Shea
New member
So, here's my story.
I have never really had a problem with my weight. I was never "fat" but I definitely was never skinny either. I've swam competitively since age 4, so that has always been my way of exercise and to stay healthy.
For prom senior year, I decided i wanted to look really amazing, to go out with a bang. It was about March 2009 when I began my Weight Watchers plan. I was only looking to lose about 15lbs, but the weight seemed to just fall off and it was easy for me to do, and by june, I had dropped about 27lbs. I did exactly what I wanted-and then some. I was so happy with how I looked, and was reassured by everyone, especially my family members who gave me a new compliment every time we had a gathering.
By the end of the summer, I left for college. I knew for sure I would gain weight because of swimming (the training would be more intense than what I had been used to and I would be lifting weights, so my hunger would increase). However, I let just a little bit of healthy and expected weight gain turn into a nightmare. By the spring of my freshman year, I had gained back everything I had lost..and then some. I started to feel embarrassed and I thought I had let myself, as well as anyone who knew me from before, down. I hated seeing (and still do) pictures of myself from when I felt and looked great.
When I got back to school this semester, I told myself things need to change. And things did...well, for a few weeks. I had lost about 6lbs and was feeling really good, but for whatever reason, I couldn't keep with it. I started to become an emotional eater and binge-ing often. Swimming was giving me an especially difficult time this semester, so (along with many other reasons) I quit the team about 3 weeks ago. Now things REALLY need to change. I vow to do one thing in the morning, but by night, I'm stuffing my face with food. I need to stop, I know. I just can't. I want to look and feel great like I once did. I'm hoping posting about my situation will help keep my motivation, but I just don't know. I honestly feel ashamed.
If anyone has anything they'd like to offer, please feel free to say something.
Thank you!
I have never really had a problem with my weight. I was never "fat" but I definitely was never skinny either. I've swam competitively since age 4, so that has always been my way of exercise and to stay healthy.
For prom senior year, I decided i wanted to look really amazing, to go out with a bang. It was about March 2009 when I began my Weight Watchers plan. I was only looking to lose about 15lbs, but the weight seemed to just fall off and it was easy for me to do, and by june, I had dropped about 27lbs. I did exactly what I wanted-and then some. I was so happy with how I looked, and was reassured by everyone, especially my family members who gave me a new compliment every time we had a gathering.
By the end of the summer, I left for college. I knew for sure I would gain weight because of swimming (the training would be more intense than what I had been used to and I would be lifting weights, so my hunger would increase). However, I let just a little bit of healthy and expected weight gain turn into a nightmare. By the spring of my freshman year, I had gained back everything I had lost..and then some. I started to feel embarrassed and I thought I had let myself, as well as anyone who knew me from before, down. I hated seeing (and still do) pictures of myself from when I felt and looked great.
When I got back to school this semester, I told myself things need to change. And things did...well, for a few weeks. I had lost about 6lbs and was feeling really good, but for whatever reason, I couldn't keep with it. I started to become an emotional eater and binge-ing often. Swimming was giving me an especially difficult time this semester, so (along with many other reasons) I quit the team about 3 weeks ago. Now things REALLY need to change. I vow to do one thing in the morning, but by night, I'm stuffing my face with food. I need to stop, I know. I just can't. I want to look and feel great like I once did. I'm hoping posting about my situation will help keep my motivation, but I just don't know. I honestly feel ashamed.
If anyone has anything they'd like to offer, please feel free to say something.
Thank you!
