SKReyes1990
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I'm fat.
No, seriously. No need to spare my feelings; I know that I am, and in all honesty, the ugly truth is always better than a pretty lie -- and yes, I did steal that quote from a friend's FB. I've always known it, but being the stubborn girl that I am, loved to make excuses.
"I know I eat some bad things, but I eat plenty of good things to balance it out."
"I'm overweight, but it's nothing compared to others."
"I'll lose it soon, just once I take care of something else."
Excuse, after excuse, after excuse. The thing about excuses, is that they're a temporary solution. They make you feel good about yourself for only a little while, and then suddenly the truth rears its ugly head once more and you find yourself making another excuse. It's like a bandaid; it only covers up what you don't want to see until its ripped off and a nasty scar is revealed.
I think a lot of issues in my life have stemmed from my weight problems. I have depression, which stemmed from self-consciousness and never feeling good enough. I never felt pretty compared to other girls. I don't have many friends, because I'm too shy and feel inadequate around other people. I'm constantly arguing with my parents over the tiniest things, and I'm always angry because I just was never able to focus on school and getting my life in order. Because I was fat. Because I never gained the confidence to step out and do my own thing. Because I was always so afraid of what others thought of me.
It's not just the depression. My family has a giant history of medical problems, and I can already tell that if I don't learn to take proper care of myself now, I'm going to end up just like my great-uncle Chris; a diabetic who had his legs amputated and died young. Or my grandfather; killed by a stroke. Or my other grandfather; dead by heart attack. Maybe i'll take after my own mother; pre-diabetic, high uric acid, high cholesterol, constant migraines and often bed-ridden due to back problems. I don't know. What I do know is this: I can't let that happen to me; not if there's anything I can do to prevent it.
This is more than going on a diet. I need to change my life completely. Not just changing the way I eat, but the way I think, the way I feel, the way I motivate myself to do things and to not let so many things get me down. My entire life I've felt like a failure, like a loser. Well this time around, I want to be a winner.
I turn 21 at the end of November, and as a sort of birthday gift to myself, I'd like to have lost about 20lbs by then. I know, it's only 3 months but I really want to try and do it. Currently I weigh 151lbs, and by losing 20lbs I'd be within a healthy weight for someone my height (5'2). If I can meet that short term goal, I believe that will truly give me a solid resolve in continuing my weight loss and life change.
My plan is simple enough: eat less, exercise more.
Easy, right? I can only hope so. I know that it'll be tough in the beginning, but I hope that as time goes by, it slowly becomes easier for me to stick with what I've tasked myself to do. And once I start seeing results, I believe it'll really help get me going. I'm learning this all as I go, but I know for sure I'll be keeping a watch on my calories. I see that it's worked well for others, and believe it will be a great help with keeping track of my daily eating habits.
As for exercise, I don't belong to any gym and I'm not too keen on dishing out any more money than I absolutely have to. Being in college does put me on a tight budget and what money I get is better spent going towards my tuition, books, and gas. I live in a rather nice, suburban neighborhood set on a very hilly area which would provide much more of a challenge than if I were to walk on plain, flat surfaces. I also have a treadmill, and decided that walking ourside in the morning while its still cool, and then using the treadmill later in the afternoon--since I'm not a huge fan of going out into the heat--would be an easy routine for me to stick with. After awhile, I think i'd like to incorporate some running into the mix, and maybe once I figure out a workout, I can do strength training using body exercises. It doesn't matter too much; it's only the beginning, and right now I'm mostly concerned with just getting my body moving.
I've looked at the clock and realized how late it's gotten. I need to get some sleep if I want to wake up early and get walking before the sun gets too high and the temperature starts to rise. Tomorrow, or rather later today, I'll post some of the "goals" I'd like to reach and what I'd like to do when it comes to my actual dieting.
I don't know if anyone will read this or not, but if you do, please take a minute to say something. I'd love to hear what anyone has to say on the issue of weight loss, and any special tips would be greatly appreciated.
