ILM: Workouts, Ruminations and Perv Lounge (Come One, Come All)

Friday night was spent with Matt. No workout ... at the gym anyway ;)

UGH. Aunt Flo decided to make a cameo appearance today -- apparently she'll be staying for a few more days. The problem with Aunt Flo is that I never know when she's coming. I've always had the most irregular periods on the planet. I can go 4 weeks, then 8, then 6, then 9, then 5. Regardless, it's always an unwelcome surprise :( I do not have a love affair with my uterus. I've wanted it removed from my body since I was 14. I've always viewed my uterus as though it was an illegal alien squatting in my body just taking up space and not paying rent. It disgusts me that I even have one :p

So since I was feeling a bit tired and yucky, I just did upper body stuff and core. Not that exciting. Just the same stuff as before. I increased the weight on the bent over rows and rack pulls:

Bicep curls: 3x10 @10lb DB L; @17.5lb DB R
Skullcrushers: 3x10 @20lb DBs
DB Bench: 25lb DBs bilaterally
Front Delt Raises: 3x10 @5lb DB L; @10lb DB R
Lateral Delt Raises: Same as above
Posterior Delt Raises: 3x10 @8lb DBs bilaterally
Bent Over Rows: 3x10 @25lb DBs bilaterally
Straight-Arm Pulldowns: 3x8 @80lbs
Rack Pulls: 2x8, 1x10 @140lbs

Some stretching and core work. That's all.

I hardly broke into a sweat. I can't really push the upper body stuff yet. Maybe in another month or so I'll be sweating doing upper body again. I can taste it it's so close now ... ;)

Monday night Matt wants to take me to the gymnastics club again ... I'm going to try handstands and walkovers and maybe try to press into a handstand from the floor again!! :hurray:
 
Went to the gymnastics club last night and had a good time :)

Matt and I did some tandem acrobatics (so he can pretend he's in Cirque de Soleil :D) and then he spotted me on a few other things. I'll know my arm has healed when I can balance my body weight on it!!

Travis arrives on Thursday night. My entire body is all tingly -- I've got all this electrical energy going on inside me and I don't know what to do with it!!! And I've got butterflies in my stomach again ;) I can't believe a guy can make me feel like this. He makes me feel like I'm 14. It's ridiculous. And I love it :beating:

Of course Matt also feels the same way. We're totally spazzing out about this. I should really get some of this on video and post our musings on YouTube ... but I'm afraid that since we're not copyrighted, somebody would steal our ideas and make a bazillion dollars on a new sit-com :D

Travis is here for 10 days. And I'm going to make the most of those 10 days, believe me. So if I'm a little scarce, you'll know why ;)

Tonight I have a massage (upper body) and I plan on doing a leg workout afterwards. I know that's not the right order, but it's the best I can do. So that's what's going to happen :)

Nothing else too exciting happening. It's pretty much the same shit, different pile :smilielol5:
 
UPDATE:

TUESDAY:
Massage went well :)

Then I hung out at the gym for another 40 minutes and did a quickie workout:

Squats:
The usual.

Split Lunges:
The usual.

Hamstring Curls:
Yes. The usual.

Stretching: the unusual :D
I can finally get each leg up to my ear standing up. I still can't quite get into the side splits. It's better, but only marginally. So I decided to lie on my back, push my butt up to the wall and relax my legs to see how far they'd go down. Right leg is almost flush to the floor. Left leg ... well, it's still up in the air :p

I'll have to start stretching everyday again or I'll never get there.

WEDNESDAY:
Tonight I had physio. I got a new exercise: push ups on the BOSU ball. I like them ;)

But now my arm hurts, and I'm frustrated and I'm in a blue funk because my headspace is bad.

I'd like to think it's hormones, but it's more than that. I've been in rehab for 3 years and I'm so fucking tired of it. And I have no idea when my bicep injury will be fully healed. So I'm wallowing in self pity right now :(

I've got to do a good job of wallowing because Travis gets in tomorrow night and I have to be in a much better frame of mind than I am now.
 
Hey hey :)

Sounds like you have a lot of fun stuff in store for the next few days ;) Have a Happy Valentines day and take it to the limit, lol... mostly because I'm single and working on that day, so have some extra fun on my account.

