I'm doing this for me!

jaraku

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Hello all!


About 2 1/2 years ago, I started the greatest journey of my life. I started to lose weight. The summer before my senior year of high school, at 5'4" and weighing 191 lbs was not where I wanted to be. I randomly decided that I wanted to track what I ate, to see if that actually helped to lose weight. Somewhat on accident, I wrote down the calories that I was consuming, and thus began my weight-loss adventure.

I was a vegetarian that did not eat her fruits and vegetables, but once I started to realize that they had few calories and filled you up, that was almost all I ate.

Not even realizing it, I had started my calorie count at about 1200 calories a day. By the time November came around, I was obsessed with what I ate, eating no more then 800 calories most days. It was a really dangerous road for me, and I finally snapped out of that mode by the time Thanksgiving came around and I had my first real meal in a long time.

I started to eat well again, planning a few cheat days for the holidays, mostly because I was going to Germany for the first time and I wanted to enjoy everything that was offered to me.

I did well after I got back from Germany, up until March. I met a guy, who became my first serious boyfriend. By that point I had actually gotten all the way down to 129 lbs. After I met him, I slowly gained another 6 pounds, and would have gained more if it wasn't for the fact that I started to starve myself after I binged. This went along all summer.

I finally went to college, where the food was gross and I hardly ate. I ended back down to about 132, but I went home on weekends, so I constantly gained and lost weight for the entire semester.

I ended up breaking up with my boyfriend before the spring semester started, and when I went back to school, I was in a group of girls who were all trying to keep a good weight. After a few weeks, I met my current boyfriend and his friends, and did good weight wise around them, even though we went on late runs to Walmart and Taco Bell for food.

By the time summer rolled around, I had weighed about 143, which I wasn't too happy about, but I was so busy and put into a position where I couldn't care about what I was eating (worked 40 something hours a week, and the only meal I could eat between two jobs was what one job offered, which nothing they had was actually healthy).

As the summer ended I was weighing about 149, and I was trying my best to lose the weight, but the constant stress of my classes, I was unable to. Over the winter break, I went way too crazy, and ended up in the low 150s. I have been trying to lose that weight on and off. I finally decided that I am done with that. I am going to lose the weight so that I am back down to my slender self at 130, just in time for summer.

I have started to eat more fiber, more fruits, more vegetables. I am working out more (soccer and scuba) and once the summer starts, I am going to try and swim at least 3 times a week. I want to look and feel great, just for myself. I loved what I was like when I was 130 and I want to feel that again.
 
Today was my first real day redoing everything. It wasn't too bad, and I actually feel really great about myself. Unfortunetly I don't think I ate enough calories, though I did eat a lot of food. I had a beagle and cream-cheese for breakfast, edemame and veggie chick'n nuggets for lunch and an order of fries and veggie sticks from wingstop for dinner, which if I am correct adds to be about 900 calories. I would have eaten more, but I didn't have time to because of being at school and working out.

I did something for the first time in a very long time: I played soccer. One of my favorite professors started a soccer team, inviting his students to join it, and I had decided that I would. It was a really great game! While I never scored a goal, I did help with moving the ball forward constantly. My sister plays soccer for her high school team and for a club, so I never really played because that was something that was hers, but now that we are apart because I am in college, I feel that I can finally enjoy playing. It was a 45 min game, and I had to play the whole game, which wore me out, but in a good way. My boyfriend kept making fun of my face because it was really flushed, but that just means I got a really great workout in!

I am really excited for tomorrow because I get to go in the pool for my scuba class! I love my lab for that class! Its a really cool sensation being underwater and still being able to breathe, and I'm basically working out for 2 hours and I don't even feel a sweat! If I had to recommend a sport, this would be it. Whenever we go out to lakes, I'm usually the girl that gets distracted by the fish, and I never want to leave the water!
 
Today has been an off day for me. Not with my diet or exercise, thankfully. But I did not get any sleep last night, which has made me cranky all day. I have also been very high stress, which has caused me to be even crankier. I hate being like this, because I have no patients with my bf, and I constantly snap at him, which he doesn't deserve.

Cameron is so great for me. He knows when to take my sh*t and when not to, and he is always trying to make me happy. He has been so good with my diet, trying to look at calories with me (he tends to look at the fat content more then anything lol). If I look like I am straying, he will tell me to drop the donut or whatever I have in my hands. He's not really big on exercise, but he goes to my soccer games, supporting me while I chase the ball like an idiot.

