Indian Summer's Diary
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indiansummer
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Morning,
Well I got in from work yest n collapsed in my bed, was a long long shift thanks to the hangover!!
today i have an assignment to do, but gona head out for a walk at some point n do some toning.
i must ban myself from the scales apart from once a week, this morning im back to 212lb although i was down at 208lb on Friday, arrrghh!! So will see what the morning brings i guess!!
Kato x
Well I got in from work yest n collapsed in my bed, was a long long shift thanks to the hangover!!
today i have an assignment to do, but gona head out for a walk at some point n do some toning.
i must ban myself from the scales apart from once a week, this morning im back to 212lb although i was down at 208lb on Friday, arrrghh!! So will see what the morning brings i guess!!
Kato x
indiansummer
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Well today is going pretty well, just trying to conjour up some trout rice n veg delicacy in my head for tea!!
I booked my flights to India, My Team Won The League, the Assingment I've hit a mental block with all last week is finally on its way, so a good good day on all fronts!!
Went on a lovely walk this morning n had healthy food all day so far.
I will be slim, I will will will!!!
Kato xx
I booked my flights to India, My Team Won The League, the Assingment I've hit a mental block with all last week is finally on its way, so a good good day on all fronts!!
Went on a lovely walk this morning n had healthy food all day so far.
I will be slim, I will will will!!!
Kato xx
indiansummer
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Well, im pretty pleased with today, exercise hasnt been great, and nor will it be tomora, but from Tuesday I will get back into it with avengence.
Food today
Brekkie
Bowl of asda vitality with ss milk.
Lunch
half a home made chicken n salad wrap (wasnt great without mayo!)
Snacks
a little bowl of greens (peas, aspargus, courgette n spinach) random i know!
A satsuma
Muller hb yog
(had lots of snacks cos i didnt eat me lunch!)
Dinner
a kind of trout, veg (same ones as i had for snack) and rice dish. Guess it was like a risotto really, poached the fish, dry pan fried the veggies n boiled the rice, mixed em together added a beaten egg n a bit of stock n baked in the oven for 30mins, squirted with lime juice n ate, yum yum!
Exercise
Just a walk this morning, havent been in the mood, must get over that!
Cooked a healthy fish pie, dahl and have another couple of portions of the rice dish left over, so the freezer is stocked with convienent and healthy foods for what no doubt is gonna be a hectic week next week.
Working nine to five thirty tomora, so making tuna salad for lunch n taking a couple of satsumas in a yoghurt too.
Will try find the energy for half hour dvd workout when i get home, no infact I WILL, you gotta hold me to that!
Dreading weigh in tomora, but i will not get disheartened by no loss, this week has been a positive one, I have achieved a lot of things this week, small things, but things that over the coming weeks and months I can add too and eventually reach an 'ideal' lifestyle.
Roll on my second full week on the wlf i say!!
Kato x
Food today
Brekkie
Bowl of asda vitality with ss milk.
Lunch
half a home made chicken n salad wrap (wasnt great without mayo!)
Snacks
a little bowl of greens (peas, aspargus, courgette n spinach) random i know!
A satsuma
Muller hb yog
(had lots of snacks cos i didnt eat me lunch!)
Dinner
a kind of trout, veg (same ones as i had for snack) and rice dish. Guess it was like a risotto really, poached the fish, dry pan fried the veggies n boiled the rice, mixed em together added a beaten egg n a bit of stock n baked in the oven for 30mins, squirted with lime juice n ate, yum yum!
Exercise
Just a walk this morning, havent been in the mood, must get over that!
Cooked a healthy fish pie, dahl and have another couple of portions of the rice dish left over, so the freezer is stocked with convienent and healthy foods for what no doubt is gonna be a hectic week next week.
Working nine to five thirty tomora, so making tuna salad for lunch n taking a couple of satsumas in a yoghurt too.
Will try find the energy for half hour dvd workout when i get home, no infact I WILL, you gotta hold me to that!
