I'm obviously new around these parts. I decided to start this journal because I think it may be rather therapeutic for me. I recently hit my all time highest weight of 400 pounds (6 feet tall). My weight has made me so unhappy for so long. Its become a terrible cycle, my weight was making me depressed and I was gaining weight because I was depressed. A few weeks ago, I went through an ugly breakup with my girlfriend of 4 1/2 years. My weight played an integral part in the failure of our relationship. Through the years, I became more and more distant and withdrawn. I didn't want to do anything. My energy level was so low, I was embarrassed to go out because I'd get so winded from walking a block. I had trouble fitting into booths at restaurants. The idea that i needed to lose close to 200 lbs was overwhelming. I felt as though I had no control in my life.
I now know that I have complete control. I have decided to be happy. I have decided to be healthy. I have decided to not give up. I have decided to succeed.
Right now I'm taking baby steps. I've started riding my recumbent bike (I'm up to about 2.5 miles). Doing some weight training using barbells. Started counting calories and keeping a food log. Just trying to be a bit more active than I've been for a long time.
So, if you want to be a part of a success story, feel free to participate in my diary.
I now know that I have complete control. I have decided to be happy. I have decided to be healthy. I have decided to not give up. I have decided to succeed.
Right now I'm taking baby steps. I've started riding my recumbent bike (I'm up to about 2.5 miles). Doing some weight training using barbells. Started counting calories and keeping a food log. Just trying to be a bit more active than I've been for a long time.
So, if you want to be a part of a success story, feel free to participate in my diary.
