"I'll start tomorrow" - This time, for real.

Well the baked potato didn't happen coz mother grilled some sausages so I nicked a few of those and made a sandwiche. Not the best choice but I did stick to one sandwiche (I used to have two!!!) and a big glass of water again. I am planning to have one more walk and go bed early so I can at least get up earlier with more ease. Sounds like you and I xorie are in the same boat with the too eager portions in the family. Grrrr really irks me my nan just offered me HUGE bar of galaxy chocolate. My mouth actually watered and I was choked for a response as my brain did a battle lmao!
Sapientia what a sad story! But I suppose that is where lessons are learnt. I have a few regrets myself at this moment, I don't want to literally "wear" my guilt years down the line. So many stories of "if only". Chubbygirl its funny you bring up the nutrition. To be strictly honest I am NOT the greatest at nutrition. I have always been a fussy eater but much much better I mean come on how could I NOT like baked beans all those years ago lol. Tho your comment brough up yet another idea, I might take vitamin supplements because I damn well dont get my daily intake. I should have done it ages ago, I have received more than one comment about looking anaemic. Better than nothing I say! Hehe I'm really happy today I think it's the weather, its warm but not so hot (me no like hot weather, in this skin anyway :p).
Well I stuck to drinking lots of water, refusing the junk and did my walk. Bedroom is nearly finished. I think I'll ramp it up a little bit more tomorrow make a start on that dvd! :)
BTW I just weighed myself, 180lbs (81.6kg) and my height is 5'6". According to the NHS my current bmi is 28.8 when it SHOULD be between 20-25 :O My trousers are a size 16(uk) and my top half is a size 14 (uk).
I think I shall set my BIG goal to be 10 stone (140lbs) or (63.5kg) I have never been that weight healthily and shall see where that takes me because I wanna get fit and going by weight isn't as good as going by appearance and feel. I will take pictures every friday from hereon! So with 40lbs (18.1kg) to go I'm hoping that I can be my goal weight just after the new year. :)

p.s. shepherds pie is evil but carbonara is the devil!
 
Using the smaller bowl is a great idea. And I agree with everything 'chubbygirl' said. Best of luck with the job :) I'm a carer when I'm home from University but haven't had many shifts at all recently because my 'caree' (a guy my age with physical and learning disabilities) is spending a lot of time at respite centers getting ready to go to a residential colllege. It's so embarrasing but I know i'm going to cry at his goodbye party, I've worked with him for nearly 4 years :-( I can relate on the no car thing too (haven't learnt to drive yet), it's a bitch but you can definitely use it to your advantage :) having to cycle or walk somewhere everyday because you don't have the option to drive really does add up :) that's what I tell myself when I'm annoyed about not being able to drive anyway ;-)

It sounds like your attitudes to food are already starting to change. You're doing great :)
 
I have just read through your whole diary and I have to say you remind me a lot of myself. I love the title of your diary, how many times did I say to myself I'll start tomorrow, haha. I am not unemployed but I work for my dad's business doing income taxes and only work 4 months out of the year during tax season, so the rest of the year it's like I'm unemployed. I'm greatful for the money but as I have been talking about in my own diary I hate the work and it does not fit me. I've been doing this for 2 years now so in the off-season when I wasn't working I would sit at home being depressed and eat all day. Now I am slowly working my way into a career change (dog grooming!!) and I have lost some weight too. I hit rock bottom when I was put on weight probation by my dance team and I do not want to have to give it up. So I got off my lazy butt and got moving! You can do it too, I know you can! I am the same way with portion sizes. I have reduced them and already I can't physically eat as much in one sitting as before. I measure my cereal every morning. I also try to eat out of smaller bowls and salad plates instead of dinner plates. I have two dogs and one of them is a little overweight, and I would feel guilty about it like you, before when I was being so lazy and she would just lie next to me all day. But the good news is she has lost some weight too! Sounds like you're off to a great start! I'll keep reading.
 
most of us have been through that hun!
the ''I'll start tomorrow'' very common. my life was FULL of ''tomorrow's'' lol. and it becomes frustrating... breaking the cycle isn't easy. also I can totally relate to your mom being overweight. mine is too, but she has always been tough on me for being overweight, but she doesn't change her habits. blah.

what you do do it to prove it to yourself
whatever comes later, it is just a bonus!
I know it is better to feel the support of someone you love and helps you through the process, but the truth is, if you don't want it for you, probably it won't happen. I spend all my high school years trying to ''prove others'' that I could be smaller and that they then would stop making fun of me. but that just made me feel more depressed...

good luck hun you know you are not alone!
 
Hey xRougex! Just wanted to say hey! I think it's great that you want to add walking. How is the breakfast thing going? Do you find that you have more energy and are less ravenous later in the day? Oh, you mentioned looking at the backs of boxes...make sure you check the serving size! G luck! You can do it..."Slow and steady wins the race!" =)
 
Hey girl,

I can totally relate to you about portion sizes! That chinese take out, are you nuts? of course i ate the whole damn styrofoam container! I love quantity unfortunately, a bit tooooo much!

