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December 27

Hello!!! Sorry I've been MIA... ya know craziness with holidays! But now only New Years awaits and I think we will be staying in or possibly going to Utah to visit my brother... but who knows!

Still holding at 139, even seen 138 and as high as 141... TOM is currently visiting so who knows really. Also we've decided to invest in a better scale. The digital one we have is not very acurate or at least I dont think it is. You can take your weight 5 different times and it be different every time and then sometimes its consistant. Any suggestions????

Stephen got the ultimate gift.. a new truck! Well new to him. Its a 03 Chevy Silverado 1500 4X4. He got it from a wholesaler and got a wicked deal on it. We are both very excited! Now I can finally have my car back!!!

I also got a juicer, which I am wicked excited about. Can't wait to get over to whole foods and get a ton of fruit and veggies and make a nice healthy drink/snack!

I found a pic from August 07 from Steps going away party. I wanted a the file for it because my Mom loves it and I wanted to get it framed for her for her birthday. We have one framed in the living room. Its a decent pic of us... but now that I've seen it... HOLY!! Huge changes in me, like I had no idea I looked so bad. Or that I would wear that in public... eek. However I was having a excellent hair day, that's about the only good thing in the pic.....oh and of course Step looks great, but he always does! Check it out and let me know what you think!
 
Wow! You do have beautiful hair! Love the pic too... Not sure I've seen any of what you look like now though, where can I find one?

About the scale... I have a digital one too that will have the exact same reading (right down to the decimal point) for days whether it's morning, night, I'm clothed or not... I have no suggestions for you on a good scale, sorry.

I think that's awesome about your mom wanting your help and I think you're going about it just right; treating her like a client I mean. If you could help her get healthier, what an amazing gift that would be! I wish you nothing but success!

BTW- you called me a Super Mom in my thread (much thanks) but if you managed to lose 7 pounds during that past semester AND run a race, with all the stress and busyness going on, you're no slouch in the "Super" department yourself! Kuddos to you!!! :hurray:
 
Thanks Paula! I have a love hate relationship with my hair, but I assume most women do. The love hate mostly because its naturally curly which is a gift and a curse, but I do have good hair days most of the time... so I can't completely complain.

I am very optimistic about my mom reaching her goals. I think my biggest challenge is going to be dealing with her negativity and stubbornness, but it will be a great learning experience on my part either way.

Aw, being a virgo I always feel like I don't do enough and although I did accomplish a bit this past semester I could have done far better in all areas of my life and I hope to outdo myself this coming semester!

As for a recent pic I attached one below I haven't really taken many pics of myself since fall. Like most women I like to hide from the camera!

Thanks for stopping by lady!!
 
December 28

I know its not quite the new year, but Step and I sat down last night and talked for a long time about everything including what our goals are for 2009. I like to center many of my resolutions around things not having to do with weight-loss, it seems pointless to me when my physique is always on my to-do list. Our resolutions mainly have to do with getting ahead financially. Its not like we don't pay our bills, we are actually pretty well-off if you ask me... we just don't have much left over at the end of each month and that's what we are working on, building our savings for the future.

We also talked fitness and weight-loss goals and mine are as follows:

1. See 129lbs by March 1st (-10lbs)
-Hit 134 by February
-Maintain once at 129 then re-evaluate (possibly shoot for 119)
2. Run 10 miles/week
-1.5 miles/day or larger chunks
-HIIT/Interval training
3. Strength Train
-Increase strength to match Fedrich
4. PT for back/imbalance
-DAILY
5. Join the JCC
-Spin
-Aerobics
-Bootcamp
6. Nutrition
-Cal Count
-Cut SUGAR!!!
-Cut eating out
-Meatless meals
-JUICER!!!!!!
7. RACES
-1+ per month (if possible)

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And that's all folks. My main goal is for this to the be the year I am comfortable in my body in no matter what I am wearing. Step and I talked alot about what goes on inside my head and I have a lot of mental work ahead of me more than anything. I have a severe case of fat girl syndrome and I let it get in the way of me. Inside I am still that 215 lbs girl who gets made fun of and who has no friends and feels constantly judged because I am the biggest girl in the room (even when I'm not). To be able to say thank you when someone says I look nice instead of pointing out what doesn't look so nice. My mind just needs to play catch up... but its going to be my biggest challenge and I have never faced it... but its time to.

