It's time to kick some A$$!!

Hello wonderful website and all the amazing ppl in it! I hope everyone is well! I am doing good myself. Today has been going great. But let me first just say that yesterdays wings were delish and I regret nothing. Next week I will surely skip the wings.... this is yet another personal contract sans signature.

So today I went to sign up for a course online. I have already gone through the whole high school college thing and recieved a diploma in Chemical Engineering, but Canada is in a shit hole right now for jobs because of the recession. There are just way more ppl out there that are more qualified than me worrking for petty pay because there is nothing out there. So why not go back to school?? I had attempted to upgrade my high school credits last semester (this is necessary in order to be considered for university) but I went to Cuba with my friends (which I'm soo thankful I did because I met the most amazing man in my life) so I had to drop out because my absences would have exceeded 10. SOOOOO here I am going back again... this time I don't have a bunch of stuff on my plate. I am just taking 1 couse right now and I'll take the last 2 in december and then apply for uni. So, went to school and spplied for the course today but there are only 4 ppl signed up right now so I hope more ppl sign up so it doesn;t get cancelled.

After that went and grabbed some crickets for my lizzards and grabbed some groceries on my way home as well. Came home and cleaned the kitchen walked the doggies and just finished up my run. Today I ran my 20 minutes.

I went on the scale today just one day ahead of my damn official weigh in day but I couldnt resist. I wanted to see the damage I had done from last night. So today I am 171.6. This is fine because I am thinking that if I do well today and weight in tomorrow I should be in the 170.X range which I will be happy with.

These are my eats today:

Breakfast: HB eggs on w/w toast (1 slice)
Snack: 1 peach (It was SOOOO GOOD)
Lunch: Deli chicken breast sandwich w/ mayo and bbq sauce.
Dinner: SWISS CHALET (1/4 dark with salad and a multigrain roll)

I must say right now that I am a condiment fanatic and never plan on removing the condiments from my life. Ketchup, bbq sauce, mustard, and mayo will always be a part of my life. So long as I have the lesser fat mayo I feel that these condiments shouldnt damper my success in losing weight. I mean I don't douse my food in condiments, but I feel that condiments can really change the flavour of something dull and boring and make it easier to swallow.

Well I've got to get ready for work now... shower and what not. Everyone have a good rest of the day. :troll:
 
Just finished work about an hour ago. Came home slightly hungry but didn't give into anything. It's too late to eat. Just drank a bunch of water and checked out the before and afters in this forum to keep my head in the game. I mean my head is in the game at this point but it's always a nice motivation boost looking at those photos.

Well going to bed now. Tomorrow is my weigh in and I'm super excited! woohooo!:waving:
 
Hello all. Official weigh in today just wanted to share it with everyone.

169.6 woohoo down 3.4 lbs!! (I actually started at 173.2 so its even more than that but I'm not counting that bit.) Oh BTW. Amanda is a dope.... the other day I was 169.8 and I had said 4 lbs... I clearly cant count lol.

So I am happy to see the 160's and I am NEVER going back to the 170's. I'm making this my personal contract right now.

I only really just started to see the 170's about 2 or 3 months ago so I'm nowhere EXTRAVAGANT right noww. But at least I'm not in the 170's anymore.

It's gonna get harder and harder not to go on the scale everyday too now that my weight is shedding.

Will post later with my eats and run info and shit.:willy_nilly:
 
Well today has been going great! Everything is going very smoothly (with the exception of the dog walk.... that is the most stressful thing I do in my day). Actually I just remembered how sluggish I was feeling this morning. I struggled to get my shit on for my run and I struggled through my entire run, but after my run I got my energy back and now I feel great.

I must also add that I really love weigh in days. They put a whole new motivational spin on the whole weight loss thing. Makes me want to stay on track completely and entirely. I just love it.