Dogs are AMAZING to keep you motivated. i walk the dogs when i have a chance, they also pick up the pace for me!

Good luck and i'll be reading on!
 
Afternoon y'all yeah I feel ALOT better when I wake up now and my moods have improved - before with my oversleeping and junky habits I'd be constantly irritable and short tempered. I found a pedometer today in a kitchen cupboard how bizarre but awesome at the same time :) This morning I had two slices of toast with jam and a tiny glass of milk (I mean at least two gulps worth lol, I used to drink at least a pint before). I used to think the chinese takeaway tubs were SMALL hehe but after my portion size research wowz was I wrong. Guys, I have to admit over the last few days of my efforts the really nice thing about all of this is the feeling of control. For so long I thought every choice was out of my grasp, making excuses, but taking on this challenge is so uplifting, especially on the positive days. I have just had an argument with my nan (she argues like a baby, slamming her hands on the table throwing things, this time because I wanted to ring my mother to let her know we needed dog food. Only god knows why my nan threw a hissy fit, she tends to scream and kick first and THEN explain her reasoning.) I was a bit disheartened thinking F**K it, life is S**T, but coming on here and reading all your supportive comments has calmed me down so THANK YOU!! :) Maybe some of you are the same: you have an argument and its like everything you've worked for is out of the window and you cant be bothered - a little bit of feeling sorry for myself really, when feeling sorry isn't going to get me anywhere. Like you said, I got to do this for myself and not let others or circumstances pull me down. I WILL get the body I want, that, at least, is within my control. :)
 
Hey It's great to see you starting out and taking control of your life and your weight! :hurray: I've been a member of this forum for a while but vanished due to lack of motivation. I can understand what you mean with getting angry and wanting to throw it all away. I often beat myself up when I get into an arguement. At first I think they are stupid, then I get mad at myself for thinking that about them. When I'm super mad I like to drink away my problems and just eat the first bad thing I can find. It's horrible really to see what control bad food has on our emotions and our minds. But I think you and I can change. I think we can all change. Just keep focused and try not to let the emotional rollercoasters get in your way!
 
Afternoon y'all yeah I feel ALOT better when I wake up now and my moods have improved - before with my oversleeping and junky habits I'd be constantly irritable and short tempered. I found a pedometer today in a kitchen cupboard how bizarre but awesome at the same time :) This morning I had two slices of toast with jam and a tiny glass of milk (I mean at least two gulps worth lol, I used to drink at least a pint before). I used to think the chinese takeaway tubs were SMALL hehe but after my portion size research wowz was I wrong. Guys, I have to admit over the last few days of my efforts the really nice thing about all of this is the feeling of control. For so long I thought every choice was out of my grasp, making excuses, but taking on this challenge is so uplifting, especially on the positive days. I have just had an argument with my nan (she argues like a baby, slamming her hands on the table throwing things, this time because I wanted to ring my mother to let her know we needed dog food. Only god knows why my nan threw a hissy fit, she tends to scream and kick first and THEN explain her reasoning.) I was a bit disheartened thinking F**K it, life is S**T, but coming on here and reading all your supportive comments has calmed me down so THANK YOU!! :) Maybe some of you are the same: you have an argument and its like everything you've worked for is out of the window and you cant be bothered - a little bit of feeling sorry for myself really, when feeling sorry isn't going to get me anywhere. Like you said, I got to do this for myself and not let others or circumstances pull me down. I WILL get the body I want, that, at least, is within my control. :)

I love this site for that reason. When I find myself in times of trouble, mo-...wait that's Let it be... lol. :D But the reason stands that if I'm feeling frustrated with myself or my mother, I can get on here and see that there is support everywhere. It honestly is the best website i have ever found. :)

I make my own pottery dishes, and my current project is to make smaller bowls, glasses, and plates, that way, if I do get the urge to fill them, it wont really be that big of a deal... :) Portion control is huge, and you're doing awesome at it! Keep up the AWESOME WORK! :)
 
Evening! I am currently sucking on a 28cal strawberry pop. I will check on stuff like that and I was pleasantly suprised. Right next to the box was a tub of ice cream and HUGE chocolate galaxy cake that I would normally consume in one go lmao. But I just did a 3.34 mile walk with my 4 doggies and am sweating like no ones business. I'll be having a shower shortly and getting something to eat (late dinner's are a traditional thing in this family so dont hate lol!) It feels soooo good to sit down!!! For lunch earlier I had a small tin of tuna with half a tablespoon of mayonnaise in one sandwich. I ate half the sandwich and ate the remaining an hour later to keep me satiated. (Before I used to eat a BIG tin of tuna with two tablespoons of mayonnaise in two sandwiches. I like to compare. Once, I even didn't bother to drain out the sunflower oil **GAGGING** how could I have done that?!!!)
My mother has already put oven pizza's in so I can't really say no :/ BUT I normally have a large pizza to myself and half a garlic bread stick. I have already decided that I'll have 1/3 of the pizza and no garlic bread accompanied by water instead of coke. My uncle just bought me a chocolate bar but lo and behold my mother told him to hide it from me yay.
I can't believe that little excursion wore me out so much my legs are aching already. I should sleep better tonight. Take care everyone! :)
 
today is my "tomorrow!" i'm jumping in with both feet :). i should probably start a diary, too. this forum seems like such a great resource. thank you for sharing your progress!
 
