T2: You asked: Do you agree we fall in love with what we do ?? ok, more like a love/hate ?? I don't know. I pretty much just "do what I do", even though goodness knows it's not the easiest path to follow, just because I don't any doubts that in the long run it's necessary. Maybe because I'm at the age where I know I need to start looking beyond the outward physical shell....science, family history, and common sense tell me that the quality of life I can expect over the next 50 years is largely going to be determined by what I consistently put into my body now. So, I "hate" the fact that when I feel like munching have 60 spare calories my mind cautions "you know an apple is a better choice than 2 sf fudge pops...but at the same time I "love" it.
It's all about me
- Thread starter cym
- Start date
So, it's nearly 2 a.m. but sleep is not going to happen...so I figured I might as well do my entry for today ...which beats sitting here staring off into space which is what I just realized I've been doing for the last hour.
We found out tonight that a friend has bone cancer and was told that although she's going to be starting a round of chemo, and nothing is carved in stone, yada, yada, she has a life expectancy of 3-5 years. This came out of nowhere...she was seeing the doctor about a persistant kidney stone problem. She is young, beautiful inside and out, has 2 kids, works two jobs and goes to school full time - just a tiny bundle of energy and laughter and strength. So we're all in shock. And I'm totally drained from talking about it all night...we just keep trying to put it in some type of perspective we can understand and then, hopefully, deal with.
And for some reason her roomate thinks that a surprise potluck party this week-end is just the ticket to "cheer her up"...and I think that's the stupidest thing in the world. But of course I'm going because ...well just because.
The thing is, I've been down this road, too many damn times...with both maternal grandparents, and my mother, and 3 of my aunts. And my friends are blessed because none of them know what I know. They don't know what it's going to be like when the shock wears off and the fear sets in, and the depression, and the feelings of hoplessness. They don't know what it's going to be like when the chemo starts and later when the pain gets stronger than the medication. And then later still which I am not going to think about right now.
So, being as this is not providing the temporary distraction I was hoping for I think I'm just gonna go cuddle my kitty and stare off into space some more and log my foods tomorrow when maybe things will look brighter.
We found out tonight that a friend has bone cancer and was told that although she's going to be starting a round of chemo, and nothing is carved in stone, yada, yada, she has a life expectancy of 3-5 years. This came out of nowhere...she was seeing the doctor about a persistant kidney stone problem. She is young, beautiful inside and out, has 2 kids, works two jobs and goes to school full time - just a tiny bundle of energy and laughter and strength. So we're all in shock. And I'm totally drained from talking about it all night...we just keep trying to put it in some type of perspective we can understand and then, hopefully, deal with.
And for some reason her roomate thinks that a surprise potluck party this week-end is just the ticket to "cheer her up"...and I think that's the stupidest thing in the world. But of course I'm going because ...well just because.
The thing is, I've been down this road, too many damn times...with both maternal grandparents, and my mother, and 3 of my aunts. And my friends are blessed because none of them know what I know. They don't know what it's going to be like when the shock wears off and the fear sets in, and the depression, and the feelings of hoplessness. They don't know what it's going to be like when the chemo starts and later when the pain gets stronger than the medication. And then later still which I am not going to think about right now.
So, being as this is not providing the temporary distraction I was hoping for I think I'm just gonna go cuddle my kitty and stare off into space some more and log my foods tomorrow when maybe things will look brighter.
1886
I did good.
Hit 6 out of 10 targets...left home feeling all energized and ready to tackle "the beast" of getting my nutrition firmly in hand....by the time I got home last night and it was time for the final meal I was in a very different frame of mind and just couldn't deal with the concept of actually having to figure out what I needed and preparing it, so the last "meal" of the day ended up being a crapload of airpopped popcorn just to bring up the calories.
I am dusting off and rewording the question that kept me going strong when I was in weight loss mode and random unpleasant life events would make me want to "screw it" some days towards maintaining a deficit or going to work-out. I'd sit down and honestly ask myself "Is there anything about this situation that is going to be improved by me staying fat?"...and the answer was never, ever "yes". So, last night's popcorn fest being put aside, in the days and months ahead I expect to be have more than a few days when I'm going to be asking myself "is there anything about this situation that is going to improve by neglecting my own health needs?"
Target Actual
Calories: 1800-2000 1886
sat fat 16-20g 14 g,7%
fiber: 30-40g 45g
protein: 100-125g 123g
Liquids: combined 100oz 96 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 8 servings
Dairy: 3 ff/low fat servings 2 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (fish 3x week) 6 oz/1 fish
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 7 servings
Liquids:
coffee,16 oz
lemon juice, 1 oz
water, 80oz
fruits:
apple, 1 medium
tangerine, 1 small
banana, 1/2 small
grapes, 1 cup
veggies:
spinach, 1 cup cooked
tomato, 1 medium whole
turnip greens w/ turnip, 1 cup
beets, 4 slices
dairy:
1% cottage cheese, 1/2 cup
ff cream cheese, 1 oz
meat:
anchovy, 1 oz
chicken breast, 1 small skinless
nuts/grains/seeds/legumes:
w/w flatout wrap, 1 wrap
peanuts, 1 oz chopped
walnuts, 1/2 oz
almonds, 1/2 oz
corn muffin, 1/4 muffin
beans, northern, 1/4 cup
popcorn, 1/3 cup kernels
other:
olive oil, 1 tablespoon
sf cookie, 2 cookies
I did good.
