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fattie92

fattie92

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Howdy folks,

I've been lurking around these forums for about a month now, but I think if I don't make an introduction post soon, I never will! :D

I've always had problems with my weight and with food. I'm 15 and started dieting when I was 10. At one point, I lost around 30 pounds, but only to gain it back + some, and then yo-yoed up to 175 at the height of only 5'2!

Since around august 0'6 I've gotten down to 118-120lbs (and grown an inch so I'm now 5'3). During the majority of this time, I haven't really kept track of my weight loss regimen or documented anything - this often leads to me obsessing/sabotaging my success.

The last 6 months have been terrible, I've hardly lost anything. It's extremely difficult to lose weight now. looking back, I started struggling earlier in the year around the time when I was going through something stressful, so perhaps stress has contributed to it. I'm also simply "not caring" anymore. I'll go off my diet sometimes for practically no reason, not even a craving, I just wont care. One thing that brings me down whenever I seem to be getting anywhere, is, I start obsessing about everything, every calorie/sugar/carb/fat that goes into my body, and weigh myself continuously throughout the day, and then start fasting, which leads to binging, and then more fasting. I know it's stupid. But no matter how long I can stay "healthy" I still always revert back to this cycle.

I've really lost motivation for everything in life, including weight loss, which is something I want more than almost anything. Hopefully being part of this community will be a good motivator. I need help :(
 
I know someone with more knowledge on this topic will chime in soon, but 95 pounds(as your goal is) is way to low for someone who is 5' 3". 110-115 would be ideal from what I know. Good luck. I am sure someone else will be by soon to give more info.
Cathy
 
Hi Cathy,

Thanks for the response. According to: a female my height and age should weigh between 94-138lbs, meaning 95 is still in the healthy weight range :)

A models BMI averages at 16.3, which although I know models aren't "normal" or always necessarily "healthy," a body like that is something I'm striving for. I care more about feeling and appearance than actual weight, so if I'm satisfied before I hit my scale goal, then I'll stop ... but I don't think that will happen.
 
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As a mother it worries me to see you type that you've lost motivation for everything in your life at the age of 15.
Is YOUR mother or other family member helping you with your fitness quest?

I'm just a smidge taller than you. I have a very small frame.... When I entered High School I weighed 107 and was very lean, so I bet you'll be happy before you reach 95 pounds.
I hope your outlook improves.. you should be very proud of the change you've made in yourself already.
 
Hi Misty,

Thanks. I've dealt with depression all of my life, and in combination with the normal "teenage stuff," I suppose it's just been too much to handle, and therefore I've began not caring, perhaps as a coping mechanism. It's a bad thing yes, but If I cared about everything as much as I used too, I think it would probably be overwhelming.

As for help with my fitness quest, nah, just me. My mom doesn't really have a clue about fitness - she claims she does (depending on the day), but she doesn't. The only evolvement she's had in my weight loss is the constant nagging of not to go too far, or that a few little calories won't hurt, etc. etc. ... which although I'm aware it's "only because she cares about me" it get's very old, annoying, and discouraging. When I was younger, she was in denial about the fact that I was over weight at all, she said I was "big boned" and would "never be as small as my friends" that it was physically impossible ... and for a long time I believed her. She thinks I'm at a good weight right now, and doesn't want me to lose anymore. She thinks if I lose anymore, I'll become anorexic. Even though I have plenty of healthy weight statistics to back myself up!
 
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