Dreading weigh in tomora, but i will not get disheartened by no loss, this week has been a positive one, I have achieved a lot of things this week, small things, but things that over the coming weeks and months I can add too and eventually reach an 'ideal' lifestyle.
Roll on my second full week on the wlf i say!!
Kato x
indiansummer
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Thanks Kez, I am unbeleivably excited about it!! But gotta knuckle down n not letting planning that distract me til the end of the month!
It also gives me real motivation to get myself fitter before i get there, the weight shuld start to shift with the exercise increase anyway, but for India the fitness side of thing is way more important. So, next weeks main aim (along with my 21 day snacking challenge) is to really sweat!! I need to get my fitness regime off to a cracking start!
Kato x
It also gives me real motivation to get myself fitter before i get there, the weight shuld start to shift with the exercise increase anyway, but for India the fitness side of thing is way more important. So, next weeks main aim (along with my 21 day snacking challenge) is to really sweat!! I need to get my fitness regime off to a cracking start!
Kato x
indiansummer
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YAYAY, Kato is very happy.
2lb gone at weigh in this morning, and feeling uber positive about this whole new lifestyle. In the last couple of days it has finally really hit home that I AM NOT ON A DIET, but I am making real beneficial long term lifestyle changes. I am changing what I put in my mouth, and I am changing what I do with my body, for the better, and forever. And boy does it feel good that that has FINALLY sunk in!!
Today so far, got up at 6.55 did half hour workout dvd, had brekkie, and went to work, took healthy lunch with me, and now just got home and will be having dinner soon. Got to crack on with uni work tonight. Gonna aim for another early night, up early in the morning, and then off to pick up a £1000 bursary from my uni, yay!!
Will type me daily stats before bed, but just had to post about this new light that has flashed on in my head!!
Kato x
2lb gone at weigh in this morning, and feeling uber positive about this whole new lifestyle. In the last couple of days it has finally really hit home that I AM NOT ON A DIET, but I am making real beneficial long term lifestyle changes. I am changing what I put in my mouth, and I am changing what I do with my body, for the better, and forever. And boy does it feel good that that has FINALLY sunk in!!
Today so far, got up at 6.55 did half hour workout dvd, had brekkie, and went to work, took healthy lunch with me, and now just got home and will be having dinner soon. Got to crack on with uni work tonight. Gonna aim for another early night, up early in the morning, and then off to pick up a £1000 bursary from my uni, yay!!
Will type me daily stats before bed, but just had to post about this new light that has flashed on in my head!!
Kato x
indiansummer
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Today's Break Down
7.10am 30 min areobic workout dvd
8am BREAKFAST
200g tin heinz beans
1 banana, handful blueberries and nat yog
Coffee (black no shug)
9.30 - 5.30pm work
12.30pm LUNCH
tuna salad, no dressing
1 satsuma
6.30pm SNACK
1 Satsuma, small slice of cheese + a cold coffee (148 cals, 2.4g fat)
7.30pm DINNER
Homemade healthy fish pie with veg (hmmm wasnt great didnt finish, tastebuds were after the full fat version!!)
Satsuma
An ok day, food no too bad, but now not satisfied after pie wasnt great! Glad i did exercise first thing, been way too sluggish to do anything after work!
TOMORROWS AIMS
1. stay away from the scales
2. Exercise first thing again, either dvd workout or v. strenuous walk/possible light jog in the park for 30mins, weather depending!
3. good five hours of assingment work (have a 5 hour shift at work too, my last one til the weekend)
4. not to overeat (I have a tuesday issue every week, start work at 5, so am on my til right over tea time, end up having food before i go and when i get back normally, which is bad!!)
5. keep up this lovely positive mental thing I have going right now
Kato x
7.10am 30 min areobic workout dvd
8am BREAKFAST
200g tin heinz beans
1 banana, handful blueberries and nat yog
Coffee (black no shug)
9.30 - 5.30pm work
12.30pm LUNCH
tuna salad, no dressing
1 satsuma
6.30pm SNACK
1 Satsuma, small slice of cheese + a cold coffee (148 cals, 2.4g fat)
7.30pm DINNER
Homemade healthy fish pie with veg (hmmm wasnt great didnt finish, tastebuds were after the full fat version!!)
