rimay2k
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Hey you Happy late anniversary!!! Loved the vent!!! It is your diary vent away chicky!!!Nothing wrong with not eating meat...you've been working out like a crazy wmn - you deserved the break
Thanks sweety, glad you've got my back
Here we go again!!!
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rimay2k
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So Dinner was awesome I had a fried eggplant stuffed with fresh cheese and it was to die for-Really It was I have to make it when I entertain guest-since they wont eat it more than likely I will have all to myself(evil laugh) LOL
So on to the great new I can now fit a size 10!!!!!!I went shopping at my favorite store Zara I can almost never find anything in there to fit me but yet it remained my favorite store-LOL
I bought 3 pairs of jeans and 3 tops and 2 pairs of shoes-SHHHH dont tell my huband-I like to gradually introduce clothes out of my closet-LOL When he see's the clothing or shoes 2 weeks later I then say oh thats old he answers Oh and thats it-LOL Works everytime!!!
I am so glad wide leg jeans are back in style oh how those skinny and low riders were killing me!!!!
My inlaws havent seens me in maybe 2-3 weeks and when they saw me yesterday they were like OMG Carima you lost so much weight-Exactly the reaction I was going for!
I am intentionally not trying to meet up with any of the people in our little circle until the end of next month-I plan on being Almost near goal weight by then and they will be shocked and green with envy-which is always a perfect mixture for people who you only meet up with just because.
If only I could lose more weight in my butt and thighs-seriously my butt is toooo big for my body and because of pregnancy its not plump like it use to be I have a weird shape now-but anything is better than no ass-LOL
So on to the great new I can now fit a size 10!!!!!!I went shopping at my favorite store Zara I can almost never find anything in there to fit me but yet it remained my favorite store-LOL
I bought 3 pairs of jeans and 3 tops and 2 pairs of shoes-SHHHH dont tell my huband-I like to gradually introduce clothes out of my closet-LOL When he see's the clothing or shoes 2 weeks later I then say oh thats old he answers Oh and thats it-LOL Works everytime!!!
I am so glad wide leg jeans are back in style oh how those skinny and low riders were killing me!!!!
My inlaws havent seens me in maybe 2-3 weeks and when they saw me yesterday they were like OMG Carima you lost so much weight-Exactly the reaction I was going for!
I am intentionally not trying to meet up with any of the people in our little circle until the end of next month-I plan on being Almost near goal weight by then and they will be shocked and green with envy-which is always a perfect mixture for people who you only meet up with just because.
If only I could lose more weight in my butt and thighs-seriously my butt is toooo big for my body and because of pregnancy its not plump like it use to be I have a weird shape now-but anything is better than no ass-LOL
Thanks for stoppting by! I love my curves I swear they makes me feel like a woman-in the same breathe too many make me feel like a cow
I love my curves too, but when I'm higher than my goal weight I feel like I'm just boomin' in every direction and its way way too much.
Funny when I looked at the pic I noticed our shapes are very similar. You would see that if I had turned to the side in my bikini pic, I've got that sharp curve in the waist and the butt. Matter fact people have always said, depending on their own ethnicity, that I have the body of a black girl or a Spanish girl (puerto ricans say I have a Dominican ass as if Dominicanas have bigger asses than them..LOL).
The major difference is that I'm a shorty at 5"2, but at my goal weight I also wear between a size 6 and 8 depending on the manufacturer and I would prefer to be at the low end of the 6 rather than the high end, but I never seem to be able to get to that point so I try to stay happy at my goal weight of 128 (if I could only get back there
).We cross-posted .
While I was losing weight after the baby I would also wait awhile to see relatives and friends, and they would always bug out at how much weight I lost, especially the last 10 pounds til now, they were stunned and it felt great.
Dont EVER worry about the ass being too big! My butt has also changed from my pregnancy. It used to be a total BUBBLE, now its a bit more wide and slighter flatter. I plan to work on it really hard at the gym to round it out with some more muscle. But if I could just lose weight everywhere else and all my ass had to stay, that wouldn't be too bad.