There has been one good thing even with all the stress and grumpiness: I called up about an application for a teacher's aide at a daycare this summer, and while they cannot do anything about hiring right now (owners were out of town), the manager made sure that my application was marked so that they owners knew I was serious about the job. This would be a great job because what better way is there to exercise than to chase after a bunch of kids for 40 hours a week?

Anyways, I'm about to head off to my SCUBA class, which I'm happy for :) hopefully that will make my day better!
 
SCUBA did not make my day better :( while it was nice to be in the water, we had to do rescues, which really hurt my back and shoulders. I also felt really self conscious because my back is nastily peeling from a sunburn I acquired this weekend.

I am somewhat going to dread tomorrow (the start of my weekend). Once the weekend comes, I have a tendency to over eat, but I am going to try and make sure Cameron won't let me stray. Does anyone have any good ideas to keep away from food when studying in your own home? The only good area to study is right by the kitchen and I can't help but make my way into there too often :/ I never studied in high school, so studying for long periods of time, with lots of boredom leaves me not in a good spot.

Oh well.

Tomorrow is a new day, and hopefully I will be in a much better mood. Though I'm sure I will be thanks to my friend's kittens :D
 
Yesterday was alright for me. I keep having a problem at night where all I want to do is eat. I am trying to work on it, by eating sugar free ice pops, or by doing something to distract me, even though sometimes its hard to do. But I got to keep thinking that this is for me, to make myself better, healthier. Also so I don't have to buy more clothes because most of them are starting to not fit :(

It's hard being in college, trying to hang out with friends and trying to eat right. I try and go out with my friends to different eating establishments, but I'm always having to check on Cameron's phone (lucky jerk has a smart phone lol) to see how many calories are in what, and if it's ok to eat it or not. I always look weird looking up the nutrition while I'm at a table with other people that aren't my family.

Has anyone ever felt like they just don't want to do anything? I have felt kinda hopeless the last few weeks. I'm far behind on a lot of my papers and projects, and I just have no motivation to do anything. Hopefully I can get something done this weekend.
 
Yesterday was terrible food-wise, for me. I had the munchies all day, and I caved in when a few friends wanted to go to Wendy's for frosties. Why is it the vanilla ones have more calories then the chocolate ones? It screws me over because I'm not fond of chocolate, and prefer the vanilla. Anyways, I had also had a whole box of mac and cheese, which is terrible for me. The only thing I can say was good about yesterday was that I ate a ton of fiber.

I figure if I write down what I plan to eat today, maybe that will help me stay on track. So far I have had a bowl of cherrios with strawberries, but instead of milk, I used yogurt. I think for lunch, I will have an Amy's microwavable meal, and maybe have some carrots or broccoli with it. For a snack, I will prolly have a 100 calorie snack, either popcorn or a nutty bar (they now make 100 calorie ones :D !!!) For dinner, a package of mashed potatoes with some broccoli and maybe a little bit of cheese sounds really good and its really filling.

I've got to study all day and take a test online. I don't think I've said this before, but I am a marine biology major, which is a lot of fun, but you have to be a quick thinker and have to know your stuff in order to get anywhere, which means a lot of studying on my part.

Anyways, off to study about Mendel and his pea pods.
 
You remind me a lot myself. I'm a junior in college with a great boyfriend & I'm between 5'3" & 5'4" currently at 155lbs. I would love to get down to 130! It's nice to know other people are in my position & working hard while balancing school & life. I'm an animal & veterinary science major so I definitely feel you on the pressure & studying, I feel like it's all I do sometimes! Also, scuba sounds fantastic, I'm jealous! :)
Oh & I totally understand you on the frosties thing, college friends can be so counter productive when someone is on a diet! We want what we want when we want it & for cheap! lol.
Hope you have fun studying Mendel :) I'll check in soon. We can do this!
 
Try maybe studying at the library at your college? Don't sweat the bad days too much. Stress leads to more bad eating habits lol. Vicious circle and all that. You can do it! You sounds very very serious!
 
Thanks guys! It means a lot :)

I've been really good today :) Its amazing what flavored water can do for 'hunger' lol Even though I planned to have mashed potatoes for dinner, Cameron wants to go out, and because he doesn't have any food at the house, I'm somewhat willing to go, as long as I get to pick out the place and it doesn't cost too much. I just need to pick the place. Most of the restaurants here in Galveston don't have nutrition facts, and the ones that do are generally fast food and I don't want that. That just leave chilis and salt grass...now which to pick lol

I'm really excited about tomorrow night! One of my professors wants to play a game between two of his classes, so we get to play games instead of sit in class. I'm really enjoying having reasons to get out and run around! It makes exercising so much easier and a lot more fun!
 