Looks like your getting in all the workouts you need to and even doing some fun recreational stuff too. Good on ya.

The foods you plan on cooking sound delicious........... I'm so hungry now, lol.

Take Care,
Sam
 
Hey Sam, thanks for stopping by :)

I'm not getting in the workouts I need to attain my goal. But since I'm still compromised, I have to do what I can to at least keep what I've got :p

I promise I'll have a little extra fun on Valentine's Day for you ;)

Luv ya!!! Matt and Travis send their luv, too.
 
Heyyy Mo just wanted to thank you for leaving nice words of encouragement on my journal ! :)

I see you are still working out hard there, but sorry you're having arm pain -- that must be so frustrating - I hope very much that gets sorted out.... but you are getting more flexible, ehy!!

And yeah it's not easy to complete all your workouts to attain goal if you are not 100% well, so you fully deserve to give yourself a break & not get down about it {HUGS} Hmmm come to think of it, I can't even imagine what your goal is, since you're so flipping fit it's unreal.... hahaha. :drool5: <-- Jealousy drool

Well I hope you have a fantabulous Valentine's Day with your man ;) and a wonderful weekend :):party:
 
i know know old post but new here...just catching up!!

I_love_muscle said:
I've never had a problem with my weight except for 2 dark years in my life: when I went on anti-depressants when I turned 40. I gained 30 pounds in one month (yes, you read it correctly: ONE MONTH was all it took on these pills), and it wasn't muscle. It was all fat. The SSRIs I was on obviously numbed the part of my brain that says "YOU'RE FULL DOUCHE BAG", because I have never eaten more food in my entire life. My blood glucose levels were horrible. I'd eat so much, when I'd go to bed at night, I'd feel the food in my throat because it had nowhere else to go. And unfortunately, I don't vomit very easily. I need epicac or a case of food poisoning to actually throw up.

Although the weight gain bothered me on some level, I didn't really care because the SSRIs numbed that part of my brain, too. Obviously not the right prescription, so I weaned myself off of them 18 months later. Then to my horror, one day about a week after starting to wean myself off the SSRIs, I actually looked in the mirror and said "YOU'RE FAT". I weighed 175 pounds. I'm 5'4". Even if that was solid muscle, I'd be too big. I was a size 14. I was a fucking mess. I'd never looked like that before. I'd look in the mirror and go "That's not me. That can't be me." But I knew I had to do something about it. It just wasn't healthy for me, especially with diabetes. And I wasn't happy with the way I looked naked. In retrospect, it wasn't that bad and I really liked how big my boobies were :) But I didn't like anything else about me because I wasn't accustomed to not being able to see definition and vascularity in my body.

So I did something about it. And it wasn't as easy as I thought it was going to be. I wasn't going to the gym when I was on anti-depressants. I had zero interest in working out (that should have been the red flag for me!). Although my appetite came back to normal, I had to work my butt off in the gym again. I wasn't as young as I was before, my metabolic rate was slower, and I'd lost muscle mass. I seriously thought I'd lose the fat in a month, because I'd never been fat before, and I figured it would come off as quickly as I gained it. As usual, my mental time line was not well synchronized with my body's time line :D

A year later (yes, 12 months!), I'd finally lost the fat, gained some muscle and got my mojo back :hurray:

I also read Lyle McDonald's "The Ketogenic Diet", and modified it so my blood glucose levels were A-OK.

So all in all, everything that has happened to me so far has DEFINITELY been a good thing :sifone:

Enough about me. I think it's time to let the games begin :party:
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i can totally relate to the horrendous super fast weight gain with SSRI's!! & the feeling of total disbelief of finding i'd gotten fat when i'd never been before...unlike you though i did a really silly thing...i came off the anti-depressants too quickly (in a panic about weight gain!!) like 2/3months after being prescribed them. of course my mood had not settled by then...so then ate because i was still depressed...& b/c i felt fat!! go figure :rolleyes:
 
Update:

Massage on Saturday for my adductors/gracilis. Seems to be working itself out.