Satsuma
An ok day, food no too bad, but now not satisfied after pie wasnt great! Glad i did exercise first thing, been way too sluggish to do anything after work!
TOMORROWS AIMS
1. stay away from the scales
2. Exercise first thing again, either dvd workout or v. strenuous walk/possible light jog in the park for 30mins, weather depending!
3. good five hours of assingment work (have a 5 hour shift at work too, my last one til the weekend)
4. not to overeat (I have a tuesday issue every week, start work at 5, so am on my til right over tea time, end up having food before i go and when i get back normally, which is bad!!)
5. keep up this lovely positive mental thing I have going right now
Kato x
Hi Kate,
Just thought I'd pop over here and say hi! Sounds like your really on track...fair play! I know jpw you feel about being disappointed when food doesnt turn out to be as satisfying as you wanted....guess thats gonna happen every now and then, but I reckon if we persevere we'll actually prefer the healthier version. Fingers crossed anyway
Good luck tomorrow!
Just thought I'd pop over here and say hi! Sounds like your really on track...fair play! I know jpw you feel about being disappointed when food doesnt turn out to be as satisfying as you wanted....guess thats gonna happen every now and then, but I reckon if we persevere we'll actually prefer the healthier version. Fingers crossed anyway
Good luck tomorrow!
indiansummer
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Thanks for stopping by Eve
I think the fishpie told me there is no point trying to make old unhealthy favourites healthy, but instead keep discovering new and exciting healthy things!!
Kate x
I think the fishpie told me there is no point trying to make old unhealthy favourites healthy, but instead keep discovering new and exciting healthy things!!
Kate x
indiansummer
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OK, so i wrote the following on another thread, and kinda went off topic, but some of it explains a little about where im coming from at the start of my journey, so thought i'd copy it here so i can look back on it in the future:
This thread is a really interesting one, and reading other people's responses has got me thinking about things that have/do make it so hard for me to lose weight, that I have never admitted to myself as reasons before, quite an eye opener.
I have ALWAYS had the question in my head 'why do i make this so hard for myself?' well as long as I have been overweight. I have beaten myself up so many times for the fact that i *know* what i need to do to lose weight and be fit and healthy, but I constantly go against that.
I am not sure why, but in these last couple of days, something has really seemed to click inside me, I really feel different about everything, my 'omg this is too hard, i cant do it' mentality has been swapped with something very different, and very much more positive. Why? Im not sure. Will it last? I blooming well hope so. I will work hard everyday to keep up this positive vibe I have going. I am sure that this is the key to actually achieving my results.
What has changed? Firstly i now feel like i am really doing this for me. Up until very recently i was doing it becuase i worried about what others thought of me, how society viewed me. I have beautiful skinny friends and i wanted them to treat me as one of them. Now I see that they do, its only in my head they dont so i disclude myself from shopping trips, fashion chats etc, not the other way around.
A BIG reason I always failed was my mothers attitude, kinda bilittling maybe, im not sure how to put it. I know she was trying to support me, but the way she went about it made me always feel rubbish about myself, and when i feel rubbish, i eat, so vicious circle begins.
My low self esteem is my enemy. I have real real issues with binge eating as a comfort. And when I binge, I really binge. Like really really. I do this in secret, and i eat eat and eat some more, and then start eating all over again until I feel better. Which about an hour later would have completely washed off n i'd feel 1000 times worse. I have not had one single even little binge eat for over 10 days now. I know, in the scheme of life ten days isnt much, but in my life, going that long without comfort eating at all, is immense. and i think the fact I managed that is the reason I have this new belief and drive to really do this.
What else happened around ten days ago? I started to exercise. Over the last 6 years or so i have thought about my food a lot, i have tried many many many diets, for very short periods of time, I have gotten myself the education in theory about a healthy balanced diet, but i have never put it into practice for very long at all. I have never understood why I havent been able to keep up, to stop binging, why food and eating is linked so closely to my emotions, and why i will open that second packet of cookies and follow it up with that whole lemon drizzle cake and extra thick cream when i know what i am doing is making me fat, is stupid, and goes against everything i know about nutrition and healthy eating.
