Oh no, that is poo. The scales are funny old things, when they aregoing down by loads, you love them and stand on them every day... And when its a numbver you definitely DONT want to see, they somehow become completely invisible. I swear, at the moment, I could be standing in a scale shop, and see nothing but empty shelves.
I knooow, I look at people who have been skinny there whole lives, and think ITS NOT FAIIIIIIR!!!!! And I know I probably wouldn't have listened, but I wish, that when I had my perfect little figure at 14 years old (and thought I was fat!) that someone had sat me down, when I first started gaining weight, and told me that I would NEVER have a nice body, ever, ever, ever, if I carried on eating all the junk I was eating. I wish that I could time travel back in time NAKED, and show the 13 year old me, exactly what my body is like now. I wish I had made better choices in the past. I wish I hadn't wasted so much of my 20's being fat, when it is the decade where it is most nice to be slim. But then, one day the present will be the past, so if we make good choices right now, we wion't regret it, the only thing we will ever regret is doing nothing.
I am finding it hard too. But it can get easier, it will get easier, there is no reason why we can't do this.