If You Fail Try Again...

Well looks like the challenge I was in has been closed. All of the people "running" the challenge have dropped out. Sucks cuz it was pushing me and making me accountable for weekly challenges, but in the end it was getting to be too regimented and not enough about plain old fun. Losing weight on a forum should never be something I want to stress over. Moving on, I'm still going to see where I can get in 12 weeks time. I have a goal set now for the 12 weeks and for my overall goal. Now its just up to me to keep motivating myself.

Biggest Loser: What in the world!? Melissa needs to go! She totally threw 2 weigh-ins! Yes next week I believe she has a 20- something lb loss from water logging these past 2 weeks, but to say all I want to do is sit on the couch and eat a cheeseburger after you just smirked about your loss of 1lb is a slap in the face of Bob and Jillian. Your goal should be to lose as much weight as you can right now while everyone still likes everyone. Not put a target on your back in the first 2 weeks! Give up your spot to someone who isnt there only for the money! Ok ok rant over. :)
Will be back later with my food for the day. Hope to get some gym time in today as well.

Weigh In: -4lbs!
 
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Ok I'm gonna start out by saying that I had a terrible day at work. I'm not going to divulge right now. It would be to long. Not eating breakfast really hurt me calorie wise. Too low, and at work (lunch-snack) I was so pissed off that I had to force myself to eat at least that. So bad day, but not horrible. Tomorrow is a new day.

Today's Food:
Breakfast:
None

Lunch:
6 pc Veggie Sushi- 177
1 pkt Soy Sauce- 16

Snack:
1 Mini Bag Butter Popcorn- 100
1 Kiwi- 46

Dinner:
12 Cream Cheese Sushi- 530
1 pkt Soy Sauce- 16
1 FF Choc Pudding- 80
1 Bud Select 55- 55

Total: 1020
 
ChefAshley said:
Well looks like the challenge I was in has been closed. All of the people "running" the challenge have dropped out. Sucks cuz it was pushing me and making me accountable for weekly challenges, but in the end it was getting to be too regimented and not enough about plain old fun. Losing weight on a forum should never be something I want to stress over. Moving on, I'm still going to see where I can get in 12 weeks time. I have a goal set now for the 12 weeks and for my overall goal. Now its just up to me to keep motivating myself.


Weigh In: -4lbs!
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Ashley!! The Biggest Loser challenge needs ONE MORE PERSON. Get in it girl! :) PM MissJellyBelly, or swing by the thread to get it :D
I like having the challenges to make me more accountable also, but that last one went to hell there in week 3, and I couldn't take all the negativity... Join this one with us!
 
Jess- I sent a PM, haven't recieved a response yet, and I see now that someone else has also offered to be her partner, so we'll have to see if I'll be able to join or not.

I have been absent for the last few days after I got a very childish PM blaming me for the downfall of the New Years Challenge. I was so mad that I took a few days away from the Forum because I didn't want to send the person who sent me this message a very negative response. I have chosen not to personally respond to this person. However, if you are reading this, I find it very rude what you had to say. To start pointing fingers at me saying I'm the person who ruined the challenge, when YOU dropped out, and I was in til the end is just stupid. Please read what you write in your PMs, the beginning was very rude and then by the end you were all happy and inviting me to other challenges. I hope that you see how your messages can be mistaken for meanness, and if you question that it can be taken other ways than you intend..DONT SEND IT. I had nothing but good fun, and good intentions. But I feel that if anyone goes and reads the challenge I never said anything that would bring the challenge to an end. But I'm over it now that I've vented and that will be the last thing said about that. And moving on....:seeya:

I haven't been posting my food as well because, sadly I havent really been eating that much. I didn't want to come on here and say that I had roughly X amount of calories and then get the back lash of "Thats too low!" "Your starving yourself" comments. The truth is I am dead broke right now. Alot of bills are due this week and I've been surviving off of oatmeal and applesauce. I'm not the type of person to steal either, so its not like I'm going to take food from work just to feed myself. I get paid on Thursday and I'm also supposed to get both my state and federal taxes back on that day, so better believe that Thursday night after work I'm going on a grocery shopping spree :).

Also, when my taxes come in, after I pay off bills, I am going to buy the BodyBugg. I think this will really help me be accountable, like this forum has, by showing me what I'm doing right and what can change.
Thanks everybody!! Will talk to you all soon!
 