Hit 6 out of 10 targets...left home feeling all energized and ready to tackle "the beast" of getting my nutrition firmly in hand....by the time I got home last night and it was time for the final meal I was in a very different frame of mind and just couldn't deal with the concept of actually having to figure out what I needed and preparing it, so the last "meal" of the day ended up being a crapload of airpopped popcorn just to bring up the calories. I am dusting off and rewording the question that kept me going strong when I was in weight loss mode and random unpleasant life events would make me want to "screw it" some days towards maintaining a deficit or going to work-out. I'd sit down and honestly ask myself "Is there anything about this situation that is going to be improved by me staying fat?"...and the answer was never, ever "yes". So, last night's popcorn fest being put aside, in the days and months ahead I expect to be have more than a few days when I'm going to be asking myself "is there anything about this situation that is going to improve by neglecting my own health needs?"
Target Actual
Calories: 1800-2000 1886
sat fat 16-20g 14 g,7%
fiber: 30-40g 45g
protein: 100-125g 123g
Liquids: combined 100oz 96 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 8 servings
Dairy: 3 ff/low fat servings 2 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (fish 3x week) 6 oz/1 fish
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 7 servings
Liquids:
coffee,16 oz
lemon juice, 1 oz
water, 80oz
fruits:
apple, 1 medium
tangerine, 1 small
banana, 1/2 small
grapes, 1 cup
veggies:
spinach, 1 cup cooked
tomato, 1 medium whole
turnip greens w/ turnip, 1 cup
beets, 4 slices
dairy:
1% cottage cheese, 1/2 cup
ff cream cheese, 1 oz
meat:
anchovy, 1 oz
chicken breast, 1 small skinless
nuts/grains/seeds/legumes:
w/w flatout wrap, 1 wrap
peanuts, 1 oz chopped
walnuts, 1/2 oz
almonds, 1/2 oz
corn muffin, 1/4 muffin
beans, northern, 1/4 cup
popcorn, 1/3 cup kernels
other:
olive oil, 1 tablespoon
sf cookie, 2 cookies
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Curvie Girlie
New member
Hey--I'm sorry. My friend died at 19 of Hodgkin's disease--it was such a shock to us all. I was 20. I wasn't ready--but it made me learn we never are. She went through chemo and it regressed but it came back. Then the death was devastating. Then death bombarded me for years afterward--my dad's dogs, my dad, my grandma...life is beautiful. And so tough. Like a hot but dangerous boyfriend that is both wonderful and slightly abusive. Well, I honestly can't say because I've actually never dated an abusive person, but I'm just trying to weakly come up with an example.
Anyway, my point is, life is full of ups and downs, all unpredictable. Do we ever really toughen up? I have no answer to that.
Are we ever really prepared? I don't know.
Does it really matter, all this being healthy, eating right and exercising? I hope with every fiber of my being that the answer is yes. Trust me on that one.
I'm a hedonist. I love exercise because of the way it makes me feel. I love to eat because of the way it feels. I love love and longterm relationships because I feel good when I'm in them and am feeling it.
Sometimes I wonder if I put too much emphasis on sensuality. But how can I really change?
At least I'm not addicted to drugs like so many of my friends. And while my addition to food is unhealthy, I try my best to overcome it. But it's a daily struggle for me. I'm 5'7" and the heaviest I've been is 170 lbs. But I could see myself becoming obese and I had to do something about it. All I can hope for, and all I want in life is to be healthy and happy and free of disease. I can only pray and work hard, I guess.
Hang in there!
~HUG~
Tom, CurvyGirl, Blanca: thanks. Re my friend...she's actually in acute denial right now, having decided that the doc is wrong "he's only a GP after all" , the tests are wrong "labs are always making mistakes" , and until the results come in next week from the oncologist she's determined that she "just has arthritis". So, if she needs another week of peace until she has to deal with reality.....well, she's my girl.
Everything on point except sat fat over limit by 5g (big surprise with 8 oz pork), and I seem to be stuck on only 2 servings dairy. When I finally pull my head out of my backside with my indulgently poor meat choices, the trade-off will be a return to whole vs. non fat dairy....which I'll be more likely to actually eat. Although fiber good, only chose 4 servings in the grain, et al category. Off the top of my head I know I have: milled flax, rolled oats and groats, brown rice, black beans, oat bran, buckwheat, bulgur, red lentils, chickpeas, graham, rye & ww/ flour, ww egg roll dough, corn flour and pine nuts and popcorn.....so how in the heck I managed to only get in 4 servings in this category is beyond me?????????
