I had to find somewhere to go for help and I found this site.
I have had issues with my weight for a long time now... it almost seems like it never wasn't an issue. In Aug. 2004 I was put on an rx from my doc and managed to lose almost 75 pounds. My start weight was 204 and I got down to 135. I looked great, I felt great, but it wasn't enough to change my eating my habits. I ate GREAT for 6-9 months. Then once I lost the weight I started slipping up here and there and wouldn't gain anything. Nothing good can last forever though and sure enough the weight crept back on. I am almost back to what I was when I began losing weight 2 years ago. I feel misreable, but I've put no effort into changing that. I think today may have been the last straw... I was at work and a parent asked me if I was pregnant!!! I said NO!! He then told me that I looked BIG! And I said yeah I know. Then he said no, no not your body as much as your face.
How could someone say that to another person. Who wants to hear that they are fat? I know I say it 100x's a day about myself, but to hear someone else tell me I LOOK BIG! I laughed it off at work, but I wanted to ball my eyes out. I am big. I'm not the only one who thinks it. I know that now. I have to get rid of this FAT! It's not who I am. I feel like I'm in a fat suit. Unfourtunalty this suit is attached to me!!
I need the will power I had before. I know how awesome it felt to lose weight and have clothes I never could wear before fit me!! I know how it felt to be proud of myself. Right now I know how it feels to be disappointed in myself. Right now I feel awful. And I don't want to feel awful...
I have had issues with my weight for a long time now... it almost seems like it never wasn't an issue. In Aug. 2004 I was put on an rx from my doc and managed to lose almost 75 pounds. My start weight was 204 and I got down to 135. I looked great, I felt great, but it wasn't enough to change my eating my habits. I ate GREAT for 6-9 months. Then once I lost the weight I started slipping up here and there and wouldn't gain anything. Nothing good can last forever though and sure enough the weight crept back on. I am almost back to what I was when I began losing weight 2 years ago. I feel misreable, but I've put no effort into changing that. I think today may have been the last straw... I was at work and a parent asked me if I was pregnant!!! I said NO!! He then told me that I looked BIG! And I said yeah I know. Then he said no, no not your body as much as your face.
I need the will power I had before. I know how awesome it felt to lose weight and have clothes I never could wear before fit me!! I know how it felt to be proud of myself. Right now I know how it feels to be disappointed in myself. Right now I feel awful. And I don't want to feel awful...