Okay so starting now I am on my journey to 129. The scale reads 139ish, I will take a beginning reading tomorrow morning and then get measurements sometime during the week. I am excited because I know I can do this and the only thing in the way is myself which I can easily push aside! Its going to be a great next couple of months and I am excited for the challenges ahead but prepared for all it brings. I'm doing this! For me! For the fat girl I was and for the FITT female I want to be. Look out cause here I COME!
 
I'll say it.... WOW!!! What a difference!! You have worked your butt off! Be proud of your 10 year lifestyle change! You'll hit it this year for sure!! I HEAR YA on the VIRGO thing.... I've been battling it for 32 years!!! It's a curse, and a blessing.... much like your hair!!! ;) :D Have great ones!! :)
 
December 29

Thanks JZ, I really feel like 09 is MY year! I am super excited and optimistic for what lies ahead.

I feel like I am on a good start. It seems dodging the sweets for the next few weeks is going to be the hard part. I think I let myself get used to eating them more often and now that they are everywhere I'm finding it to be the only temptation.

I had a killer workout last night, even though it was only 30 mins, it was 30 mins of non-stop strength and cardio. I did a Firm dvd and at the half way mark called it quits. I haven't trained in waaaayyy to long so I wanted to take it easy. But I am still wicked sore today and it feels great! Tonight is a run night plus a good stretch...

Eats today have been spot on. I put my goal into fitday and its suggesting a 1000 cal deficit to reach 130 by february 1st. I'm hoping to accompish this mostly through the diet part with only 200-300 cals a day from exercise. I find it difficult to acuratly calculate how many cals I'm actually burning, but knowing what is going in my mouth is pretty simple.

My motivation is pretty high and as usual it has leaked over to Step. His goals are mostly set around getting his aerobic level back and total body toning. We hope to be in awesome shape by May and then do the P90x to get ripped over the summer. We have been wanting to do the P90 for several years but just havent done it yet... its our year.

Like I've mentioned I'm super excited and I'm hoping that motivation runs over to everyone around me. I set up my first consultation with my mom for this coming Satruday. Just a typical preliminary meeting to discuss her goals and get beginning measurements and devise a plan of attack. To begin I really want her to concentrate on nurtition and then I will start her with a walking plan and then we will strength train hard core on Saturdays. But nurtition comes first in my eyes.... I have high hopes but I'm trying not to get overly excited because I know its going to be a challenge.

So that's all for now, I'm currently sitting at 950 cals for the day. My goal is 1406 per day before exercise, so if I run for an hour I could bump it up an extra 200 cals or so and that's the plan!!!
 
Thanks Paula! I have a love hate relationship with my hair, but I assume most women do. The love hate mostly because its naturally curly which is a gift and a curse, but I do have good hair days most of the time... so I can't completely complain.

I am very optimistic about my mom reaching her goals. I think my biggest challenge is going to be dealing with her negativity and stubbornness, but it will be a great learning experience on my part either way.

Aw, being a virgo I always feel like I don't do enough and although I did accomplish a bit this past semester I could have done far better in all areas of my life and I hope to outdo myself this coming semester!

As for a recent pic I attached one below I haven't really taken many pics of myself since fall. Like most women I like to hide from the camera!

Thanks for stopping by lady!!
Wow! You are beautiful! And I can see a big difference from the first pic to this one! Nice job! :hurray: As for your goals for 2009, if anyone can reach them, it will be you! YOU GO GIRL! :D
 
I found a pic from August 07 from Steps going away party. I wanted a the file for it because my Mom loves it and I wanted to get it framed for her for her birthday. We have one framed in the living room. Its a decent pic of us... but now that I've seen it... HOLY!! Huge changes in me, like I had no idea I looked so bad. Or that I would wear that in public... eek. However I was having a excellent hair day, that's about the only good thing in the pic.....oh and of course Step looks great, but he always does! Check it out and let me know what you think!

Hey, Dee. I have to agree that it's a real nice picture, but you are looking so much better these days. Although I will also agree you were having an awesome hair day, but most of your shots are with your hair back, so not much to compare.