~SKReyes1990~
No, seriously. No need to spare my feelings; I know that I am, and in all honesty, the ugly truth is always better than a pretty lie -- and yes, I did steal that quote from a friend's FB. I've always known it, but being the stubborn girl that I am, loved to make excuses.
"I know I eat some bad things, but I eat plenty of good things to balance it out."
"I'm overweight, but it's nothing compared to others."
"I'll lose it soon, just once I take care of something else."
Excuse, after excuse, after excuse. The thing about excuses, is that they're a temporary solution. They make you feel good about yourself for only a little while, and then suddenly the truth rears its ugly head once more and you find yourself making another excuse. It's like a bandaid; it only covers up what you don't want to see until its ripped off and a nasty scar is revealed.
I think a lot of issues in my life have stemmed from my weight problems. I have depression, which stemmed from self-consciousness and never feeling good enough. I never felt pretty compared to other girls. I don't have many friends, because I'm too shy and feel inadequate around other people. I'm constantly arguing with my parents over the tiniest things, and I'm always angry because I just was never able to focus on school and getting my life in order. Because I was fat. Because I never gained the confidence to step out and do my own thing. Because I was always so afraid of what others thought of me.
It's not just the depression. My family has a giant history of medical problems, and I can already tell that if I don't learn to take proper care of myself now, I'm going to end up just like my great-uncle Chris; a diabetic who had his legs amputated and died young. Or my grandfather; killed by a stroke. Or my other grandfather; dead by heart attack. Maybe i'll take after my own mother; pre-diabetic, high uric acid, high cholesterol, constant migraines and often bed-ridden due to back problems. I don't know. What I do know is this: I can't let that happen to me; not if there's anything I can do to prevent it.
This is more than going on a diet. I need to change my life completely. Not just changing the way I eat, but the way I think, the way I feel, the way I motivate myself to do things and to not let so many things get me down. My entire life I've felt like a failure, like a loser. Well this time around, I want to be a winner.
I turn 21 at the end of November, and as a sort of birthday gift to myself, I'd like to have lost about 20lbs by then. I know, it's only 3 months but I really want to try and do it. Currently I weigh 151lbs, and by losing 20lbs I'd be within a healthy weight for someone my height (5'2). If I can meet that short term goal, I believe that will truly give me a solid resolve in continuing my weight loss and life change.
My plan is simple enough: eat less, exercise more.
Easy, right? I can only hope so. I know that it'll be tough in the beginning, but I hope that as time goes by, it slowly becomes easier for me to stick with what I've tasked myself to do. And once I start seeing results, I believe it'll really help get me going. I'm learning this all as I go, but I know for sure I'll be keeping a watch on my calories. I see that it's worked well for others, and believe it will be a great help with keeping track of my daily eating habits.
As for exercise, I don't belong to any gym and I'm not too keen on dishing out any more money than I absolutely have to. Being in college does put me on a tight budget and what money I get is better spent going towards my tuition, books, and gas. I live in a rather nice, suburban neighborhood set on a very hilly area which would provide much more of a challenge than if I were to walk on plain, flat surfaces. I also have a treadmill, and decided that walking ourside in the morning while its still cool, and then using the treadmill later in the afternoon--since I'm not a huge fan of going out into the heat--would be an easy routine for me to stick with. After awhile, I think i'd like to incorporate some running into the mix, and maybe once I figure out a workout, I can do strength training using body exercises. It doesn't matter too much; it's only the beginning, and right now I'm mostly concerned with just getting my body moving.
I've looked at the clock and realized how late it's gotten. I need to get some sleep if I want to wake up early and get walking before the sun gets too high and the temperature starts to rise. Tomorrow, or rather later today, I'll post some of the "goals" I'd like to reach and what I'd like to do when it comes to my actual dieting.
I don't know if anyone will read this or not, but if you do, please take a minute to say something. I'd love to hear what anyone has to say on the issue of weight loss, and any special tips would be greatly appreciated.
~SKReyes1990~
