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Hello everyone,

I joined this forum in January, and owing to various stresses in my life have unfortunately gained a few pounds lately - (actually I have weighed myself just now and it a really depressing 15st 9.5lb, i.e. 219.5lbs)

A year ago that would have been more like 14st 9.5lbs, i.e. 205.5lbs. I would like, first of all, to get back down to around 15st; to be honest if I get through to New Year the same as I am now that would be a decent outcome. Maybe lose a pound or two before Xmas as an insurance.

Groan, I realise how far I have slipped. I stopped "pointing" as I was too stressed and busy and anxiety-ridden. I do also have a compelling health reason for losing weight in that I have sleep apnea. If nothing else motivates me, that will.

I want to get back on track, though, and have taken a positive step here today by starting "pointing" using the system of a well known weight loss company, and by returning to this forum.

I totted up my points today and have managed 43 - way over the 30 which I have worked out is my allowance.

I have drifted back up towards my heaviest ever weight and I hate that. But I feel that coming here again is an empowering thing to do, and a start.

Immediately I can see a number of reasons for putting on weight:

(1) Overwork - so I have voted myself a 2.5-week Xmas break (I'm self-employed) and after three days am just starting to calm down. I need to also make a specific plan to avoid getting overworked again in the New Year; at the moment, I have a vague idea what to do. I have been eating less well, comfort eating, overeating and taking less exercise.

(2) I also realise my daily hot chocolate habit (sometimes cake/biscuit too) at a cafe is not just costing me up to 20UKP a week (about 30 dollars) but a whopping seven WW points (Starbuck's UK rating). So that has to go, and be replaced by a tea or decaf coffee with less points.

(3) And possibly the biggest reason: failure to deal with a really difficult family problem. I tend to beat myself up over it, but it is difficult as it involves third parties over whom I have no power. It might be more accurate to say persistent failure to effectively confront certain people, even if expressing that anger largely would involve writing it down. And that in the face of zero direct support and two very slippery, ruthless individuals. That perceived persistent failure in myself has led to lowered self-esteem and raised anxiety>overwork (as avoidance strategy?), comfort eating and picking arguments to relieve stress>less exercise, overeating and poorer diet>weight gain and lower self- esteem etc, etc - a vicious circle that I am sure is very familiar. And at the back of my mind I can now hear a voice saying "hey, now you're dieting again you'll have to face your problems." OK. I will have to find the strength for that. A good start will be writing it down, something I have long needed to do but have long procrastinated. And I will sooner or later confront these people, even if it has to be by letter.

It had got to a point that I was so fed up that I think I made a decision to let myself go a little - I stopped caring so much because I felt so depressed and hopeless and frustrated with these people. Hell, now I have some spare energy and me time at long long last I am going to damn well use it, and make sure that I don't get myself in such an abject state again.


Anyone who has stayed with me to the end, thanks for reading.
 
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dud i can totalty relate too how your feeling! the main thing is your here and doing something about it, best of luck too you!:)
 
If I might offer a suggestion...

Don't diet..

Really work it as a lifestyle change which can include biscuits and cakes and chocoalte and the occassional starbucks treat... DOn't deprive yourself instead make the items work within your day.. and just focus on consistent behavior and learning new habits
 
Thanks for the suggestions. It makes sense to not diet as such, just develop healthier habits; it worked for me before.

Anyhow, despite the Xmas onslaught, I have drifted marginally down to 15st 9lbs, i.e. 219 lbs and a half pound loss, i.e half a pound ahead of target.

Something to build on; my next target is a modest four pound loss by the end of January to 215lbs.
 
15st 11.5 lbs today, i.e 221.5lbs and a gain of two. Mind you I was fully clothed at the time of weighing so maybe that explains most of the rise, or maybe I am actually about level on the week.

This is now the time to get down to the real work of weight loss - a huge feast at a New Year party did not help this week.

Back to yoga tonight and have started WW pointing again (though not attending meetings).

Down the gym soon too.
 
Thanks for the encouragement!

15st 8.5 today, i.e. 218.5 - down three!

I think both last week's gain and this week's fall are a little distorted but I'm heading in the right direcrion, a net weight loss of one lb in two weeks since Christmas.

Woiuld love to get down to 216.5 or 217 next week - then I would feel I was underway.
 
15st 8.6 - so exactly the same, give or take a slice of toast! Some good days and some bad days and more or less what I expected.
 
26 Jan update

Progress! 15st 7.5 lbs.

Finding it really hard at the moment as I feel so low in energy and run down because of winter.

So thanks for the encouragement.
 
way to go. You can obviously do it, so just keep at it. Consistance seems to be the number 1 factor people who have gotten to goal weights seem to have in common.
 
Darn. 15st 8.4 so a pound on this week. A couple of parties provoded too much snacky temptation and I was stressed. Bad combination.
 
15st 7lbs - edging down. Still prone to comfort/boredom eating. Need to get to the tipping point wqhewre the self discipline is more automatic.

Enocouraged by the slow but steady progress though. I reckon I need one good week to really get me going.
 
One step forward...

...and one step back. 15st 8.5lbs. darn. Thought this week had been OK.

I think once I have ironed out my stresses I will stand a better chance. Until then real progress is going to be hard.

One thing I can definitely do is more exercise - hasn't been easy this week with so much rain, snow, cold etc.
 
15st 5.5 lbs. I have actually gone up and down two pounds in the last week, thanks firstly to starting going to the gym, then having a very busy and stressful week at work and not being able to do much exercise and have to rely on packaged foods.

I feel if I keep up exercsing I can probably lose a couple of pounds more a week than I would just by dieting.
 
I cannot believe I have left it over six weeks since I last posted. That's bad.

Weight today: 15st 9.6 lbs - actually more than when I started. Unresolved problems are leading to stress leadinmg to comfort eating - and times when I need a chocolate fix to prop me up.

Also in recent weeks less exercise has not helped, but yoga tonight after a three week break was a step in the right direction.
 
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