Time to get another couples shot to frame for mom. :D
 
I have a severe case of fat girl syndrome and I let it get in the way of me. Inside I am still that 215 lbs girl who gets made fun of and who has no friends and feels constantly judged because I am the biggest girl in the room (even when I'm not). To be able to say thank you when someone says I look nice instead of pointing out what doesn't look so nice.

hey gorgeous--I SAW this, and the fact that you're facing it, realizing you need to change your inner dialogue, is a beautiful thing :) Hey--it's going to take some TIME to get where you want to be, mentally. If you think about, you sort of had an abusive (verbally) relationship with YOURSELF. It's gonna take some time to get over it--but you will! Resolve to be kinder to yourself :) Love ya! :grouphug:
 
hey gorgeous--I SAW this, and the fact that you're facing it, realizing you need to change your inner dialogue, is a beautiful thing :) Hey--it's going to take some TIME to get where you want to be, mentally. If you think about, you sort of had an abusive (verbally) relationship with YOURSELF. It's gonna take some time to get over it--but you will! Resolve to be kinder to yourself :) Love ya! :grouphug:

I'm already realizing its going to be hard. I find it weird and wrong to compliment myself because I don't feel like I deserve it. But after my run last night I felt great and I inwardly patted myself on the back. The real challenge will be when school starts back up.. that's typically when the negative thoughts and fat girl comes out. I can't help it because there are soooo many gorgeous girls running around and I just feel waaaaaay below par and I make myself invisible. But I'm going to try hard this semester to NOT do that.... we will see how it goes!
 
December 30

Its Tuesday and I'm ready for this week to be over. I dont know if I am going to have to work on Friday or not. I think our office will be open but I doubt there will be any work for me to do. Ha the story of my life! I think I might just take it off. Step is off... maybe we could hit up the indoor rock gym or something like that.

Today my legs are still wicked sore and ugh I'm just going to push through. Tonight I'm going to do upper body and run. Hopefully my legs will loosen up so that I can get a good full body workout in the end of the week. Maybe I can convince Step to do the circut with me, we always have fun when we do it together.

My Moms birthday is this weekend and I am planning a girls night out, dinner, drinks, and the casino! I think she will LOVE IT!!

So that's about it for now. I'm just around 1080 for cals for today. We are having burgers for dinner so that shouldn't be too many cals. As long as I dont have a popcorn repeat like yesterday!

Cheers!
 
I find it weird and wrong to compliment myself because I don't feel like I deserve it.

Even after looking at your before and after pictures?!?!?! C'mon, Lady!!! :toetap05: The transformation is amazing, you really need to put a pic of yourself at your heaviest next to a Halloween picture, and stick it on your bathroom wall and admire your progress, courage, and dedication every day!!!

I can't help it because there are soooo many gorgeous girls running around and I just feel waaaaaay below par and I make myself invisible. But I'm going to try hard this semester to NOT do that.... we will see how it goes!

Move to Santa Cruz. The chicks here don't give a fuck! LOL, I guess there are some pretty girls, but usually I find myself to be pretty high ranking and the best dressed, obviously (LOL!!! Just kidding, seriously!!! :p)
 
I dont know if I am going to have to work on Friday or not. I think our office will be open but I doubt there will be any work for me to do.

Same boat, over here--I'd really prefer to take it off but I could use the money!

Today my legs are still wicked sore and ugh I'm just going to push through. Tonight I'm going to do upper body and run. Hopefully my legs will loosen up so that I can get a good full body workout in the end of the week. Maybe I can convince Step to do the circut with me, we always have fun when we do it together.

CUTE! :) Running should get rid of some lactic acid in your legs and yes, certainly get rid of some soreness :)

My Moms birthday is this weekend and I am planning a girls night out, dinner, drinks, and the casino! I think she will LOVE IT!!

Niiiiiiiiiiiiiice! Sounds great!
 
Love all the photos. You are such a beautiful woman; and yes, great hair! Great job on reaching 139 and it's freakin' fantastic you are already setting your 2009 goals. I have no doubt you will make them all happen.

As for helping your Mom that is so awesome. I bet you have your work cut out for you but it looks like she is motivated and that will really help her stay the course. I admire the fact that you are so diligent with counting your calories. I have tried that over the years and I would lose more weight when I did my journals but now I just can't seem to make the time to do it. It's a great tool for weight loss, so proud of ya!!

Keep on going girlie. You are an inspiration!
 
Love all the photos. You are such a beautiful woman; and yes, great hair! Great job on reaching 139 and it's freakin' fantastic you are already setting your 2009 goals. I have no doubt you will make them all happen.

