Iwan's Weightloss Journal

Today is sucking. I'm freezing my bum off, its gotten so cold here over the last three days. My hands and feet never warm up. I passed out on the couch at 8pm last night and it was mainly because my blanket had just come out of the dryer and I was warming up underneath it and all the sudden my son was waking me up at 9:30 (way past his bedtime!) and telling me I was snoring like a helicopter and his movie was over. And because of those sleeping shananagins I didn't get all my calories in for the day and I didn't manage to drink that last 20 oz or so for the week one bonus challenge. Boo! I suck!
I'm buying tickets online for a vacation. But I can't decided where I want to go.
 
Hey hon, I've really enjoyed reading your diary entries and I'm glad you've kept with it. Good luck with the challenge.

~ Sara Maria ~
 
Nothing, and I mean nothing, tastes worse then burnt protein powder. And I mean this. I put protein powder in my milk and steamed it for a "herbalife shakealatte" my own invention..
Anyways, the powder cuagulated, then burnt before the milk was even at temp. It tastes...kinda like the burnt topping on creme brulee but definalty not as good, not even a close second. I really needed a latte though, the caffine...the warmness...its my comfort food and I found a way to work it into my diet with skinny milk and an itty bitty bit of vanilla flavor syrup.
I can't wait till this herbalife kit is gone, its horrible. I can do without the crutch with the support of this site and the resources of sparkpeople. I can do this and enjoy it much more then I am now. And it will be cheaper. I don't want to quit while I still have another week of supplies.
 
Ewww powder.

I typically don't eat enough meat but what I do to subsitute in protein is drink Silk Soy Milk. One glass a day. Either as my cereal milk or like this morning since I was running late ...in a delicous Soy Lattee!

Btw what is this Spark ppl thing people keep complaining about? =) Do tell!
 


Btw what is this Spark ppl thing people keep complaining about? =) Do tell!

Complain? I have no complaints about spark people, it's fabulous! Lol! Spark People is a web site, you can find it at its fantastic, it has a diet planner, nutrition planner, calorie counter, all sorts of resources including a message board and personal trainers. Its excellent and it has really helped me stay on task and meet my goals, especially where food is concerned.

Now I do have one complaint today. I weighed myself and I'm only down a pound since friday. I know a pound is still a loss, but I feel like I'm working my ass off for such little returns. I havn't cheated really at all and when I have I've still come in under calories. I've been working out staying very active (which my son is loving) and it all seems to just be going to slow. I guess it could be because I'm heading into that TOM week sometime this week or next (I"m too unpredictable with endometriosis its hard to tell). I just feel bummed out that it wasn't a bigger loss.

I pray I'm not stalling my system or something. My body is really screwed up after being on Depo Provera to control my endometriosis for a year after my son was born, its still not back to normal and my doc says theres a chance I'm going to have to have a hysterectomy in a couple of years. The pain is sometimes unbearable and I've been in alot of pain this week. But I don't take painkillers I use meditation to realize I'm stronger then my pain.

I made my water goal last night, providing the last 16 oz of crystal light counted. I'm heading over to the challenge bonus points thread to see if there was a response on that.
 
OH! I misread what you said then. Seem's like I recall reading something about "i can't deal with anymore spark ppl today" some place on this forum hehe.

Sorry!
 
Does anybody else find themselves eating out of their measuring cups and their scale tray? I hate doing dishes, so I cut corners where ever possible because I don't have a dishwasher. With all this measuring I find myself having alot of dishes. I am lazy, it is official!
 
Haven't done it yet, but y'know, now I'm tempted! I don't have a dishwasher either, and doing dishes night after night really does get old after awhile. :) Feel better, and avoid burning your next latte!

Sifen
 
Not me, I'd rather wash the extra dish, because I like to spread out whatever I'm eating - it looks like more to me ;)

I can easily devour 1 serving of cheese (1/4 C) in two bites, but spread out over a plate of food, well, that looks reasonable ;)
 
I feel so bloated today, and it doesn't help that I shrank my jeans in the dryer last night. I'm sure I look like a stuffed pig today. I don't feel like I'm losing weight anymore, I feel like I'm gaining it. its driving me crazy. I feel like I wanna just give up, but I'm afraid of putting on the 9.5 lbs that I've lost. My herbalife is almost gone, and I'm not ordering anymore and I'm afraid as soon as I quit using it I'm going to gain all this weight back no matter how little I eat.
My boss is being a super bitch this morning, yelling at everybody because of a huge mistake she made with the scheduling that left her here by herself for two hours this morning. We don't make the schedule and we've all learned that if you find a mistake with it that last thing you want to do is tell the boss she screwed up cause your likley to get fired. Well, nobody said anything, everybody came in at their scheduled time and she was balisitic. One of our night advocates quit on the spot and walked off the job. That leave me covering her shifts now, like I didn't have enough on my plate. Like I don't already work enough. I'm sure my kid and his sitter are going to really enjoy the fact that now instead of working 12 hour days I'm up to 16 hour days.
Work stress is the number one reason I always feel like eating. Right now I want a big peice of pizza with everything on it...heck, I want three peices of pizza, and a coke.
I'm really tired of my job, I'd like to find a new one but really, what else can I do that doesn't pay minimum wage? I've been working in this field for 6 years now and I've made a good career for myself and I've earned respect from collegues all over the State, but my boss is just unbearable and theres no talking to the board, the chairman is her best friend, he throws greivances away and doen't even have disciplenary meeting on them when they are filed (which is illegal, but what are we going to do, complain and get fired?). None of us can afford to be outta the job right now, we have kids, houses, cars, and the job market is crap up here. Sorry about the rant, I'm just really frusterated right now with this system that's been tailored to keep my boss in her job no matter how incompetent she is or how barbaric her managerial practices become.
 
Well, there goes my three days of cardio a week. I swear my boss must have gotton ahold of my workout schedule and decided to sabatage that as well becasue from now on I'm in at 7am out at 8pm, no breaks, the hours that the gym is open.
 
Sorry about your job. Your boss sounds like a horrible woman! I hope you can push that stress aside and stick with your eating plan. Hope your job gets a little better soon! :) Have as happy of a tuesday as you can!
 
I have faith that I can at least stick to my eating plan. I am leaving my money at home and bringing my snacks and meals with me. I'm really bummed about the cardio though. That was kinda my "me" time and the only time I can really weigh in on a medical scale that I know is accurate. I'm really disappointed in my boss, she has let us all down and she is being very petty by allowing her personal issues effect everybody at work. I have never seen the moral around here this low.
 
I'm sorry about your horrible boss :( I can't believe she can make you work such long hours. Isn't that illegal?
 
It would be if I were 14, unfortunatly in the adult world, unless your a slave your an at will employee and if you don't like it you can quit. Oh, how I wish I could quit!
 
And lots of people too I bet! I'm agoraphobic, it takes everything I have some days to leave the house and go to work.

Dear Diary, today I did something I've never done before. I emailed a guy I've had a crush on forever and asked him on a date. Now, I just have to find the time for a date, which I'm sure I'll pull outta my ass if and when he says yes.
 
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