Inspired, Motivated, & Ready: Part 2

I ended up making it to the gym yesterday. I ran 2 miles on the treadmill then did 1 mile on the elliptical with highest incline and level 10 resistance. I didn't do any arm work, just abs.

I went over a little on calories, I ate dinner too early and ended up snacking on cheese and crackers. I took medicine at 8:30PM so I passed out pretty early. When I woke up this morning to go to the gym, I just could not get out of bed. I figure a day of rest won't be so bad since I am sick right now so I also just need to take it easy.

The goal today is to keep the calories a little lower to make up for yesterday and not working out today. Weigh in is tomorrow and I really don't know what to expect. And guess what - I haven't drank at all this week! And since I'm working tonight and tomorrow night, I won't be doing so then either. But maybe Saturday night :D

Til tomorrow!
 
Hey Sarah - I have been sick too! Crappy timing because I was feeling really motivated for the week. Oh well I really want to loose some before Vegas so next week will have to be better. I didn't step on the scale this morning either because we had popcorn at 11pm so I knew all the salt would skew the reading and I didn't want to be more disappointed in myself today. Today's a new day! Let's finish it right! Have a great healthy weekend!
 
Okay, a few things.

1) I realized that I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I'm not sure if it qualifies as an eating disorder, but lately I've been finding myself eating "secretly." For example, the other night my roommates and I had a bonfire. We were drinking beer so I had to go back to the house a few times to go to the bathroom. When I got in the house, I instantly opened up the pantry to find something to snack on. I grabbed a huge handful of roasted almonds and put them in my pocket and ate them in the bathroom. I'm so embarrassed to admit that I did that, but I was worried that if my roommates came inside while I was going to the bathroom, they would see me shoving my face with food. I've also been excusing myself from the party without telling anyone so I can go raid my kitchen and eat alone before I go to bed.

2) Two of the classes that I'm taking this semester have started off with the topic of gluttony and food. I had to read a short story called "The Fat Girl" which basically was about a girl who had always been heavier, who would sneak sandwiches under her shirt into her room to eat alone, hide candy bars in her underwear drawers to eat at night. In another reading, the topic of gluttony was being explained. It mentioned how food is glamorized - we are made to think it makes us happy, hundreds of thousands of cooking and baking magazines are sold in stores, so many commercials dedicated to the food industry. And how people need to think more about what they eat - what it's nutritional value is going to give your body. To appreciate the smell, texture, taste of the food, not just eat it as fast as you can to feed your appetite. I myself am a fast eater, I need to focus a little more on what and how I'm eating.

3) My clothes are not fitting how they used to. I am unhappy with the way I look, I don't want to wear jeans, I'd rather wear leggings all the time. My waist is getting bigger, the fat around my stomach all came back. I can feel a difference in my inner thighs - they are rubbing together more. My face has filled out. I can just see that all my progress is disappearing.

With that being said, I have come to terms with the fact that I have a problem, and it's going to take time to get back to where I was at the beginning of this year. I want that body back, I want that confidence back. And I will get it back.

Today is what I believe is day one. Because I'm starting over. I haven't snacked at all, kept my meals very proportioned and included all food groups. I worked out, I feel satisfied.

I'm not going to be updating here very often, because I'm sick of writing the same old things. I'm always doing good, and then I ruin it. Or I say "oh, new week, I'll do good this time." And then it doesn't happen. So what I'm going to do is take some time away from here, and I'm going to work towards a happier and healthier me. I'm taking into account the things I've been reading and learning at school. I look at it as a sign that I need to be more serious about my health and fitness. I'm even cutting alcohol out for a while (minus this Saturday night, for my best friend's 21st birthday) but I've realized that I can go out with my friends and not drink and still have a lot of fun. I don't need the alcohol and half the time the reason I overeat is because of it.

I will still come on this site to read up on the other journals, but for now, mine is taking a vacation. I hope that in a few weeks I can bring lots of good news and write about my progress.

Lisa - Good luck with your half marathon this weekend, I can't wait to hear all about it! YOU KICK THAT MARATHON'S ASS!!!

