hijabigirl1973
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Ok so yesterday if ya read my other whiney post you'll know that I was stuck in pity party mode. Well today I'm determined as heck not to get to that lonely funk again!!
Little history about me, I used to be a comfortable size 14 but still didn't feel small enough. I worked, drank, danced, pretty much ate what I want. Then I converted to Islam by the Grace of God and stopped drinking and dancing. Then a few months later was termed disabled due to continuous vertigo and migraines. All of this led to my laziness and just sitting around eating all of the time, feeling sorry for myself, as well as having my daughter wait on me hand and foot. Yes for once I'm taking responsibility for this instead of blaming it on the sickness or the fact that I stopped listening to music, hanging out in bars and dancing. I should have controlled myself but that's a whole other issue I'm not going to dwell on.
So what am I going to do now? I'm going to hold myself accountable for everything I do from now on, each bite of food that goes into my mouth. I'm going to ask myself am I hungry or just eating because? If I'm not hungry I must put that freakin food down. Also for the last week I've been drinking tons of water which has me walking more to the bathroom so I guess that's two good things! I've also been eating several smaller meals a day instead of just eating once or twice a day. I've realized breakfast is really a huge thing so when I wake up I get my breakfast as well as a cup of coffee. I know I should probably track calories and foods eaten but that's just not something I want to do, right now anyway. I've eaten this way before, just cut my portions way down including when I go out to eat. Always get a to go box as soon as my meal is brought to the table and put at least half in the box right away. Maybe someday I'll track calories but right now I'm not exactly motivated to so I'm not
Now for the exercise portion of my life, ugh I hate it really. I have a membership at Curves, went for a month and got sick. Now I just am not motivated to go back so what to do now? Well was gonna walk two miles today but it is rainy so I sat around with that excuse for a few hours then decided well even though I don't listen to music anymore why not start again for a while? So I downloaded tons of my fav songs that a friend's band used to sing when they were a cover band and danced nonstop for about 30 min. I kicked my daughter outta the bedroom, cranked the tunes and did I move it!! Man I haven't danced like that in forever but it felt really good to get up and move. Oh and for even further motivation I danced in front of the mirror. Oh I really hate what I see which pushes me to keep on keepin on in this fight!
So what's my plan now? Keep eating the way I have been this last week, keep drinking tons of water, and dancing for at least 30 minutes daily. Every day? Ok well at least 5 times a week but if I get in 7 that's a bonus for me!
Short term goals, add walking 2 miles into my daily routine, dancing for 45 min each time, getting my wedding ring back on as well as this beautiful overgarment my father in law bought me when he went for a special trip in Saudi Arabia. Oh yes and always always post my progress, feelings, in this diary.
Long term goals, lose 100 lbs, be healthy, and be able to wear this beautiful skirt my husband bought me before he moved here from Jordan.
Anyway thanks for reading my diary and if you have any tips, suggestions, feedback, or just words of encouragement please feel free to add them.
Little history about me, I used to be a comfortable size 14 but still didn't feel small enough. I worked, drank, danced, pretty much ate what I want. Then I converted to Islam by the Grace of God and stopped drinking and dancing. Then a few months later was termed disabled due to continuous vertigo and migraines. All of this led to my laziness and just sitting around eating all of the time, feeling sorry for myself, as well as having my daughter wait on me hand and foot. Yes for once I'm taking responsibility for this instead of blaming it on the sickness or the fact that I stopped listening to music, hanging out in bars and dancing. I should have controlled myself but that's a whole other issue I'm not going to dwell on.
So what am I going to do now? I'm going to hold myself accountable for everything I do from now on, each bite of food that goes into my mouth. I'm going to ask myself am I hungry or just eating because? If I'm not hungry I must put that freakin food down. Also for the last week I've been drinking tons of water which has me walking more to the bathroom so I guess that's two good things! I've also been eating several smaller meals a day instead of just eating once or twice a day. I've realized breakfast is really a huge thing so when I wake up I get my breakfast as well as a cup of coffee. I know I should probably track calories and foods eaten but that's just not something I want to do, right now anyway. I've eaten this way before, just cut my portions way down including when I go out to eat. Always get a to go box as soon as my meal is brought to the table and put at least half in the box right away. Maybe someday I'll track calories but right now I'm not exactly motivated to so I'm not
Now for the exercise portion of my life, ugh I hate it really. I have a membership at Curves, went for a month and got sick. Now I just am not motivated to go back so what to do now? Well was gonna walk two miles today but it is rainy so I sat around with that excuse for a few hours then decided well even though I don't listen to music anymore why not start again for a while? So I downloaded tons of my fav songs that a friend's band used to sing when they were a cover band and danced nonstop for about 30 min. I kicked my daughter outta the bedroom, cranked the tunes and did I move it!! Man I haven't danced like that in forever but it felt really good to get up and move. Oh and for even further motivation I danced in front of the mirror. Oh I really hate what I see which pushes me to keep on keepin on in this fight!
So what's my plan now? Keep eating the way I have been this last week, keep drinking tons of water, and dancing for at least 30 minutes daily. Every day? Ok well at least 5 times a week but if I get in 7 that's a bonus for me!
Short term goals, add walking 2 miles into my daily routine, dancing for 45 min each time, getting my wedding ring back on as well as this beautiful overgarment my father in law bought me when he went for a special trip in Saudi Arabia. Oh yes and always always post my progress, feelings, in this diary.
Long term goals, lose 100 lbs, be healthy, and be able to wear this beautiful skirt my husband bought me before he moved here from Jordan.
Anyway thanks for reading my diary and if you have any tips, suggestions, feedback, or just words of encouragement please feel free to add them.