One thing i never did before is really try to include exercise. It seems that here i massively missed the point. Exercise has changed the way i think about food so much. Well, maybe it is a coinsidence, but i dont think so.
Before, I could not be in the house with any bad food, because quite simply it was in here, i would eat it, all of it. Now, there is an open bag of crisps (potato chips) on the side in the kitchen, they are my housemates, she told me i could have them, I said no thanks, this was on friday and they are still there, probably stale! Last night my housemate offered me ben and jerrys pish food, i declined the offer and sat and chatted with her while she polished off a bowl of the stuff. This is unheard of.
Sorry, just realised I have rambled on and on endlessly off topic here. So in short, the answer to your question is probably my willpower stopped me, my emotional state, the stuff going on inside my head, my lack of self esteem, those kind of things.
This exercise link to this changing is not something I am at all sure about, but it is the way i feel, so the other thing I would say that made it hard was not understanding the need for the whole package.
I just wanted to be thin. I failed. Now I want to be fit, healthy and happy, and i will lose weight in accomplishing those three goals. But the aims and objectives have changed. And now, for the first time in my life it feels possible, not impossible.
Kato
This thread is a really interesting one, and reading other people's responses has got me thinking about things that have/do make it so hard for me to lose weight, that I have never admitted to myself as reasons before, quite an eye opener.
I have ALWAYS had the question in my head 'why do i make this so hard for myself?' well as long as I have been overweight. I have beaten myself up so many times for the fact that i *know* what i need to do to lose weight and be fit and healthy, but I constantly go against that.
I am not sure why, but in these last couple of days, something has really seemed to click inside me, I really feel different about everything, my 'omg this is too hard, i cant do it' mentality has been swapped with something very different, and very much more positive. Why? Im not sure. Will it last? I blooming well hope so. I will work hard everyday to keep up this positive vibe I have going. I am sure that this is the key to actually achieving my results.
What has changed? Firstly i now feel like i am really doing this for me. Up until very recently i was doing it becuase i worried about what others thought of me, how society viewed me. I have beautiful skinny friends and i wanted them to treat me as one of them. Now I see that they do, its only in my head they dont so i disclude myself from shopping trips, fashion chats etc, not the other way around.
A BIG reason I always failed was my mothers attitude, kinda bilittling maybe, im not sure how to put it. I know she was trying to support me, but the way she went about it made me always feel rubbish about myself, and when i feel rubbish, i eat, so vicious circle begins.
My low self esteem is my enemy. I have real real issues with binge eating as a comfort. And when I binge, I really binge. Like really really. I do this in secret, and i eat eat and eat some more, and then start eating all over again until I feel better. Which about an hour later would have completely washed off n i'd feel 1000 times worse. I have not had one single even little binge eat for over 10 days now. I know, in the scheme of life ten days isnt much, but in my life, going that long without comfort eating at all, is immense. and i think the fact I managed that is the reason I have this new belief and drive to really do this.
What else happened around ten days ago? I started to exercise. Over the last 6 years or so i have thought about my food a lot, i have tried many many many diets, for very short periods of time, I have gotten myself the education in theory about a healthy balanced diet, but i have never put it into practice for very long at all. I have never understood why I havent been able to keep up, to stop binging, why food and eating is linked so closely to my emotions, and why i will open that second packet of cookies and follow it up with that whole lemon drizzle cake and extra thick cream when i know what i am doing is making me fat, is stupid, and goes against everything i know about nutrition and healthy eating.
One thing i never did before is really try to include exercise. It seems that here i massively missed the point. Exercise has changed the way i think about food so much. Well, maybe it is a coinsidence, but i dont think so.
