Another Soapbox
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My name is Mishell, and I'm sixteen years young. At the age of nine, I realized that I was no longer the child in the mother-daughter life my mother, Jenny, and I had going. I took care of her, worried about her, and dealt with her mental problems.
This was necessary to share because with that, it all begins. At age 10, I realized that my mother was/is a drug addict. I saw many things a little girl shouldn't have seen, and the result was my own addiction. I threw myself into the world of computers to ignore reality. What did that get me? I gained a lot of weight in a small amount of time.
I know, the numbers don't seem huge. I peaked at 155 pounds, and to me: that's fat. I figure that if that's what I feel, no matter how many times I hear "you're not fat," the image in my mind will not change by itself. So, I decided to change it.
Currently, I'm 5'2" and 130-135 pounds. I want that to change. I know it'll be a slow process, but I want to feel good about what I see in the mirror. I want this negative self-speculation to stop. I need to be proud of who I am.
And that's why I'm here. I was referred here by my friend, Paroxysm, and we're starting our journey together very shortly.
I finally realized that I can’t do everything by myself. I finally realized that it’s okay to have help. So, I’m excited about having all you nice people do just that: help and support.
My name is Mishell, and I'm sixteen years young. At the age of nine, I realized that I was no longer the child in the mother-daughter life my mother, Jenny, and I had going. I took care of her, worried about her, and dealt with her mental problems.
This was necessary to share because with that, it all begins. At age 10, I realized that my mother was/is a drug addict. I saw many things a little girl shouldn't have seen, and the result was my own addiction. I threw myself into the world of computers to ignore reality. What did that get me? I gained a lot of weight in a small amount of time.
I know, the numbers don't seem huge. I peaked at 155 pounds, and to me: that's fat. I figure that if that's what I feel, no matter how many times I hear "you're not fat," the image in my mind will not change by itself. So, I decided to change it.
Currently, I'm 5'2" and 130-135 pounds. I want that to change. I know it'll be a slow process, but I want to feel good about what I see in the mirror. I want this negative self-speculation to stop. I need to be proud of who I am.
And that's why I'm here. I was referred here by my friend, Paroxysm, and we're starting our journey together very shortly.
I finally realized that I can’t do everything by myself. I finally realized that it’s okay to have help. So, I’m excited about having all you nice people do just that: help and support.