Target Actual
Calories: 1800-2000 1821
sat fat 16-20g 25 g, 13%
fiber: 30-40g 34g
protein: 100-125g 149g
Liquids: combined 100oz 107 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 9 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 2 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 8 oz/+2 fish servings
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 4 servings
Total: 1821
Fat: 92 826 46%
Sat: 25 225 12%
Poly: 16 147 8%
Mono: 36 321 18%
Carbs: 131 388 21%
Fiber: 34 0 0%
Protein: 149 598 33%
Alcohol: 0 0 0%
Liquids:
coffee,16 oz
lemon juice, 1 oz
water, 90oz
fruits:
apple, 1 medium
grapes, 1/2 cup
veggies:
spinach, 1 cup baby leaves, raw
tomato, 1/2 small whole
recaito, 1 tablespoon
beets, 3 slices
cabbage, 1 cup shredded
olives, slightly under 1/4 cup slices
mushrooms/onions, 1/4 cup combined
dairy:
1% cottage cheese, 1/2 cup
ff sour cream, 1 tablespoon
meat:
talapia, 4 oz
pork loin, 8 oz
shrimp, 20 med
nuts/grains/seeds/legumes:
w/w flatout wrap, 2 wrap
walnuts, 1/2 oz
almonds, 1/2 oz
crackers, 4 saltines
other:
sf cookie, 2 cookies
Everything on point except sat fat over limit by 5g (big surprise with 8 oz pork), and I seem to be stuck on only 2 servings dairy. When I finally pull my head out of my backside with my indulgently poor meat choices, the trade-off will be a return to whole vs. non fat dairy....which I'll be more likely to actually eat. Although fiber good, only chose 4 servings in the grain, et al category. Off the top of my head I know I have: milled flax, rolled oats and groats, brown rice, black beans, oat bran, buckwheat, bulgur, red lentils, chickpeas, graham, rye & ww/ flour, ww egg roll dough, corn flour and pine nuts and popcorn.....so how in the heck I managed to only get in 4 servings in this category is beyond me?????????
Target Actual
Calories: 1800-2000 1821
sat fat 16-20g 25 g, 13%
fiber: 30-40g 34g
protein: 100-125g 149g
Liquids: combined 100oz 107 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 9 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 2 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 8 oz/+2 fish servings
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 4 servings
Total: 1821
Fat: 92 826 46%
Sat: 25 225 12%
Poly: 16 147 8%
Mono: 36 321 18%
Carbs: 131 388 21%
Fiber: 34 0 0%
Protein: 149 598 33%
Alcohol: 0 0 0%
Liquids:
coffee,16 oz
lemon juice, 1 oz
water, 90oz
fruits:
apple, 1 medium
grapes, 1/2 cup
veggies:
spinach, 1 cup baby leaves, raw
tomato, 1/2 small whole
recaito, 1 tablespoon
beets, 3 slices
cabbage, 1 cup shredded
olives, slightly under 1/4 cup slices
mushrooms/onions, 1/4 cup combined
dairy:
1% cottage cheese, 1/2 cup
ff sour cream, 1 tablespoon
meat:
talapia, 4 oz
pork loin, 8 oz
shrimp, 20 med
nuts/grains/seeds/legumes:
w/w flatout wrap, 2 wrap
walnuts, 1/2 oz
almonds, 1/2 oz
crackers, 4 saltines
other:
sf cookie, 2 cookies
2Skinny
New member
Oh Cym, I'm so sorry your friend has bone cancer. How awful. Your diary is so helpful to me - you're so committed to all the details of your eating plan. I know with a wit as quick as yours, you will be able to help your friend navigate all the stages of grief she's undoubtedly going through...starting with denial. (((Cym)))
TXS 2skinny/blancita: Hangin' in, holding on, smile, smile and smile - saving the sad and scared sh**less face for private moments.
It's been an interesting week-end. I've decided that of all the things I can possibly offer to any other human being, the most important is true kindness - which includes patience. Genuine kindness in deed, word and thought. Because life is short and none of us truly can ever know what is going on in someone's life or head at any given moment - outward appearances aside. The sincere smile, the genuine compliment, the few extra moments of patience towards family member, friend, co-worker or even random stranger has the potential to be the single moment that raises their spirits - just as the disdainful glance, cutting remark and impatient attitude can be the one straw that helps break their spirit. I think I am a kind person, but, even as a child, patience has never come easily to me. Kindness and patience in action - I'm going to work on it.
Calories over by 82, set cals for day at high end of maint. range and still managed to exceed slightly; all macro goals met - simply because I realistically lowered the bar somewhat to accommodate the nature of the day. All nutrition goals met.