Now tell me more about the jeans styles there now!!! Whenever I would visit my family in Europe I would notice how the styles were literally one year ahead of us. Right now skinny jeans are still in style and newish, which of course are horrible for our body type but I think the look is so hot and fresh given all the boot cuts and low riding BS over the past nine million years. So how exactly are they cut?? How high on the waist? With a boot cut (so sick of this look!)? DO TELL!
. While I was losing weight after the baby I would also wait awhile to see relatives and friends, and they would always bug out at how much weight I lost, especially the last 10 pounds til now, they were stunned and it felt great.
Dont EVER worry about the ass being too big! My butt has also changed from my pregnancy. It used to be a total BUBBLE, now its a bit more wide and slighter flatter. I plan to work on it really hard at the gym to round it out with some more muscle. But if I could just lose weight everywhere else and all my ass had to stay, that wouldn't be too bad.
Now tell me more about the jeans styles there now!!! Whenever I would visit my family in Europe I would notice how the styles were literally one year ahead of us. Right now skinny jeans are still in style and newish, which of course are horrible for our body type but I think the look is so hot and fresh given all the boot cuts and low riding BS over the past nine million years. So how exactly are they cut?? How high on the waist? With a boot cut (so sick of this look!)? DO TELL!
Oh, and what are the shoe styles like? We have a lot of the flats that were out in the early 80's so its a very reminiscent look.
Good job on fitting into Zara, that is a huge accomplishment for a curvy girl. I find anything from Europe is made for a stick figure. I felt like a total BLIMP whenever I'm in Europe even at a size 8.
Show us pics of the clothes if at all possible without DH noticing!
Good job on fitting into Zara, that is a huge accomplishment for a curvy girl. I find anything from Europe is made for a stick figure. I felt like a total BLIMP whenever I'm in Europe even at a size 8.
Show us pics of the clothes if at all possible without DH noticing!
rimay2k
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I think the style is going back to the late 60`s again-I swear i wore this style in high school and that was only 10 years ago.
So the jeans are higher(thank the lord!!!) no more ass cracks flashing everwhere
I would define them more like a trouser cut.The legs are wide though and a little long (did I just say long!?!?!) i could never find long jeans some years ago in normal stores. I think they are long because the flats are going back out-they are meant to be worn with high heels.
Skinny jeans are still in but they are going back to the new kids on the block time-with the zippers on the side and all kinda crazy shit I wont be wearing-LOL
As far as shoes are concerned, chunky is back the wedge shoes with or without open toes and the classic pumps(they never go out of style) Colors are really hot.
For fall oranage and fushias seems to be the trend.Blacks and bleached blacks are hot!
I bubble skirts have finally died out-The teens are holding onto the micro mini skirts with leggings and ballerina though.
Peasant styled shirts with retro prints are in.They dont work for me AT ALL! They make me look pregnant and BUSTY!!!
Ed Hardy is dead in my book to many replicas
Oh I saw some MC hammer styled pants in a few stores-Its really scaring me
Of course those american jeans the sevens, rock and republic and true religions are still the ''it'' but until I start selling my azz I wont be able to buy 250 euro jeans well when i go to the states I may if they fit good!
So the jeans are higher(thank the lord!!!) no more ass cracks flashing everwhere
I would define them more like a trouser cut.The legs are wide though and a little long (did I just say long!?!?!) i could never find long jeans some years ago in normal stores. I think they are long because the flats are going back out-they are meant to be worn with high heels.Skinny jeans are still in but they are going back to the new kids on the block time-with the zippers on the side and all kinda crazy shit I wont be wearing-LOL
As far as shoes are concerned, chunky is back the wedge shoes with or without open toes and the classic pumps(they never go out of style) Colors are really hot.
For fall oranage and fushias seems to be the trend.Blacks and bleached blacks are hot!
I bubble skirts have finally died out-The teens are holding onto the micro mini skirts with leggings and ballerina though.
Peasant styled shirts with retro prints are in.They dont work for me AT ALL! They make me look pregnant and BUSTY!!!
