We all deserve to be happy... As I say - I'll probably end up having surgery for the loose skin. I've tons of it. Be sure to tell me what you think of Prague.
I was a very big lady from my mid 20s to age 47... I tried to diet loads of times and really thought that I could never do it... When you get up to 21 stone you can really get to thinking that you are in too deep and that you are talking an impossible task...
I saw too many magazines that implied or literally said that you had to go round eating no more than say 1000 calories or 1200 calories a day if you wanted to lose weight... I tried it time and time again and felt really deprived - like my throat had been cut...
I even tried daft things like drinking cider vinegar... It tastes vile...
I joined weight watchers once and they actually sold me a book that said that there was no point in walking to lose weight if you didnt walk quickly... Well - excuse me - at 21 stone you do not walk quickly...
Every time - I stuck to it for up to about 3 weeks. Then gave up gloriously - and had all the things that I had been fantasising about eating while I was feeling deprived... Every time - I ended up heavier than I started...
It didnt help that my husband was then a very big man... His max weight was over 29 stone... Thankfully he is bit less than that now... When we started a diet it was all about US and WE... It was a combined effort... All it needed was for one of us to fail gloriously and we both did...
I had actually been very very upset when a previous weight loss attempt failed and my husband didnt want me to be as upset again so he actively discouraged me from losing weight and told me a lot that he loved me just as I was.
Then something just clicked...
I started going out for a walk every day... I didnt go far - but it was a challenge and took effort... I sat on garden walls and had a rest - but I did it... I went out the next day and determined to walk as far or further... I did it every day... I got a pedometer and wore it for every step of the day... I made it my challenge to see if the fitter person of today could do more steps than the less fit person of yesterday... It meant that I did more steps all the time - around the house, in shops - all the time... I didnt care how fast - but the funny thing was that my stamina improved and I got more fit and I did speed up...
At the same time I started eating better... Nothing drastic like counting calories back then... It was more like - we had a drawer full of chocolate bars. Several times a night my husband would go to the drawer and fetch me a chocolate bar when he got one for himself... I didnt tell him what I was doing... I just sat with the chocolate bar near me and at the end of the night I put them in another drawer... As one drawer emptied and was restocked - I ended up with another secret drawer full of chocolate... Then I told him what I had done and we moved the chocolate to the other drawer...
It was things like not wanting to get in take away and getting fruit / yoghurt / sorbet instead of creamy desserts...
Nothing like all those failed diet attempts...
I started cooking healthier meals - cutting out pies - eating more veg. All the things that we all know are a healthier way to go... I started weighing myself every day and keeping a note of what I had eaten... When my weight went down a few times I became more tempted to have that meal more often... When I saw a pattern with my weight going up I decided to axe things... Salmon meals gave me a wonderful weight loss pretty much every time - cheese always saw my weight go up...
All the time with more and more walking... My weight was coming down beautifully... Better than ever before...
I joined the forum - and learned an awful lot about weight loss... I also made some wonderful friends that I still chat to daily over on FB...
I can honestly say that yes - 12 stone was not easy - but it was much easier than the "impossible" that I thought that it would be...
I managed to maintain it just fine too - but have had a really stressful couple of years (husband had 5 operations, we relocated 300 miles) and gained 3 stone so I came back to the forum - but have dropped one stone of that so things are going ok... I guess some of us are likely to act in a pretty predictable way when things get very stressful... We are all only human and have to forgive ourselves and do the best we can.