God, I AM SUCH A FATTIE/MAMMA WHALE/HIPPO. Ate horrible today, the stress of exams are finally kicking in. I have a major one friday and i am freaking the heck out. Its the one exam out of the five i have to do that i think i might fail. My nerves are going 90.
I was eating good today until 6.30 when home and away came on. I asked my sister where was the chocolate raisins i had given her on sunday. She never ate them so there was a full pack left. The bag contained 225 grams, and for every 100 grams there is 400 cals. I consumed roughly 200 grams. Yep ye guys can do the maths for yourself. SHOCK-D-FUK-ING.
Then i ate a plate of chips( fries for ye yanks

) and ketchup. I am so ashamed of myself.
Whats worse is that i am hardly doing any study, just thinking of it

So i don't really have an excuse at all for the bold eating. I have 3 days before my exam and i need to kick my fat ass in gear. STUDY D SHIT OUTTA IT. Also my sister has lost nearly 2 stone. She is looking amazing. I am so proud of her. While i am so happy for her, i am so angry at myself for having a full week of on/off days of eating( 5/8 days BOLD

)
What is wrong with me?? How come i cant control my nerves because i am so stressed at the moment. I don't want to be studying i want to be exercising and losing a whole lotta weight. Ugh, priorities should be my study for the next 3 weeks but i can't control how i want to be loosing pounds at the moment. Not studying. Also i know once exams are over, i would rather be studying than exercising. LOL. You just can't win can you?! ha
Hope ye are all well

Lots of love and hugs xxxxxxxxx
Thanks for the lovely words
Kate. But i had a shit day today, could be dealing with my stress alot better and also STUDYING ALOT HARDER. Just caught up with your diary there hun, and again BEST OF LUCK TOMORROW, you will be great. So proud of you

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Awh thanks
Verobc, i know, i have another 3 weeks but they are seriously dragging. Its horrible, SO HORRIBLE

hope you are well chick, must catch up on your diary there

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