Hey Chef; looking forward to reading more in your diary. LOVE your recipe for shakes. I stay away from challenges cuz I don't want the stress of being responsible to other people. I need the freedom to do my own thing on weight loss. Sometmes I pack on muscle from exercise and even though fat's coming off, and I might be losing inches, the scale isn't so generous.

Sorry to hear you're broke. Things will get better. Hang in there.
 
2Skinny, totally know what you mean about challenges. But what I've learned through my years of yo yo dieting is that if I'm in a challenge (such as the first pages of this diary when I was in a challenge at work) I do great! And then the challenge ends and Im like oh well i can treat myself here and there and then it ends up being taco bell every night. I need that kind of constant motivation. Someone to report to besides myself, cuz hell I'll be the first one to go, oh your tired, ok you dont need to go to the gym tonight. Right? The thing for me though is just having fun, I have too much drama in real life for my sancuary of the internet to start stressin me out too. Thanks for readin hun. Have a good night. ~Ash~
 
ChefAshley said:
Jess- I sent a PM, haven't recieved a response yet, and I see now that someone else has also offered to be her partner, so we'll have to see if I'll be able to join or not.

I have been absent for the last few days after I got a very childish PM blaming me for the downfall of the New Years Challenge. I was so mad that I took a few days away from the Forum because I didn't want to send the person who sent me this message a very negative response. I have chosen not to personally respond to this person. However, if you are reading this, I find it very rude what you had to say. To start pointing fingers at me saying I'm the person who ruined the challenge, when YOU dropped out, and I was in til the end is just stupid. Please read what you write in your PMs, the beginning was very rude and then by the end you were all happy and inviting me to other challenges. I hope that you see how your messages can be mistaken for meanness, and if you question that it can be taken other ways than you intend..DONT SEND IT. I had nothing but good fun, and good intentions. But I feel that if anyone goes and reads the challenge I never said anything that would bring the challenge to an end. But I'm over it now that I've vented and that will be the last thing said about that. And moving on....:seeya:

I haven't been posting my food as well because, sadly I havent really been eating that much. I didn't want to come on here and say that I had roughly X amount of calories and then get the back lash of "Thats too low!" "Your starving yourself" comments. The truth is I am dead broke right now. Alot of bills are due this week and I've been surviving off of oatmeal and applesauce. I'm not the type of person to steal either, so its not like I'm going to take food from work just to feed myself. I get paid on Thursday and I'm also supposed to get both my state and federal taxes back on that day, so better believe that Thursday night after work I'm going on a grocery shopping spree :).

Also, when my taxes come in, after I pay off bills, I am going to buy the BodyBugg. I think this will really help me be accountable, like this forum has, by showing me what I'm doing right and what can change.
Thanks everybody!! Will talk to you all soon!
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How.Horrible. Oh my god... I'm SO sorry to hear that :( I read a comment that was posted on that challenge thread about going to another sites challenge because the "more respected people" from this forum use that site also. WTF? Soooo, we AREN'T respected?! Anyway, finger pointing is a childish way to go about things...
You'll hafta let me know how the BodyBugg works! I've been wanting one for a while, but just can't afford it right now... My kitchen cupboards are pretty bare also, lol. Eating whatever may have been buried in the freezer how ever long ago is NOT fun, hahahaaaa...
Have a great day tomorrow Ashley!~
 
I'm officially in the Biggest Loser Watch Along challenge and I am apart of the Black team with Jess!! Yay! Also.. going to dinner tonight with a friend, my first time of the year going out to eat. We're going to Applebees, so I already have looked up on the net and figured out what I'm going to eat. I'm going to have the steak thats in their new "under 550 calories" menu.(oh and those of you who are like I thought you said you were broke, I specifically put money aside for tonight cuz we planned this like 2 weeks ago) :) Just hoping I can talk her into a time where I can still go to work and watch the show cuz I'd love to see how this week turns out. TTYL
 
Looking like we're not meeting now til 5:30..and the show starts at 7...and we have ALOT to talk about. Hmm might not be any BL in my near future. :(
Also, whats the deal with the new banner ad with the guy claiming to have slept with 17 girls in 6 weeks?! Has he ever heard of a shower? He looks greasy. Take a shower, get a haircut and maybe then you'll be some what acceptable. However, LOVE those 6 pack abs ads. haha.
 
