Hi everyone!
I'm new here, so this is my first step and first post
I am almost 5'6, approx. 135lbs, 25yrs old.
I know those are not striking numbers, but I gained approximately 10 of those pounds within the last couple of years, which is not a good sign. This is why.
I've always been on the skinny side growing up, and up until three years ago, I had been religiously committed to exercising 3x a week with a group of friends. The best thing about it was that I loved it. I really, really did. Then I moved for school and I just can't find something that I loved doing that much anymore. Basically, my priorities changed, so that instead of looking forward to exercise, I was looking forward to eating. Things were stressful and by the time I realized it, I was binge-eating once or twice a week as a way of coping. It's gross: eating everything that I come across, regardless of whether it tastes good, and eating until I vomit or am in so much pain that I can't eat anymore. I feel disgusted about myself and about the way my body is changing. In addition to this diary I'm also going to see a counselor to help me find more constructive ways of dealing with stress.
I've always wanted to do an online diary, but I've just been so embarrassed and timid about showing people pictures of my body. But I think that this could really help me to face what it is that I'm doing to myself and also to stay motivated.
I guess what I'm saying is that I'm not looking at losing weight (although I could definitely lose some!) so much as eliminating a destructive habit that could eventually lead me to need to lose a lot of weight. I'm lucky because I actually do like sports (which is probably why I haven't gained more than 10lbs), but these awful eating habits really hinder my performance, which stresses me out even more and causes me to consume more.
I think I can stop binge-eating by following three broad rules:
1. Committing to change my eating habits.
2. Facing the truth about how my eating is affecting my body and my self-confidence.
3. Doing this publicly to keep myself accountable and to hopefully receive motivation by people who are also on a journey or have accomplished their journey.
So on day 1, I can check off all three rules! This is a big step for me, so I'm looking forward to seeing changes in myself and my appearance, and would really appreciate all the encouragement I can get
I'm new here, so this is my first step and first post
I am almost 5'6, approx. 135lbs, 25yrs old.I know those are not striking numbers, but I gained approximately 10 of those pounds within the last couple of years, which is not a good sign. This is why.
I've always been on the skinny side growing up, and up until three years ago, I had been religiously committed to exercising 3x a week with a group of friends. The best thing about it was that I loved it. I really, really did. Then I moved for school and I just can't find something that I loved doing that much anymore. Basically, my priorities changed, so that instead of looking forward to exercise, I was looking forward to eating. Things were stressful and by the time I realized it, I was binge-eating once or twice a week as a way of coping. It's gross: eating everything that I come across, regardless of whether it tastes good, and eating until I vomit or am in so much pain that I can't eat anymore. I feel disgusted about myself and about the way my body is changing. In addition to this diary I'm also going to see a counselor to help me find more constructive ways of dealing with stress.
I've always wanted to do an online diary, but I've just been so embarrassed and timid about showing people pictures of my body. But I think that this could really help me to face what it is that I'm doing to myself and also to stay motivated.
I guess what I'm saying is that I'm not looking at losing weight (although I could definitely lose some!) so much as eliminating a destructive habit that could eventually lead me to need to lose a lot of weight. I'm lucky because I actually do like sports (which is probably why I haven't gained more than 10lbs), but these awful eating habits really hinder my performance, which stresses me out even more and causes me to consume more.
I think I can stop binge-eating by following three broad rules:
1. Committing to change my eating habits.
2. Facing the truth about how my eating is affecting my body and my self-confidence.
3. Doing this publicly to keep myself accountable and to hopefully receive motivation by people who are also on a journey or have accomplished their journey.
So on day 1, I can check off all three rules! This is a big step for me, so I'm looking forward to seeing changes in myself and my appearance, and would really appreciate all the encouragement I can get