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Hi there Cym.

I have the same patience problem, but I can be very warm and caring most of the time. I'm one of those fast driver road rage types and I realize every day how I need to just chill out and enjoy life's moments, even if I'm in a line or whatever. I definitely need to get a handle on this and living in the midst of NYC doesn't help. I lived in Bermuda for a few years and I did chill out a bit because the pace was so much slower.

I would agree about the intuitive eating to a certain extent. Naturally slim people who dont have to watch their weight usually do not eat tons but just have a fast metabolism as is commonly believed by many overweight people. Rather, they enjoy eating but they're not that into it (like us) that they eat when they're not hungry.
 
Blancita said:
Hi there Cym.

I'm one of those fast driver road rage types and I realize every day how I need to just chill out and enjoy life's moments, even if I'm in a line or whatever.
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Hi Bancita! That reminds me of something I want to write down while I'm thinking about it. A couple of years ago I was in Hawaii on vacation. And on the last day, in the van ride from the hotel to the airport it was one of those tropical days: the sun was shining but not too hot, the wind was blowing this warm flower scented breeze, the sky was crystal blue...seriously perfect. And I'm taking it all in, knowing it might be years before I returned and trying to savor the last bit. And these two (40ish? maybe) ladies were in the van just carping on and on about stuff like how the driver was going "too fast" and traffic was too heavy, their meal last night had not been up to their standards and just every single little complaint you can imagine. I remember thinking that they were so caught up in their petty little momentary irritations that they were robbing themselves of the chance to experience joy and pleasure......that's what I need to remember when I find myself getting irritated and impatient in the moment - what possible joy am I robbing myself of?
 
cym said:
I woke up in an impossibly great mood...unwarranted by anything other than I just feel so damn good physically.

That is awesome, super. I need to exercise more. Especially after my last few weeks. Am thinking of taking the insurance off the car for the summer and just riding my bike or walking. Wouldn't that be cool? My grocery store delivers for free. That would get me in to better shape.
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Dear Cym, I just got back from an hour long bike ride and am encouraged that I can feel the workout in my legs. I'm doing something right! Also drinking my tea today which I haven't been doing because I havent' been generating the thirst. I didn't lose any weight this month. Isn't it true the more you do the more you want/are able to do? I want to go for a walk tonight and listen to my headphones.
 
Hey Kelly...I just logged on for the sole purpose of checking in w/ you on your diary and saw you'd already said "howdy" in mine:) . I'm so glad to see you moving with the "motion of the ocean again!"!!! Seems like the bike was a great addition/change for you. I'd go crazy not being able to drive..if my car's in the shop more than 2 hours I drive my mechanic's receptionist insane "Is it ready yet? No? I'll call back in 15 mins.".....I seriously do that. But if you can handle being carless, sounds like a good way of making sure you get daily exercise through the summer - and it's not like you can't just renew the insurance if you find it too big a pain in the butt.

So...you didn't lose any weight this month? Okay. So let's see the month was a total waste right? Oh, no, I forgot: you learned some valuable insight into your self and your relationship with the opposite sex, you learned to recognize and act on signals that it was time to see your MHP, you saw how easily it is to let nutrition/exercise fall by the wayside under stress so next time you're aware of it and prepared, you took steps to take care of you by telling the gentleman in question he needed to "back off" a little, you borrowed a bike, started riding it and found a new enjoyable outlet for exercise, you didn't give up, say "screw it" and let yourself keep rolling downhill clutching a box of Oreos, instead you picked yourself up, piece by piece, and kept trying until you're starting to get into the swing of being healthier just 'cause you want to be......hmmm, so you didn't lose any weight this month...so what? If you never lose another pound you'll still be a very cool girl in my book chica - and my book is quite selective:rotflmao:
 
cym:

I wish I discovered this diary sooner!

You seem to have a really good grasp on nutrition, food intake, and how to exercise your body very productively!

Keep it, I will definitely pass in, and I'll learn a thing or two about better eating habits for myself.

Just curious, it appears that you aren't taking any supplements. If this is true, i'm very impressed; because your diet seems very balance and you are getting all the nutrients you need.
 
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DeepGreen: Hi and thanks for stopping by. Yea, I kinda have a "thing" about supplements. I take a daily multi-vitamin to fill in the gaps but otherwise I tend to shy away - except for the random protein bar or drink when the day is looking like that's the only choice. Not to knock supplements or people using them....I'm just in love with the syergistic effect of food combinations and the relationship between whole foods and the human body. I could spend about five solid pages talking about the "wonders" of food when separated from the issue of calories alone....but I won't.

Kim: Hi there you busy bee!:jump:

Going to ATL right after work tonight and staying until Sunday afternoon - yay! Still not 100% sure what the food plan is going to be. I have one more higher calorie day left in the week so I'll probably use it Saturday. Since my body seems be approaching TOM and going into it's monthly "carb seeking" behavior right now, it's probably a really good idea to tote along a little bag of fruits and raw veggies for the long drive.