Ed Hardy is dead in my book to many replicas
Oh I saw some MC hammer styled pants in a few stores-Its really scaring me
Of course those american jeans the sevens, rock and republic and true religions are still the ''it'' but until I start selling my azz I wont be able to buy 250 euro jeans
well when i go to the states I may if they fit good!
cinderelly
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These are allt he same styles we have hereIm grateful for my body shape b/c I cant really wear any of the styles and Im no big fan of them -LOL!!! The low cut freakin jeans and even everything else at my weight I shoudlnt have to worry abt not bieng able to cover my ass and my pants always falling down...
Congrat on the new outfits and shoes...the oranges sound like a great fall color!
Im grateful for my body shape b/c I cant really wear any of the styles and Im no big fan of them -LOL!!! The low cut freakin jeans and even everything else at my weight I shoudlnt have to worry abt not bieng able to cover my ass and my pants always falling down...Congrat on the new outfits and shoes...the oranges sound like a great fall color
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cinderelly
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Where have ya been chicky - you posted in my diary but you havent posted in yours...LOL
Just thought I would drop in
Just thought I would drop in
Curvie Girlie
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Hey sweetheart, really glad to hear about the jeans and the new clothes.
My own body is kind of weird, and I HATE jeans, haven't worn them since I was 16. I boycott them. I like cordoureys. But I have no idea what size I'd be. I like hearing about people on here rejoicing the lowering sizes! I hope your friends get green with envy!!
My own body is kind of weird, and I HATE jeans, haven't worn them since I was 16. I boycott them. I like cordoureys. But I have no idea what size I'd be. I like hearing about people on here rejoicing the lowering sizes! I hope your friends get green with envy!!
rimay2k
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Well I havent posted in days.Between all the get togethers we had over the weekend and personal problems I have began to binge again-UGH I just have no control over it.
1- We are having the worst fucking summer ever when the hell did rain and 50 degree weather fit in a sentence with the word SUMMER!
2- Because of my location I tend to binge and go crazy because there is no one to just pick up and go hang out with and I cant just leave the kids in the house.
3-marriage is so overated if your single stay that way!!!!
4-I think I need some me time and not just one day like a week which wont be happening I just feel so overwehlmed-
I was at the hair dresser and they fucked my hair up!!!!!!!!!!!!
7 hours and my hair looks like a bird shited on it why did I want a short cut with my big ole head- beats me!!!At least it will grow back.
I was doing so good!I was reading an article in the hairdressers on people who hide and it and lose it if the wrong foods are around them.Thats me!!!!
Its 1130pm and i am making brownies WTF I just have to eat something to comfort myself I tried to ignore it chewed on gum but I am now at home he kids are asleep dh is at a dj gig and i just feel as though I need it.
I wish there was a medication I could take right now to cut my wants and cravings right now.
Back to the article I noticed I did alot of things the lady did like buy snacks and eat one then the other then the entire pack is gone-I tell myself tomorrow will be better and usually follow through with it. I eat healthy throughout the day but nightime and alone time is when I fall. I usually have the biggest problems when I am alone and or bored.I try to throw away any evidence of a binge before someone sees it.
So i am binging because
1 I hate my hair
2 I am fat
3 I am sleep deprived
4 I am lonely
5 problems with my husband
6 jacked up weather
7 homesick
8 overwelhmed with the kids during some parts of the day
uhhhhh I am hoping I can look back at this and prevent myself from binging once i put on a few pounds from what I have done the last day!
1- We are having the worst fucking summer ever when the hell did rain and 50 degree weather fit in a sentence with the word SUMMER!
2- Because of my location I tend to binge and go crazy because there is no one to just pick up and go hang out with and I cant just leave the kids in the house.
3-marriage is so overated if your single stay that way!!!!
4-I think I need some me time and not just one day like a week which wont be happening I just feel so overwehlmed-
I was at the hair dresser and they fucked my hair up!!!!!!!!!!!!
7 hours and my hair looks like a bird shited on it why did I want a short cut with my big ole head- beats me!!!At least it will grow back.