So I ran today at 5.5 for 20 minutes. And now eats:

Breakfast 2 hard-boiled eggs on one piece of w/w toast (today I used jalapeno and red pepper hummus instead of mayo and ketchup.....it wasnt as good but I think it's healthier... I may alternate days with this and the mayo and ketchup)
Lunch: Corned beef sandwich on 2 pieces w/w toast (The corned beed I bought this time is not extra lean but it is delishous. To start I just want to make healthier choices of things I enjoy.... later on I may have the corned beef as a snack and switch to chicken, turkey, tuna, and egg sandwiches.)
Dinner: Swiss Chalet (the usual 1/4 drk with salad and roll)

I am planning on having some broccoli with hummus after work but I am not entirely sure I will go through with that. We'll see.

Hoping to make some good money at work so I can get my license reinstated and my car back on the road:

(In case I failed to mention [I forget] I spent the whole summer in Cuba with my boyfriend who is Cuban. I didn't pay for any of my bills while I was away and now I am paying for it severely. Two visas over limit, cell phone cut off with a $500+ bill. And my license suspended for outstanding fines of 90 + 150 to reinstate. So I've fucked myself but I did it to myself)

Anyways I gotta get ready for work and shit. Have a good day all :seeya:
 
Btw adeon I can relate to the whole, meeting a guy abroad, staying there longer than intended and coming home to hell :p Was worth it though /sigh. (I'm single now tho but fond fond memories :)) I'm still paying for THOSE damages and I'm unemployed as a result of the recession its a bum! Great work on working out, getting yourself together and movtivated + and what the hell right? You will want to keep those sexy chicken wings in your life even when you are at goal and HEY you still dropped a few pounds thats so epic and I'm so happy for you! Speak soonies! ^^
 
Hello Diary and Forum Friends!!!

Today is going very well. Not too much on my schedule today... just kinda lounging around the house. Oh my god a waffle commercial is on and now I really want a waffle... a cinnamon waffle.... but I will fight it. I got to be strong!:banghead:

Here are my eats today.

Breakfast: My usual HB eggs on toast (I used hummus again today) and a peach
Lunch: My usual corned beef sandwich with a couple broccoli florets and a tiny bit of hummus.
Snack: 2 sardines
Dinner: Spinach chicken salad (stolen from swiss chalet) w/ FF raspberry vinigarettte.

Got a great run in today. Worked out 20 minutes but I began to ramp up the speed today. I did the whole run at 5.6mph. Honestly it was pretty easy the first bit but the last 5 minutes were killer. I struggled to get to the 20 minute mark today. But I know that after a couple more times at that speed and I'll be ready to up it once again... then I think I'll push to get to 25 minutes before ramping it up to 6.0.

I gave this website out to a few people I know that have tried to lose weight and would like to lose weight. I just told them to check it oout if they like it join if not then don't lol.

I'm meeting my friends at the bar tonight.... eeeek. I don't know if I will have ANYTHING to drink. Id like not to but once I get there who knows! I will just really try to stay strong this time... I've got to hit a club tomorrow for my friends birthday and I KNOW I'll be drinking (can't get out of it when its a friends birthday).

Well gonna catch some tv... shower get ready and maybe browse here a bit more. I'm selling books tonight. I need 40 bucks to have enough money for my license reinstating WOOHOOO!!!! Take care all!!
 
Just a quick update..............I ate bad.

How bad?? 5 slices of pizza pizza??? WOWWW.! BUT I will just sub my bad eat that I was gonna have on tuesday (a foot long cold cut sub) and count it as today. As long as tomorrow I am back to eating everything good I am sure there won't be much damage made (I ate bad twice last week and still lost over 3 lbs). But I need to make sure that tonight is the only night. Tomorrow I'll have drinks but no bad eats. And thats it. Next weekend I'm staying home :)
 
Today is another day! Another wonderful day lol. Yesterday I went to the bar as I said I would. I only had one pint of beer as I didn't bring ANY money with me. I also had a pint of beer at home.... so two pints in total. And 5 slices of pizza.....and a couple nachos with cheese. But today I am back on track and kicking ass.

