It's all about me

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So, in the category of "if you wanna play, you gotta be prepared to pay"....staying at the dead low end of my range this week and it's not so much fun. Tried to make up in volume/variety what I wasn't getting in calories...but my body was not fooled one little bit. Fell asleep with visions of oatmeal/walnut/raisin cookies dancing in my head.

It's only the second day "without" but I really miss my work-out partner - it's her week to take a break. The funny thing is we never really talk during the work-outs themselves, but our warm-up, cool-down times are a total gab fest, and even though our routines are totally different, except for the days we run, I just kinda like having another female in the weight room with me.

Hit all targets, liquid intake looks low but that's only because I include skim milk in "dairy" instead of "liquids". I'm kinda slacking on the grain/nuts/seeds thing. The point really isn't a specific number of servings under that category, but to get a good mix. If I were doing it the way I intended when I set it up, I would have a serving of nuts, seeds, oats & legumes with the other 1 or 2 servings coming from a whole grain. Even though those are all calorie dense, the overall cals would still work out...need to work on that. HMMM, just thinking that one giant homemade oatmeal/walnut/raisin cookie would take care of 3 grain/nut/etc. servings, 1 dairy and 2 fruit (I use applesauce instead of butter).

Target Actual
Calories: 1700-1850 1739
sat fat 16-20g 18 g, 10%
fiber: 30-40g 32g
protein: 100-125g 115g
Liquids: combined 100oz 80 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 9 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 5 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 8 oz/0 fish servings
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 4 servings

liquids:
coffee, 8 oz
green tea, 18 oz
lemon juice, 1 oz
water, 60 oz

fruit:
apple, 1 small
blueberries, 1/3 cup
mango, 1/3 whole fruit
grapes, 2/3 cup

veggies
broccoli, 1 cup chopped
corn, 1 medium ear
onions/peppers (red), 1/3 cup combined
cabbage, shredded, 2 cups
tomato, 1 small whole

dairy:
skim milk, 1 cup
2% jack/colby combined, slightly over 1/4 cup
cottage cheese, ff, 1/4 cup
yogurt, plain, ff, 1/4 cup
ff cream cheese, 1 oz

meat:
pork, lean cut, 4 oz
beef sirloin, 4 oz

grains/nuts/legumes/seeds
black beans, 1/4 cup
ww flatout wraps, 2 wraps
buckwheat, 2 tablespoons

other:
olive oil, 1 1/2 tablespoon
sf/ff pudding, 1 serving
 
WWCD? anything neccesary to achieve her ambitions apparently, lol. good to see your still trucking, even if things are getting a little rough missing the partner and having dreams of cookies. haha. just read in another post somewhere about stripping to your undies, putting pictures on fridges, and dancing or something, and I have to admit that I will sometimes take some weird steps myself. I call myself "fatty fat McFatty", having outloud arguments with myself about doing things right, posting mostly naked before pics as my desktop background. Sorry, i think i just tainted your diary, lol. I guess im just kind of glad im not the only one who might be slightly insane when it comes to all of this ;-) but you know it just as well as i do... whatever it takes, it will be done. keep it up!
 
Coach: the near naked pic of yourself as your 'puter background is hysterical because I have one on my 'puter too (no, not yours:) )....it's some random chick whose my height, weight and basic bodytype - but she has the body shape I think I can reasonably expect to achieve if I keep working out sensibly and keep my hand out of the cookie jar.

Totally feeling lazy and unmotivated this morning..which is not a good thing because I have five million things to do ...it's gonna take a strong cuppa coffee to get my mental/physical motor running though. - green tea just isn't going to cut right now..I think it's this rain...seven straight days of rain...arrrgggh

Met all targets: cals, macros, nutrients so nothing to whine about there.

Target Actual
Calories: 1700-1850 1821
sat fat 16-20g 12 g, 6%
fiber: 30-40g 42g
protein: 100-125g 110g
Liquids: combined 100oz 90 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 9+ servings
Dairy: 3 servings 3 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 8 oz fish
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 4-6 servings 4 servings

liquids
coffee, 16oz
green tea, 18oz
water, 60oz

fruit:
apple, 1 small
mango, 1/2 whole fruit
grapes, 1 cup
tangerine, 1 small

veggies:
tomato, 2 medium
cabbage, 1 cup shredded
pumpkin, pureed, 1 cup
corn, 1 medium ear
broccoli, 1 cup chopped
recaito, 2 tablespoons
avocado, 1 tablespoon

dairy:
2% jack cheese, 2 oz
yogurt, plain, ff, 1/4 cup
skim milk, 1/4 cup

meat:
egg white, large
talapia, 8 oz

grain/nut/seeds/legumes
black beans, 1/4 cup
graham flour, 1/4 cup
oats, rolled, 1/4 cup
milled flax, 2 tablespoons

other:
olive oil, 1 tablespoon
sf/ff pudding, 1 serving
 
You're so lucky to have someone to work out with Cym. I would want to try her program as I am so bored with my own I've decided to stop going to the gym for 2 months. I'll just do my elliptical at home for a while. I was just wasting money on the gym by only going 1 or 2 times per week (esp. since I got the home elliptical). If only I had a motivator like that!