Bein I am happy you found a good way to go out and exercise! Having people enjoy doing something active with you is always a wonderful way to burn some calories! Generally people are more willing to stay active if other people are involved as well!

As to the restaurants I am pretty sure they are required to provide the nutritional facts upon request. Don't be afraid to ask the waiter. You need to get your needs met and it's a service industry job they are doing. Just don't forget to tip lol!

Keep it up I look forward to reading more!
 
Well last night didn't go quite as planned. We went to Saltgrass Steakhouse, and I ate pretty good there, but when we got home, I had a major peanutbutter melt down. It wasn't too bad, but I ended up eating about 400 more calories then I was supposed to :/

Oh well, today is a new day and I've been really good :) I had 2 mini bagels with cream cheese, only 200 calories :) I just finished a baked potato with some broccoli. I haven't decided about dinner, but I'm thinking either veggie chili or some kinda pasta.

I've been keeping my weight at about 154 all week, which is good that I'm not gaining, but I want to lose! I'm hoping that I can at least be 152 by Friday! My school is having our formal, and I want to look my best for that night! I have a sexy one strapped black dress that I plan to surprise Cameron in. We get to have our second formal event together, and the first chance to dance in public together :) I'm excited!
 
Sorry for not posting the past two days. They have been pretty busy for me. I didn't eat to bad, and Cameron and I finally went to the grocery store and got food, which we were running low on. So now I have some veggie sandwich meats!

I've got another soccer game tonight, though I don't know who all is going to show up (and I have a feeling that the other team might not show up at all because of sickness). I'm pretty excited about the game, and hopefully Cameron will actually play, instead of being my cheerleader lol.

I have some exciting news on my behalf :) I will hopefully be getting a puppy! I know that's not that exciting, but it means that I have to go out on walks, and I will have someone to play with, all the time. I have a puppy in mind too, and the current owner says that he is a cuddle bug and just loves to play. I want him so bad!

Ugh! Yesterday, Cameron participating in eating healthy for once, decided to join me in smoothies. I couldn't find the normal yogurt that I use, so I used greek yogurt in the smoothies, which didn't make them too sweet. Cameron decided to add sugar in his, and when I wasn't looking, added a bit into mine. I caught him just as he did it, and couldn't help but be angry that he didn't ask if I wanted any (which I didn't because I was used to the taste). I know he was trying to be sweet, and make my drink the way he thought I would like it, but sometimes it's not what is needed. It frustrates me when people try and change things from how I make them, especially food when I'm trying to count calories.
 
Hi Jaraku!

I also have similar goals to you :)

In regards to tips trying not to eat whilst studying- why not allow yourself to snack, but on more healthier options? I like to snack on seasoned carrot sticks (with a little lemon juice!) I found (for myself) that if you take the time to prepare (beforehand) what you're going to eat, and snacks in particular, then you enjoy them that much more. Instead of being so hungry and frantcially looking in the fridge/cupboard... do you know what i mean? Planning the meals is what is helping me stay motivated and strong on my weightloss adventure:biggrinjester:

About the sugar in your shake- a little sugar won't hurt you. Sure it's extra calories, but just tell him next time you don't want any. It's not the end of the world :)
 
cheekygal- I know its a little sugar, but if I hadn't caught him, he would have put in 3 or 4 teaspoons. Though i do need to lighten up a bit lol

Superfantastical news!!! I can fit into a pair of pants that I haven't for a few months! I now know why I haven't been losing so much weight (though I am now offically at 153 as of this morning! Woot!!). I've been gaining muscle! I can fit into my really nice jeans now! Its happy news for me :)
 
Sorry for not posting but I have been very busy the past few days (or the past week, I guess lol). I've been pretty busy with classes, and playing soccer. My body is so sore from playing 3 nights in a row. I'm pretty sure my feet are rubbed raw in some of the places. But I can feel muscles growing all over me, which is kind of exciting!

I've got scuba tonight, and since we are doing rescues, I know I will be dead by the end of the night. So much exercise for this week, and I have all of Sunday to do rescues :/

Oh well! No off to get ready for class!
 
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