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Hi everyone!
I'm new to this forum but I really think this diary is going to help me to keep my weightloss on track, and hopefully pick up some weight loss buddies along the way. I should probably start from the beginning..
I guess food has always been my comfort (pretty much everyone's story), but I guess I've dealt with a lot of big things in my life so far and I'm only 20. Among these things inclue sexual abuse and parents divorcing, among heaps of other stuff, but I really don't want sympathy. I just want to understand why I got so big, and I think psychologically, my past has really affected me.
I'm only 165cm (5'5) and got to around about 82kg (180 pounds) and I had just had enough. I was sick of always feeling self conscious and felt like no one could ever love me if I wasn't happy with myself. I ended up moving away from my home town and thankfully as a 19th birthday present my mom got me some sessions with a personal trainer- who really kicked me into gear.
I started counting calories and recording my food intake (about 1200-1500 a day), and started going on 2 40 min walks a day. The weight starting coming off quite quickly and before I knew it I had lost about 16kg. With my lifestyle before, I did NO exercise, sat behind the computer all day and night, ate whatever I wanted and I might add HUGE amounts/portions, plus I had friends who socialised around bad food, which really did not help me.
So around christmas last year I was around 66kg. I joined a gym and got a personal trainer, and aimed to go about 5days a week. During the initial weightloss I didn't hit one plateau. So when I reached about 64kg I hit a MAJOR one. I didn't lose weight for months, and I think that is what really set me back. It started screwing with my head and I was on the verge of giving up and even started to try some stupid fad diets. I was just desperate to lose the last bit. So that is basically my struggle at the moment. Weighed myself this morning and I was 61.7kg (around 135 pounds).
I'm really trying not to fall back into my bad habits of binge eating. I used to eat sooooo much food, it was really disgusting. I don't think I ever felt hungry once during that time, I just wanted the food and really thought I was doomed to being overweight forever. I've never been a big meat eater and I recently found out I'm lactose intolerant, so I'm now a vegan and feelin quite good about it health-wise.
I'm going to use this blog to hopefully inspire some people and to keep myself on track. I'll start with my stats, then I'll tell you guys what I'm planning to eat for the day:
Age: 20
Height: 5'5
Highest Weight: 82kg
Lowest Weight So Far: 60kg
Current Weight: 61.7
Goal Weight: 54-55kg
I'd just like to add that my long term goal is to be in this weight range by about Feb next year. (I feel like I need a deadline so I stop slacking off). I'm going to be moving back home and starting university, so I'd like to feel completely comfortable with myself by then.
Todays eats (I'll start writing my calories on here too):
Breakfast:
wholegrain cereal 200
lite soy milk 80
10 or so grapes 40
Morning Tea:
apple 50
Lunch:
2 slices organic seed bread 200
1/4 avocado 75
salad 50
Arvo Tea: apple 50
Dinner:
homemade LF lentil burger 145
asian side salad 220
hommus/sauce 50
So that's my menu for the day. I also drink 750ml of water after each meal and a couple of cups or either green or peppermint tea a day. I'm going to try SO hard not to slip up. Lately I've been eating really well during the day and at work. Then I get home and I start bingeing. So I'm pledging to stop this destructive behavior right now. I will start exercising again 5 days a week, starting on monday and record that also. I think my main problem right now is my food intake and lack of motivation.
Do you guys think I should record my weightloss daily or weekly? I think I'm quite addicted to the scales, but in a way it does motivate me
Thanks for reading!
I'm new to this forum but I really think this diary is going to help me to keep my weightloss on track, and hopefully pick up some weight loss buddies along the way. I should probably start from the beginning..
I guess food has always been my comfort (pretty much everyone's story), but I guess I've dealt with a lot of big things in my life so far and I'm only 20. Among these things inclue sexual abuse and parents divorcing, among heaps of other stuff, but I really don't want sympathy. I just want to understand why I got so big, and I think psychologically, my past has really affected me.
I'm only 165cm (5'5) and got to around about 82kg (180 pounds) and I had just had enough. I was sick of always feeling self conscious and felt like no one could ever love me if I wasn't happy with myself. I ended up moving away from my home town and thankfully as a 19th birthday present my mom got me some sessions with a personal trainer- who really kicked me into gear.
I started counting calories and recording my food intake (about 1200-1500 a day), and started going on 2 40 min walks a day. The weight starting coming off quite quickly and before I knew it I had lost about 16kg. With my lifestyle before, I did NO exercise, sat behind the computer all day and night, ate whatever I wanted and I might add HUGE amounts/portions, plus I had friends who socialised around bad food, which really did not help me.
So around christmas last year I was around 66kg. I joined a gym and got a personal trainer, and aimed to go about 5days a week. During the initial weightloss I didn't hit one plateau. So when I reached about 64kg I hit a MAJOR one. I didn't lose weight for months, and I think that is what really set me back. It started screwing with my head and I was on the verge of giving up and even started to try some stupid fad diets. I was just desperate to lose the last bit. So that is basically my struggle at the moment. Weighed myself this morning and I was 61.7kg (around 135 pounds).
I'm really trying not to fall back into my bad habits of binge eating. I used to eat sooooo much food, it was really disgusting. I don't think I ever felt hungry once during that time, I just wanted the food and really thought I was doomed to being overweight forever. I've never been a big meat eater and I recently found out I'm lactose intolerant, so I'm now a vegan and feelin quite good about it health-wise.
I'm going to use this blog to hopefully inspire some people and to keep myself on track. I'll start with my stats, then I'll tell you guys what I'm planning to eat for the day:
Age: 20
Height: 5'5
Highest Weight: 82kg
Lowest Weight So Far: 60kg
Current Weight: 61.7
Goal Weight: 54-55kg
I'd just like to add that my long term goal is to be in this weight range by about Feb next year. (I feel like I need a deadline so I stop slacking off). I'm going to be moving back home and starting university, so I'd like to feel completely comfortable with myself by then.
Todays eats (I'll start writing my calories on here too):
Breakfast:
wholegrain cereal 200
lite soy milk 80
10 or so grapes 40
Morning Tea:
apple 50
Lunch:
2 slices organic seed bread 200
1/4 avocado 75
salad 50
Arvo Tea: apple 50
Dinner:
homemade LF lentil burger 145
asian side salad 220
hommus/sauce 50
So that's my menu for the day. I also drink 750ml of water after each meal and a couple of cups or either green or peppermint tea a day. I'm going to try SO hard not to slip up. Lately I've been eating really well during the day and at work. Then I get home and I start bingeing. So I'm pledging to stop this destructive behavior right now. I will start exercising again 5 days a week, starting on monday and record that also. I think my main problem right now is my food intake and lack of motivation.
Do you guys think I should record my weightloss daily or weekly? I think I'm quite addicted to the scales, but in a way it does motivate me
Thanks for reading!
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