Thanks ladies for the lovely replies

Today i've consumed 1280 calories and have done ZERO exercise so far today. Im feeling abit run down because ive picked up a cold

eeeeeeeek just my luck! Was supposed to be heading out tonight but im too sick so going to stay home and watch xfactor instead!! ( HI RUTH I HOPE YOU WILL BE WATCHING TOO FELLOW XFACTOR FAN

) Anyways im kinda happy i cant go out tonight because the drinks would wreak my calories consumption for the day. Im thinking after xfactor tonight i will do an exercise dvd. My sister said yesterday that my legs are half the size they used to be which was sweet of her.
Im going to take Kate's advice and write in my diary today what i have eaten:
Breakfast: Mini fruit salad ( grapes, half a banana and apple)
Lunch: Wholemeal sandwhich with 2slices of ham, 4 tomatoes, 2 slices of pickes.
Dinner: Pasta with a whole can of Tuna and 4 cherry tomatoes. UNREAL.
Snacks: Yougurt with a side of jam flavouring, tea with skimmed milk and 2 ginger biscuits
Day 09 - Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?[/b]
Woah, where do i start with this one?!
I have always been fat,like practically since i was about 6. I still remember at 6 that i was looking at other kids, and noticing that i was slightly bigger than them. Anyway people have not been so nice towards me being overweight. When i was in primary school, kids would make the odd comment and it hurt ALOT, but ive always been a really proud person and i would never let it show in my face that i was hurt. Now, saying all this, not EVERY kid had called me fat, only a select few, but still you always remember the mean comments. When i went into secondary school, or as Americans call ' high school' one of my friends was CONSTANTLY putting me down, about everything, including my weight, after about 2 years of her being a complete b!tch, i left go of her.
The most biggest memory of someone being completely cruel about comments of me being overweight were my two aunts and uncle. Me and my sister( who has a weight problem too) went down to my aunts house during the summer of 06. She lived on a big big farm, and i really enjoyed the scenery. Me and my sister were looking forward to a relaxing holiday, my god it was anything but that. When we went down there, my other uncle and aunt were going to stay there too. Immediatly when my sister and myself arrived the 3 of the adults were making small comments about our weight.
It got to the stage where one of my aunts would go with me and was like ' if you lose 2lbs a week, in blah blah blah time, you will be this thin, and if you become this thin i will buy you a designer bag' I was like yeah yeah, agreeing because i was kinda getting hypnotised by it all. My other aunt had taken my sister aside and told her ' if you lose this much weight i will give you 200 euro'
They also made us walk up and down the yard and then told us to move into the fields because ' this neighbour was staring down fom his house to see what was going on'. It honesly felt like boot camp. Then my uncle got on the floor in the yard and started doing situps. And then asked us to do them, welllllllllllllll we ran inside the house. One of my aunts is OBSESSED with being skinny and skinny people, so to be a tiny bit overweight is not acceptiable, and we were OBESE. lol
Also another day they brought me and my sister into a health shop and told them that we have slow metablolism and what tablets could we take to help us lose weight. When we would be eating at the table my uncle would practically stare into our plates to see what we were eating and always commented on anything we ate. You could feel him staring at you with every bite you ate that my body would begin shaking. Another time he declared to the room ' will i bring down the scales' Ohhh and another comment he said before was that we were on about fishes that eat people alive and he said to me ' they would have a long time eating you'
At the time you have to remember i was 15 and my sister 13. We were so so young. Also my parents had not gone to my aunts for the weekend, and at that age i had no voice to say ' fuck off' to them. So we were stuck there for the 7 days. When we came home my mom and dad could not get over how we were treated.
Oh god thats pretty long. I seem to ramble away haha
Originally Posted by
Time4Change
Ohh my love, I know you have been awfully busy lately, and you are very popular!

I feel like i don't talk to very many people on here yet, sorry if I bug you. Lol
College sounds exhausting for you, but it sounds like you are still doing good on calories! So glad that it's the weekend finally!

Yay for new boots, you have now given me the urge to go buy some! Lol
Amanda!!! YOU DO NOT BUG ME AT ALL HUN. Please please dont think that!! You are such a nice girl, im sorry if i dont write here as much as i used to but college has begun and it makes me extremely tired and busy


Thanks a mill chick, i had another good day with the calories today so im chuffed

Oh hun you must buy boots too

the ones i bought her like a mix between uggs and boots. THEY ARE SOOO COMFY!
Thanks for the kind words chick, you are the best
Originally Posted by
overtherainbow

Hope you got back on track today my lovley xxx It happens to everyone from time to time, don't worry about it. It sounds like you are completely stressed and exhausted, so go easy on yourself xxxxx
Hello my dearest Ruth, yeah thank good m'dear i got back on track today and yesterday!! Thursday was just a bad bad day. Thanks hun, im just wreaked from my week

Hope you will be watching xfactor later

xoxox
Originally Posted by
katehunibun
Heya sweetie.
Sorry to see you are having ups and downs

hope today was a good day.
Try putting your food on your diary entries. i have found that has been a massive help with keeping it under control. I even managed to keep the damage to a minimum when i was on holiday cos i kept a log of what i ate. I always use to conviently forget what i had eaten before.
When i first started going to the gym i was SOOOOOO self concious. I couldn't do weights co it was full of really fit guys and the wall was one giant mirror which i couldn't cope with either!!! But after a while i realised that they didn't take any notice of me. NOW i don't even think about it. Even the guys that were weight lifting and posing in the mirror say hi and compliment on how well i am doing. I even had a joke with one of them, he was complaining that he hadn't gained and i was amazed that they go there to gain!!! He was well fit and quite bulky. He even seemed shocked when i said i still had 2 stone to lose. Now he always chats. I would have never ever talked to someone like that before, i would always have felt intimidated cos he was so hot and i was a heffa!!!
You will get there sweetie, just keep working at it. Also, i saw that you hated your stomach. Well, i hate mine, it is horendous but it's soooooooo much better since i havebeen doing crunches EVER MORNING i can't emphasize how much of a difference it has made and it only takes 5 mins or so.http://weight-loss.fitness.com/t/49832/irishprincess-weight-loss-tra-la-la-la-la/300
Chin up lovely, we are with you all the way.
Hello Kate, today was a great day calories wise

I have put my foods in my diary today

Omg, i know how intimadating that can be, all the hotties working out in front of ya. Those guys sound so so nice to have complimented you

I hope the guys in that gym i go to are half as nice as them

Oh hun stop, you were never a heffa!!
Thanks so much for the great advice Kate, i really appreciate it

I will have to start doing those crunches and bridges every morning!!
I hope all is well chick xoxox