Here we go again... Mila's second try

Mila2

Mila2

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Hey guys,
its me again!!!
So quick plan for a better and healthier, and hopefully skinnier, living (I am combining a few ideas I had with the Natural Weight Program (eat what you want as long as you feel hungry) and what I have seen works best with my quitter-nature):
1) I am not actively counting calories this time, because I was driving everybody, even myself insane. I am however aware how many calories most food have and I know how many I am ingesting!
Now to food:
2) I have to, for medical reasons, stop taking dairy products, so I have changed breakfast from yoghurt and co, to 1 Hipp-babyfood jar with Muesli (fascinatingly it is very filling and tastes... well you have to get used to it, but then it tastes alright!).
3) Instead of eating a big lunch, or even a sandwich with bread and mayo etc... I am only eating fruit and uncooked vegetables for lunch (example: today I had half a cucumber, a couple of small carrots, 5 cherry tomatoes, 5 radishes and an apple... and I am stuffed!!!!), my main meal is dinner which is the only meal I share with my boyfriend. Which brings me to
4) dinner is a cooked nice meal (I love cooking), but it does not include red meat (I don't eat any), dairy etc... we eat a lot of fish and chicken, with salad or rice, sometimes pasta. I do not eat anything in batter, or greasily fried.
5) More water and tea (apparently water with lemon is very good for slimming... will try it) at least 2 litres a day of fluids, because I feel like I need some hydration! Have been very bad with my fluid intake lately!
And finally the very worst part, the hardest... the sport:
6) I swim every day 1.5 km (Monday to Saturday) and if I do well then I give myself a treat on Sunday as a beauty day in which I do all the nice skin thingies! Also my swim buddy and I want to "swim the english channel" in length at the end of this month (34 km) we have done 3 so far!

I have been doing these 6 rules for 3 days and I feel very energised (also got a swim buddy, which helps). Hopefully it will last!

If I manage to have lost 2 to 3 kg at the end of each month I will buy me a treat (this first month I think if I get it I will treat me to a musical!).
OK everyone, hold my hand and help me on my path to healthier living!! I am very motivated!
Big kisses and hugs to everyone, Mila
 
OK sadly no one read this... but I guess every beginning is hard you guys don't know me yet! Once you do, you will read me too!!

Well, yesterday was ok, I ate fine for lunch and then for dinner I wasn't hungry (I was upset with my boyfriend because of some cleaning issues) so I had half a piece of fish and 3 tomatoes plus a mug of tea.
I have a problem, I was trying to detox as a beginning of this new life style and the laxative made me constipated (I know weird!!!!!), so now I feel quite uncomfortable and bloated. I hope having kiwis, prunes etc... will get my intestines going again.
It is actually almost funny, because until I took the laxative I had had chronic diarrhea for 7 years and now for the first time ever I am constipated... and not really enjoying it!! Obviously I have stopped taking the laxative. I will not detox!

Food was alright yesterday, mainly veg and the half fish then, and I drank over 3 l of water (and peed what seemed to be 30 l of water). And swam my km and a half. I do get the 4:30 craving for sweets... yesterday I ate a small pack of sushi instead, but I am gonna try to eat an apple of a handful grapes when that happens.

Today I had fruit for breakfast and now I am gonna go for a swim, I feel good and pretty happy. I have a clear goal: healthy, toned, thin and fit!
Back to where I was, more or less, 3 years ago (only if possible a bit thinner).
I have still to come up with something to eat for dinner... maybe roasted veggies... sort of feel like that!
Love, xxMilaxx
 
welcome mila :)

don't use laxatives, the food will become your natural detox believe me. now when i know i need to detox my organism i eat lots of tomatoes, asparagus, leek etc. constipation might be from the laxative but its probably the change in diet that caused it. drink lots of water that might help, and off course walking helps.
its great you're not giving up, but starting fresh :D that is awesome. good luck.

Lena
 
Well I was not just detoxing, it is actually something my Dr. gave me, because I suffer from Crohn's disease and frequent (very frequent) infections (everywhere, pneumonia, intestinal infections, teeth infections, urinary tract infections, etc...). This is called a Intestinal Rebirth, which is a week of laxatives to eliminate all the yuck in the intestines and then followed by 2 months of natural bacteria intake (in form of pills).
I had done one 2 years ago and it made me feel much better (only instead of the laxative I had started it by getting rid of my intestinal fungus).
But this time... oh I am gonna call him (the Dr) up and ask him how to do this treatment or if I should just skip it. I would really like doing it, because I have been throwing up a lot (which come from my diseased intestines) and I really hate that!

