I am so happy to hear from you!!! I missed chatting with you! My weekend was a lot of lounging around, I hope yours was a lot of fun and I hope you got some rest!
Janvier's Weight loss Diary
- Thread starter Janvier
- Start date
I am so happy to hear from you!!! I missed chatting with you! My weekend was a lot of lounging around, I hope yours was a lot of fun and I hope you got some rest!
I love the idea of a christmas goal because thats kind of when it gets easy for everyone to let themselves go and then we get to walk in looking hott and toned! lol, I love it. I know we can do this, especially together! I am pumped to work hard with you. I hope your long weekend was fun and relaxing!
hey wow I just read your whole story and you have come through a lot! You are so close you can do this! I am new here but I hope to see you update and on track!
Hey xRougex,
Thank you so much for stopping by my diary and for your kinds words of encouragement! I am so ready to do this and your post made all the difference to me. I am going to check out your diary, it will be great to have a new forum friend to work hard with!
Hey Leanna,
Thank you so much for your kind words! It means a lot to me. I think your goals sound great and very realistic! You can do this for sure and look like that hot mama you are by November. Having an event to work towards is usually great motivation. As for the cravings I give in to them once in a while which will happen to us all but for the most part I try to find a substitute for whatever I'm craving- for example: Craving sugar = eat fruit, or yogurt or some sugar free jello or pudding. Craving a salty snack = eat some rice crackers or crispy minis. Craving a burger and fries = make a homemade turkey burger and some backed sweet potato fries. There is a great alternative for everything that you craving, you just have to do some research and put in the effort, you can do it for sure! Good luck on your journey, I am going to check out your diary.
Happy Labour Day Ladies! (I'm canadian we use a U in labour lol)
I hope you all had a great long weekend!
Sorry in advance for the super long post...
The end of my week was pretty rocky and emotional. My boss and I had formed a great new friendship, he is a 31 year old doctor that I work for. Super nice guy. I ended up telling him all about my struggle to get over my ex and he has been going me tips and homework and steps to take to get the process going. One of the steps he gave me was to give all of the piuctures I have left (since its the only things I have from him left) to a friend to keep for me. This was a step because if I got very sad I would look at them. So on Moday I decided to give them to my boss since I wouldnt have the guts to beg him to give them back. So I did and I was a bit of an emotional wreck for the rest of the week knowing that I will never see his face again. Then two weeks ago I found out that my identity had been stolen, someone used my info to get out of a traffic stop ticket and it showed up on my insuracne making it go up by $500!!! Not only that but I now has a record and 2 demerit points taken (for non canadians, after you have 6 points taken you lose your licence). so I had been contacting the ministry of transportation and the court house and a detective and police officers and it had all been going well, they believed me and agree that my identity was stolen and I am awaiting an appointment with the police officer who pulled this person over. Now Friday evening I get a call from my sister, she tells me that she had bad news, I tell her to spit it out and she said she is the one who used my name!!!!
I felt like I couldnt breathe and my hard was pounding so hard I felt like I was about to have a heart attack! She said she did it because she had two previous convictions for driving with a suspended licence and they warned her that a 3rd time would land her in jail. And there she was, strike number 3, and instead of taking responsibility for her stupid actions she threw me under the bus for her! Now that I am in the middle of the investagation I can't not go through with it, they already have reports and me swearing it wasn't me and now she is going to go to jail. She put me in a horrible position and I have never felt so betrayed in my entire life. That news really took a toll on my energy this weekend and I didn't workout at all, I managed to eat well, probably because I have been sick to my stomach since the news. well this week I am not willing to let emotions hold me back, I have a goal and I am not going to let anyone get to me enough to keep me from reaching that goal...Here is what today looks like:
Breakfast: coffee with splenda and skim- 2 slices bodywise bread with 6 tbsp egg whites and tomatos
Snack: a big peach
Lunch: golden grahams with skim milk
Dinner: rice noodles with stir fired veggies
Snack: grapefruit
I am still hoping to get out for a walk, we'll see if it stops raining. Thank you for listening to my rant!
I hope you all had a great long weekend!
Sorry in advance for the super long post...
The end of my week was pretty rocky and emotional. My boss and I had formed a great new friendship, he is a 31 year old doctor that I work for. Super nice guy. I ended up telling him all about my struggle to get over my ex and he has been going me tips and homework and steps to take to get the process going. One of the steps he gave me was to give all of the piuctures I have left (since its the only things I have from him left) to a friend to keep for me. This was a step because if I got very sad I would look at them. So on Moday I decided to give them to my boss since I wouldnt have the guts to beg him to give them back. So I did and I was a bit of an emotional wreck for the rest of the week knowing that I will never see his face again. Then two weeks ago I found out that my identity had been stolen, someone used my info to get out of a traffic stop ticket and it showed up on my insuracne making it go up by $500!!! Not only that but I now has a record and 2 demerit points taken (for non canadians, after you have 6 points taken you lose your licence). so I had been contacting the ministry of transportation and the court house and a detective and police officers and it had all been going well, they believed me and agree that my identity was stolen and I am awaiting an appointment with the police officer who pulled this person over. Now Friday evening I get a call from my sister, she tells me that she had bad news, I tell her to spit it out and she said she is the one who used my name!!!!