Target Actual
Calories: 1800-2100 2182
sat fat 16-23g 13 g, 10%
fiber: 30-40g 42g
protein: 100-125g 169g
Liquids: combined 100oz 110oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 6 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 4 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 9+oz/+2 fish servings
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 7 servings
Liquids:
coffee,16 oz
lemon juice, 1 oz
minerauga, 13 oz
water, 80oz
fruits:
apple, 1 medium
grapes, 1/2 cup
pineapple, crushed, 1/4 cup
banana, 3/4 medium
veggies:
spinach, 1 cup raw baby leaves
avocado, 1 tablespoon mashed
dairy:
1% cottage cheese, 1/2 cup
yogurt, plain, ff, 1/2 cup
ff powdered milk, 1/4 cup (slightly less)
ff cream cheese, 1 oz
meat:
salmon, 5 oz
ground pork, 4 oz
shrimp, 10 medium
chicken, 2 wings
egg, 2 whites
nuts/grains/seeds/legumes:
w/w flatout wrap, 1 wrap
walnuts/almonds 1 1/2 oz combined
crackers, 2 saltines
ww flour 1/2 cup
milled flax, 2 tablespoons
oat bran, 1 tablespoon
vital wheat gluten, 1 teaspoon
other:
sf/ff pudding 3 servings
It's been an interesting week-end. I've decided that of all the things I can possibly offer to any other human being, the most important is true kindness - which includes patience. Genuine kindness in deed, word and thought. Because life is short and none of us truly can ever know what is going on in someone's life or head at any given moment - outward appearances aside. The sincere smile, the genuine compliment, the few extra moments of patience towards family member, friend, co-worker or even random stranger has the potential to be the single moment that raises their spirits - just as the disdainful glance, cutting remark and impatient attitude can be the one straw that helps break their spirit. I think I am a kind person, but, even as a child, patience has never come easily to me. Kindness and patience in action - I'm going to work on it.
Calories over by 82, set cals for day at high end of maint. range and still managed to exceed slightly; all macro goals met - simply because I realistically lowered the bar somewhat to accommodate the nature of the day. All nutrition goals met.
Target Actual
Calories: 1800-2100 2182
sat fat 16-23g 13 g, 10%
fiber: 30-40g 42g
protein: 100-125g 169g
Liquids: combined 100oz 110oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 6 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 4 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 9+oz/+2 fish servings
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 7 servings
Liquids:
coffee,16 oz
lemon juice, 1 oz
minerauga, 13 oz
water, 80oz
fruits:
apple, 1 medium
grapes, 1/2 cup
pineapple, crushed, 1/4 cup
banana, 3/4 medium
veggies:
spinach, 1 cup raw baby leaves
avocado, 1 tablespoon mashed
dairy:
1% cottage cheese, 1/2 cup
yogurt, plain, ff, 1/2 cup
ff powdered milk, 1/4 cup (slightly less)
ff cream cheese, 1 oz
meat:
salmon, 5 oz
ground pork, 4 oz
shrimp, 10 medium
chicken, 2 wings
egg, 2 whites
nuts/grains/seeds/legumes:
w/w flatout wrap, 1 wrap
walnuts/almonds 1 1/2 oz combined
crackers, 2 saltines
ww flour 1/2 cup
milled flax, 2 tablespoons
oat bran, 1 tablespoon
vital wheat gluten, 1 teaspoon
other:
sf/ff pudding 3 servings
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cinderelly
New member
Hey there I see you in a few diaries I read and I thought I would jump in and offer you some support - when I met Kelly she had nothign but great things to say about you and I am glad you have bene able to support here and help her through all this...
and damn girl you certaintly are organized and have it all listed down - heh hehe heheh - maybe I should take some notes
and damn girl you certaintly are organized and have it all listed down - heh hehe heheh - maybe I should take some notes
CoachCrimson
New member
Hey Cym, just wanted to pop in and say thanks for all the kinds words and advice and support and so on in my own journal. Wish I had made it around here sooner. I am sorry to hear about your friend, but you know laughter and happiness can do some amazing things, so perhaps with a friend like you a miracle is just waiting to happen.
I havent been able to read your entire journal, but I must say, it is refreshing to see someone lose a good amount of weight, keep it off, and still stay quite zealous in the battle to be healthy, rather than revert to old ways because they have reached their goal. and I mean zealous in a good way, lol! Hope to keep seeing you 'round.
I havent been able to read your entire journal, but I must say, it is refreshing to see someone lose a good amount of weight, keep it off, and still stay quite zealous in the battle to be healthy, rather than revert to old ways because they have reached their goal. and I mean zealous in a good way, lol! Hope to keep seeing you 'round.
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Tom: glad ya like the AV...gym closed this a.m. so it was play around on the computer or go shopping
Cinderelly: HI! Txs for stopping by...I think quite highly of Kelly as well.
Coach:"a miracle waiting to happen"....I love that idea so much, thank you...
Back when I was in the initial stages of my weightloss I was very rigid (imagine that!) about calories and the foods that made up those calories. My food lists during those days looked like a textbook of "clean eating"...I had an argument with a co-worker who told me I was "obsessive" (who me?) and insisted that if people just ate whatever they wanted when they were hungry and stopped as soon as they were full, calories, portion sizes, quality of food - all irrelevant. Yea, okay.
But I thought about that this morning when I was logging my food. Because even if I hadn't set my cal target on the low end, it would have ended up there anyway cause that's where my appetite naturally led - no more or less. And, even though I didn't get in all of my targeted servings, I still ended up making choices that met my required protein, fat and fiber needs. Yesterday I spent a couple of hours being surrounded by junk a-plenty....and had zero desire for any of. Wasn't a matter of "tricking" myself with water consumption, or filling up on fiber - it just didn't happen to be close to the time(s) of day I normally eat and there was absolutely nothing available that my body actually "needed"...it was like "oh look, chips and dip..ho hum"
So, to some degree, I think my co-worker may have had a point somewhere in her condescending argument. Our bodies probably are equipped to "instinctively" control quality/quantity of food intake. But, after years and years of overriding and confusing those controls with foods that contain calories without nutrients, I still believe it's not that black and white. But, I'm starting to believe, in another six months to a year or so, I can look forward to my body doing "the right thing" with minimal input from my brain.