I woke up this morning and the first thing I did was jumped on the treadmill. I have come up with a solution to my shitty eats yesterday (though it's not necessary I will feel better if I do this). I have decided that I am going to DOUBLE my workout today. I am incapable of running 40 minutes straight right now though so I will do 2 of my 20 minute runs spread out in the day. I will do my other one at around 2:30 and then shower and get ready for work. I may or may not do two runs tomorrow as well. It depends on how I feel and the time I have. Eats:

Breakfast: My HB eggs on toast. Today I used mayo and ketchup delish.
Lunch: Turkey on 2 pices of w/w toast and some broccoli with hummus. (I used mayo and BBQ on my sandwich today)
Dinner: SWISS CHALET! The usual.

Not gonna really snack today because I think i'm gonna have at least 2 shots at my friends party tonight. I've also decided that I am gonna drive. This is to keep my calories in control since I will have to drive.

I had other stuff to write but my mom keeps blabbing in my ear and now I've completely lost my train of though. So have a good day all!
 
Congrats on getting started again. I used to own a gym and saw all too often people who would start a weight loss program, fall off, start again, fall off only to then quit forever. It's hard to keep starting over but keep doing it - Do something everyday that is a positive step in the direction that you want your life to go ! Make a commitment to not stop this time ! Push yourself and you will see results. I'd love to help in any way that I can - take care
 
Good job on saying "whatever i'm still in control" to the bad days of eating. I had an "almost" day yesterday when I found myself taking three doughnuts out of the box without even thinking. :eek: it was scary.

Have a good run, and keep kicking ass! :)
 
Good job on not giving up! It's so easy after you have had a bad day with eating or drinking and you've consumed too many calories to just give up, but one day here and there isn't going to hurt you, as long as you continue to make good choices most of the time. I have definitely had my share of "cheating", but sometimes you just need to, I think anyway, because otherwise you would go insane!

I still use condiments too. Ketchup and mustard have like 0 calories, or very very minimal amounts, so I don't even count them. I do love mayo, but I just buy the lowfat kind. The kind I buy only has 15 calories per serving! It's awesome. I know sometimes it's hard to get used to diet mayo, but I've been using it since I was like 10 so I can deal with it. The only time I cut out mayo is when I go to Subway because I can't control how much they put on, and I'm paranoid when I say "Light Mayo" they might still put regular mayo on. But I use mustard and pile on the veggies and I really don't notice it's missing.

Also, about the drug and alcohol thing, it's your diary like LauraF said. You don't have to apologize to anyone for what you write. I think it's great that you can admit you have some addiction problems and you are working to fix them. I admire you for tackling that and weightloss at the same time!! :)
 
Thank you everyone for coming to my diary! I am glad that everyone is acceptive of my bad eats. You'd think everyone would be like "pfffftt Amanda your not in control. You've eaten bad 4 times in one week." But I really do still feel in control. I know that I'm gonna wake up tomorrow and I will be back to eating well. I KNOW IT. This time I'm fucking never giving up. I can't. I have never in my life (until I got back from Cuba) experienced walking by a window and seeing my reflection and being fucking horrified with what I am seeing. I am disgusted with how I ever let myself get this big. There is nothing attractive about me anymore (the huge tits is the only benefit of being big).

Anyways..... about bad eats.... Today was a BADD day BUTTTT it is an exception and I will tell everyone why. Yesterday was my friends birthday party. I drove there but I got a way back to my friends house. What does that mean?!?! I GOT HAMMERED!!!! It's my best friend anyways!! Gotta party it up for her right?? SO anyways. I got stupid drunk and GUESS WHAT I DID?!?!??! At the end of the night (well the end of MY night) I fell down like 4 stairs and sprained my foot. FUCK ME RIGHT??? I am pissed for one reason and one reason only.... my runs. I already know I'm gonna have to take tomorrow off. I've been hobbling around all day. UGHHHHH.