That's all for now. I'll be back when I actually have some good news to share :waving:
 
Hey Sarah,

I totally get everything you are saying and I feel the same way. It's actually good timing because I have to go away for some time too - with this whole re-org going on at my work I can't risk coming to this site too often because I have been told they are going to be checking employees access and where they spend most of their time during the day. I wish you luck with getting your confident body back - I will come and update when I have good news or when I finally get Internet access at home. We got a laptop so now we are just waiting for Shaw to put out a good deal.
You totally have it in you and I will miss you lots! Looking forward to reading the good news updates! Take care friend! xoxoxo
 
Do what you have to do, Amiga! It's the balance of life. The ups and downs. It's funny though, that because of the downs we are able to appreciate the ups more. Go figure right!!?

I too have cut out alcohol for a while too. It's been 9 days so far. :) Can't wait to bring sexy back with you!
 
Alta818 said:
Do what you have to do, Amiga! It's the balance of life. The ups and downs. It's funny though, that because of the downs we are able to appreciate the ups more. Go figure right!!?

I too have cut out alcohol for a while too. It's been 9 days so far. :) Can't wait to bring sexy back with you!
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Great job on getting rid of the alcohol! It's a tough habit to kick, even if it's not a habit, it's just hard to kick in general! WE BRINGIN' SEXY BACK, YEAHHHH :p

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Updates:

So of course, I had a great week but as soon as the weekend hit, the hard work wore off. I had great workouts (intervals with inclines on the treadmill - running 7mph... my ass has been so sore from these!!) and great eating (smaller balanced meals, less snacking). I honestly felt great last week.

This past weekend was my best friend's 21st birthday party. We took a school bus downtown to the bars. I got my fake ID taken at the second bar we went to, which everyone said is very hard to get into with a fake. But I look at it as a good thing - less going out, less drinking! Which has helped me to decide...

I am making a promise to myself to live alcohol free until Halloween! 6 weeks... I can do it! I am still going to go out with my friends to parties and stuff but I am NOT drinking. I even put it on my facebook that I'm doing this so now I have to prove to EVERYONE that I can do it!

Today I'm tracking calories already, I'm going to step class at the gym tonight and I'm feeling good about this next month living without alcohol because these next 6 weeks are going to be the healthiest 6 weeks I've had in a long time! And I hope to lose these last 7 pounds by Halloween!

Also I have an interview today at a coffee shop downtown at school! :) My first job was in a coffee shop... I loved it, so I'm praying I get the job!

Stay healthy everyone!
 
Funny thing:

In my dream last night, I went to McDonald's and I ordered some hotcakes. When I opened the box there were 4 hot cakes - the serving size on the container said 2 hotcakes for 250 calories. I grabbed the other two pancakes and smooshed them in my hands and tossed them into the bag. LOL obsessed with calorie counting much!? I got a kick out of that :smilielol5:
 
I love that you went to McDonald's in your dream! I laughed so hard when I read that! You must be really focused!
I also love the goal of not drinking till Halloween - can't wait to see how it goes! I know you can do it - as long as you set your mind to it! You will for sure drop those 7 pounds that way! I love that we are both back in the game! Can't wait to start feeling better about all the squishyness I gained back. Take care!
 
:D!! Hhaha....Gotta love that McccccyyyD's is in your dreams too!! hahahah!!! :D! Comedy! ...In your dreams you are very health conscious! Amazing! I would have all the pancakes in my dream! hahah...Shows you are focused!! Great for you!!!

Workkkk ittttt baby, WOoooorkkk it!!! :D!
 
Thanks girls! Worked out AND ate healthy 4 days in a row - haven't drank since Sunday... first slip up tonight though, I smoked a bowl with my roommates... I ate a piece of string cheese, some grapes, a small handful of pretzels, a lot of handfuls of berry capn crunch (OMG sugary cereal when high is the best LOL) and a tortilla w/peanut butter... great!!! Well, let's look on the bright side... I did good all week, plus it probably would have been the same thing if I went out and drank.. just fewer calories ;) Back on track in the morning, no doubt about that! I'll probably weigh in Saturday morning, I won't have a scale tomorrow!
 
skkroll said:
Thanks girls! Worked out AND ate healthy 4 days in a row - haven't drank since Sunday...
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Awesome work this week and that wasn't too bad of a slip up at all - drinking empty calories would have been way worse because then you would have ate pizza or the whole box of sugary cereal! Next time the bowl comes around plan out your snacks in your head first and keep lots of water around - put some lemon in it to make it more interesting. This has been working for me this week!!:sifone: Finally able to control the muchies - it also helps not having hubby around. Actually it was funny because last night when I was talking to him on the phone he mentioned chips and right away I couldn't get the thought of them out of my head and that's what happens all the time when he is around - he gets those bad thoughts in my head. I told him he needs to think to himself from now on unless it's thoughts about veggies, lol!! Have a great weekend!! I think next week is going to be great!!
 