Cals on target, set low to balance out previous day's over-maint. amount. Macros on point. Below target on servings on everything....but quality of those servings was really good...only "junk" came in the form of bacon and saltines.
Target Actual
Calories: 1700-1900 1694
sat fat 16-20g 14 g, 7%
fiber: 30-40g 41g
protein: 100-125g 126g
Liquids: combined 100oz 97 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 4 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 2 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 6 oz fish
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 5 servings
liquids:
coffee, 16 oz
lemon juice, 1oz
water, 80 oz
fruit:
mango, 1/2 fruit
grapes, 1/2 cup
veggies:
grits, 1/4 cup cooked
bok choy, 2 large stalks, chopped
dairy:
cottage cheese,1%, 1/2 cup
ff cream cheese, 1 oz
meat:
bacon, 4 thin strips
salmon, 5oz
anchovy, 1oz
eggs, scrambled,1/2 cup
grains/nuts/seeds/legumes
almonds, 1/2 oz
walnuts, 1 oz
flat out wraps, 2 wraps
crackers, 2 saltines
ww wonton wrappers, 8 wraps
other:
olive oil, 1 tablespoon
Tom: glad ya like the AV...gym closed this a.m. so it was play around on the computer or go shopping
Cinderelly: HI! Txs for stopping by...I think quite highly of Kelly as well.
Coach:"a miracle waiting to happen"....I love that idea so much, thank you...
Back when I was in the initial stages of my weightloss I was very rigid (imagine that!) about calories and the foods that made up those calories. My food lists during those days looked like a textbook of "clean eating"...I had an argument with a co-worker who told me I was "obsessive" (who me?) and insisted that if people just ate whatever they wanted when they were hungry and stopped as soon as they were full, calories, portion sizes, quality of food - all irrelevant. Yea, okay.
But I thought about that this morning when I was logging my food. Because even if I hadn't set my cal target on the low end, it would have ended up there anyway cause that's where my appetite naturally led - no more or less. And, even though I didn't get in all of my targeted servings, I still ended up making choices that met my required protein, fat and fiber needs. Yesterday I spent a couple of hours being surrounded by junk a-plenty....and had zero desire for any of. Wasn't a matter of "tricking" myself with water consumption, or filling up on fiber - it just didn't happen to be close to the time(s) of day I normally eat and there was absolutely nothing available that my body actually "needed"...it was like "oh look, chips and dip..ho hum"
So, to some degree, I think my co-worker may have had a point somewhere in her condescending argument. Our bodies probably are equipped to "instinctively" control quality/quantity of food intake. But, after years and years of overriding and confusing those controls with foods that contain calories without nutrients, I still believe it's not that black and white. But, I'm starting to believe, in another six months to a year or so, I can look forward to my body doing "the right thing" with minimal input from my brain.
Cals on target, set low to balance out previous day's over-maint. amount. Macros on point. Below target on servings on everything....but quality of those servings was really good...only "junk" came in the form of bacon and saltines.
Target Actual
Calories: 1700-1900 1694
sat fat 16-20g 14 g, 7%
fiber: 30-40g 41g
protein: 100-125g 126g
Liquids: combined 100oz 97 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 4 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 2 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 6 oz fish
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 5 servings
liquids:
coffee, 16 oz
lemon juice, 1oz
water, 80 oz
fruit:
mango, 1/2 fruit
grapes, 1/2 cup
veggies:
grits, 1/4 cup cooked
bok choy, 2 large stalks, chopped
dairy:
cottage cheese,1%, 1/2 cup
ff cream cheese, 1 oz
meat:
bacon, 4 thin strips
salmon, 5oz
anchovy, 1oz
eggs, scrambled,1/2 cup
grains/nuts/seeds/legumes
almonds, 1/2 oz
walnuts, 1 oz
flat out wraps, 2 wraps
crackers, 2 saltines
ww wonton wrappers, 8 wraps
other:
olive oil, 1 tablespoon
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I woke up in an impossibly great mood...unwarranted by anything other than I just feel so damn good physically. And, this has nothing to do with nothing, but I fell asleep last thinking how much I love my girlfriends and how lucky I am to have them in my life. There is never any cattiness, bickering, talking negatively about anyone behind their back. Even during the years when I was the "fat friend" surrounded by beautiful slim women any insecurity I felt came from outside the group, never from within. I always notice that when I spend any time with other women at some point the conversation always turns to criticism/gossip in some form or another about one of their absent "friends"...I can honestly say that in years that has never been the case with us. So, in the category of things to be grateful for.....my four adopted "sisters".
Cals in line, super happy with sat fat at 15g 8%, fiber a bit much at 51g, protein fine at 106g, met all serving targets except, once again, only two servings dairy.