Calories on high end of range at 1943, sat fat on top end as well, fiber slightly low and protein on target. I guess TOM is right around the corner cause I OD'd on fruits/veggies. Dairy and meat good, time to go to fish for a couple of days though. Grain/nuts etc. kept low on purpose to "make room" for the all the fruit/veggies I was craving.

Target Actual
Calories: 1800-2000 1943
sat fat 16-20g 20 g, 10%
fiber: 30-40g 28g
protein: 100-125g 120g
Liquids: combined 100oz -100 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 11 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 4 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 16 oz/0 fish
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 3 servings

Liquids:
coffee, 8 oz
water, 70 oz

fruits:
apple, 2 small
blueberries, 1/2 cup
kiwi, 1 whole
grapes, 2/3 cup

veggies:
cabbage, shredded, 3 cups
carrots, shredded, 1/8 cup
corn, 1 large ear
onion, 1/4 cup diced
tomato, 1/2 medium
beets, 1/2 cup slices

dairy:
yogurt, plain, ff 1 cup
milk, skim, 1/4 cup
cottage cheese, ff, 1/4 cup
colby, 2% milkfat, 2.5 oz

meat:
ground beef, 85% lean, 4 oz
pork chop, lean, 4 oz

nuts/grains/seeds/legumes
flat out wrap, ww, 1 serving
pine nuts, 1 tablespoon
ww egg roll wraps, 1 serving

other:
olive oil, 1.5 tablespoons
pudding, ff/sf 1 serving
 
Hi cym, have a great weekend. Last night for dinner I had a beet salad. Reading about beets in your diary gave me a craving for red beets. :)
 
Good morning Cym. I have been reading about bipolar. I have lived with it for years but just last night was reading a book that opened my eyes to it. The good news is that its a brain disorder that affects the part of the brain that regulates emotions, the bad news is that its really hard on relationships. There's all kinds of stuff, but I wanted to explain why I was so down on myself last week.
 
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Tom: I always think it's awesome when I find myself craving something healthy like a particular veggie or fruit.:)
Kelly:Glad you are feeling better and good for you doing some research and getting some helpful insight into your disorder.:hug2:

Weekend's "away" are so good for relationship as well as the inner spirit....and sooo, sooo bad (potentially) for the waistline. In the plus column I feel refreshed, renewed and ready to buckle down again for the slog of everyday life....in the minus column, I did a terrible job of recording my food...lots of fruits, pretty much no veggies, some nuts, a couple of lattes, a couple mini-bags of popcorn, some hot wings, and a protein bar. In other words...a lot of junk:) I saved my surplus calorie indugence for two things I love but never consume: a great big 'ol frozen Banana Daquiri and a bowl of butter (the better to dip my crab legs into). I have zero idea of the calories in either - cause they are stuff that I don't really need to know because they are off my radar 99% of the time - normally I'm a red wine and olive oil kinda girl.

I'm debating with myself: to look it up or not look it up? I'm leaning toward the latter. It will probably be six months or more before I have either one again - it was a rare, planned indugence, not something I plan to incorporate into my regular diet, so do I really, really, need to know? Nah:rotflmao: And, as weird as this sounds, even to me, part of the "fun" (maybe not the right word) of such a nutritionally wicked week-end getaway was in the not knowing.

Of course, me being me, I'll probably start thinking of it in a day or two, look it up and fall on the floor in shock and dismay, if not at the calories - at the amount of sat fat.
 
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Cym you are the most disciplined calorie/macro-nutrient/nutrient recorder I have ever seen, and while that's wonderful (and I wish I had that intrinsic motivation as well), I hope you allow yourself to NOT LOOK IT UP! You feel refreshed and you indulged a tiny bit, don't take anything away from the lovely weekend you had! That's just my opinion though, you're probably tallying it up as I type this :) Have a good night and I'm happy you had fun!
 
I'm glad you enjoyed yourself Cym. Way to go.

Sorry I don't have much to say, I'm off to bed with a book which I'll probably last with for half a page. But thanks for the encouragement. Riding the bike has been good for me. Its the first thing I think of doing when I wake up, so that's good. Pretty soon I'll weigh myself and see if I'm getting back down to 180.

Its good to be on the forum.
 
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Lukewarm: yey it was fun...and yey I did make a stab at 'tallying it up' after the fact before giving up the attempt and going to bed:) I know it probably seems a tad anal but that kind of thing has hidden dangers for weight maintenance - which is my number one goal. It's called "food disinhibition" - which basically is eating one (or more) meals without having a pre-set limit on calories, content or portion size....and it's one of the top reasons for failing to maintain lost weight. The problem is the trip was more or less spur of the moment and I didn't give enough thought to an advance food plan. Oh well, you crawl before you walk and walk before you run.

