Janice's Diary.

[veronandez86]

I don't have any sort of "requirement" for people to give me advice. Something I said got waaaaaaaaay taken out of context. I was looking for a group of people on here that had the same sort of issue I have so I could find some people to commiserate with. In my day to day life I don't have any "fat" friends and sometimes I really need people who understands what it's like to be 200 lbs overweight. Did I phrase this wrong? I guess so, but that's all I meant.

Geez louise!

I've never been someone who snacks between meals so I don't feel I am giving anything up by not doing it. My weakness is at night after dinner and having too much at meals.

Hun, what I said about the weight requirement, I was just kidding. Sorry, maybe it was too soon. LoL...

Anyway, I was suggesting the healthy snack between meals because than when it comes time for you to eat dinner, you wont overeat for your body will feel less hungry.

You don't have to do the whole snacking thing between meals, but you are here for advice and I had to make myself have a snack between my meals and it has worked for me. Before disregarding it, try it for a day or two and see how it makes you feel. Okay?

Does anyone else have a sort of "mental block" when it comes to exercise? Maybe it's just laziness haha. But to me, it feels like something more. Started to explore it a few years ago in therapy but didn't really get anywhere.

Also - it's weird but on the treadmill and stuff I have no ankle problems. They don't HURT, they just sorta pop out of joint and I fall and sprain them. It happens randomly. I"ll just be walking down the street minding my own business on flat concrete, nothing to trip me, and they just sorta give away. I think the ligaments have been stretched and sprained so many times over the years that they've never healed right.

I know what you mean about the "mental block". My boyfriend has been keeping me on track with the jogging on the treadmill and working out. I just put on some kick @$$ music and rock out. I tend to find myself running to the beat of the drums. But if the treadmill isn't giving you any ankle problems, maybe you should start there. Hopefully when you go see your doctor, he will help you figure out what to do to ease the pain in case surgery isn't one of the solutions.

Anyway, just take what people say with a grain of salt. We are all just trying to help you. Some of our ideas or testimonies work and if you implement them, awesome, if not, adapt them to your needs.

 

[ymcachick]

I think you'd do well to make an appointment with the eating disorder clinic. I see a therapist and it's been crucial in helping me stay focused and learn about my behaviors so I don't keep on repeating them and end up at 377 pounds again. After all, we didn't get so fat just because we like the taste of pizza. There's a lot more to it.

We're about the same age, and it sounds like our struggles with weight are very similar. I'm going to take a leap here, and I hope you don't get offended by what I have to say, because this is only my personal opinion and my experience. I share it with you only to offer up something that might not have been considered. When I was in the 300s, a lot of my aches and pains were related to depression. You couldn't have told me that when I was at that weight because to me, it was very physical and the pain is very real. I was popping pain pills like candy, and nothing helped. When I was at that weight, I wanted to cry at the thought of having to walk through the store. My legs felt like they were going to buckle under me and my back felt like it was going to break. If I had to stand for more than a few minutes, the pain was unimaginable.

I am not a preachy person, so I hope you don't view this at such. I'm just sharing this so you know you're not alone and that people do understand. People who struggle with weight problems or have eating disorders understand, and I think it'd be a mistake to dismiss advice or even stories from those who don't meet a certain weight criteria.

Anyhow, you've taken a critical first step. I like that you're keeping a food log and putting all the "bad" choices in there. You'll learn a lot about your eating habits that way and how you can change them, and you can change them, but it's not easy. It's a lot of hard work that's entangled with even more frustration, but if you want it, it's yours for the taking.