Grocery shopping day today, will have to get at least one full fat or reduced fat dairy that I like enough to eat everyday. Very, very happy with fruit/veggie choices. Only had one real meat serving; it was a slice of meatloaf that was sooo good **loud lip smacking** And that's why I'm sure it was "end of the line" time for me to just continue focusing on the calories/macros. I had the cals/sat fat available for another serving of meatloaf but my little brain was weighing the options based on my expanded targets: "Hmm, one more slice of meatloaf will make this the last meal of the day but I'll be short on grains/veggies, skipping the extra meatloaf leaves another meal open for a veggie filled wrap"....and the wrap won!
Target Actual
Calories: 1700-1900 1742
sat fat 16-20g 15 g, 8%
fiber: 30-40g 51g
protein: 100-125g 106g
Liquids: combined 100oz 107 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 11 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 2 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 4 oz/+eggs+1 fish servings
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 6 servings
Liquids:
coffee,16 oz
lemon juice, 1 oz
water, 90oz
fruits:
apple, 1 medium
mango, 1/2 cup sliced
banana, 1/2 medium
pineapple, 1/4 cup crushed
veggies:
spinach, 1 cup cooked
beets, 3 slices
turnip greens w/ turnips, 2/3 cup cooked
corn, 1/4 cup
sweet potato, 1/4 whole small
avocado, 1 slice
pepper, red, 1 ring
dairy:
ff cream cheese, 1 oz
ff yogurt, plain, 1/2 cup
meat:
ground beef, lean, 4 oz (cooked wt)
anchovy, 1 oz
eggs, 2 whites 1 whole
nuts/grains/seeds/legumes:
w/w flatout wrap, 2 wrap
walnuts, 1 oz
almonds, 1/2 oz
beans, northern, 1/4 cup
popcorn, air popped, 1 1/2 cups yield
pine nuts, 1 tablespoon
other:
olive oil, 1 tablespoon
I woke up in an impossibly great mood...unwarranted by anything other than I just feel so damn good physically. And, this has nothing to do with nothing, but I fell asleep last thinking how much I love my girlfriends and how lucky I am to have them in my life. There is never any cattiness, bickering, talking negatively about anyone behind their back. Even during the years when I was the "fat friend" surrounded by beautiful slim women any insecurity I felt came from outside the group, never from within. I always notice that when I spend any time with other women at some point the conversation always turns to criticism/gossip in some form or another about one of their absent "friends"...I can honestly say that in years that has never been the case with us. So, in the category of things to be grateful for.....my four adopted "sisters".
Cals in line, super happy with sat fat at 15g 8%, fiber a bit much at 51g, protein fine at 106g, met all serving targets except, once again, only two servings dairy.
Grocery shopping day today, will have to get at least one full fat or reduced fat dairy that I like enough to eat everyday. Very, very happy with fruit/veggie choices. Only had one real meat serving; it was a slice of meatloaf that was sooo good **loud lip smacking** And that's why I'm sure it was "end of the line" time for me to just continue focusing on the calories/macros. I had the cals/sat fat available for another serving of meatloaf but my little brain was weighing the options based on my expanded targets: "Hmm, one more slice of meatloaf will make this the last meal of the day but I'll be short on grains/veggies, skipping the extra meatloaf leaves another meal open for a veggie filled wrap"....and the wrap won!
Target Actual
Calories: 1700-1900 1742
sat fat 16-20g 15 g, 8%
fiber: 30-40g 51g
protein: 100-125g 106g
Liquids: combined 100oz 107 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 11 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 2 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 4 oz/+eggs+1 fish servings
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 6 servings
Liquids:
coffee,16 oz
lemon juice, 1 oz
water, 90oz
fruits:
apple, 1 medium
mango, 1/2 cup sliced
banana, 1/2 medium
pineapple, 1/4 cup crushed
veggies:
spinach, 1 cup cooked
beets, 3 slices
turnip greens w/ turnips, 2/3 cup cooked
corn, 1/4 cup
sweet potato, 1/4 whole small
avocado, 1 slice
pepper, red, 1 ring
dairy:
ff cream cheese, 1 oz
ff yogurt, plain, 1/2 cup
meat:
ground beef, lean, 4 oz (cooked wt)
anchovy, 1 oz
eggs, 2 whites 1 whole
nuts/grains/seeds/legumes:
w/w flatout wrap, 2 wrap
walnuts, 1 oz
almonds, 1/2 oz
beans, northern, 1/4 cup
popcorn, air popped, 1 1/2 cups yield
pine nuts, 1 tablespoon
other:
olive oil, 1 tablespoon
1838
Last night was hard...eleven o'clock at night and my mind (not my body...I've learned to at least make that distinction) decided I was hungry, famished, starving in fact. I didn't need any more food..just my vicious little hungry hormones come to play. I hate it when that happens, and thank goodness it's not that often 'cause it's a little slice of hell.
In the category of things to be grateful for: weight lifting. Seriously. It's such an integral part of my life I can't even remember how it felt to "be me" without it. Unlike running, which I love but not until I "get into it" which can take up to 20 or 30 mins., I get this little "rush" as soon as I load that first plate and every thing in the world disappears but me, my body and that piece of iron. I swear it raises my testosterone level the rest of the day...I walk around feeling all macho and strong and confident - before heading for my pedicure.