Ok that was just to explain, that I am not just taking the lax for fun... would never do that!!

I had a couscous salad for lunch and because the stupid cafe Nero had no fruit I had a granola bar (which I was amazed at how calorie-ish it is!!!!). I drank about 2 litres of water and swam 1.3 km.
For dinner I have bought veggies and I am making asparagus, grilled veggies and a salad.
I feel great and I resisted all the urges at the supermarket today!! I did buy myself some salmon, but that is my sunday treat! And some crackers to eat it with (it is salmon slices). I ate 2 crackers just now. Since I am not allowed bread (at least for now I don't want to eat any) it was strange.
Usually I would eat a sandiwsh a day, minimum 1... often 2!!! And I have gone for like 5 days without bread and I am not even missing it!!
Tomorrow is my weigh in day, but if I haven't gone to the loo till then I am not gonna be a happy camper... I will keep eating those Kiwis!

Thank you Lena for your comment by the way, I was sooo happy to see it!!
See you soon guys, xxMilaxx
 
Hi Mila,
Welcome to your new diary :)

It looks like all is going well! It feels great when we're on track doesn't it?
 
Hi Mila, I love your detailed plan, keeps the goals reachable.

I hope your stomach/bowel issues improve and become more manageable. Crohn's is a unpleasant disease. Good luck with your goals.
 
Ok, so today was my weighing in day and i am pretty sad... no change, but well, I really could not expect a great change in just 5 days, could I?? Also since I am not huuuuuuuge weight loss will be slower (ok is that just me trying to feel good with myself??).
For dinner I still had roasted veggies, a huge nicoise salad (although the dressing was just olive oil, salt and lemon, no mayo etc... those are my enemies) and a few fried sweet potatoes (they were for my better half, who by the way is sooo skinny, but he gave me some and I couldn't resist). As dessert we had half a mango each.
Today my gym is closed, so I am gonna walk to Camden (45 minute walk), where I want to buy tea and fruit and veg as my daily exercise. Then I will have to go back to revsing sadly, but well... For breakfast I had 2 Kiwis, 1 apple and 7 grapes and half a litre of water with a bit of lemon in it!

Sundays are my detox beauty days: I drink at least 4 l of water (as opposed to the 2-3 I drink on regular days), only eat fruit and veg (generally I was thinking to do uncooked but I have some asparagus here that I might just eat and I will have to boil them) and have a facial (scrubbing, peeling etc...) because the swimming pool is really ruining my face!
Man I had such a nice skin before I started the daily swim and now I have really dry skin, which is very red, when I leave the pool and then only hours afterward I start getting really oily-shiny skin in my face. I have already 5 pimples!!! And it had been months since my last pimple (as said I have really good skin).
I tried moisturising, but my problem is the quick following of grease on the face and moisturising just makes it worse!! I might buy one of those "control the shine" face washes and do one after the pool!
And I will have a nice shower with baby oil treatment afterwards (it makes for the softest skin you will ever have... I love it and my bf too!!) tonight.

I am determined not to let the non-change in weight get me down, I was doing so well and I will continue to do so! I will weigh me in again on wednesday. Eventually there will be change, I know there will!
I have also decided to do 2-3 days a week 30 to 60 minutes of bicycle in the gym (they have tellies there... if I go when "friends" is on I would totally be able to do the 60 minutes!!). Hopefully that will reduce my big fat belly!
Of all my body the belly is the worst, it is really big!! It is also very white and sort of doughy... well when I start losing this weight hopefully the belly will disappear! And I could do with thinner legs too, although I have those weirdly shaped legs, where the calf is thin (and even fairly muscly, prolly due to the fact that I was a pro-dancer before my life as a couch-potatoe) and the ankle is even so think that most sandals won't work, but the upper leg has a lot of fat (inwards) and rubs in the middle so that I break trousers in the crotch area really easily!

Ok I am gonna go for my walk, thank you all for the comments (by the way I did poop this morning... yey!!! and yey for kiwis!!!), I really appreciate them, and I am getting so much strength from this forum!
Love, xxMilaxx
 
I am back from my walk, had almost 2 hours of time to think about a lot of things, like how I want my life to be different from now on, how I love the positive energy I am having these days and that I really hope I can go on like this. But I don't wanna turn into one of those freaks that are against everything (processed foods, meat, dairy etc... you know the kind of people I am talking about). I want to accept everyone's choice of nourishment and just control mine (and eventually my family's).

