I'm just a small town girl and this is my Journey

angelgem

angelgem

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Hi all :)

I have struggled with weight all my life and managed to get down to my perfect weight this time last year (Hooray) but now I am back to my old weight (Boooo) and have to start all over again.

So here is my journey, I think this is an excellent way to keep on top of things :)

So I weighed myself today and I am 205 pounds :( I would love to get down to around about 170 so I'm aiming for a 35lb loss.

Even though I feel in a rush to do it I know that a slow process is probably best and once done I have to remember to keep it off this time heehee

This was me a year ago when I felt great, confident and happy for the first time in a long time...this is how I want to be again

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I just feel really unfit now, my clothes are all too tight and I refuse to buy new ones cause I can't really afford it lol this is me as how I am today...

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So this is my food diary, my journey, my life. Let it begin :)

"Life is not measured on the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away"
 
So this morning for breakfast I have had a bowl of shredded wheat with skimmed milk and for my dinner I shall be having a slimfast.

Am trying as we speak to get motivated to go on the treadmill but at the moment my feet just don't want to move ggrrrr I can do this, I can do this....
 
So I did it I pushed myself to do 20 minutes on the Treadmill :) managed to run for 2 sets of 3 minutes and the rest on a fast walk. Did 1 mile in just under 17 minutes and 110 calories.

Oh yes I feel good today....although the pack of biscuits in the cupboard keep calling my name.....

"The hardest thing in this world, is to live in it"
 
Hey there, Just keep on track and you will do just fine. You look great in both photos so no worries. keep us posted on your updates :).
 
I'm in the same boat. WHY did we let this happen again?? I went from 242 to about 157/58, and I wanted/needed to lose some more even. Last week I was 195, I've been doing well but still NOT the number I wanted to see. :(

I'll be following your journey for inspiration! I know what you mean about wanting to be happy again and not wanting to buy new fat clothes. You can do it!
 
Thanks imstarting2moro I really appreciate it and will surely keep you all updated :) Thanks for the comment :)

Chestnut we can do this together, this forum is really helping me, I think that having support and KNOWING people will be reading it will spur me on and hopefully next time we will both stay at our healthy happy weight and not go down this path again, so hard though but good luck hun :)

unrecognizable oh yes I sure was quoting Journey, best song ever and it sure is a lonely world, am looking for my city boy so once I lose some weight I hope to find him heehee

Thanks guys xxx
 
Okay few days past and I've been good not had any snacks inbetween been out on walks, trampoline just done 20 minutes on treadmill and 100 sit ups please god let me lose some weight lol

Clothes feel tight still and I'm worried that I am toning up and not losing weight not quite sure how to balance it out......

I'm thinking that cause I have more muscle than I used to that it is making me appear heavier or am I just wishing lol I've never weighed this heavy yet I when I used to weigh 7 pounds less I was in size 18-20 clothes now I'm in 14-16 at moment.

Bodies are weird don't get them.

Anyways here I go again....
 
I am in the same situation as you! Last year at this time I was about 145 pounds, and now I'm about 180 pounds!! I'm so annoyed at myself for gaining it all back and then some :(. I'm also refusing to buy new clothes. I'm determined not to let my weight control me, and instead have me control it!

Best wishes :)
 
I totally understand where your coming from Moofee it is annoying isn';t it, why do we do this to ourselves, it's so difficult and I get so angry with myself but we will get there someday good luck to you too :)

I've had few bad days, I spent whole week being good exercising eating well only to put on 2 pounds so I had a screw you world moment and over indulged yesterday, feel bad about it but at same time I get so angrywith myself and the world, doesn't help that I got a load of shit going on in my life right now :( ggrrr

Anyways back on track today but can feel my motivation, energy and enthusiasm going down the pan, doesn't help either when my friends (who are tiny) become patronising towards me when all I need is support.

Anyways here we go again....
 
I would suggest you take your measurements instead of relying only on the scale.If you rely simply on the scale you will get those moments when if you gain or don't lose pounds you will lose motivation.
 
Ok so I have had a really bad few weeks :( I have just been on holiday in Cornwall for the week and really over indulged (I know I shouldn't have) anyways my weight has now shot up to 14 stone 11 and I feel like crap :( Need to get back my motivation and will power.