I was doing so good!I was reading an article in the hairdressers on people who hide and it and lose it if the wrong foods are around them.Thats me!!!!
Its 1130pm and i am making brownies WTF I just have to eat something to comfort myself I tried to ignore it chewed on gum but I am now at home he kids are asleep dh is at a dj gig and i just feel as though I need it.
I wish there was a medication I could take right now to cut my wants and cravings right now.
Back to the article I noticed I did alot of things the lady did like buy snacks and eat one then the other then the entire pack is gone-I tell myself tomorrow will be better and usually follow through with it. I eat healthy throughout the day but nightime and alone time is when I fall. I usually have the biggest problems when I am alone and or bored.I try to throw away any evidence of a binge before someone sees it.
So i am binging because
1 I hate my hair
2 I am fat
3 I am sleep deprived
4 I am lonely
5 problems with my husband
6 jacked up weather
7 homesick
8 overwelhmed with the kids during some parts of the day
uhhhhh I am hoping I can look back at this and prevent myself from binging once i put on a few pounds from what I have done the last day!
Curvie Girlie
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When I read this, I busted out laughing at work, because you put it in a humorous light, but I'm really sorry about the problems you're experiencing and the binging
For me, I'm preparing for break up with my "BF", and today is the first day in a long time that I've been happy and feel like myself. It's hard for me to shine with this man, for whatever reason--never had a problem before. So I'm sorry about the DH--my BF problems made it hard for me to eat for several days and I subsequently lost weight, but it was miserable pain. It's a bummer you binged--I was a major binge eater and I have to say I haven't actually binge-eaten in a while, although I have binge-drank Anyway, this will pass and I'm sure it hardly put a dent in your weight loss Curvie Girlie
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And you're not fat, dammit!
Sorry. But you're not!
Sorry. But you're not!
Agree with Valerie, YOU ARE NOT FAT!!
Sorry you have to go through all this. Being homesick is tough, I still have that and I am living here for 8 years now.
Also my other advice would have been to try to exercise instead of binge eating, but I understand you can't leave the kids alone and it would be hard exercising with the kids jumping around!! One day will not make a difference in the long run. Just make up you mind about tomorrow and go from there!!!
You can do this, look how far you have come!!
Hajni
Sorry you have to go through all this. Being homesick is tough, I still have that and I am living here for 8 years now.
Also my other advice would have been to try to exercise instead of binge eating, but I understand you can't leave the kids alone and it would be hard exercising with the kids jumping around!! One day will not make a difference in the long run. Just make up you mind about tomorrow and go from there!!!
You can do this, look how far you have come!!
Hajni
Rimay, you and I are going through very similar things. I'm having big problems with H right now. I keep yelling at him to leave, and he might go for the weekend. I think he'll try to come back on Monday but things are bad. Lots of loud arguing, but its a bit scary being a single mom with a 1 year old. Eeeeeek, pure hell sometimes (except my lovely baby of course ). Also having major other problems such as my car died, my baby dog of 10 years died, my sister upset me very badly, and very often I cannot stand living in this city. Its so hectic and crazy, and you're always getting stuck walking somewhere carrying some heavy ass bags (groceries, yesterday on the train w/ my friend's wedding gift). WHATEVA! Didn't mean to hijack your diary.
This is a drastic cure, and definitely hard with a family, but how about during the day when you have a modicum of self-control, you NOT buy anything junk foody or anything you like to binge on--just while you're going through this difficult time. If DH or the DKs want a treat, they can eat fruit. This way if you want to binge you'll get stuck with fruit too. Go right ahead and binge away on that!
So sorry about your hair dear, that is horrible. I wouldn't let a Cherman near my hair.