I felt like I couldnt breathe and my hard was pounding so hard I felt like I was about to have a heart attack! She said she did it because she had two previous convictions for driving with a suspended licence and they warned her that a 3rd time would land her in jail. And there she was, strike number 3, and instead of taking responsibility for her stupid actions she threw me under the bus for her! Now that I am in the middle of the investagation I can't not go through with it, they already have reports and me swearing it wasn't me and now she is going to go to jail. She put me in a horrible position and I have never felt so betrayed in my entire life. That news really took a toll on my energy this weekend and I didn't workout at all, I managed to eat well, probably because I have been sick to my stomach since the news. well this week I am not willing to let emotions hold me back, I have a goal and I am not going to let anyone get to me enough to keep me from reaching that goal...Here is what today looks like:Breakfast: coffee with splenda and skim- 2 slices bodywise bread with 6 tbsp egg whites and tomatos
Snack: a big peach
Lunch: golden grahams with skim milk
Dinner: rice noodles with stir fired veggies
Snack: grapefruit
I am still hoping to get out for a walk, we'll see if it stops raining. Thank you for listening to my rant!
chubbygirl
New member
Ouch!! That is a lot of bad news! Poor girl - I couldn't even imagine how you feel and what you are going through. I just can't believe it - she must feel so bad but how do you get over something like that. My thought are with you my friend!
I'm glad you got rid of those pictures - that was great advice from your boss.
That is amazing that with all that going on your eating was good - keep it up! The eating won't make you feel better so stay strong and clear your head with a good workout!
Hope you feel better soon.
I'm glad you got rid of those pictures - that was great advice from your boss.
That is amazing that with all that going on your eating was good - keep it up! The eating won't make you feel better so stay strong and clear your head with a good workout!
Hope you feel better soon.Ouch!! That is a lot of bad news! Poor girl - I couldn't even imagine how you feel and what you are going through. I just can't believe it - she must feel so bad but how do you get over something like that. My thought are with you my friend!
I'm glad you got rid of those pictures - that was great advice from your boss.
That is amazing that with all that going on your eating was good - keep it up! The eating won't make you feel better so stay strong and clear your head with a good workout!
Thanks for the support Lisa. I don't think she feels that bad, she cried a little and said she would lose her job and go to jail
...no one told her to do what she did so I have a hard time feeling sorry for her. she was talking more about herself then being sorry to me and frankly i think she is just sorry that she got caught 
. I am trying so hard to stay positive and not let me emotions get the best of me...I'm not sure how well that is working, all I feel like doing is curling into a ball and sleeping. Oh well, I managed to not fill my sadness with food today, now if I could just get a workout in I will be happy. I need to to turbo jam maybe...40 minutes of kicking and punching might cheer me up a bit. Heres what today looked like:Breakfast: 2 slices of bodywise bread and 6 tbsp of egg whites
Snack: ff Silhouette yogurt and about 1 1/2 cups of cantolope
Lunch: Uncle bens bistro express rice
Snack: Banana
Dinner: veggie stirfry with rice noodles
Workout: turbo jam
Hope everyone had a great healthy day!
mizzie
New member
Ugg, that is a lot to deal with. Sorry you are going through all that. It's too bad about your sister, but she's the one who committed the crimes. That's her problem that she got herself into. And she only made it worse for herself, and you, by lying.
Hang in there and good for you for sticking with healthy habits through all that!
Hang in there and good for you for sticking with healthy habits through all that!
Thanks so much for the support Mizzie, I've missed chatting with you. You are totally right, she is the one who got herself into this mess and she needs to take some responsibility for it. I am trying to snap out of my funk about it and not let what she did side track me from my weight loss goals.