Did an upper body workout after my massage. Nothing new to report other than my lats were actually sore on Sunday :)


Matt, Travis and I went dancing on Saturday night. We decided to check out one of the gay bars here, mostly because they play the best music, and we really had a good time!!! Lots of eye candy, too :drool5::drool5:

Then we went up to Banff snowshoeing on Sunday. We had a REALLY great time, spent about 2 hours snowshoeing, and then went back to the Town of Banff and carbed up before driving back to Calgary (it's about an hour's drive, which is VERY close for us).

Not much else to report right now other than tomorrow is a holiday in Alberta (Family Day), but it's Matt's turn to decide what we're doing ... so it's a surprise :)

I'm tired, so I'm going to go to bed ;)

I hope to give a better update soon, but I'm really enjoying having Matt and Travis here with me :beating::beating:
 
Massage update:
Had a REALLY good massage Tuesday night. James (my MT) could go in really deep in my upper back and neck, and I'm feeling so much better and I don't feel any stress at all in my shoulders/neck (for once!) :)

I also had a short and very retarded workout:

Squats:
1x10 @ 150lbs
1x10 @ 175lbs
1x5 @ 200lbs (I really felt those -- I couldn't squeeze another one out, plus the bar was hurting me -- yes, I need to toughen up again!)

Partial DLs:
3x10 @ 135lbs (I couldn't remember what I did before, but they felt fine)

Hamstring Curls:
3x10 @ 100lbs

Some core work, stretching (my leg is feeling really good -- I'm probably a month away from the side splits -- YAY!)

That's all :) See, I told you it was a retarded workout :p
 
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baglady2713 said:
i can totally relate to the horrendous super fast weight gain with SSRI's!! & the feeling of total disbelief of finding i'd gotten fat when i'd never been before...unlike you though i did a really silly thing...i came off the anti-depressants too quickly (in a panic about weight gain!!) like 2/3months after being prescribed them. of course my mood had not settled by then...so then ate because i was still depressed...& b/c i felt fat!! go figure :rolleyes:
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Honestly, the way my body blew up like a balloon on SSRIs blew my mind. I'd NEVER had a problem with my weight until that point in time. It was a real biaaatch. Water retention ... insatiable appetite ... no energy ... and pretty much NUMB inside. Not a great combo for me. But you trust your doctor up to a point and keep thinking "it's gotta get better, right?". I found out the answer to that question is "Not always ...".

I'm not an emotional eater. In fact, when I'm stressed, I can't eat. Which isn't healthy, either.
 
Last night I had physio and I snuck in a mini arm/shoulder workout in between ultrasound and stim. Nothing too exciting happened -- my arm hurt last night and still hurts this morning. I always wonder why it hurts more after physio than before. Oh well ...

Bicep curls: 3x10 @12lb DB L; @17.5lb DB R (increase in wt on L)
Skullcrushers: 3x10 @20lb DBs
Front Delt Raises: 3x10 @8lb DB L; @10lb DB R (increase in wt on L)
Lateral Delt Raises: Same as above
Posterior Delt Raises: 3x10 @8lb DBs bilaterally

Rehab:
Body blade for 4 minutes (each side)
Push ups on BOSU ball: 3x20
Rotator cuff stuff :)

Got home and stretched with Matt. I really like stretching with somebody else because you can get a far better stretch when somebody is pushing against you than you can get on your own. Travis isn't super flexible so he just watched :p

Then we all ate dinner at about 9:00pm and then I went upstairs and fiddled on the computer for awhile ;)
 
Hey :)

All your massages you talk about sound intriguing... Right now with all the stress I'm constantly under I think a massage would probably release so much, lol... I'd probably end up crying all over the table because the MT hit the right spot to let it all out, hehe.

Glad you hit up a gay bar and danced some. I really want to go out this weekend but I'm not completely sure it's in the cards... I'm way tired and stressed from this week (I think I get to take a Valium this weekend though ;) ) so I probably need it. I can't wait until this semester is behind me and I can semi-play a little this summer... Sorry, I come in here to say hello and all I end up doing is bitching and whining about school, hehe....