Got lots of stress going on at the minute in my life that isn't helping....god will I ever be slimmer and happy.

Anyways it has to end I need to do this
 
Lasting weight loss has nothing to do with willpower

Hi Angelgem,

Thank you for sharing your journey with us. What I notice as I read your journal is that you appear to believe that weight loss has a lot to do with "willpower". I believe lasting weight loss has absolutely nothing to do with willpower, you are on the right track, however, when you recognize that your overeating or bingeing occurs when you feel down or overwhelmed. Even though you may feel yucky at this point, those feelings are a powerful teacher for you and the key to weight loss.

The next time you feel the urge to overeat, stop, even for 30 seconds and feel whatever feeling comes up for you. Initially, you will most likely feel stress or anxiety, but under those "cover emotions" you will discover the "real" emotion of anger, sadness or frustration. There is a thought causing those feelings (feelings are ALWAYS caused by thoughts--not circumstances or events, but our interpretations of those circumstances or events) - find the thought. Even if you are able to just feel the authentic feeling that is a brilliant start and helpful by itself. You can give yourself conscious permission to overeat after you have felt the feeling all the way through. Here's why: you will start to realize that you will get through the feeling with or without eating, feelings have a beginning, middle and end - they are finite. Over time, you can learn to find the thought behind the feeling and question it (one of my stressful thoughts was "I can't control my eating" - which I discovered was a total lie when I really questioned it - if I wasn't in control of my eating, who or what was? from that point on, eating began losing its charge for me until over a pretty short period of time, it let go of me completely). Questioning your thoughts will give you the ability to choose how to respond to your thoughts rather than reacting to them (i.e. overeating). There is a difference. Basically, you will learn that you are not your thoughts, and that is extremely powerful.

When you learn how to do this, "willpower" is not an issue. I have discovered that willpower may get you to lose weight quickly and maintain it temporarily, but it has nothing to do with lasting weight loss. When you get right with your thoughts, you will actually want to make healthier, positive choices that come from a place of peace, not struggle--that's what you truly want for yourself and that is what you can absolutely give to yourself. When you find peace within yourself, your choices and your body will reflect that. Losing weight can't make you a happy person, but once you discover that happiness is something you can cultivate (without losing a pound, yes, it's very possible!), the weight will leave you. That's been my experience, anyway :)

Also, make sure you never get very hungry and always stay at least slightly satisfied (not stuffed and not famished) - physical deprivation is a surefire binge trigger and it's biological at that point (your body takes over). You will actually gain weight over time trying to restrict your calories in this manner.

I look forward to reading more about your journey!

XO
 
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Keep at it Angelgem! I'm new to this forum and am also struggling with sticking to a plan. I get easily discouraged when I don't see the results I want and I have to just keep reminding myself how great I'll feel when I finally get to my goal weight. You looked great at yours and you'll get there again! My advice, if you're an emotional eater (like I am), is to not restrict yourself too much. I've tried that, and then I just feel so overwhelmed with all the things I can't eat, that when I finally cave, I go wayyyy overboard and counter any gains I had. I've been trying to allow myself small treats, say one a week to look forward to and then I don't feel like I'm missing out on as much. I'm sure you'll get back on track, I'll check back in with you and see how this week goes. Wish me luck too!
 
WOOHOO 6 pound loss in just under 2 weeks :)

I feel good *dances around* hungry but good LOL

Thanks for everyones words of encouragement and good luck to you all too.

I'm going to do it this time, I just know it :) YIPEE
 
You're doing really really great angelgem! 9 pounds in a few weeks, wow!!! :hurray: That is really fast! Keep it up and you'll soon be at your goal weight. And you look gorgeous too. :iagree:
 
thank you so much shinsplint I really appreciate your lovely comments and encouragement :)

I've stayed the same after 4 days, bit dissappointed but least I haven't put anything on so I'm still doing it.

3 and a quarter pounds until i'm under my first milestone :)
 
woohoo guys I'm now 194 and a half I was 205 to start with :) I'm under my first stone milestone and I'm so happy, I just hope I can keep it up and have the willpower to continue.

Thanks for all encouragement and I hope that you guys are all doing well too
 
well done!!! And don't worry about staying the same for days on end, it's just normal, and you will break out of it. Just keep doing what you're doing! Good luck. :):)
 
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