So I woke up this morning (still drunk) and went to london with my mother. I felt fine at that time but guess what else?!?! I ate like shit. My mom took my sister and I to a fucking buffet. I loaded up on carbs. BUTTTTT I have one plate. Went for my second plate and could barely eat any of it. Considering my mother had 2.5 plates and my sister 3 I consider that buffet experience not too shabby. It means my stomach is shrinking and I am thrilled about that. How can I consume 10000 calories in a day if I can't fit it into my stomach!? WOOHOOO. So anyways I'll write down my eats to hold me accountable (but it's gonna be tough):


Breakfast: McDonald's BLT bagel.
Lunch: Buffet (ummmmmmm..... pasta salad (2/3 cups?) rice thing (1/3 cup?) potato salad (1/4 cup?) veggies, greek salad, chick pea salad, hummus w/ two pita triangles, one bacon slice one breakfast sausage very little chicken, egg ham and roast beef. (everything was in small portions since it was a buffet but it was a generous enough portion of food)
Dinner: Half a can of lentil sooup. And I am planning on having a few meatballs now.

So not toooooooo bad right? I mean it COULD have been WORSE!! Calories may have been like what?? 3000???? maybe 4? dunno but as I said this was an exception hangover and shit. I don't plan on drinking this week or next weekend thus keeping my eats and runs in check. I still think I can lose 2 lbs at least this week. I'm gonna push for it. So long as I don't gain I will still consider myself in control. OK I wrote a fuck load today. I'm gonna go have some meatballs. Tomorrow I am eating well again. My promise. Do not worry my fellow weight loss friends. I ain't falling off this time. I'm here to STAYYYYY:hurray:
 
Hellooooo!

Hope everyone is doing well. I am doing quite well myself. I have some catching up to do on diaries since a lot of people updated yesterday. But here is a ME update.

Food today has been great. Right back to the good eats as I promised. I'd definitely like to lose 2 lbs at least this week so I am gonna really push for it. Finished work just before 5. My foot is bothering me a little today. Enough to not run on the mill. BUTTTTTTTT I DIDDDD WORKOUT!! WOOHOOO! I didn't really break much of a sweat though. I did have to take it easy cause of my foot. So I did about 30 minutes of my Billy Blanks Ab bootcamp tape. Many of the floor exercises were tough because My stomach is so big and out of shape right now. But I pushed through as much as I could and tried to make the best of it.

Eats:

Breakfast/Lunch: Foot long ham sub from subway (Put very little light mayo and sub sauce. Actually would have liked to have more mayo on it but oh well.)
Snack: Currently about to grab some sardines.
Dinner: About to cook some pork chops with steamed broccoli and baked potatoes (baked potato will be eaten with salsa and pork chop with BBQ sauce mmmmm)

So things are great. I need to make sure I keep busy tomorrow and skip right over the thought of the cheap wings at wild wing. Those are my absolute weakness. I know I contracted myself not to eat them tomrrow and I fully intend to keep true to that. I'll have them next tuesday.

I am starting to see some of the lumpiness in my stomach smoothen out. I have a pretty big roll between my stomach and its starting to curve itself out which is nice. I am seeing changes and still eating well for the most part so to me I'm still rockin.

This girl at my work and her long distance bf (he lives in Ireland) just split up after like 4 years. It breaks my heart cause I really looked up to their relationship for my sanity with my boyfriend living all the way in Cuba. I speak with him almost everyday in emails though so as of right now we are good :) but it scares me. Blahhh. Anyways gonna start dinner I HUNGRY!!! :lurk5:
 
You are rockin! 30 minutes abs is no joke, I know that! And I'm sure you can resist the cheap wings!

Don't worry about you and your boyfriend, every couple's different because the people in it are different. Just keep believing in it :)
 
Well I hope everyone is well. I am doing OK today. Not feeling the greatest emotionally. I am just thinking about my boyfriend. I haven't seen him for 2 weeks now and I won't be seeing him until at least the end of November and it's just starting to get to me. I just want to be in his arms right now. Sucks....

Other than that everything is going well. I went on the scale today and saw that I am unofficially down to 168.6 so thats a pound less this week. I'm glad considering all the shit I dealt with the past couple days. Woke up extra early this morning and just finished my run. Ran for 20 minutes at 5.7mph. Need to start building my stamina. I work allll day today at the restaurant so I needed to get my run in before hand.