My sister just moved to the Tampa area. Did you grow up in FL? At least the drought got kicked.
 
Hey Blancita: no, didn't grow up in Florida, I just adopted it.

About the gym boredom and work-out partner thing. Yea, having a dependable work-out partner has been a godsend and a lifeline...it adds a component of "fun" to what is essentially a lot of hard work.

The reason we have such different routines is that she is easily bored and even easier discouraged. I'm a kinda "just give me the basics" girl...I like simple, full body, heavy weights, and flat out runs with occasional HIIT, no bells and whistles....so that's what my routine pretty much looks like. She's exactly the opposite. So, while my HIIT or interval cadio day is pretty much just that, her's will be something like what we call "around the world" which is 15 mins on the rower, followed by 15 on the elliptical....the treadmill and the stationary bike. Her weights routine is always a mix of heavy compound movements (which she does to oblige me) and lighter weights in a circuit style with some aerobic activity between sets. Since I am the one who writes her new routine every six weeks, for a while I was worried that I was doing her a disservice because it's really not what you'd call "optimal"....but she looks and feels great and, more importantly, it keeps her interested in and excited about working out which is kinda the bottom line.

I'm glad you have an elliptical at home since the gym wasn't "doing it" for you...but I also know there's more than one way to skin a cat....I bet you can develop a more varied gym routine tailored for your personality and interests that won't bore you to death.:sleeping:
 
Hi cym. Yesterday for me was a WWCND day (What would cym NOT do). But today I'm back on track, trying to emulate you, as usual.
 
Morning Cym! Hope you get everything done today even in the face of a lack of motivation. :)
 
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I am in complete shock that I actually ate nearly 2500 calories yesterday:eek: ...just in a weird mood where TOM hormones, crappy weather, and a general "I just feel down and I don't care" all converged and said "eat".

I'm actually still in the same negative mental/emotional space today, but seeing that number makes me determined to pull my head out of my ass, figure out what, other than the obvious, has me so down and deal with whatever it is - cause obviously stuffing my face with 360 calories of seaweed/rice crackers didn't have the effect of kissing my emotional "owie" and making it go away.

Needless to say, most targets are way off base with calories too high, sat fat over, fiber under.

Target Actual
Calories: 1700-1850 2484
sat fat 16-20g 22 g, 8%
fiber: 30-40g 25g
protein: 100-125g 170g
Liquids: combined 100oz -100 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 8 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 3 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 8 oz+/1 fish servings
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 4 servings

Liquids
coffee: 18 oz
water: 70 oz

fruit
blueberries, 1/4 cup
apple,1 small
orange, navel, 1 small
pineapple, 1/4 cup
grapes, 1/2 cup

veggies:
tomato, 1 small
recaito, 1 tablespoon
cabbage, 1 cup shredded

dairy:
skim milk, 1 cup
cottage cheese, 1 cup
yogurt, plain, ff, 2/3 cup

meat:
anchovy, 1 oz
chicken, 6 wings
pork loin, 6 oz

nuts/grains/seeds/legumes
black beans, 1/4 cup
almonds, 1oz
seaweed/rice crackers, 3 servings
flat out wrap, 1 serving

other:
olive oil, 1 tablespoon
baker's choc., unsweetened, 1 tablespoon
pudding, sf/ff, 1 serving
 
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I guess house cleaning is theraputic cause I'm sweeping and dusting and mopping and going "what's wrong with me" and it hit me like a hammer on the head....I'm friggin sad. Deeply, internally, profoundly sad....and I've been pushing it to one side of my little brain and heart and when that stops working I've been trying to bury it under food....3 days out of the last 6.

I can't keep doing that. I don't really know how to deal with it yet, but at least I can recognize and acknowledge it...I'm sad. I'm sad my friend is dying. I'm sad that she's so scared and trying so hard to keep up a brave face but it's coming out in her eyes when she thinks we're not looking. I'm sad that she's in pain. I'm sad for her children who think the sun rises and sets with her. I'm sad for myself because the whole situation just brings up all the issues I thought I'd resolved with my own mother's death. My sadness is magnified because I see myself in her daughter and my own mother in her and I'm daily playing out a script that almost devestated me the first time around.