So I have been feeling like I'm in a bit of a rut, I'm not losing, I'm not working out and I'm not motivated. I don't feel like doing anything. I'm not happy with my weight bouncing around, I feel like I can see the gain everywhere and its just making me sad. I know what I need to do and how to do it and I know that I can do it but where is the motivation?? I feel like I am close and I can get back to where I was, and I realized that I would be estatic at 120 instead of 115 which is only 15 lbs away and I still can't get my butt up and working out. On the plus side I haven't been binging the way I usually do when I feel like I'm in a rut, last night I caved and had half a bowl of cereal at about midnight but its not even close to what I usually eat when I'm down. I'm trying hard to yank myself out of this mood, hopefully it happens sooner then later. Here is what today looks like:
Breakfast: 1 slices of bodywise bread, 6 tbsp of eggwhites and 4 slices of tomato
Snack: 1/2 of my silhouette yogurt and 1 1/2 cups of cantolope
Lunch: my friend called to meet her for lunch so my healthy packed lunch went out the window- 2 scrambled eggwhites, 4 sausage links, 2 mini pancakes and a few potato wedges- geeze thats a HUGE lunch now that i write it out-I'm so stuffed it hurts
Dinner: something small, maybe a salad with chicken
Workout: undecided
mizzie
New member
I know exactly how you feel. I've been feeling that way lately also. My calories have been a little high and I haven't been exercising. I just don't feel like it. Which is awful, considering that I'm so close to my goal.
I think that's my issue, actually. I feel like another 15 pounds isn't that much, so it won't make that much of a difference, so what's the point? But I also know that I picked that weight for a reason and it WILL make a difference. We both just need to give ourselves a good shake, knock the cobwebs away and get back to it!
chubbygirl
New member
I've been feeling the same way too - maybe it's the change in weather. We know we have it in us so we just need to bring it back! I know a couple good workouts and some healthy eating days will do the trick so just work on one day at a time. Maybe once the biggest loser starts up again we will all find that motivation again!
I won't be around very regularily but I will still be around and hopefully updating once a week - things are crazy at work and I need to stay in the clear for a bit. Take care and keep updating if you can - I'm still reading - just can't log in - until I get my computer hooked up at home!
I won't be around very regularily but I will still be around and hopefully updating once a week - things are crazy at work and I need to stay in the clear for a bit. Take care and keep updating if you can - I'm still reading - just can't log in - until I get my computer hooked up at home!
Happy Labour Day Ladies! (I'm canadian we use a U in labour lol)
I hope you all had a great long weekend!
Sorry in advance for the super long post...
The end of my week was pretty rocky and emotional. My boss and I had formed a great new friendship, he is a 31 year old doctor that I work for. Super nice guy. I ended up telling him all about my struggle to get over my ex and he has been going me tips and homework and steps to take to get the process going. One of the steps he gave me was to give all of the piuctures I have left (since its the only things I have from him left) to a friend to keep for me. This was a step because if I got very sad I would look at them. So on Moday I decided to give them to my boss since I wouldnt have the guts to beg him to give them back. So I did and I was a bit of an emotional wreck for the rest of the week knowing that I will never see his face again. Then two weeks ago I found out that my identity had been stolen, someone used my info to get out of a traffic stop ticket and it showed up on my insuracne making it go up by $500!!! Not only that but I now has a record and 2 demerit points taken (for non canadians, after you have 6 points taken you lose your licence). so I had been contacting the ministry of transportation and the court house and a detective and police officers and it had all been going well, they believed me and agree that my identity was stolen and I am awaiting an appointment with the police officer who pulled this person over. Now Friday evening I get a call from my sister, she tells me that she had bad news, I tell her to spit it out and she said she is the one who used my name!!!!
Breakfast: coffee with splenda and skim- 2 slices bodywise bread with 6 tbsp egg whites and tomatos
Snack: a big peach
Lunch: golden grahams with skim milk
Dinner: rice noodles with stir fired veggies
Snack: grapefruit
I am still hoping to get out for a walk, we'll see if it stops raining. Thank you for listening to my rant!
Omg! Sorry I am just getting by your diary. I have been swamped in research papers and attending funerals the last few weeks, so I've just been breezing through and barely posting in my own diary. I am sorry to hear about the situation with your identity and your sister and everything, it is awful all the way around. I know you love your sister and you know as well as she does that she knows better. I had my identity stolen over the summer and it cost me over $400 dollars and an investigation to get my money back. My sister recently told me a few months ago about how when my uncle was teaching her to drive that he told her if she ever got pulled over to use my information because he wasn't a licensed driver and neither was she. I was beyond upset, and glad that it never happened. She is a much more responsible person, and I don't believe she would throw me under the bus like that, but if it had happened then when she was 15, 16, she probably would have to prevent from getting in trouble. You make me want to look over my driving record now. I know that my uncles used to do that to some family members and then they would land in court just for the officer to say that the description didn't match, so they thought that no one would get in trouble. I hope everything goes okay and she definitely learns her lesson.