As for helping your Mom that is so awesome. I bet you have your work cut out for you but it looks like she is motivated and that will really help her stay the course. I admire the fact that you are so diligent with counting your calories. I have tried that over the years and I would lose more weight when I did my journals but now I just can't seem to make the time to do it. It's a great tool for weight loss, so proud of ya!!

Keep on going girlie. You are an inspiration!

Thanks lady! I really think the older I get the better looking I get. I recently went through some old photos and I don't even kind of look the same. In my heaviest days I was very boyish in my look and how I dressed. Now I feel like I'm making up for all that lost time!!

I am super excited about my Mom wanting my help and I really think this is her time!

Thanks for all the kind words lady!! And happy new year! :grouphug:
 
January 5, 2009

Ah another Monday. It was not easy getting out of bed this morning after a long weekend. But I did and I even got a 30 min Kickboxing session in. How about that? I feel its a good start to my first week of 09.


I had my first consult with my mom and it went waaaay better than expected. Her day 1 is today and I will be checking in with her via email throughout the week and then we will meet again on saturday for weigh in and interval training. I feel this is IT!!!

As for myself, things are good. I have the weeks meals planned out as well as an idea of what type of exercise I want to do. I picked up the Feb. issue of Shape and there is an article about losing 10 pounds this month. I'm going to try the workout tonight and keep on with my running. Step and I did our circuit New Years Day and I impressed myself running at 5.8 like it was nothing. Even Step was like "whoa your cruisin!"

I'm going to try to keep myself from getting hungry today, but I've eating like a pig the last few days that it might be difficult. My mom's birthday was yesterday and I took her out Sat. night for a girls night. We went to an upscale mexican resturante called El Pinto. Got a pitcher of margaritas... I was driving so I had 1 but I think Mom, TJ, and J (moms bestest bud) were all flying right! But the food was good.. but heavy as mexican food goes... then we had her family celebration yesterday which included cake and ice cream... so I kinda don't want to eat anything today. But I'm going to keep is simple. Drink my green tea and eat lots of fruits and veggies... get the goods flowing if you know what I mean!!!

Anyway, thats all for now!

Cheers and happy new year!
 
Missed you!!!

Happy NEW YEAR BEAUTIFUL!!! :party:!!! I love all your pictures...!!! :beating:


Congrats on your NEW LOW WEIGHT!! WOW!!! You have come so far, its AMAZING!!! I really get inspiration from you are your dedicated efforts!! I love how you juggle it all!! Impressive I tell you!!! Go GIRL!!! :hurray:

...I COMPLETELY understand you on the Fat Girl inside talking all the time too...:puke:...."WE WILL CONTINUE THE FIGHT" and get past all that one POSITIVE AFFIRMATION after another...ONE AT A TIME....;) YAY!!! Then the Subconscious mind WILL RECIPROCATE and BELIEVE ALL WE SAY ABOUT OURSELVES and MAKE US FEEL LIKE WHAT WE SAY WE ARE!!! :cheers2:
...SO LET'S START SAYING NICER THINGS TO OURSELVES like you said!! :D:!

http://weight-loss.fitness.com/club-challenges/27098-6-week-new-year-s-goal-challenge.html
....A little challenge if you are up for it....;)
 
Happy NEW YEAR BEAUTIFUL!!! :party:!!! I love all your pictures...!!! :beating:


Congrats on your NEW LOW WEIGHT!! WOW!!! You have come so far, its AMAZING!!! I really get inspiration from you are your dedicated efforts!! I love how you juggle it all!! Impressive I tell you!!! Go GIRL!!! :hurray:

...I COMPLETELY understand you on the Fat Girl inside talking all the time too...:puke:...."WE WILL CONTINUE THE FIGHT" and get past all that one POSITIVE AFFIRMATION after another...ONE AT A TIME....;) YAY!!! Then the Subconscious mind WILL RECIPROCATE and BELIEVE ALL WE SAY ABOUT OURSELVES and MAKE US FEEL LIKE WHAT WE SAY WE ARE!!! :cheers2:
...SO LET'S START SAYING NICER THINGS TO OURSELVES like you said!! :D:!

http://weight-loss.fitness.com/club-challenges/27098-6-week-new-year-s-goal-challenge.html
....A little challenge if you are up for it....;)

Happy New Year Gorgeous!! And thank you! :hug2:

The fat girl inside is my only demon and I'm finding that positive reinforcement from ME is what its going to take... but I think its going to be a long time before that chubby girl inside is gone for good.

And yes!! I love a good challenge!! :smash:
 
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