Just wanted to add. The scales were in the bathroom grr and I weighed myself thinking "what the heck". I'm 178lbs. AMG. About two weeks ago when my friend came round and weighed herself I had weighed me as well. So two weeks ago I was 182lbs. Realistically I know water retention and less crap in my belly is probably the cause for this plus our weight can fluctuate a pound or two during the day nonthless I'm proud of my 4
lbs from then (2lbs from when I weighed myself yesterday). I shall not look again til next week coz I like to see bigger results than daily ones! ^^
Your welcome yoga you should defo start a thread the people here are awesome! :)
 
I totally understand about the thigh aches from walking, in the beginning, i only walked 20 minutes and my thighs were pulsating. Crazy huh? But now, my legs are back to being exercised. It's nice! =)

Absolutely good job going on with cutting your portions, eat what you ate before but little bits of it and the weight will come off! Sounds like a healthy way to me!
 
cutting portions is the way to go! :) Good job! And man walking 4 dogs seems impossible. I have trouble enough with two! :D Keep up the good work!
 
today is my "tomorrow!" i'm jumping in with both feet :). i should probably start a diary, too. this forum seems like such a great resource. thank you for sharing your progress!

Go for it yogashmoga :)

And xrougex, really well done on losing those pounds. You're making such good changes :)
 
Honestly 4 lbs is awesome! When you think about it you've actually lost about 2 lbs a week so thats right where you want to be. I know we all like to see big numbers fast but the faster the number drops the harder it is to keep it off. Slow and steady wins the race!:hat:
 
I am feeling gooood! I haven't been on so much today but it is as follows:
(I didn't make it out of bed at breakfast I was actually up until 8am, not good I know tut tut).
So I woke up and I looked the fridge: left over pizza. My stomach turned. Nope.
Lets me BORING and have a tuna and mayo sandwich again nomnomnom. And a small glass of milk.
Dinner - chicken and mayo baguette and a big handful of grapes. Today I was satisfied with that, no junk food cravings. I know I know mebe should have more meals a day but I got up late and I feel fine. I didn't exercise today my legs are aching (I could have done something for my upper body but to be strictly honest I was just tired.)
My thoughts: as you can see, I'm hardly getting any nutrition. So, I might lose weight, but I wont be healthy. I forgot to get the vitamin supplements tomorrow it is! This sounds really childish I guess but I am a fussy eater. I will try things ALWAYS, I am very open to new tastes but that doesn't mean I enjoy them. It's not coz they taste horrible (veg that is) its that they mostly taste BLAND. And yes, I can put something yummy on it (more like a bucket of vinegar) and yes I can eat it but its so no enjoyable :( Like like, CARROTS! I mean I cant comprehend how one can just eat one raw! Or celery amg. I just got into cooked onions (in BUTTER) raw is too strong. Get my drift? So, I did some thinking, I can at least get my 5 fruit a day (goal) and eat managable veg (leafy greens, tomatoes (its a fruit I know I know lol, this is psycology at work here get it?!) and well I'll look up some more.)
Simply put:
- eat more fruit
- stuff down some veg (think skiiiiiiin)
- exercise every two days for the next month (day off is for recovery until my health improves)
- get those vitamin tablets!
I hand in my application for the job tomorrow wish me luck! I would love to buy myself a treadmill in the future I've wanted one for aaagggeeessss. chiaow for niaow!
 
I know what you mean about celery and carrots. both make me gag if I eat them raw... I do however LOVE peas and green beans right off the vine. oh, and sorrel... yummy :)

Anyway, keep up the great work and in no time you'll be able to work out everyday no problem. And I hope you get the job! *throws a bit of her secret stash o' Irish luck at you* :)

And have fun when you get your treadmill. I'll check back latah chica. :)
 
Oh I'm fussy too, haven't grown out of those childish habits. I'm getting better though and I think you will too :) I've kinda realised I'm never gonna force myself to eat every vegetable there is, so I've found ones that I do like and I've found particular meals where I can include veg I don't really like but still eat it (for example vegetable curry, I put all sorts of veg I don't like on its own in there because you can't really taste them). I even realised I don't mind spinach if it's in a stir fry! I think you said you've been eating fruit when you crave sweet things, that's a good idea because that should hopefully get you into the habit of eating fruit. I buy sainsburys basics everything when I'm doing my own shopping at Uni but I spend that little bit extra on fruit I know I really like (big juicy apples rather than diddy sour ones for example), otherwise I know it'll just sit there.
It's great that you've not had junk food cravings. You're doing really well, and good luck with the job.
 
Hey just thought I'd give you a veggie suggestion. Not sure if you've tried red, yellow, and orange sweet peppers before but they are really delishous raw. They are not the same as green pepppers, they are much sweeter. I'll cut up a red pepper and just munch on it in front of the tv like chips. They are expensive but super low cal and really yummy.
 
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