- (btw- I talked to him about how much getting to my goal means to me and I told him how far I've come and he was really supportive and said that he will always be here to encourage me! He also talked me out of a few cravings when I was with him and scolded me for one I gave in to while he wasn't around!) instead we went home and laid around and decided to order pizza :piggy:, I had four slices and felt overly stuffed and pretty gross. I decided I wasn't eating badly on Sunday and made us a healthy breakfast which was actually lunch because it was 2pm, had a healthy dinner and went on my stepper for an hour so I feel better about the pizza. I bought the January issue of weight watcher magazine and read half of it while on the stepper and felt so motivated to rock this week. Its my birthday on Monday (January 31st) and want to wake up that morning not feeling puffy so I really want to kick my cravings to the curb this week and do well. I plan on reading the rest of the magazine on my lunch break and I am really considering joining weight watchers to keep myself accountable...the only issue is counting points will be a challenge for me since I'm so used to counting calories, I don't know if it will be too complicated but I think I need some help to get me to my goal weight and some help learning how to maintain. I also really want to join a gym but I want to find a 24 hour one. So I am excited for the day and plan to stick to my plans, here is what today looks like:

B- 1 packet of cream of wheat and ff yogurt
S- 1 cup of blueberries and 3/4 cup of dry banana nut cheerios
L- Progresso beef and veggie soup and 100 cals of pretzels
S- orange
D- Healthy choice frozen dinner and sautted cabbage
W- turbo jam and tredmill

Happy Monday everyone!
 
Yesterday was a perfect day!!! I stuck to my meal plan and workout 100% with the exception that I went on my stationary bike instead of the tredmill, first pefect day in weeks...maybe even a few months and it felt soooo good :hurray:!!! I even went grocery shopping after work to make sure I had lots of fruits, veggies and healthy snacks. I feel pumped for the rest of the week, I really want it to be a perfect week and that's what I'm going to aim for. Heres what today looks like:

B- 1 packet cream of wheat and ff yogurt
S- a pear and 3/4 cup of dry banana nut cheerios
L- Primo chicken and roasted veggy soup and 15 mini pretzels (100 cals)
S- banana, cucumber slices and 1 wedge of happy cow (?) cheese (22.5 calories and soooooo good!!!)
D- healthy choice frozen dinner, sauteed mushrooms and steamed broccoli
W- tredmill and stationary bike during the biggest loser
 
I'm feeling a great week in the works too!!
Good job on the perfect day yesterday!! I know the feeling! I'm excited for BL tonight too! Have a good one Janvier!:waving:
 
I'm feeling a great week in the works too!!
Good job on the perfect day yesterday!! I know the feeling! I'm excited for BL tonight too! Have a good one Janvier!:waving:

Thanks Lisa! We seem to have both been being really good this week and it feels that much better having you work hard with me this week!

So yesterday was pefect day number 2!! :hurray: I haven't been this pleased with myself in a long time and it feels so much better to have my eating under control and to be working out again. I have been trying to get up in the mornings to go on my stepper but I've bee so exhausted, maybe from putting so much energy into my workouts again is a little shocking to my body. But I stuck to my meal plan 100% yesterday and I did 30 minutes on my stationary bike and burned 220 calories, walked for 25 minutes on the tredmill and burned 155 calories and did 20 minutes of one of the P90X dvds, I couldn't do the whole hour, it was already late. I was feeling a little snackish after my shower and decided to make some sugar free hot apple cider instead of a snack which was only 15 calories, I was so proud of myself. I'm hoping to keep this week perfect, heres what I have planned:

B- 1/4 cup eggwhites with a spoon of salsa and 1 pack of cream of wheat
S- ff yogurt and a pear
L- primo chicken and veggie soup and 100 calories of pretzels
S- 3/4 cup of dry cheerios and a banana and cucumber slices
D- chicken and veggie stirfry
W- Turbo jam and finish the P90X workout I started last night
 
Nice work Janvier! It's so great to hear you feeling better and have you posting again! Working out is so great so why do we ever stop! Are you going to do Friday weigh-in's again? Just curious.
Have a great healthy day and I hope to hear day 3 was just as good as 2!!
 
Nice work Janvier! It's so great to hear you feeling better and have you posting again! Working out is so great so why do we ever stop! Are you going to do Friday weigh-in's again? Just curious.
Have a great healthy day and I hope to hear day 3 was just as good as 2!!

