Jacquie's Diary (It's Now or Never)

jweeks22

jweeks22

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So. I am new here. I am 5' 4" tall and 185 pounds.

Before last year I never weighed over 150 pounds. This is just scary to me.

This year, I finally feel like its time to do something about it. So starting today I am committing to exercise and diet changes.

I don't exactly have a time line to lose the weight, I think that my 1 year anniversary of datin my boyfriend might be a good goal. That's December 4th.

Things that are not so good for my plan:
-Boredom eating
-Emotional eating
-Lack of Motivation
-Eating late at night
-Sedentary Lifestyle
-Poor Dietary Choices

Things that are going to help me:
-Finally some support
-Maybe a kick in the butt sometimes
-Finding alternatives to boredom and emotional eating (anyone got any solutions?)

I guess for the most part my problem is I have seen my mother fight with weight all of my life, though she always stayed pretty large. I don't want to end up with all the back problems and joint problems she has.

I want to get fit to look good, so I need to tone my muscles, to get in shape, so I need cardio, and I need to start stretching to relieve the tightness of my body.

My biggest fear is doing nothing and spending my life looking for a shirt with a small chest and big arms.

Body parts I want to tone:
-My arms
-My stomach
-My hips
-My butt
-My thighs

Biggest challenges:
-Lack of Knowledge
-Feeling intimidated by how much I have to lose
-Lack of motivation

Things I can do to remove those challenges:
-Look into helpful posts about what sort of exercises target what muscles, what sort of diet is a healthy life change that will help me reach my goals, generally brush up on all things healthy living related.
-Take it day by day, choice by choice. Every small step leads you down the path to the big finish.
-Buck up and do it, regardless of if I feel like it or not.
 
So first day and wham! Got hit by the I'm at work and I have nothing to eat truck. And it ran me over a couple of times for good measure. I ate a small blizzard ( I work at Dairy Queen) I caved at the temptation of the soft serve ice cream, the banana chunks, the pie crust pieces, and the banana jello. Augh, so much for willpower.

And earlier.... I ate a good couple of cups of spaghetti, and a good three or four handfuls of trailmix with m&ms in it.

I know the blizzard was because I was on break and I knew I wasn't going to eat again until I got home, but I had all the things to make a salad, or some other healthier form of food, and I had to gobble up that blizzard.

I'm more than a little upset and frustrated with myself, but I am hoping to downplay it slightly so that I don't make a mess and get disheartened.
 
Today was a better day, though I struggled a bit trying not to dip into a sweet treat. I had a chicken salad, which has to be better than that blizzard I had yesterday.

Weighed myself this morning and hey! I had lost 3 pounds. Doesn't get me too excited though because water retention can fluctuate your weight by up to 5 pounds. Hoping that its a good start though.

Tomorrow I am going to see about cooking up several dinners and freezing them before I go to work, so when I am lazy just after getting off work and working an 11 hour shift I can pop it in the micro and have a 'good' dinner in mere minutes. If I don't get around to it tomorrow I am going to on Tuesday.

I pulled out the food scale today, and my measuring cups and dusted them all off. I figure that if I need to measure proportions its going to help to have the tools to do so clean and ready to go.
 
Its going well, down another pound. But its still going to be a challenge. Even as I type this, my boyfriend is sitting not 10 feet away from me eating bacon. lol.

The hardest part is the fact that I was looking through my cupboards, in my pantry, and in my fridge, and found that of everything I have to eat, I have no fresh produce, nothing I can make from scratch. Everything is in a box. Ugh.

So until I can get fresh foods and healthy snacks, my decision has been that I am just going to have to eat smaller portions and offset that slightly hungry feeling by drinking more water.

I hate water. I hate the taste of it. And how it sloshes in my stomach. I think that is a psychological thing though. Cause I can drink the same amount of soda and not get that sloshy feeling. Hmm.
 
So insanely, its been over a year...

And I am fatter than ever. 210 pounds. Ugh. :banghead: I fell off the wagon and rolled down the hill. But lucky for me I am going through a big change soon. As of December 30th, I will be living at my mom's. Which means.... a workout buddy, more money to buy healthier food, and more time, because I won't be working massive amounts to try and cover all of the bills. I am using this move as an excuse to do all the things I have been putting off, like cleaning my house.

Cleaning burns calories right? And I have a lot of that to do over the next week. Lots and lots of cleaning. An entire apartment worth of cleaning and packing to do. That sounds scary.

I know part of the reason that I gained even more weight is because on average I have dinner at 3-4 in the morning. Then I stay up for 3-4 more hours, going to bed between 6-8 am. Then I get up at 3 pm to do it all again. Bad eating habit coupled with little sleep for the loss.

But that is where this move comes in. I will be working more of a regular day job, so I will get up around 7 am-ish, be off of work around 5 pm at the latest, and then probably have dinner and then exercise. At least that is my goal. Because exercising makes me sleepy, at least for the first 1/2 an hour afterwards. So if I get in my exercise at night, I will be more likely to lay down and sleep.

I am going to try and talk my friend into coming on here. She has some major considerations to take in, like the fact that she is allergic to like EVERYTHING. But she is on the same road as me, trying to lose weight and get healthy.
 
Ugh... been so long.

So. Was up to 220 last week. I bought a book that should help me, because it has room for you to put in what might throw you off track, what you drank, ate, how much exercise you get, how you feel, how well you slept and so on. And you can make your goals for a year and then for the month and each week. I am pretty excited. I have lost 5 pounds already, but I am not holding my breath that that isn't water retention flux or something. Mom and I are both working on it, so I have a partner, though I might need another one, just because she doesn't have the energy that I do and doesn't want to exercise as much as I do. I am going to do both exercise and work on my diet. Here's to trying again, and hopefully succeeding this time.:piggy:
 
Hey, a 5lb loss is still a loss! You should celebrate it! I'm glad your mom is there for you! I need a partner too! Maybe we can keep tabs on each other?? I'm restarting my diet again tomorrow..grr!

well, its nice to meet you! Let me know if you have any questions or need any help!
 
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