And the being a "more patient human being thing"....I can only say "I'm trying but it ain't easy".
Calories and macro targets all met. I've met my 3 fish servings this week so happily chowed down on chicken. Figured out how to get my dairy in..skim milk plus unsweetened baker's chocolate (just ground cocoa beans basically), it's kind of a trade off because the diary negates the healthy benefits of the chocolate but I need the dairy in a palatable form.
Target Actual
Calories: 1800-2000 1838
sat fat 16-20g 17 g, 9%
fiber: 30-40g 52g
protein: 100-125g 120g
Liquids: combined 100oz 104 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 8 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 4 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 16+ oz (not all that lean)
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 4 servings
liquids:
coffee: 16 oz
minerauga, 8 oz
water, 80 oz
fruits:
grapes, 1/2 cup
apple, 2 medium
blueberries, 1/2 cup
pineapple, crushed, 1/4 cup
mango, sligtly under 1/4 cup pureed
veggies:
pepper, red, 1 ring
spinach, cooked, 1 cup
dairy:
milk, skim, 1/4 cup
low fat colby, 1 oz
cottage cheese, 1%, 1/4 cup
yogurt, plain, ff, 1/2 cup
meat:
Chicken, wing, 1.13lb yield before cooking
nut/grains/seeds/legumes
flatout w/w/ wraps: 2 servings
walnuts, 1/2 oz
buckwheat, slightly under 1/4 cup
other:
bakers chocolate, unsweetened
olive oil, 1 tablespoon
pudding, sf/ff, 1 serving
Last night was hard...eleven o'clock at night and my mind (not my body...I've learned to at least make that distinction) decided I was hungry, famished, starving in fact. I didn't need any more food..just my vicious little hungry hormones come to play. I hate it when that happens, and thank goodness it's not that often 'cause it's a little slice of hell.
In the category of things to be grateful for: weight lifting. Seriously. It's such an integral part of my life I can't even remember how it felt to "be me" without it. Unlike running, which I love but not until I "get into it" which can take up to 20 or 30 mins., I get this little "rush" as soon as I load that first plate and every thing in the world disappears but me, my body and that piece of iron. I swear it raises my testosterone level the rest of the day...I walk around feeling all macho and strong and confident - before heading for my pedicure.
And the being a "more patient human being thing"....I can only say "I'm trying but it ain't easy".
Calories and macro targets all met. I've met my 3 fish servings this week so happily chowed down on chicken. Figured out how to get my dairy in..skim milk plus unsweetened baker's chocolate (just ground cocoa beans basically), it's kind of a trade off because the diary negates the healthy benefits of the chocolate but I need the dairy in a palatable form.
Target Actual
Calories: 1800-2000 1838
sat fat 16-20g 17 g, 9%
fiber: 30-40g 52g
protein: 100-125g 120g
Liquids: combined 100oz 104 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 8 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 4 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 16+ oz (not all that lean)
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 4 servings
liquids:
coffee: 16 oz
minerauga, 8 oz
water, 80 oz
fruits:
grapes, 1/2 cup
apple, 2 medium
blueberries, 1/2 cup
pineapple, crushed, 1/4 cup
mango, sligtly under 1/4 cup pureed
veggies:
pepper, red, 1 ring
spinach, cooked, 1 cup
dairy:
milk, skim, 1/4 cup
low fat colby, 1 oz
cottage cheese, 1%, 1/4 cup
yogurt, plain, ff, 1/2 cup
meat:
Chicken, wing, 1.13lb yield before cooking
nut/grains/seeds/legumes
flatout w/w/ wraps: 2 servings
walnuts, 1/2 oz
buckwheat, slightly under 1/4 cup
other:
bakers chocolate, unsweetened
olive oil, 1 tablespoon
pudding, sf/ff, 1 serving
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lukewarm
New member
Cym your thread is fascinating! I don't like weight lifting (trying to learn to just do it anyway) but I think that your thoughts on how you love lifting now are intriguing. I like reading your food intake but I wonder how you put some of it together at times.
I just read farther down and saw that your friend has bone cancer, I'm terribly sorry. You and your friends are amazing, and I miss my friends more than ANYTHING, I don't know what it would feel like to know one of them has cancer. That's devastating...I'm really sorry
I just read farther down and saw that your friend has bone cancer, I'm terribly sorry. You and your friends are amazing, and I miss my friends more than ANYTHING, I don't know what it would feel like to know one of them has cancer. That's devastating...I'm really sorry
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Lukewarm: yea, I Iist my foods in "deconstucted" form so I can imagine someone looking at it and going "huh"? It's just that I'm aiming for a certain balance of nutrients and if wrote down "home made calzone" that tells me nothing really, but if I write "1/2 whole tomato, 1 oz lowfat cheese, 2 egg whites, 1/4 cup onion, 2 egg whites, 1 tablespoon vital wheat gluten, 1/4 cup whole wheat flour, 1/2 cup spinach", that tells me everything.
2Skinny: txs, some days it just feels good to feel good
No run for me today...been working last week and this week on slowly increasing the weights. After Friday's routine I made the mistake of running on Saturday and went through Sunday with DOMS from hell....which never, ever happens to me. So, instead of running this am I'm going to go do a nice long strech routine this afternoon (it's my day off work). I kinda miss having that morning post run "rush" though. My morning exercise will consist of laundry and scrubbing my bathroom - don't think that's going to get the endorphines flowing.
