I still have to plug my numbers into fitday for yesterday's totals..I know it was within my 1500 limit which technically makes today my maint. cal day...but tomorrow is my day off and I'm gonna make zillion calorie banana bread, so I'll stick out today at 1500 and come Tuesday go chomp, chomp, chomp - cause my bb is gonna include raisins and almonds and possibly a cream cheese frosting.
I've been thinking about a random conversation with a co-worker the other night about oatmeal cookies...it was one of those rare "light bulb" moments so I think I'm just going to record it and come back later and put in my boring food.
So, it's after work and a couple of us are just sitting around talking and a coworker (I'll call Susie) is chowing down on some oatmeal cookies and offering them around.
me: no thanks
susie: but oatmeal is good for you
me: yeah, but all that butter, sugar and flour is not
susie: I hate you (I think she was kidding)
.... a couple mins. later
susie: don't you get tired of always dieting
me: (not having the energy/desire to explain that there is a difference between chosing to eat healthy and "dieting") I just think it's more fun to be able to walk into any store and buy what I want than to eat cookies
susie: (still munching) yeah, I hate shopping anymore, nothing I want to buy fits right...my weight just keeps going up and down (she is a serial dieter)...I wish I could just stay thin
me: wouldn't it just be easier to not eat a bunch of cookies and stay the same size than to keep gaining and losing weight?
susie: (still munching) I hate you (I hope she was still kidding)
So, the lightbulb moment, and probably the reason this conversation has stuck in my head for a couple of days is that, despite having been doing this for over a year, I think that's the first time I really, really "got it" deep down inside where it counts....sometimes it's just easier to not eat the cookie.