I see you're in the middle of a storm right now, clean your eyes from the rain and look at the horizon: can you see it? The sunshine right there waiting for you? And an incredible journey to get there?
The first step is coming out from the storm you're in, so negative feelings... Sit, breathe and think about a plan, a good one, read a lot, there's a lot of good tips in this forum, slowly you'll become calm and confident. Then put all your energy in this journey with us, you're not alone! You can do it!
This journey is beautiful, it's not about the sunshine on the horizon, is about you and all the things you'll live and learn while you're walking, it's a really good thing. So... don't be mad anymore, life is a beautiful thing!
You have to change your mind before you change your body, your body will do whatever your mind wants it to do, your body is not agaisnt you, you're against your body, so stop doing it! Stop harming it! Love it! Love it with all your strength! Help it!
When you make the first step, you become a new person... So make the step, become the person you want you to be and never look behind.
We're here to help you getting up whenever you fall, so dont be afraid, believe in yourself *