Lisa - It definitely could have been worse! I still added in the calories I ate (about 500) to my day's worth so I ended around 1,900. If I drank it would have been more like 2,500! I tried really hard to eat healthy munchies (I ate the grapes and string cheese first) but my roomies started cookie tortellini and eating pudding... so I wanted sweet and salty! I should probably just pass on joining them next time :( I'm glad you have found a way to control your cravings! And I also agree that tomorrow will be a great week! This weekend has been somewhat boring so far but I feel good that I haven't been tempted to drink yet!

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Yesterday I ate pretty good until I got home - well, it wasn't even bad. My parents brought home pizza from the bar and I ate two slices. I fought with myself for almost 2 hours on whether to work out or not... eventually I just put my shoes on and hopped on the treadmill! Ran a mile then did 2 miles of inclined intervals and I felt great afterwards. That makes 5 days in a row of working out and healthy eating (for the most part!)

Today I weighed in at 140.2 which I was pretty happy with. If I didn't eat the pizza it may have been different but the last time I got on the scale it said 142.6 so I'll take it! I'm feeling great and looking forward to another good week.

I have been drawing stars on my calendar for every day that I work out and I'm going to give myself $2 for every star up until Halloween and then I can use that money for a new pair of jeans or something! I'm also gonna give myself a bonus $5 for every week that I work out at least 5 days. I think this is some good motivation because I am dying to buy a new pair of jeans but I gotta slim down a bit first :p

Have a healthy weekend everyone!
 
Quick update on a few things...

#1 - I broke my no drinking rule last night. I went 12 days without drinking, which is ok. I just decided to go out to dinner last night with my parents at a bar and I had 2 Bud Select beers (99 cals each). I didn't feel like I cheated myself really because I wasn't getting plastered or partying, but I still gave in either way. After not drinking for a period of time I've realized it's not the drinking I can't control it's the eating! I'd be better off shunning peanut butter from my life than beer. I am going to drink tonight because it is my friend's 21st and she is having a party at her house... but the next few weekends I have plans (an 8K run, babysitting, work, etc.) so there isn't much party time for me anyway. If I drink at all, it is limited to once a week.

#2 - I was up on the scale today but I did eat a buffalo chicken wrap with fries last night at the bar so I'm sure that affected my weight quite a bit but I didn't do too great this week with eating anyway. I am however doing great with my workouts. I even took two one hour long step classes this week! Exhausting but kick ass work out!

#3 - I AM GOING TO HAWAII IN JANUARY OVER MY WINTER BREAK TO VISIT MY NEIGHBOR THAT I GREW UP WITH!!! She moved there a few months ago and I get to stay a week with her! MOTIVATION, MOTIVATION, MOTIVATION!!!

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!
 
Weekend update:

Had the most extreme sweet tooth this weekend. I had so much sugar ALL weekend, I think I have a sugar hangover! :(

Didn't end up partying - went to my friend's birthday shindig but it was very low key. I only drank 1 1/2 beers until I decided it wasn't worth it. So that was it for alcohol this weekend - I still don't feel bad for drinking because I didn't get wasted and party. It's been 3 weeks since I have done that and I've got to say it feels nice to be hangover free on the weekends!

Tonight I went grocery shopping - bought turkey burgers, cottage cheese, frozen fruit bars (all natural), almond milk, hummus, special k cereal, egg whites, green tea, apples, sugar free jell-o mousse pudding cups, strawberries, bananas, salad. THREW AWAY MY PEANUT BUTTER (I can't have it in the house... I eat too much of it) THREW AWAY MY GRAHAM CRACKERS (I like them with my peanut butter) so now I literally have NO BAD FOOD in the house. Last week my eating wasn't very good but that's because I had bad things in the house.

My 8K (5 mile) run is on Saturday. This week I am going to alternate days of running and step class for exercise. Tracking calories CLOSELY. My goal is 135 by Halloween... time to make some SPECIFIC goals to get me there:

10/8: 140 lbs
10/15: 139 lbs (TOM)
10/22: 137 lbs
10/31: 135 lbs

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Had soo much fun at the 8K run last weekend! Finished in 45 minutes, top 29% in the women's division, top 35% for my age group, and top 45% overall!!!