I am glad to see that you aren't going to let bad things get you down, and you are still on your journey. Honey, I am still trying to adopt your willpower to make it back down to 130. Honestly I can say that the work I am doing has helped me to develop a strong back because my head is held so high, and I do have your diary to thank for that, because I swear we started at the same weight and height and everything. So take a bow, you are doing a great job. Talk to you soon and keep up the good work Jan.
chubbygirl
New member
How's it going Janvier? Today's a new day to do better than yesterday!! hope you are doing well!
Hey Njoyabl, I only had a few minutes and I wanted to check up on you before I updated then my boss came by and I was out of time, I'm going to try a lot harder to start updating again, I need to see things in writing to keep me accountable.
Hi Lisa! Thank you for your words of encouragement!
Okay so I feel like it has been ages since i've updated, and I hate being away from the site because it makes such a difference to talk to people who understand the struggles of losing weight and who are going through the things that you are. I have been having a lot of ups and downs with my weight loss, I am still weighing in at 135, my heaviest was 189 and my lowest was last December, I was 123 and I was so thrilled and would do just about anything to be back at that weight but what kills me is that at that weight I still just pointed out all that was wrong about my body. My ultimate goal is 115 but if I got to 120 I would be perfectly estaic about that! Looking back I should of loved my body at 123 and I now vow that when I get back there I will appreciate how hard I worked and love my body dispite the flaws. As for the stuff with sister, it has really taken a toll on me, I no longer have a relationship with her and the whole situation has just left me feeling alone, betrayed and sad. I just get into these sad days where I feel like everyone who once loved me ends up breaking my heart in one way or another and that I will never find someone to love me for me or even at all...during those days I don't workout and I want to eat crap, then other days I'm pumped to get to my goal weight and I feel unstopable and full of energy and eat clean and work my butt off. I need to get the bad days under control and keep telling myself that I am doing this for me and remind myself how amazing I feel when I eat well and how proud of myself I am when I get through a workout and I need to remember how good it feels to look for smaller sizes when I'm shopping and have everything fit perfectly...right now everything so super tight and uncomfortable, I have to inhale to zip up jeans that once were baggy and lose on the waist and now they give me a horrible muffin top! I have been trying to get out more and have more fun with friends to put myself out there, but as far as dating goes I feel like i'm in the middle of a drought! I keep wondering if I will ever find someone but I know I need to work on myself and my confidence and self worth before I can care about someone else and doing well with my diet and excersice gives me confidence so I need to really kick it into high gear. I decided to write out my plans and stick them up on my wall to have a daily reminder. Last week I decided to start my plans, I worked out every morning, didn't cheat with crap through out the day and worked out again after work in the evenings, but then friday came and I didn't workout at all, I have sugar cravings that I gave in to and ordered a side of fries with my salad when I went out to dinner last night 
! I was painfully full and had half of my fries left so I took them to go and ate them on the way home!!! 
I felt SOOO full and uncomfortable and disgusting about what I did 
I woke up feeling just as full and seriously had to roll my body out of bed. I'm still bloated! Its stupid that I have felt that uncomfortable feeling so many times and it seems to not be enough to keep me from binging. Well I plan to start fresh again today, I'm stocked up on healthy food and great healthy snacks and I know I can do this and make it through the week, its just the weekends that usually ruin everything. It feels good to be posting again and I hope to keep it up.
! I was painfully full and had half of my fries left so I took them to go and ate them on the way home!!! I felt SOOO full and uncomfortable and disgusting about what I did I woke up feeling just as full and seriously had to roll my body out of bed. I'm still bloated! Its stupid that I have felt that uncomfortable feeling so many times and it seems to not be enough to keep me from binging. Well I plan to start fresh again today, I'm stocked up on healthy food and great healthy snacks and I know I can do this and make it through the week, its just the weekends that usually ruin everything. It feels good to be posting again and I hope to keep it up.
Sunflower2
New member
Glad to see you back, Janvier--Sorry to hear that things haven't been too great for you. Hope sunnier times are on their way and that those bad days get fewer and fewer x
Hey Janvier,
It's been such a long time. I really do miss you.... It seems like you've had a rough go at it. Believe me I understand. My sister once stole checks out of my checkbook and wrote bad checks on me. I was so out done by that situation but we found our way back to a place of love and understanding (it took some time). I hope things get better for you. I am still struggling with my weight but I will also continue to fight this battle as long as I can. Chat with you later.
It's been such a long time. I really do miss you.... It seems like you've had a rough go at it. Believe me I understand. My sister once stole checks out of my checkbook and wrote bad checks on me. I was so out done by that situation but we found our way back to a place of love and understanding (it took some time). I hope things get better for you. I am still struggling with my weight but I will also continue to fight this battle as long as I can. Chat with you later.
Hi Sunflower, thank you for being so sweet! I have already been feeling better just being back on the site and talking with you lovely ladies, everyone is so motivating. I can't wait to get motivated and I can't wait to start motivating others.