Shmily4367
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My little boy just turned a year old. He's walking and talking and he is just the best thing that has ever happened to me.... I love him and wouldn't trade anything for him. I have however kept on all the baby weight. I weighed 145 lbs. when I got pregnant and was in a size 10. Now here I am at 195 lbs. and in a size 16!!!! Oh my gosh, I just can't stand it anymore. I went to the mall the other day to get some jeans....... AND THE 16'S WERE GETTING TIGHT!! I was even ashamed to look at myself in the mirror. My husband has HONESTLY not seen me completly nude since Jan. 2005!! I know it's not fair to him, but I am so embarassed of the way that I look and feel. I was always very active in high school, but my moms side of the family are full of overweight people. My husband is very active in fitness and running. He is honestly my biggest supporter and has not pushed me at all. I bought myself the Runners Journal to help myself start running again. IT SAYS that in 13 weeks you should be able to run for 60 mins. without stopping and be able to complete a 10K run. I just need some tips, some support, some prayers, something to just help me to stay motivated. I wish that this was easier, or I wish that I was dedicated enough to lose this weight, but I'm not. I know that I can eventually do it...... I just need time. I know that this will not be an overnight process, and I know that I will never be a size 2... but back to a 10would be a blessing. Above all else I just really want to be healty, and happy!!
I'm done venting now!!