ChefAshley said:
Looking like we're not meeting now til 5:30..and the show starts at 7...and we have ALOT to talk about. Hmm might not be any BL in my near future. :(
Also, whats the deal with the new banner ad with the guy claiming to have slept with 17 girls in 6 weeks?! Has he ever heard of a shower? He looks greasy. Take a shower, get a haircut and maybe then you'll be some what acceptable. However, LOVE those 6 pack abs ads. haha.
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Oh my god! I logged on and saw that banner and about started crying it was so funny... I'm sure rufies would help ANYONE sleep with 17 girls in 6 weeks...

I JUST watched last weeks BL yesterday, lol. No worries- watch it online! And thats super exciting that you get to be on my team, yayyy!
 
Hey Chefashley, great progress. Eating healthy is freakin expensive we all know that. Sometimes we gotta do what we gotta do. What is great, is that your sticking to it, even when your at a calorie deficit. You'll pick right back up when the opportunity arises, such as when you get paid and know to go grocery shopping. Thats awesome. I rather be at a calorie deficit then hit up Tbell or BK. Keep it up, and I love the fact that your leaving your recipes. I'm trying to do the samething since I love to cook and spice up plain simple things into a flavorful meal. I have a mideastern background, so if you ever tried it or like it, I'll be posting up a few recipes in my journal. Keep us posted, and great work!
 
Hey BPM- Thanks for stoppin in. I'll be honest, I've only tried Middle Eastern cooking maybe 2 or 3 times, and that was while in culinary school. It was pretty good from what I remember, but no one around here has that type of cuisine, so I might have to try out a recipe or 2 of yours. :)

Had the steak at Applebees tonight:
Asiago Peppercorn Steak – Classic 7 oz grilled sirloin topped with cracked peppercorn and melted Asiago cheese served with steamed herb potatoes and seasonal vegetables for approximately 390 calories.
Delish. I actually was quite shocked...it came out and I'm not gonna lie the first thought in my head was "Thats it?"(us Americans and our damn over sized portion sizes to blame lol) ..and I thought that because I litterally had 2 small potatoes that had been cut in quarters and Im a potato lover.... but it turned out to be the perfect amount of food. I haven't been hungry all night after dinner.
What else....oh yea! Got to watch Biggest Loser! I tell ya I love the show, and use it as inspiration, but part of me is like ok this is becoming nothing but a soap opera and not enough about exercising and losing weight anymore. But I still love it, will still watch it as long as its still on the air. Gonna go call my momma now and gossip. Have a good night everyone!
 
Quick update and then its nap time!! :)

Woke up this morning at 4am because my cat was screaming...think he just wanted attention cuz his food and water were full. Couldn't fall back asleep after that so checked my bank account and tada! my taxes were in! So I immediatly ordered my BodyBugg and Digital Display...ahh nothing like spending $300 first thing in the morning. haha. And then I was listening to the radio and they were having a vote off between Backstreet Boys and Nsync cuz today is Nick Carter(BSB) and Joey Fatone(Nsync) bdays. And BSB won, so they played a BSB song. Ahhh I love my BSB. Been a huge fan for about 13 years now...

Then had to go to work and open up the restaurant at 8, then went to Staples with the intentions of walking out with a new laptop. I did find one, decided on the Sony Viao even though walking in I was leaning more towards an HP. However, didn't get to bring it home with me right away, they're gonna download all the stuff for me and I should have it in a day or 2. Also...The sales guy, he walks up and I'm thinkin HOTTIE!! ;) Well you know the nerdy type hottie...which I love. We're talking and stuff and all of a sudden he goes..You went to MPTC right? I get a confused look on my face like I should recgonize him and I go..yeahhh.. He goes oh you dont recgonize me. I'm like err not really no sorry, did we have a class together? He goes yea. We keep talking and hes all FLIRTING WITH ME! Askin me stuff like "so what do you do besides cook people wonderfully delicious meals?" haha I really wish I wasn't so socially awkward and could come up with way better answers than the ones I gave him. And don't you ever think to yourself in situtations like this, why did I wear this crummy jacket today, why didn't I put some makeup on this morning ect... Should've, Would've, Could'ves.
After checking out and him giving me his card, I'm driving to go grocery shopping and it hit me...He was in my math class in college.(I graduated in 2007 and we had this class in 2006) I did think he was a total cutie back then but he was way to preppy back then for my taste. He's obvisously changed. So we'll see if he's there in a couple days when I go to pick up my new computer and see what happens.
 
