hoping to lose 28lbs to start with! help needed!!

thanks fortyfour... yeah I know the wine drinking used to be so bad, I did think I was an alcoholic at points and was terrified of what I was doing to myself... but i have quit to drinking once a week if that, and much much less.

I did the calculation and I should be 2669 cals to maintain.... I am eating 1500, so how can i not be losing!!! AHHHH.

I wont turn to the wine in desperation! i know it will not help. it just I used to get most of my calories from alcohol and not eat very much. So at the moment it seems like I am eating loads in comparison to what I used to...

I need to sort this out.

I am scared that I will fall into old ways and just stop eating because I used to not eat and be very thin.

But it is not healthy I know its just I have a little voice in the back of my head saying 'thats how you lost so much weight before, people used to look at you and say GOSH you are so thin'

and now to know I am overweight is killing me.

but not eating is bad for health and also DOESNT WORK, ive gained it back after about 7 years this is the biggest ive been.

gah ive messed my body up so much :(
 
Well you are so young so you can't have done too much damage yet. I don't even know if its possible to muck up your metabolism on a permanent basis. I reckon you should go see a doctor and discuss the best approach for you.

Have you got a good doctor? Its worth finding one. I found mine after many years. And she's so good.

Or you could go and see a dietician, preferable someone who may know some of the issues you are dealing with.

I don't understand why you are not losing weight. I hope you can sort it out.
 
Back after a little while, things went kinda crazy.... but i have lost 5lbs since i first came on here!

anyways,

i need to start keeping track of my food again because I think its important to know what i am actually eating otherwise i forget....

so today:
breakfast:
cereal with semi skimmed milk: 160 cals

lunch:
two quorn burgers with two slices of leedammer light cheese: 330 cals
small slice carrot cake= 95

dinner:
homemade asparagus and spinach soup: 170 cals ?
skinny cow:94

so around 850 so far. i havnt moved much today so i dont mind if I dont eat may calories.

i will eat some pineapple later though.

i just calculated my BMI which is 27.2

i need to lose a stone (14lbs) to be normal weight.

hmmmm

I am a size 12/14 UK size (8/10 US??) which for my height I do not think is too bad... but i used to be a size 10 top and bottom which was just right I think.

Anyway, I havnt gone to the gym for a week b/c my membership ran out but i am considering getting a new one... that or doing the 30 day shred dvd which i have. I also have a swiss ball and weights at home so I may just work with them. ill look up some videos online for exercise using them.

Its really strange. I went to the gym nearly everyday for a month and ate less than 1500 cals but lost nothing.

I stopped going to the gym and lost 5lbs in 2 weeks.

I think its because im actually more active when i dont go to the gym! as in, I burn more cals throughout the day through general activity rather than focusing just an hour at the gym to exercise.

Not sure.

Anyway, whatever it is I need to get myself into gear ready for the summer!

EDIT:

Right, so ive been bad and eaten more:

skinny cow: 94
Bread: 100
half carrot cake slice: 50

at 1100.

not eating ANYMORE grrrrr... and HAVE to do some exercise

but i have no motivation today... I NEED TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT and I KNOW i do but WHY CANT I BE BOTHERED TO MOVE?!!!

i feel realy depressed tonight. exercise will make me happier I knowm but when im depressed i find it so hard to get into the swing of things.

Right... this is how i want to be again:



and to think that i thought i was really overweight then!

ill try and find one for how i am now....
 
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This is me at haloween but i am pretty much the same now so you can see how much i have put on....



anyway, im determined to do something about it!!!
 
oh my, woke up with my arms KILLING me, I was doing some weights last night, and this is the first time that feels like I actually used my muscles properly!!

Today I hade 30g of organic wheat free cereal and a bit of semi skimmed milk with a coffee for breakfast: 200 cals

I need to do some leg exercises today, and some for my stomach.

I had a small glass of weight watchers wine last night (80 cals) and im feeling a little guilty :(

But realistically, I am not going to stop drinking 100%, just got to make good choices.

I weighed myself this morning (wish i hadnt) and I am up a couple of pounds since yesterday.

I must learn to only do it once a week at the same time because otherwose I get disheartened!:banghead:
 
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