). Also having major other problems such as my car died, my baby dog of 10 years died, my sister upset me very badly, and very often I cannot stand living in this city. Its so hectic and crazy, and you're always getting stuck walking somewhere carrying some heavy ass bags (groceries, yesterday on the train w/ my friend's wedding gift). WHATEVA! Didn't mean to hijack your diary. This is a drastic cure, and definitely hard with a family, but how about during the day when you have a modicum of self-control, you NOT buy anything junk foody or anything you like to binge on--just while you're going through this difficult time. If DH or the DKs want a treat, they can eat fruit. This way if you want to binge you'll get stuck with fruit too. Go right ahead and binge away on that!
So sorry about your hair dear, that is horrible. I wouldn't let a Cherman near my hair.
rimay2k
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Well today is a new day and I am ready to start over-Dh and I are trying to work through our problems- I was sooo close to buying a ticket and leaving!
Well this morning I woke up pissed off 2 kids up before 7 will do that to you-oh and 3 hours of sleep. DH was here so I go up put on my running clothes and shoes picked up my still dead mp3 player and headed out! i was suppose to buy batteries but after 3 songs from UNK I was warmed up and ready to keep running I ran a record 8 miles. I have never ran that far at one time and half of it was hills. I just kept going and going. I didnt really want to stop because the rain felt so good but I didnt want to risk injury and I was getting kinda bored.
I guess I need to start running again! It makes me feel so good. Its the only thing I feel I really have control of
Valerie I totally know how you feel sometimes closure can be a good purge for the soul. I really do not know where DH and I will be in the next years-Maybe things will get better maybe NOT!
I just have to watch myself because I did come from a single parent home and I tend to think that I can do anything without a man!Which is true but now i have 2 kids and I dont want to think sobatage things then look back and blame myself for making a decision without really thinking and and exhausting all possibilities.
Hajni excercise and my kids is like garlic and a first date -they can ruin a mood easily i get on my excercise bike and the kids are crawling and trying to climb all over it. Excercise videos dont work because my 2 year old then thinks he need to watch the lion king and my 6 month old likes to climb alot and tend to climb on me whenever I am working out on the floor.
Well this morning I woke up pissed off 2 kids up before 7 will do that to you-oh and 3 hours of sleep. DH was here so I go up put on my running clothes and shoes picked up my still dead mp3 player and headed out! i was suppose to buy batteries but after 3 songs from UNK I was warmed up and ready to keep running I ran a record 8 miles. I have never ran that far at one time and half of it was hills. I just kept going and going. I didnt really want to stop because the rain felt so good but I didnt want to risk injury and I was getting kinda bored.
I guess I need to start running again! It makes me feel so good. Its the only thing I feel I really have control of
Valerie I totally know how you feel sometimes closure can be a good purge for the soul. I really do not know where DH and I will be in the next years-Maybe things will get better maybe NOT!
I just have to watch myself because I did come from a single parent home and I tend to think that I can do anything without a man!Which is true but now i have 2 kids and I dont want to think sobatage things then look back and blame myself for making a decision without really thinking and and exhausting all possibilities.
Hajni excercise and my kids is like garlic and a first date -they can ruin a mood easily i get on my excercise bike and the kids are crawling and trying to climb all over it. Excercise videos dont work because my 2 year old then thinks he need to watch the lion king and my 6 month old likes to climb alot and tend to climb on me whenever I am working out on the floor.
rimay2k
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Rimay, you and I are going through very similar things. I'm having big problems with H right now. I keep yelling at him to leave, and he might go for the weekend. I think he'll try to come back on Monday but things are bad. Lots of loud arguing, but its a bit scary being a single mom with a 1 year old. Eeeeeek, pure hell sometimes (except my lovely baby of course
This is a drastic cure, and definitely hard with a family, but how about during the day when you have a modicum of self-control, you NOT buy anything junk foody or anything you like to binge on--just while you're going through this difficult time. If DH or the DKs want a treat, they can eat fruit. This way if you want to binge you'll get stuck with fruit too. Go right ahead and binge away on that!
So sorry about your hair dear, that is horrible. I wouldn't let a Cherman near my hair.
I hear ya these men will make you crazy!It always seems as though all the problems come all at once dont they?
