So, I weighed in a couple of days ago, and after 9 days on this pill the doctors are making me take, I have dropped 12 pounds. I just have zero interest in eating. Easiest way to put it: It's like every piece of food I see has been dropped on a clean floor. I'd eat it if I felt really hungry, but until then, don't even show it to me. I have leveled off a bit since last week, though, and the lack of appetite is not nearly as bad as it was, but still my heaviest day calorie-wise was 1,500 Cal. I haven't weighed myself since the last weigh in, and I decided that to curb my obsession / depression off from losing all of the muscle I've worked years to build, to only weigh in every 1 1/2 weeks, so the next weigh in will be before my lift next friday. To give an idea, I am down two belt sizes, comfortably, and a shirt that was tight before is now comfortable.
I could not be less happy about all of this. I mean, I'm happy that I'm losing fat along with the muscle (who wouldn't be), but I'm not excited to see my arms and chest and back and legs shrink, especially thinking about all the sweat and pain and time and effort put into them.
But, sadly, the positive effects of the medicine so far outweigh anything else that they could make me 100lbs, and I'd still keep on taking them 'cause they improve my quality of life by an immeasurable amount. So, it looks like the cut I was going to start now that I was back at a place where I was uninjured for once is turning into a flat out dump.
The things I'm looking forward to the least are going to be the injuries that are going to come from malnutrition. I have started up a generic multivitamin, and actually started in on flax seed oil (couldn't bring myself to do fish oil), but nothing is going to fix the large gap I have inbetween Calories consumed, and Calories expended.
I have given thought to stopping my HIIT to try to narrow that gap, but I don't really know if I want to or not. Not only do I enjoy doing it (I'm a sadist), but I like the speedwork, and time spent at max for other sports benefits. I don't know... but there is a lot to decide, and I guess I gotta figure this shit out as I go.
Sorry for the long post... just been so busy at work all I've had time for is the random quip recently.