So, Friday and Saturday's foods are lost forever in the haze of "food disinhibition":) but yesterday was back to me being my happily anal self....and very happy to note that calorie goal, and all macro goals met! Only nutitional goal not met was nut/grain/etc.

Target Actual
Calories: 1800-1900 1854
sat fat 16-20g 15g, 7%
fiber: 30-40g 39g
protein: 100-125g 118g
Liquids: combined 100oz +100 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 6 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 3 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 8 oz fish
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 3 servings




Liquids:
coffee, 24 oz (long car ride)
water, 80 oz

fruit:
apple, 1 medium

veggies:
zucchini, 1 large plant
hominy, 1/4 cup
tomato, 1/2 small fruit
recaito, 2 tablespoons
broccoli, 1 cup chopped

dairY
skim milk, 1/4 cup
yogurt, plain, fat free,
2% colby cheese, 1/4 cup shredded

meat:
egg white, 1 large
eggs, scrambled, 1/3 cup
bacon, two strips
talapia, 8 oz

grains:
w/w/ flour, 3/4
pistachios, 1 oz unshelled
popcorn, 4 cups popped

other:
olive oil, 2 tablespoons
 
Hi cym, I totally understand where you're coming from. I get very nervous when I can't keep track of the calories now. And I'm not even in the maintenence stage yet!
 
I haven't tracked in a few weeks and I started back up today. I'm not sure it really controls my eating, but I need to try something as I feel I will put on weight if I keep this up. I'm getting some ideas on your target nutritional goals, like fiber for example, but I'm not sure I've got the discipline to keep that, or anything else for that matter, up for more than a few days. I always go on these health kicks and then give up after a little while. Good for you for keeping it up!
 
Hey you

Still loving your journal. Even during my hiatus from the forum, whenever I did pop in, your journal was always the first that's read. Well I'm back and hoping to get back into the normalness. My fitday is looking bare as hell. Work and traveling do not make good food choices. I'm seriously thinking of downloading a fitness tracker on my balckberry just so I can still stay as anal when I'm out. :)
 
Cym: you are doing so awsome, keep it up!

Everytime I put something in my mouth I say to myself "Oh god, I have to post this in my journal, and everyone is gonna know what I am eating! And they may be disgusted with me!"

Its been definite motivation for me to be eating better. Enjoy your occasional days of indugences, they don't come by that often.
 
food disinhibition...Cym you are the BOMB. I learn so much reading your diary. I'm 20 pounds from goal weight and I'm more like Blancita, go in and out of good habits. I am so impressed with how much a part of your lifestyle you've made eating healthy and exercise. You are an example to us all and especially drive home the point that it ain't over once we lose our weight. LOL You go Cym!
 
Kelly: I'm loving that you're loving the bike riding so much! Obviously you probably know by now that I love running and lifting and think newborn babies should come equipped with teeny tiny barbells and Nike CrossTrainers...but in all honesty the most important thing is finding something you like so much you wake up looking forward to doing it....cause the most "optimal" work-out routine in the world doesn't mean diddly if you hate doing it so much that you just "don't"...so glad you've found something you can be passionate about.

MNEXERCISEGIRL: Glad you're back to "normalness" and I'm sure your family is really glad! ....although all the travel does sounds like fun...The fitness tracker on your blackberry really doesn't sound anal so much as just smart, efficient and prudent.

DeepGreen: I think that's probably why keeping a public journal is helpful...not only do you have to log it in once for your calories - you then have the "joy" of recording it in a public place. There's many a day when I've chosen the "good" over the "bad" simply because I just really, really didn't want to have to look at it the next day and write (for the billionth time) "saturated fat too high"

Blancita: Hey there! I think calorie tracking is a major pain too but, more often then not it works so I just keep sucking it up.:) On the fiber thing, honestly, even if you don't do anything else you might seriously want to look into enormous health benefits of getting a reasonably high fiber intake - everything from improving CV health to cancer prevention....for pure health reasons I think it's up there with limiting saturated fat. You know, the when I think about it, the calorie counting isn't so much about controlling how much I eat, but the choices I make that go into the calories. I'm not sure I can explain because it's just a kinda thought process....but say I'm at work and want a snack from my ever present bag of goodies (crackers, cheese, nuts, fruits, protein bar, etc.) My little brain just kinda goes:
"I'm hungry, I want some cheese and crackers...150 calories"
"But if I save 100 calories and the sat fat I can have chicken for dinner instead of fish"
"I know I don't want fish tonight, so I guess I'll just eat an apple"
And that (so it's been pointed out more than once) is what makes me such a fun dining companion!:eek:

2Skinny: Thank you! And look at you 20lbs away...that just "spitting distance". I totally understand the dipping "in and out" of bad habits because that's been a kind of lifelong pattern of my own. Honestly the only reason that it's less of a challenge now is my impetus to lose weight (and keep it off) was having a major health scare that was directly caused by my excess weight and crappy eating/exercise habits. Just knowing that I had to stop dieting and change my life instead was a tremendous motivating force.
 
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