My luv to you and your boyz :)

There is a boy prospect in the program with me... He's not in any of my classes because he's in the 2nd section (I'm in the first) but I occasionally bump into him... He's always starring at me and "hunts" or looks for obscure reasons to talk to me. My friends notice him hovering around me and trying to think up reasons to just talk to me :) I think it's cute. He hasn't announced he's gay or anything (LOL) but this guy is gay for sure. Let's just say "I can smell it in the kitchen" hehe...

-Sam
 
Thanks for dropping in on me, I don't always have time to check in on others but it sound like your shoulder rehab is going well :)

What do ya think of the Body blade ? i feel a bit silly using it but it sure has helped with my shoulder stability :)
 
sammyboy24 said:
Hey :)

All your massages you talk about sound intriguing... Right now with all the stress I'm constantly under I think a massage would probably release so much, lol... I'd probably end up crying all over the table because the MT hit the right spot to let it all out, hehe.

Glad you hit up a gay bar and danced some. I really want to go out this weekend but I'm not completely sure it's in the cards... I'm way tired and stressed from this week (I think I get to take a Valium this weekend though ;) ) so I probably need it. I can't wait until this semester is behind me and I can semi-play a little this summer... Sorry, I come in here to say hello and all I end up doing is bitching and whining about school, hehe....

My luv to you and your boyz :)

There is a boy prospect in the program with me... He's not in any of my classes because he's in the 2nd section (I'm in the first) but I occasionally bump into him... He's always starring at me and "hunts" or looks for obscure reasons to talk to me. My friends notice him hovering around me and trying to think up reasons to just talk to me :) I think it's cute. He hasn't announced he's gay or anything (LOL) but this guy is gay for sure. Let's just say "I can smell it in the kitchen" hehe...

-Sam
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OMG Sam, I hope something develops between you and this guy and that it's REALLY GREAT!!! :)

I can usually tell when somebody isn't hetero because there's just that "je ne sais crois" that sets off my gaydar ;) I can't directly put my finger on it, it's far too intangible. I think it's body language. Our brains don't "consciously" recognize it, but our sub-conscious does FOR SURE :p

I LOVE going to gay bars. The music is WAY better, the people are WAY more fun, and I always have a much better time than if I went to a hetero bar.

Massages are always nice, Sam. You don't necessarily have to have a deep tissue massage to derive the benefits (although that does help!).

I joke to my MT and tell him I'm going to bring in an adult-sized soother and my own security blanket :D Sometimes they get into a spot and WEEEEEHOOOOOO, the tears automatically start dripping out the sides of your eyeballs because it's an autonomic response mechanism. You can't stop it from happening.

But it's all good in the end :)

I'm going to pop in to your journal and see what's going on!
 
Trusylver said:
Thanks for dropping in on me, I don't always have time to check in on others but it sound like your shoulder rehab is going well :)

What do ya think of the Body blade ? i feel a bit silly using it but it sure has helped with my shoulder stability :)
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Tru, at first I thought the body blade was lame. I felt like a total idiot using it. Now I really like it. I think they come in two sizes, and I'm still on the smaller one. But I sure feel it in my shoulder girdle (on BOTH sides!). I think they're really great. I'm actually thinking of purchasing one so I can use it at home, too.
 
wwwwtfhappenedtoallthepervinginhere.net

I just ate two oranges after my workout and was feeling all tingly and such when that Perv Lounge twinged me like a ball garotte, so I stepped in here and it's like you re-carpeted the place or something .:confused:.
 
Val: Yeah, I know. I've been spending more time on Steve's forum, too :)

Randy: I had no intention of recarpeting my perv lounge. It's just that there isn't that much pervy stuff happening right now.

You're more than welcome to start some, though :D
 
Well, we sent Travis off awhile ago and my heart is already aching. It hurt so much to see him walking away. And yeah, I cried my eyes out. Matt is pretty bummed out, too, but he kept it together. He needed a lot of TLC tonight, as did I.

My body, heart and soul are still bathing in Travis' afterglow and my essence is eternally tangled in the shadows of his love.

No workout updates. I'm freaking BORING! :D

I'll try to step up to the plate this week ;) I promise!!!!!
 
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