ski_bunny30
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So things in the diet department haven't been going at all well for me lately.
I've been stuck in this phase where I have just been binging every single day for the past month or so. I have piled on sooo much weight. I feel so fat and ugly and I look at myself in the mirror and fee disgusted with what I see. Every time I binge I always say - tomorrow i'll start a diet and then the next day and then the next day etc etc it's always the same. I think that was the guilt speaking after every binge but I think I knew deep down that I was always gonna binge the next day. Not an excuse but for the past few weeks I've been feeling really tired and exhasted and everytime I thought of diet and excercise I felt even more tired - I haven't really been sleeping properly but I believe that's because my belly's been full of the rubbish I've been eating.
So last night I went to bed and I stayed in bed until I was no longer tired - no alarm waking me - jst wanted to sleep so I could have a better start on my journey.
So last night I asked myself the following:
WHY I want to be healthier, get fitter, have a healthier glowing complexion, better skin, reduction in the look of my cellulite and overall lose weight for a better body.
Success - My first goal would be to lose a stone in 8weeks. My long term goal would be to have a figure like Kelly Brook. I think she's got the perfect womanly figure. She's thin but not stick thin and has womanly curves in all the right places.
RECOGNITION I've thought about the feeling I will have when people start to comment on my weight loss. I think i'll need to lose about 1-2stone before people wil start to comment on this.
HEALTH This time last year I weighed the same, my blood pressure was borderline high. I went on to lose 2stone last year and my blood pressure was then completely normal. I expect that now I've put that weight back on my blood pressure would be higher - not good.
INCREASED ENERGY Lately due to the sheer amount of rubbish sugary fatty foods I've been eating I've been feeling sluggish and tired which has in turn made me lazy and wanting to eat. I know that if I can follow a healthy diet for at least just a few days the sluggish feeling will pass and I will feel more alive and energetic.
FAMILY It's important to have your family support you in your journey to a healthier lifestyle in turn I hope I can encourage my family to join me.
BUILDING SELF CONFIDENCE Currently I'm feeling really fat and really ugly and I hide under baggy unflattering clothes. I know that getting fitter and looking/feeling healthier will make a difference in me feeling more confident.
COMPETITION A good motivator is to have someone to compete with. Who can lose the 1st stone the fastest etc. I plan to join my sister with our weight loss journeys and in terms of competition I have plenty of friends who are also overweight that I can compete against.
SEX AND RELATIONSHIPS Probably shouldn't be putting this on here and I don't think you guys want to be reading it but this is really important to me. I hate my body and I hate my bf seeing me naked. This of course has an adverse effect on our sex life which I hope one day can change when I become fitter healthier skinnier which will make me feel more confident.
EMBARRASSMENT Yes I've had a few embarrassing moments due to my weight in recent years. About 6yrs ago when I was at my highest weight ever of 252 I was on my way to Mexico and the seatbelt wouldn't fit. I had to get a special one that they give to pregnant women. I swore to myself I would never be that person again. Most recently though like a month ago someone implied I was pregnant and pointed to my fat belly and called it a "bump" I was not amused.
So I think I've basically covered everything. I am gonna do this thing properly this time round. I'm gonna take some pics and post them on here later today. I plan to do this monthly (hope you guys are not completely repulsed by them) and I'll be on here every day posting a diary of what I'm eating, what i'm doing and how I'm feeling.
I hope to make friends with some people on here who feel the same as I do and hope that I can meet/chat with people that can share excercise and healthy tips/recipes with each other and basically jst be there to help and support each other.
Take Care Guys and I hope to make friends with some of you soon xx
I've been stuck in this phase where I have just been binging every single day for the past month or so. I have piled on sooo much weight. I feel so fat and ugly and I look at myself in the mirror and fee disgusted with what I see. Every time I binge I always say - tomorrow i'll start a diet and then the next day and then the next day etc etc it's always the same. I think that was the guilt speaking after every binge but I think I knew deep down that I was always gonna binge the next day. Not an excuse but for the past few weeks I've been feeling really tired and exhasted and everytime I thought of diet and excercise I felt even more tired - I haven't really been sleeping properly but I believe that's because my belly's been full of the rubbish I've been eating.
So last night I went to bed and I stayed in bed until I was no longer tired - no alarm waking me - jst wanted to sleep so I could have a better start on my journey.
So last night I asked myself the following:
WHY I want to be healthier, get fitter, have a healthier glowing complexion, better skin, reduction in the look of my cellulite and overall lose weight for a better body.
Success - My first goal would be to lose a stone in 8weeks. My long term goal would be to have a figure like Kelly Brook. I think she's got the perfect womanly figure. She's thin but not stick thin and has womanly curves in all the right places.
RECOGNITION I've thought about the feeling I will have when people start to comment on my weight loss. I think i'll need to lose about 1-2stone before people wil start to comment on this.
HEALTH This time last year I weighed the same, my blood pressure was borderline high. I went on to lose 2stone last year and my blood pressure was then completely normal. I expect that now I've put that weight back on my blood pressure would be higher - not good.
INCREASED ENERGY Lately due to the sheer amount of rubbish sugary fatty foods I've been eating I've been feeling sluggish and tired which has in turn made me lazy and wanting to eat. I know that if I can follow a healthy diet for at least just a few days the sluggish feeling will pass and I will feel more alive and energetic.
FAMILY It's important to have your family support you in your journey to a healthier lifestyle in turn I hope I can encourage my family to join me.
BUILDING SELF CONFIDENCE Currently I'm feeling really fat and really ugly and I hide under baggy unflattering clothes. I know that getting fitter and looking/feeling healthier will make a difference in me feeling more confident.
COMPETITION A good motivator is to have someone to compete with. Who can lose the 1st stone the fastest etc. I plan to join my sister with our weight loss journeys and in terms of competition I have plenty of friends who are also overweight that I can compete against.
SEX AND RELATIONSHIPS Probably shouldn't be putting this on here and I don't think you guys want to be reading it but this is really important to me. I hate my body and I hate my bf seeing me naked. This of course has an adverse effect on our sex life which I hope one day can change when I become fitter healthier skinnier which will make me feel more confident.
EMBARRASSMENT Yes I've had a few embarrassing moments due to my weight in recent years. About 6yrs ago when I was at my highest weight ever of 252 I was on my way to Mexico and the seatbelt wouldn't fit. I had to get a special one that they give to pregnant women. I swore to myself I would never be that person again. Most recently though like a month ago someone implied I was pregnant and pointed to my fat belly and called it a "bump" I was not amused.
So I think I've basically covered everything. I am gonna do this thing properly this time round. I'm gonna take some pics and post them on here later today. I plan to do this monthly (hope you guys are not completely repulsed by them) and I'll be on here every day posting a diary of what I'm eating, what i'm doing and how I'm feeling.
I hope to make friends with some people on here who feel the same as I do and hope that I can meet/chat with people that can share excercise and healthy tips/recipes with each other and basically jst be there to help and support each other.
Take Care Guys and I hope to make friends with some of you soon xx
oh and dinner is scampi, not my choice but I'm hungry since I only had soup for lunch, I had no time for my mandarins etc.
So yeah perfect start to the day :0)