I have a hard time with keeping fruit in the house they just always go bad!Plus we have the typical german fridge-tiny and tight so we can not fit too much in there. I had a cup of pineapples in the fridge but it just didnt look like what I wanted-We dont even have junk food in the house, I had those brownies mixes for months and never have I even entertained the thought of making them.
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Awwwwwwww, I hear you Rimay. Its nearly impossible to be on track when it just aint happening. No amount of suggestions can veer you off that path except you. So you eat a few brownies. Big deal. Unhealthy people dont run 8 miles, so I would look more at your accomplishments and think, this woman is hardcore! 8 freakin miles in the rain? I would say you about burned off those brownies and then some. And you look good anyway, so a few binges wont kill you as long as they dont continue past a "few" (less than 5) extra pounds. Once that happens its nearly impossible to get it back off .
.8 miles Rimay , hills included????? I think I would have died, no strike that, I KNOW I would have died!!!
You go girl!!! I agree with Blancita, you ran off those brownies and some!!!
Sorry about the problems with DH, man can be just so impossible at times. I hope you can work out the differences.
I know when I have problems with DH, everything focuses around that problem and all aspects of my life is either on hold or just does not seem important and influences my mood, my work efficiency and my weight loss struggle.
Keep running!!!
Hope you had a great weekend,
Hajni
I think I would have died, no strike that, I KNOW I would have died!!!You go girl!!! I agree with Blancita, you ran off those brownies and some!!!
Sorry about the problems with DH, man can be just so impossible at times. I hope you can work out the differences.
I know when I have problems with DH, everything focuses around that problem and all aspects of my life is either on hold or just does not seem important and influences my mood, my work efficiency and my weight loss struggle.
Keep running!!!
Hope you had a great weekend,
Hajni
Curvie Girlie
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WOW!
MAN TROUBLES ALL AROUND!!!
You know what we all need? Our sig others to take a hike for a while. Me and the BF talked this evening. If you didn't know, we lived together for a year and a half, and things progessed to worse and worse until the move. We agreed we have past resentments of ill treatment. We agreed that we look forward to seeing each other later this week. I wish you and Blancita could experience what I have-time away to reflect and talk to friends and family who care. My heart extends to you It is TOUGH to LOVE someone so much, but they fall short on their end--I see more and more that men don't seem to like to feel obligated, and I give and give and wish I could get equal treatment--balanced reciprocity. But the BF never asked for me to sacrifice for him. I just want a man who puts as much effort into the relationship as I do--but ultimately I realized this past week that I should be putting more effort into me, not some relationship. I need to be more Laizze Faire about it. BUT in your case you have children That messes with the dynamic more!! I can't offer any advice, other than to say, whatever you do, try not to guilt your DH into doing things. It DOESN"T WORK. Be pleasant, and somehow I hope the DH will be fair and treat you the way you need. I hope you have female friends out there?!?!Anyway, I hope you also have time for running, you have such a great body, and are so beautiful. Just feel better, ok??
MAN TROUBLES ALL AROUND!!!
You know what we all need? Our sig others to take a hike for a while. Me and the BF talked this evening. If you didn't know, we lived together for a year and a half, and things progessed to worse and worse until the move. We agreed we have past resentments of ill treatment. We agreed that we look forward to seeing each other later this week. I wish you and Blancita could experience what I have-time away to reflect and talk to friends and family who care. My heart extends to you
It is TOUGH to LOVE someone so much, but they fall short on their end--I see more and more that men don't seem to like to feel obligated, and I give and give and wish I could get equal treatment--balanced reciprocity. But the BF never asked for me to sacrifice for him. I just want a man who puts as much effort into the relationship as I do--but ultimately I realized this past week that I should be putting more effort into me, not some relationship. I need to be more Laizze Faire about it. BUT in your case you have children That messes with the dynamic more!! I can't offer any advice, other than to say, whatever you do, try not to guilt your DH into doing things. It DOESN"T WORK. Be pleasant, and somehow I hope the DH will be fair and treat you the way you need. I hope you have female friends out there?!?!Anyway, I hope you also have time for running, you have such a great body, and are so beautiful. Just feel better, ok??