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Ooh la la! lol. You should totally look him up on FB or something, it wouldn't be creepy either, cuz you could just use the line- I figured out who you were in school- and go from there. Cute geeky types are some of the best, mmmm. lol. I'm excited for you to get the Body bugg! I totally wanna know how it works!
 
AH! :) So! Cute boy..he needs a nick name but can't think of one right now... He calls me the next day(Friday) to tell me my computer is ready and we hang up and I'm like SHIT! I should of invited him out to go see the band that was playing! So after minutes of me convulsing in fear I get the courage to call back. They tell me he literally JUST walked out the door. Damn! So I continue working and I'm like, (JESS THIS IS FOR YOU HA) he gave me his business card, therefor I know his last name.. So I looked him up on facebook on my Blackberry. I decided to send him a message..very hey just wanted to let you know there's a band playing tonight, you should come out...blah blah. No call me, no hope to see you there..nothing, in case he shot me down and I had to see him the next day when I picked up my computer you know.

So I keep checking and no message... finally I'm at the band and I check one last time and I get a message back along with a friend request! The message was pretty much, hope your having fun even though I'm not there. I had a company party tonight. I would love to hang out sometime though. Keep in touch.....AHHH! Made my night! So I realize I'm drunk though, so I don't write him back, cuz messages and me drunk are not a good combo. I end up saying things I regret in the morning. So the next morning(Saturday), I check Facebook before I go to work and low and behold there's a new message from him! Saying hey just wanted to give you my cell # so it's easier to stay in touch. Wow..I became a giggly mess. :) But then I was like shit, now its up to me to call him! So I shot back a quick message on FB saying hey, got your messages, here's my number as well.

Go later in the day to get my laptop and hes not working, but I assumed he wouldn't be there based on his messages. Pick it up, take it to work and open it up and sitting right on top is his business card...and on the back it reads "Ben's Cell #.... For emergencies or whatever..." !! which means that he put it there before I ever even contacted him on FB! So the last 2 days he's been texting me, and wants to hang out. I'm super excited! Its nice to know that he's interested...even after I showed up at the store looking grungy as ever! :) I'm really hoping for the best with this one. I think the biggest things however would be 1.) we work completely opposite shifts, he works 7am-4pm and I mostly work 4pm-10pm(930am-10pm on weekends) 2.) he lives 20 minutes out of town. I'm excited however, to just get to know him and see how much we have in common and what not before I get attached or anything. WISH ME LUCK!

Also! Body Bugg arm band will be here tomorrow and the digital display will be here Wed. Also excited to get started with that. Have a great night everyone!
 
Ohhhhh yeahhh. Thats totally terrific :) Saw his pic- EFFF Ashley- he's hot! I most definately will be living vicariously thru you, so lay the stories on me, sista ;) hahaha... No worries bout the shift thing for now. things have a way of working themselves out :)
 
First of all, congrats on the 5 lb loss that is so awesome!!!! I wish I could be up there with ya for the team, but I'm trying my best and worked hard for my -1.4 lbs lol.

YAY on the whole cute boy thing! I REALLY hope your date goes well, I'm so excited for you. Good on you for taking initiative and calling back/looking him up. I would never have the guts to do that! The only thing I've ever done was (and this is how I met my husband)... I went to his house with a friend and he was at his computer on msn, and I don't know why but I went in there and kinda took over his keyboard, added myself to his msn, said a couple things which i can't even remember (probably something about watching anime together sometime) and here we are! lol
 
ChefAshley said:
Weighed in this morning... -5lbs!!!!
Set a date with the boy for Sat night... im nervous!!
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This whole post is AMAZING. FIVE pounds?! I'm so jealous of all you guys losing such big numbers, lol! AND, the boy. congrats :) Also jealous there lol :rolleyes: I expect to hear all bout it too!
 
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