If it makes you happy

[illbeyourgizmo]

*Waves* I guess I'm just looking for something to do with...all of the spare time I have. Not to mention, support. Who isn't?

Well, I'm only 14 years old and I have been diagnosed with Social Anxiety and Depression. Witch, isn't true...I'm just not comfortable enough in my own skin to be around people that I know personally. This so called therapy isn't working. Heh.

I guess you could say this..."insecurity" started about three years ago. I started hanging out with really fake people, and along with that I forgot everything I stood for. What can I say? It was middle school...who doesn't get drawn into some sort of cliche at some point? But, that's the past. Right now, I'm in home schooling. I hate it...but it gives me time to think...for myself. Things I wish I could change, things I want to succeed in, yada yada yada. Basically, I've finally found myself because of it. Not to mention, it gives me an escape from the people that contributed to all of the problems I have going on right now.

I'm not really all that sure why I even signed up for this thing in the first place, I guess I'm just looking for a change. I need this to work, I don't want to continue living my life in these four walls.

 

[allyphoe]

Hiya and welcome!

IME, you get out of therapy what you put into it; it can either be a complete waste of time, or a way of keeping the hard work you do on your own aimed in a productive direction. (And most of the work that gets done "in" therapy actually gets done on your own in the hours outside the sessions.)

 

[lindseybot3k]

Hi, welcome to the forum! I'm Lindsey and I'm 18.

You know, I started dieting when I was fourteen (my parents forced me to go on one) and it really messed me up. I stopped eating for the most part and I ended up going from 288 to around 250 within a few months, but over two years while dieting on and off, I gained over a hundred pounds. I'm not saying that you're too young to be dieting, but just be careful. I had even lower self esteem then than I do now, and it led me down a path of disordered eating that I have been known to fall back on. Last year before my senior prom I got so heavy into dieting and exercise that I started to black out for a few seconds and I would get very dizzy out of no where, even while sitting down. Just be really careful about not going down that path. This is a good place to get good support from people that care and that will help do things the right way.

 

[illbeyourgizmo]

Hi, welcome to the forum! I'm Lindsey and I'm 18.

You know, I started dieting when I was fourteen (my parents forced me to go on one) and it really messed me up. I stopped eating for the most part and I ended up going from 288 to around 250 within a few months, but over two years while dieting on and off, I gained over a hundred pounds. I'm not saying that you're too young to be dieting, but just be careful. I had even lower self esteem then than I do now, and it led me down a path of disordered eating that I have been known to fall back on. Last year before my senior prom I got so heavy into dieting and exercise that I started to black out for a few seconds and I would get very dizzy out of no where, even while sitting down. Just be really careful about not going down that path. This is a good place to get good support from people that care and that will help do things the right way.

Yeah, I have tried just about everything and I'll be the first to tell you that strict diets don't work. Also, it's not like my parents...er...parent is forcing me to do this either. I want to do it for myself.

In the past I would literally only eat maybe one apple a day. Granted, I lost weight really fast but it never failed that after a week I would just binge and binge causing me to only gain all of the weight back.