Before, I could not be in the house with any bad food, because quite simply it was in here, i would eat it, all of it. Now, there is an open bag of crisps (potato chips) on the side in the kitchen, they are my housemates, she told me i could have them, I said no thanks, this was on friday and they are still there, probably stale! Last night my housemate offered me ben and jerrys pish food, i declined the offer and sat and chatted with her while she polished off a bowl of the stuff. This is unheard of.
Sorry, just realised I have rambled on and on endlessly off topic here. So in short, the answer to your question is probably my willpower stopped me, my emotional state, the stuff going on inside my head, my lack of self esteem, those kind of things.
This exercise link to this changing is not something I am at all sure about, but it is the way i feel, so the other thing I would say that made it hard was not understanding the need for the whole package.
I just wanted to be thin. I failed. Now I want to be fit, healthy and happy, and i will lose weight in accomplishing those three goals. But the aims and objectives have changed. And now, for the first time in my life it feels possible, not impossible.
Kato
indiansummer
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Well something great has happened already today, gotta be a good sign!!
I woke up at 7.15, full of beans, and actually got dressed and went out to the park, to exercise. Now, my fitness levels are pretty terrible at the moment, so the plan was to really walk for half an hour n get a sweat on. I felt really good while i was out so added in some jogging (kind of doing the 60sec jog 90secs walking intervals from couch to 5K) I didnt manage all 8 reps, did five and then just walked as fast as possible for the rest of the time. Now, I have been back over an hour, just had brekkie and can still feel my heart going, it is a great feeling!
A couple of weeks ago i had a complete fear of exercising in public, but this morning, I didnt care, Im doing it for me, no them anymore. I will get fit and healthy, and will do it becuase i want to, what anyone else thinks just isnt priority anymore, and it feels very enpowering!
Brekkie was porridge with banana and blueberries.
Exercise is a great start to the day, Im converted!!
Kato x
I woke up at 7.15, full of beans, and actually got dressed and went out to the park, to exercise. Now, my fitness levels are pretty terrible at the moment, so the plan was to really walk for half an hour n get a sweat on. I felt really good while i was out so added in some jogging (kind of doing the 60sec jog 90secs walking intervals from couch to 5K) I didnt manage all 8 reps, did five and then just walked as fast as possible for the rest of the time. Now, I have been back over an hour, just had brekkie and can still feel my heart going, it is a great feeling!
A couple of weeks ago i had a complete fear of exercising in public, but this morning, I didnt care, Im doing it for me, no them anymore. I will get fit and healthy, and will do it becuase i want to, what anyone else thinks just isnt priority anymore, and it feels very enpowering!
Brekkie was porridge with banana and blueberries.
Exercise is a great start to the day, Im converted!!
Kato x
btw, iam also on tight schedule... i am in similar delimma. exams r meandering all over my neurons...med exams r brutally hard... exams in july and then los vegas trip..
India..............Hot weather wud help u to lose weight....n i love curries n samosas.. theres a saying in india.... " one indian chilli a day would make fat melt away". is this ur first visit??
anyways, wud keep bloggin till i shed all my fat..
India..............Hot weather wud help u to lose weight....n i love curries n samosas.. theres a saying in india.... " one indian chilli a day would make fat melt away". is this ur first visit??
anyways, wud keep bloggin till i shed all my fat..
indiansummer
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Yeah, I know that in India I will lose weight, I lived there for 9months last year and the weight fell off, but my lifestyle didnt change so it all piled back on when i got home. This is why the emphasis of my journey between now and july 9th isnt so much about maximum reduction in the numbers on the scales, but about changing my lifestyle, my habits and my mental outlook on all things food and exercise. I want to have increased my fitness to enough of a degree i can jog along the beach in a morning, and spend weekends away hiking and exploring the beautiful countryside. Indians also have a beautiful honesty quality, and I dont want to be the 'big' one anymore, I know that in two months I will still have a mighty long way to go, but I want to set the foundations in place to really make this a success, and I feel I am now doing that, and it feels great
Exams are a nightmare, my head is all over the place, well in any other place but revision, so i am now signing off for the day, will post my daily stats after work tonight,
Kato x
Exams are a nightmare, my head is all over the place, well in any other place but revision, so i am now signing off for the day, will post my daily stats after work tonight,
Kato x
indiansummer
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hiya nave,
i already have those dvds, although not really had a proper crack at the proper power of three one yet, maybe tomoras job!