So, first thing, I gotta find a way to emotionally seperate my own issues from hers because at this level of empathy I'm doing no one any good -it's self indulgent and self-destructive. Second thing, I've got to just deal with being sad. And damn that's scary. I truly don't know what that looks like, what that feels like. I came home from my mom's funeral and buried my face in an entire gallon of butter pecan ice cream and didn't look up for years. Maybe I need to go to church. Maybe I need to go to the bookstore and get some material on grief management. Maybe I need to just sit down and have a good long cry, cause I haven't done that. Maybe I need to do all three. I don't know the solution yet, but at least I think I know the problem. It's not the fact that I spent a week-end out of town, it's not the crappy weather, it's not TOM-- it's just that I'm sad and using any excuse that presents itself to fall back on my lifelong coping/denial mechanism...food.

Okay, that's a start.
 
So sorry about your friend, Cym. I can't give you any advice -- it seems like you already know what to do. But the best thing is that you're guarding against falling back on food to pick you up again.
 
~Hugs~ to you CYM! I'm truly sorry about your girlfriend! It's horrible and I've been through something similiar last year. My heart goes out for the children more so as they will be suffering with the loss for many years to come. But CYM, you need to be strong and be there for them, that's where your strengths will help your friend. You know she's counting on you to be there for her when she's gone. From what we found out that was really the concern of my family member who was leaving her children as well. She wasn't scared for herself, she was afraid of leaving her family (small children) I think your idea of books and reading up is an excellent idea. I feel your heart ache and I hope my post hasn't upset you even more, I just want you to know I understand as well. I will put a little shout out prayer for you and your friend tonight~ Keep your chin up, your a fighter you'll make it through.
~Hugs~:hug2:
Kim
 
God that is so sad Cym. To hear about your poor friend and her family and of course her friends, its just so heartbreaking. I cant imagine what you're all going through. Its not at all self-indulgent to feel this pain and empathy. She's your friend, and frankly it would be hard to see an enemy go through this. I mean anyone you know intimately. So sorry about your mom too. Such a sad reality of life. Anyway, I ate almost 2500 calories and I wasn't sad about a damn thing. So what's my excuse? Bad planning I think. Go easy on yourself Cym.
 
cym said:
Hey Blancita: no, didn't grow up in Florida, I just adopted it.

About the gym boredom and work-out partner thing. Yea, having a dependable work-out partner has been a godsend and a lifeline...it adds a component of "fun" to what is essentially a lot of hard work.

The reason we have such different routines is that she is easily bored and even easier discouraged. I'm a kinda "just give me the basics" girl...I like simple, full body, heavy weights, and flat out runs with occasional HIIT, no bells and whistles....so that's what my routine pretty much looks like. She's exactly the opposite. So, while my HIIT or interval cadio day is pretty much just that, her's will be something like what we call "around the world" which is 15 mins on the rower, followed by 15 on the elliptical....the treadmill and the stationary bike. Her weights routine is always a mix of heavy compound movements (which she does to oblige me) and lighter weights in a circuit style with some aerobic activity between sets. Since I am the one who writes her new routine every six weeks, for a while I was worried that I was doing her a disservice because it's really not what you'd call "optimal"....but she looks and feels great and, more importantly, it keeps her interested in and excited about working out which is kinda the bottom line.

I'm glad you have an elliptical at home since the gym wasn't "doing it" for you...but I also know there's more than one way to skin a cat....I bet you can develop a more varied gym routine tailored for your personality and interests that won't bore you to death.:sleeping:
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Why do you find your friend's routine not optimal? I tend to do 2 sets with heavy weights and find I should mix it up a bit more like what she's doing.

I'm thinking about moving to FL in a few years, hence my question. How do you like it?
 
Tom/Kim: txs.:hug2: Funny thing how the mind (or at least my mind) works. As soon as I realized that I was sad, and why I was sad, and actually wrote down the fact that I was sad....umm, I stopped feeling quite so sad. It's like the feeling was there going: feel me, recognize me, I'm important dammnit!!!!.

Blancita: except for hurricane season, I love everything about Florida! A couple of reasons why I say my friends work-out is not optimal: 1) mostly cause I tend to overthink things and go in circles till i figure 'em out 2) a growing deep suspicion related to women/ cardio/fat...something I'm not going to go into but a little puzzle I was (and still am) wrestling with and 3) thinking that the aerobic portion of the work-out might be undermining the weight training portion - sort of working at cross purposes.

