Hello to anyone who happens upon this diary. I hope that a fair amount of people check it out considering I could use all the encouragement I could get. I feel as though there is a lot of background into this mess I've gotten myself in, but alas, I am too tired and I have too much work and school to be able to really sit and type it all out.
I am a 25 year old college student who has been struggling with eating disorders and binging problems for as long as I can remember. I imagine it is why I have some awful stomach problems now and why I am sitting here, depressed that my abdomen is swollen, even though I haven't eaten too much today. I have eaten a reasonable amount for a girl my height (5'4") and body structure (broad shoulders, narrow hips; about 126 lbs):
cup of sweet potato soup with cheese sandwich (just bread and cheese! haha, sooo good
iggy:
tuna sandwich and tomato bisque (bowl) and some peppermint tea
I think I had a few pieces of easter candy somewhere in there....
but do you see what I mean? That is a reasonable amount to eat. So how come I feel so chubby???
I see girls with slender bodies and when I think of how exhausting it is for me to get to that point (plus the fact that I have a boyfriend now and he is not really all that easy to compromise with when it comes to food)....
I want to be able to feel confident, I guess. And sometimes I do....and sometimes I dont.
A little more background, health wise:
I am a vegetarian (I have been most of my life, vegan at one point, but not very healthy so now I eat fish)...ok, I'm a pescatarian hahah
I have to take pre natal vitamins because I have very low iron (possibly from being a veg) so I'm hoping that helps me to get the energy to get back in shape....
Sorry for the long story. I think it was boring too. heheh I can liven up its just hard right now considering I'm feeling slumpy
What I hope to find in this forum is another girl around my age with similar issues and body type so I can have someone to keep on track with, when no one else will!
THANK YOU if you've read this far!!! Hope to hear from you soon...
<3
x.
I am a 25 year old college student who has been struggling with eating disorders and binging problems for as long as I can remember. I imagine it is why I have some awful stomach problems now and why I am sitting here, depressed that my abdomen is swollen, even though I haven't eaten too much today. I have eaten a reasonable amount for a girl my height (5'4") and body structure (broad shoulders, narrow hips; about 126 lbs):
cup of sweet potato soup with cheese sandwich (just bread and cheese! haha, sooo good
iggy:tuna sandwich and tomato bisque (bowl) and some peppermint tea
I think I had a few pieces of easter candy somewhere in there....
but do you see what I mean? That is a reasonable amount to eat. So how come I feel so chubby???
I see girls with slender bodies and when I think of how exhausting it is for me to get to that point (plus the fact that I have a boyfriend now and he is not really all that easy to compromise with when it comes to food)....
I want to be able to feel confident, I guess. And sometimes I do....and sometimes I dont.
A little more background, health wise:
I am a vegetarian (I have been most of my life, vegan at one point, but not very healthy
so now I eat fish)...ok, I'm a pescatarian hahahI have to take pre natal vitamins because I have very low iron (possibly from being a veg) so I'm hoping that helps me to get the energy to get back in shape....
Sorry for the long story. I think it was boring too. heheh I can liven up its just hard right now considering I'm feeling slumpy
What I hope to find in this forum is another girl around my age with similar issues and body type so I can have someone to keep on track with, when no one else will!
THANK YOU if you've read this far!!! Hope to hear from you soon...
<3
x.
