I can do this.

[xDINOsaurFAYx]

I can't fall back into my old eating disorder. I've been eight months clean without something that's controlling me. But I still feel like I'm falling back farther and farther into the disease than what I'm doing moving forward. This time, I'm going to lose it the right way. Maybe it's not because I want too. Maybe it's because everyone else wants me to do it that way. Either choice, I have to do something about this useless weight that's just on my body.

I feel as though no one wants to touch me because they will think my skin is covered in just fat. Sometimes, I don't even want to touch myself. The mirror isn't my friend. Well, it is only when I'm feeling somewhat good about myself and that's rare.

Motivation is the key, so I have heard. Let's see what it will do for me. I'll push myself to lose this 55 pounds before my birthday comes up. I have to look good not for anyone else but for myself. I want to show those that have picked on me for being so big wrong. Including myself.


I can and will do it.

 

[ZombieO]

.well, what do you plan on doing as in exercise?.

 

[nmartinez0531]

You be strong and just try your hardest. The best way is eating the right foods and excercise. Eating disorders only compound the weight problem. I don't know what one you have had, but I know from reading on them that they can really harm you, so I'll pray and keep your head up and you can do this!!! Good luck.
Natasha