But right now things are working out pretty darn well so we'll just keep going with this particular flow, making adjustments as needed. It looks like this:
Monday: upper body with 1 heavy weight 5x5 chest and 1 heavy weight 5x5 back movement, rest to full recovery between sets; 3 arms, 10-12 reps/3 sets - with aerobic exercise between sets Tues: 5 mile run W: lower body, with 1 heavy weight 5x5 squats, rest to full recovery, remainder of work-out more aerobic (i.e. mountain climbers, step-ups, etc.) Thurs: "around the world" (I think I described that earlier) and Friday full body, mix of cable & free weights. She likes "toys" so at least once per session I try to mix in the aerobic stuff using a medicine ball or swiss ball, etc.----the important (to me anyway) thing here is that she is really not eating at a deficit - at best she might manage a day or two a week at slightly below her maint. calories, I suspect the results might be entirely different otherwise - at the least it would be too exhaustive.
 
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First order of business was making sure the appetite got dialed back so I'd have no problem hitting a small deficit. I'm going to have to do this the next 3 days to make sure it all balances out in the end. Too funny cause this is actually my "back-up plan" for when things go awry...and I've been so pleased with myself for never having to put into play before. But, with THREE DAYS of caloric surplus under my belt in the last week, this does seem like "implement back-up plan to handle setbacks" time. For me that's keeping carbs to 80-120 grams a day and protein + sat fat at every single meal...blunts (hell, it practically erases) my appetite with a quickness but the downside is it's also high sat fat/low fiber, not my favorite nutritional combo. And it looked like this yesterday:


Liquids:
Coffee, 16 oz
Green tea, 8 oz
Lemon juice, 1 oz
Water, 70 oz

fruit:
banana, 1/2 medium
grapes, 1/4 cup

veggies:
cabbage. 1 cup shredded
tomato, 1 medium

dairy:
lowfat cheddar, 1/4 cup
non fat cream cheese, 1 oz

meat:
pork loin, 6 oz
ground beef, 8% lean, 4 oz
tuna salad, 1/3 cup
egg, 1 whole boiled

nuts/seeds/legumes/grains
almonds, 1 oz
brown rice/seaweed crackers, 1.8 servings
saltines, 2 crackers
whole wheat wonton wrappers

other
none

Total: 1616
Fat: 72 651 41%
Sat: 23 206 13%
Poly: 9 80 5%
Mono: 30 267 17%
Carbs: 122 450 29%
Fiber: 10 0 0%
Protein: 118 473 30%
Alcohol: 0 0 0%
 
cym, I gotta ask, because I like tuna salad. Do you make it with regular mayo, or something else? Of course, 1/3 of a cup -- it probably doesn't make much difference!
 
Tom: Normaly with olive oil, tomatoes, olives, bok choy and boiled egg whites- so good. In this case - just tuna, a hard boiled egg and mayo - sat fat and protein:)
 
1693

No complaints although it didn't go exactly as planned.... still got a minor deficit at 1693 cals. THE PLAN: I went to work armed with a blender full of skim milk, yogurt, choc. pudding, baker's cocoa, bananas & coconut extract. I knew exactly how much of what was in it and the idea was to pour it over crushed ice and randomly sip on it through the evening instead of my usual snacking on fruits & crackers. THE FLAW: It tasted unfriggingly, unexpectedly delicious - almost like a milkshake :jump: and I made the mistake saying "OMG, you have to taste this" and offering someone a glass.... which immediately led to basically giving away the whole thing cause once I "opened the door" by offering one person, I could not very well say "no...all mine" to everyone else who asked:drooling: . So "A" for effort...."F" for execution.:rotflmao:

Total: 1693
Fat: 59 533 33%
Sat: 17 155 9%
Poly: 7 62 4%
Mono: 23 208 13%
Carbs: 170 594 36%
Fiber: 22 0 0%
Protein: 128 512 31%
Alcohol: 0 0 0%

liquid:
coffee, 16 oz
lemon juice, 1 oz
water, 60 oz

fruit :
banana, 1 whole
grapes, 10
orange, 1 medium

veggie:
tomato, 1/2 small
beets, 6 slices

dairy:
skim milk, 2/3 cup
yogurt, plain, ff, 1/4 cup
lowfat cheddar, 1/4 cup

meat:
tuna salad, 1/3 cup
ground beef, 85% lean, 4 oz
sirloin, lean cut, 6 oz

nuts/grain/seeds/legumes:
almonds, 1 oz
black beans, 1/3 cup
flat out wrap, 1 wrap
seaweed/brown rice crackers, 1 serving
saltines, 4 crackers

other:
ff/ss pudding, 1 serving
bakers cocoa, 1 tblspoon
 
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