Eats:

Breakfast: HB eggs on toast (mayo and ketchup today) probably a banana as well.
Lunch: Corned beef sandwich. maybe some form of broccoli or something.
Dinner: swiss chalet :)


Tomorrow I start a new job and I am kinda nervous. I hope the job is fairly easy. I need to go out tomorrow and buy a bunch of nice clothes (since it is an office job). I am soo happy I will be making some money because now I can plan my Cuba trip to see my boyfriend. Unfortunately I am only alotted 2 weeks vacay a year and 6 sick days. I think I only have the sick days this year which I will be using for my trip. I'll have to find out. Anyways gonna have some bfast and tv before work. Love all!
 
Hey!!!

Hey Adeon!! Thanks again for the songs! Had a cool beat! =) Here are some good ones to listen too...A lot are techno btw! =)
Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger - Daft Punk
Titanic Techno Remix - DHT?
It's a dream - DJ Dean
I See Right Through to You - DJ Encore
We're in Heaven (remix) - DJ Sammy
Castles in the Sky - Ian Van Dahl
Get Right - JLo
Numa Numa Yei -
Starstrukk? - Katy Perry
Don't Trust Me - 3Oh3
Dance Mix Total Eclipse of the Heart -
Something - Lasgo

Have fun!!
 
Thanks for those songs soccerrox! I haven't listened yet but I will have a listen on the weekend.

Alright so today was my first day at my new job and guess what? I fucked up. (I say guess what alot don't I? That and but and anyways bahaha.) I have been having the cravings of something other than what I have been eating lately. And something not very healthy. So today I caved... I couldn't control it!!! (This is why I hate having extra funds cause I spend frivlously) So I woke up at 5 for my new job... and missed my bus. So I had to drive over and hour to get there and was 45 minutes early. But I did bring all my good healthy food to work. I even avoided the donuts and muffins and brownies (yea gotta love the office settings). But on the way home something took over me. An evil urge I just couldn't shake for pad thai......and I ate it.... FUCK.

Normally I would say that its alright I'll be fine and shit AND I will. I know that tomorrow I am going to eat well again and TRY to exercise. But I just was really hoping to eat well today. I dont know why but I think it might be because of the sugar and shit I take in my coffee... or it could be something else I dunno but one thing I do know is that I need to alter my routine now.

Now that I have a day job I need to find time to workout again. Time where I feel good to workout and not exhausted. I need to stay on track with my eats and not cravy foods just because other people can eat them. I just need to stay focused because I am not going to be able to workout everyday but I will be able to eat well.

Another thing I should mention is that I am changing my official weigh in day to Saturday I think.....the reason for this is kinda uncomfortable to discuss so if I can fix the problem then I will go back to Thursday (That also gives me time to fix my pad thai bull shit lol.

Eats today:

Breakfast: eggs on toast hardboiled
Lunch: chicken sandwich with mayo and bbq sauce
Dinner: Tofu pad thai. blahhhhhhh

Anyways I think I'm gonna end it there. I am tired and I just want to sleep (I didnt workout today if anyone is wondering.)

Have a good night everyone.
 
Try not to get too discouraged by your bad days!

If losing weight was easy, and resisting our urges simple, no one would have a weight problem!

You seem really committed, that's awesome! I find it really helps to visualize and plan for a goal. In your case, maybe looking really good when you see your boy in Nov? Haha I know stuff like that helps me, just to know I have a time frame and if I can just hold out for x amount of time I'll be really happy when I get to my goal and share it with someone else!

Keep up the good work! :)
 
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Posting QUICKLY!

Updated my ticker though I changed my day to Saturday. I'll probably update again on Saturday and then just keep going every saturday. Didnt workout this morning will try again after swiss tonight. I am .4 away from where I'd like to be right now (5 lbs lost. I want to lose 10 a month)

Alright gotta make my bfast lunch and shit. byee

laele ill ttyl
 
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