Well today has been erm, a really really hard day, but also a really good one. Really hard becuse although morning exercise does mean i get a buzz early in the day it leaves me blooming tired in the afternoon, I had a bit of a uni panic, I had massive cravings for chocolate/crisps/sweeties/pastries/pizzas the works, I then had a really really busy and shitty shift at work, so the cravings intensified, adn the opportunity was immense (i work in a supermarket, so had it all right there and available) So, to the good bit, even tho i wanted it, i didnt have it, any of it. I instead snacks on sunflower seeds, and ok had more to eat in the day than on a normal one, BUT this is real progress for me
TODAY'S ROUNDUP
Up 7.15 - 30mins walk/jog in park
Brekkie - 8.30am
Porridge with blueberries and banana
Coffee
Snack 9.50 - satsumas n some sunflower seeds
Lunch 12 noon, ham, a bit of mayo and salad deli wrap, melon.
4pm another wrap like the one at lunch.
5pm-10pm work - sunflower seeds on break
10.30pm supper - a pretty rank tin of pasta n sauce, 188 cals, 4.8g fat.
So, not great, but not half as bad as it could, and until very recently would have been.
Now, I am looking forward to getting in my bed, my eyes are tired and my body aches, but it feels kinda good :S
I stayed off the scales today too, another one of my aims from yest, so im pleased with that, and will repeat that aim for tomora, and all week until next monday,
Good night all,
Kato x
i already have those dvds, although not really had a proper crack at the proper power of three one yet, maybe tomoras job!
Well today has been erm, a really really hard day, but also a really good one. Really hard becuse although morning exercise does mean i get a buzz early in the day it leaves me blooming tired in the afternoon, I had a bit of a uni panic, I had massive cravings for chocolate/crisps/sweeties/pastries/pizzas the works, I then had a really really busy and shitty shift at work, so the cravings intensified, adn the opportunity was immense (i work in a supermarket, so had it all right there and available) So, to the good bit, even tho i wanted it, i didnt have it, any of it. I instead snacks on sunflower seeds, and ok had more to eat in the day than on a normal one, BUT this is real progress for me
TODAY'S ROUNDUP
Up 7.15 - 30mins walk/jog in park
Brekkie - 8.30am
Porridge with blueberries and banana
Coffee
Snack 9.50 - satsumas n some sunflower seeds
Lunch 12 noon, ham, a bit of mayo and salad deli wrap, melon.
4pm another wrap like the one at lunch.
5pm-10pm work - sunflower seeds on break
10.30pm supper - a pretty rank tin of pasta n sauce, 188 cals, 4.8g fat.
So, not great, but not half as bad as it could, and until very recently would have been.
Now, I am looking forward to getting in my bed, my eyes are tired and my body aches, but it feels kinda good :S
I stayed off the scales today too, another one of my aims from yest, so im pleased with that, and will repeat that aim for tomora, and all week until next monday,
Good night all,
Kato x
indiansummer
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Well today, I am feeling rubbish, think i have picked a virus type thing from somewhere, last night was really hot n tired at work n a bit achy, but put it down to early starts and exercise n thought nothing of it, But today, my eyes are really really heavy, every part of me is sore to touch and my throat is burning up, so, im living off lemon sorbet so far, and soft food, i defo have no energy to exercise rigerously or to do my bloody uni work, not the time for this!
Will plod on but gottta take it easy today,
Kato x
Will plod on but gottta take it easy today,
Kato x
indiansummer
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Bad day today. Been bloody hard work, feeling god damn poorly, and seem to have slipped back into comfort eating, but, had no choccie, crisps, cakes, pastries etc, managed to keep my overeating healthy. Had a really bad day ont eh revision and uni front, so, praying i wake up feeling better tomora n can get back on track..............