Thanks Lisa, I have been feeling better and it's good to be posting again, you're so right, why stop something that makes you feel so much better? I was actually thinking about Friday weigh-in's, I think it would be a good Idea to go back to them, I planned to for today but slept in and had to rush out the door this morning.

So unfortunately day 3 and 4 were not great. Neither was horrible but they didn't go as planned. On day 3 I had a doctors appointment and Morgan volunteered to go with me and to have a dinner date afterwards, I was up for it because I had plans of getting a salad, when we got there we were told it was date night at the restaurant and they had a date night special, you get an appetizer, 2 entres and desert for $50 which was pretty great so we got bruschetta to start, I had my salad with mixed greens, strawberries, goats cheese (which I put most of on Morgan's plate), grilled chicken and avacado- not too bad- and for desert we had a warm giant double chocolate cookie with vanilla ice cream :ack2:, the other choice was apple pie but it had walnuts in it and I'm allergic which I should of suggested we get and just let Morgan eat it, so I was bad with the cookie then went home and crashed...no workout. Yesterday was a crazy busy day at work and I didn't get a chance to post an update but I was trying to stay away all day, I have been so tired lately but I managed to eat well all day but I went home and fell asleep on the couch so no workout again. I plan to get a few good workouts in this weekened and I plan on eating well. Since it's my birthday on Monday I do want cake but this I will go for an angel food cake- its fat free- and I'll have it with fresh berries and fat free whipped cream. Heres what I have planned for today:

B- 1/4 cup of egg whites with a spoon of salsa and one packet of cream of wheat
S- a pear and 3/4 cup of dry banana nut cheerios
L- uncle bens bistro express rice and cucumber slices
S- 100 calories of pretzels and 1 wedge of laughing cow cheese (22.5 calories!)
D- chicken and veggie stirfry
S- if I need something the 100 calorie popcorn pack- I saw a good recipe to add a drizzle of honey, a sprinkle of chilli peper and salt for a sweet and spicy kick

Happy Friday everyone!!!
 
Work has been crazy and I haven't had time to do a full update so here it goes...

So it was my birthday weekend, on Friday I ate well all day, with the exception of 2 oatmeal cookies from subway that I could of done without, but Morgan surprised me with them and I felt bad turning them down. On Saturday I ate well all day, my best friend, Morgan and I went to a club that night and I drank too much, whisky with coke zero, red wine and cranberry vodka's, at around 4am we went and had pancakes :smash: then went home and slept through most of Sunday. I rolled out of bed around 1:30pm on Sunday and had oatmeal with about a 3/4 cup of frozen blueberries for lunch then went to dinner and had a steak salad which was sooo good, that was it, I considered the pancakes my breakfast. On Monday I had the day off for my actual birthday which was so nice, I made myself 1/2 a cup of egg whites, 2 all veggie breakfast sausages (80 calories for 2 and really yummy!) with a side of salsa and a 100 calorie bagel with one wedge of laughing cow cheese, for lunch I had a bowl of cheerios and dinner king crab legs with a side of baked sweet potato fries and for my birthday cake I had angel food cake with fresh strawberries and fat free whipped cream. So my weekend was okay, could of been better and could of been much worse. Yesterday was great, I forced myself out of bed in the morning and did 30 minutes on the stepper and burned 400 calories, ate well all day, no cheating :hurray: and during the biggest loser I did 34 minutes on the stepper (400 cals), 40 minutes on the tredmill walking between 3.5 and 3.8 at a 2.5 incline (235 calories), 15 minutes on the stationary bike (120 calories), 15 minutes of one of the P90X videos and some arm work with 8lb dumbells. This morning I got up and did 25 minutes on the stepper and burned 400 calories and I plan on doing well with food all day and for the rest of the week, actually I was thinking I would love to have a perfect 2 weeks to feel really good by valentines day, anyone wanting to do it with me would be great motivation. Heres whats planned for today:

B- 1 packet of cream of wheat and ff yogurt
S- a pear and 3/4 cup of dry banana nut cheerios
L- primo chicken and roasted veggie soup and a side of sauteed cabbage that was left over from dinner
S- 100 cals of pretzels dipped into a laughing cow cheese wedge (22.5 cals) and a banana
S2- cucumber slices for when I'm hungry on the drive home
D- pork stirfry with steamed rice and veggies
Workout- I'm undecided- maybe the tredmill or turbo jam

Have a healthy Wednesday everyone!
 
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