I've been doing great with workouts, the eating part still needs work. I am making it my goal to work out every day until Halloween. I worked out the past 3 days in a row, been taking more classes at the gym so I'm getting longer cardio work outs. I just LOVE step class! I'm going to go after class today :)

So overall, I'm doing pretty good. I haven't weighed myself in a while so I'm a little nervous to step on the scale. I've got to push really hard these next 2 1/2 weeks if I want to get at least close to my goal weight for Halloween!

That's all for now... just keeping busy with school and the new job. Work, work, work, allll weekend long. That will keep me out of trouble!!
 
Update time! Feeling REALLY good today...

Recap of last week's work outs:
Monday - 1 hour multi step class
Tuesday - 1 mile run @ 6.7 mph on treadmill, 20 minutes intervals walking @ 4mph incline increased from 2.0 - 4.0 / running @ 7.2 mph
Wednesday - 1 hour cardio class
Thursday - 1 hour step class, 15 min core complete (abs) class
Friday - 5.16 mile run 44:09 (8:33/mile pace!)
Saturday - 30 Day Shred level 2
Sunday - REST!

This week so far...
Monday - 15 min core complete class, 1 hour multi step class
Tuesday - 1 hour step class

SOOO I've been doing awesome with my workouts and it feels great! Yesterday I counted my calories and had a REALLY good day with healthy eating... I felt really accomplished going to bed without pigging out first! This morning when I woke up I could see already that my stomach is starting to trim down a little bit and it got me motivated to try on some jeans... My roommate gave me a pair of brand new American Eagle jeans that were lost and found and they are size 4 and THEY FIT!!! I wasn't even going to attempt trying them on because they looked so small to me.. but I'm glad I did!

I'm feeling so motivated to keep pushing forward and shed the rest of this weight and get toned!!! IDK when I will have the chance to weigh myself next, I think I might go buy myself a scale that I can keep at school instead of waiting to go home on the weekends to use one.

Happy Wednesday!! :)
 
Dang girl!!! :D!!!! :cheers2:!!!! That's CONSISTENCY for you!!!

I like the variety that you are getting! Keeping the muscles guessing!!! I hear you say "Counting Calories"! Damn. That is something that I generally don't do. I get an idea of how many but,..that's it. My idea may be TOTALLY off.

I think in addition to exercise, you are RIGHT, Sarah! Massive CONTROL is is necessary in the counting calorie area.
I remember one episode of Biggest Loser...and one of the contestants last season, was somewhere near the middle of the show, and they brought back one of the old "winners", and he said "If you want to win, you have to COUNT!"

I just remembered that. wow. sad. I heard it and let it go. HAHAH!

Hmm... well. NOW, counting is NECESSARY!! :D!! Today starts p90x after my 5 day break. So much for the streak. Maybe I should say today is DAY 1 again!? :)

And as far as a SIZE 4!!! In jeans!?!? WOWOWOWOW!!!! Damnnnn!!! That's SWEET! American Eagle does not play when it comes to their sizes too!!! GREAT JOB!!! :cheers2:~~

I can't imagine what size jeans you are going to fit in when you get to your goal!?
 
I totally agree with Alta! Size 4 jeans is amazing!! My size 10's are barely fitting these days!
Great work with the workouts! I bet you will have a good weigh-in when you get that scale. Don't cheap out on one if you decide to buy - you will have it for the rest of your life so get a good digital one.
How are the roommates doing this year? Still tempting you with late night snacks? Sounds like things aren't as crazy as they were last year and the partying has cooled down. Any new boy interests?
Keep up the workouts and get that eating under control and you will be at your goal in no time! Holidays here you come...
 
I started a new journal as I needed a fresh start. I need to write out my days like I was before as I need the accountability. I'm feeling like my will power is coming back too because I have been saying no left and right to temptations! I even got up before work to do the treadmill!! I'm reaching my goal once and for all!!
hope this week is going as good as last for you! How was the weekend? What are you dressing up as for Halloween? I'm going as an evil tooth fairy - it's really a witch's costume but the tooth fairy thing sounds more creative! Take care Sarah!
 
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