Cals and macros all at target, short 1 grain/nut/etc. serving. Having that one non "fat-free" dairy is helping get the 3 dairy servings in. Between that and the skim milk, I think that's now a non-issue. Just noticed something kind of cool. Ever since I started paying attention to getting a certian number of servings in from each group, I stopped having those "this would have been a better choice than that" issues. And, even with the inclusion of non "non fat" dairy and meat, the sat fat is under control without me having to count sat fat grams through the day (that got old quick
) I'm pretty much just setting my calorie target in the morning and going through the day paying attention only to balancing the number of servings in each group against calories....which is pretty easy....and when I put everything into fitday the macros just fall into line "on their own". I think I'm on to something going in this direction......sweet.
Target Actual
Calories: 1800-2000 1893
sat fat 16-20g 18 g, 9%
fiber: 30-40g 30g
protein: 100-125g 130g
Liquids: combined 100oz 96 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 9 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 3 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 12oz/0 fish
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 5 servings
Liquids:
coffee, 8 oz
mineragua, 8oz
water, 80 oz
fruits:
Apple, raw, 2 small
blueberries, 1/2 cup
tangerine, 1 small
veggies:
spinach, 1cup cooked
onion, 1/4 diced
pepper, red, 1 ring
tomato, 1 large, whole
corn, 1 large ear
broccoli, 1 cup chopped
dairy:
yogurt, plain, ff, 1/2 cup
cottage cheese, ff, 1/4 cup
lowfat colby, 1/4 cup shredded
meat:
ground beef, 85% lean, 4 oz
sirloin, lean, trimmed to 0" fat, 8 oz
nuts/grains/seeds/legumes
pine nuts, 1 tablespoon
flat out ww/wrap, 2 servings
milled flax, 1 tablespoon
ww wonton wrappers, 1 serving
other:
Olive oil, 1 tablespoon
sf/ff pudding, 1serving
honey, 1 tablespoon
Lukewarm: yea, I Iist my foods in "deconstucted" form so I can imagine someone looking at it and going "huh"? It's just that I'm aiming for a certain balance of nutrients and if wrote down "home made calzone" that tells me nothing really, but if I write "1/2 whole tomato, 1 oz lowfat cheese, 2 egg whites, 1/4 cup onion, 2 egg whites, 1 tablespoon vital wheat gluten, 1/4 cup whole wheat flour, 1/2 cup spinach", that tells me everything.
2Skinny: txs, some days it just feels good to feel good
No run for me today...been working last week and this week on slowly increasing the weights. After Friday's routine I made the mistake of running on Saturday and went through Sunday with DOMS from hell....which never, ever happens to me. So, instead of running this am I'm going to go do a nice long strech routine this afternoon (it's my day off work). I kinda miss having that morning post run "rush" though. My morning exercise will consist of laundry and scrubbing my bathroom - don't think that's going to get the endorphines flowing.
Cals and macros all at target, short 1 grain/nut/etc. serving. Having that one non "fat-free" dairy is helping get the 3 dairy servings in. Between that and the skim milk, I think that's now a non-issue. Just noticed something kind of cool. Ever since I started paying attention to getting a certian number of servings in from each group, I stopped having those "this would have been a better choice than that" issues. And, even with the inclusion of non "non fat" dairy and meat, the sat fat is under control without me having to count sat fat grams through the day (that got old quick
) I'm pretty much just setting my calorie target in the morning and going through the day paying attention only to balancing the number of servings in each group against calories....which is pretty easy....and when I put everything into fitday the macros just fall into line "on their own". I think I'm on to something going in this direction......sweet.Target Actual
Calories: 1800-2000 1893
sat fat 16-20g 18 g, 9%
fiber: 30-40g 30g
protein: 100-125g 130g
Liquids: combined 100oz 96 oz
Fruits/Veggies: combined 6-9 servings 9 servings
Dairy: 3 servings 3 servings
Meat: 8 oz lean, (+ fish 3x week) 12oz/0 fish
Grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 6 servings 5 servings
Liquids:
coffee, 8 oz
mineragua, 8oz
water, 80 oz
fruits:
Apple, raw, 2 small
blueberries, 1/2 cup
tangerine, 1 small
veggies:
spinach, 1cup cooked
onion, 1/4 diced
pepper, red, 1 ring
tomato, 1 large, whole
corn, 1 large ear
broccoli, 1 cup chopped
dairy:
yogurt, plain, ff, 1/2 cup
cottage cheese, ff, 1/4 cup
lowfat colby, 1/4 cup shredded
meat:
ground beef, 85% lean, 4 oz
sirloin, lean, trimmed to 0" fat, 8 oz
nuts/grains/seeds/legumes
pine nuts, 1 tablespoon
flat out ww/wrap, 2 servings
milled flax, 1 tablespoon
ww wonton wrappers, 1 serving
other:
Olive oil, 1 tablespoon
sf/ff pudding, 1serving
honey, 1 tablespoon