Iwan's Weightloss Journal

*sigh* I guess 8.5 lbs, a little self confidence and initiative doens't buy you a date. Not even with a not very attractive, middle age, overweight guy who sits at home and reads sci-fi.
I must be the ugliest person on earth. I sure feel that way right now. I knew I shouldn't have sent that email. Now I just feel like crap and I made a fool of myself t'boot.
 
*HUGS*

I am so sorry. Don't regret sending that email. If you never tried, you never know. Everything we do in life makes us stronger. You are a beautiful person. If he's too dumb to see that, then that is his problem.

Be proud girl. Be proud.
 
The closest I've ever been to Dutch Harbor was watching 'Deadliest Catch' on Discovery Channel otherwise I'd pick up the slack on the date thingy if I was closer ;)
 
I agree - sending the email was a good idea, you wouldn't know otherwise.

And 8.5 pounds? WTG!
 
I must agree, sending that email was a good thing. If you've never felt rejection then how can you feel true acceptance, right? Hang in there. :)
 
So apparently A$$hole, as he shall forevermore be referred to forwarded my email to all his buddy's last night. A girl that works in my mom's office called to tell me because her boyfriend is one of A$$holes buddies. So, I'm the butt of many desperate fat chick jokes today I'm sure, and the whole island, including my mom knows that I asked somebody out on a date and not only did they say no, but they said hell no and then emailed all their friends. And this guy is an adult, that scares me.
I went to they gym this morning and did cardio on the elliptical for 40 minutes, I burned 564 calories which makes me feel really good. And I weighed myself and I'm down another pound and a half for a total of 11 lbs since September 2nd. I stood and looked at myself naked in the mirror this morning trying to see where these 11 lbs have disintigrated from but really you can't tell. And I measured and nothing is different, I don't get it.
I didn't snack at all last night, but I did have a beer that was well within my bugeted calories. I needed it after the day I had.
Oh, this is nice, when I got to work this am my boss had gotten on my computer and somehow crashed it. So all my reports and a grant that I was working on are...yup...you guessed it, lost! I'm really seriously thinking about quitting my job and going back to school, something, anything. I'll even sell my house to get outta this mess.
 
He's a big dumb poopyhead and not worthy of your fine self... he's not a man he's a stupid boy probably trying to up his self esteem by talking about you... Eleanor Roosevelt once said... Great minds discuss ideas; Average minds discuss events; Small minds discuss people.... He's a smallminded little jerk (i suppose if i accused him of having a small penis as well that'd make me smallminded but i'll take my chances :D

With all the contacts that you've go - is it possible to parlay any of that into a new position? Generally if a person is well thought of enough, whcih you are, they can do whatever they put their mind to..

hang in there beautiful... :D
 
Thats the problem, any change in employment is probably going to mean relocating to some big huge town (so like, over 5000 ppl) and I hate people en masse...its just something I can't deal with. As it is the only 5 places I go are home, work, the gym, my son's school and the grocery store. Unless I can't help it. Well, work sends me to a lot of weird unsavory places that most people wouldn't think of going to. I'm just not good at handeling my anxiety. You should see me in traffic, I cry...even when I'm not driving.
I just want my boss to leave. I think the board is forcing her to take a vacation because even they are sick of her. But thats just not enough.

God, when I was at they gym there was this blonde that was a little too chipper and she kept approaching people and telling them what they were doing wrong and saying "well I'm a personal trainer and...blahblahblah" At one point she looked like she was planning on coming over to my machine but I gave her what must have been a very distinctive 'if-you-come-over-here-I'll-kill-you' look because she turned around and went the other way. I think the other people were looking at me with envy. I think I even say one woman concentraiting in the mirror on duplicating my face.
 
Hah! I've considered stealing some of her massive hair and preforming some kind of binding ritual...I bind you lynn from causing harm, to employees or office equipment...I bind you lynn from causing harm, to employees or office equipment...lol!
I watch way too many movies!
 
I gave her what must have been a very distinctive 'if-you-come-over-here-I'll-kill-you' look because she turned around and went the other way.
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That's hilarious!!
 
maleficent said:
i'll send you a voodoo doll... (somewhere here i've told the story of my voodoo doll... ) they do work :D
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I remember that story.....it was freaky.....I think it was in your diary back in like july.


Anyways, good for you for giving that girl a look hahaha I would die if someone came up to me while I was working out to tell me I was doing it wrong unless I solicieted (sp??) their help. Sheeesh, leave the fat chick alone ok!!!! Isn't it good enough I'm here working out? Now my technique has to be perfect tooo!?!?!
 
Oh it is Chai. I just met with some teachers at the school to discuss our...how shall I say...juvenile deliquents...and one of the new teachers is HOT! Of course I had to schedule a follow up meeting...lol
 
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Oh, yeah, like I asked..."Hi, are you single...really?!?! I mean, really...?"
He looked single...you know that look they have...lost...hungry...oh wait, thats all men.
I did a ring inventory and there was none. Its a small town, I'll get to the bottom of this.
 
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