The silly veg seller wasn't there, so I had to go to the supermarket and buy my fruit and veg there, much more expensive but I could buy some other things I needed too, so it wasn't that bad.
When I was waiting to pay with 22 pounds (the money) of veg and fruit, the guys behind me (a couple in their 40ies) stared so badly at my food (among them raw artichokes, tomatoes, strawberries, kiwis, cucumber, lettuce etc...) and the woman told the guy:
"You only bought bad food! Look, crisps (that is chips for americans) and coke!"
And the guy pointed at this one lonely orange in his shopping trolley and said:
"Whatcha talkin' about, I bought good fruit too!" ;)!!

I had a snack before leaving (an apple and 1/2 l of water) and my lunch was half a cucumber, 2 tomatoes, 5 strawberries and a kiwi plus another 3/4 l of water. I am gonna have like a l of green tea later (to make the detox complete!). I did break my detox rules and had 4 crackers (they are not fatty crackers, only have 13 kcal each) with half a slice of salmon on each, a total of 104 kcals. But I guess that would be ok even on detox day!
I am also planning on having a granola bar sometime later, as my afternoon snack.
xxMilaxx
 
Ok my last post of the day, a very improductive day in all things study!
I just had dinner, a tin of asparagus (couldn't be asked to cook the fresh ones I had), half an avocado, another slice of salmon. And as a dessert a banana and peach baby food jar.
I drank 3.5 l of water and green tea and peed every 5 minutes for the whole day... I don't think I can drink anything else, I feel almost sick of water.
My constipation is definitely gone and I have diarrhea now again, unfortunately not the nice kind I had before starting with the laxatives, more like the "pain in the belly-run to the toilet" kind. I guess I overdid the Kiwis!!
So no Kiwis for me for at least a day.
I am gonna watch something on TV now and then go to bed, I am tired.
The cleansing wasn't as marvelous as I expected, but it wasn't as bad either. I did feel hungry for a good long while between lunch and dinner (although I had the granola bar) and I feel a bit light headed but that is prolly from sitting in front of the computer all day!
So goodnight everyone, I will write more tomorrow, xxMilaxx
 
Ok, so another monday... monday's seem to be the hardest days of the week!
I did alright today, swam only 1 km, because I was pretty damn tired and my swim buddy didn't come to cheer me up to do more (also I was running out of time, because I was meeting someone at 3:15 and started the swim at 2:15... what with showering and all afterwards... not such an amazingly well planned swim).
My breakfast was about 10 grapes and my muesli with baby-food. This time the jar was called apple apricot and was the yummiest so far!
I then walked about half an hour to pick up a parcel at the post office, but it was really hot and i sweat so much!!! Then I went and studied... boring boring boring!
After my swim I had lunch, 2 tomatoes, 1/3 cucumber, couple of carrots, 4 strawberries and 10 grapes, plus a granola bar.
I had an apple sometime later as well and just had another granola bar to get me going till dinner time, cause I am seriously starving!!!
For dinner we are having artichokes (one huge one for each) and couscous salad, which I adore.
Dessert is fruit as always.

I feel good and strong for eating chewing gum instead of the choc I was offered today! But not so good and string cause I only studied about half of the time I was supposed to... this way I am never get the grade I need!!

Otherwise all is fine, am gonna go and cook now, so we can eat as soon as the better half arrives.
See ya all soon, xxMilaxx
 
hey old woman! :)
Its the other old woman.
Actually, you seem to be pretty motivated about the swimming thing! Grats. It sounds like fun.
Too bad all the swimming holes in Atlanta are polluted. :mad:
I hear you about the counting calories thing, but let me tell you something...
Right before I got out of bed and came to the computer I was talking to my husband about counting calories.
I was telling him that before I went on a "diet" I just tried to eat healthier.

My experience was this:
I honestly did so-so. I could have done better. But it seems that I was just getting so frustrated with myself for not losing any weight I would always just stop and give up. I always ate when i was hungry, but I think I ate until I was too full. I'm not a real good judge of that.

So, if your goal is to lose weight, and not just eat healthier, then you might want to consider just planning your meals out for the day. That way you don't count calories during the day cause you already did the night before, and you don't go "crazy."

Hopefully, it does work out for you! What works for one person doesn't necessarily work for everybody. <3
 
Quickly before I completely immerse myself in studying the female reproductive system (I need to know that for my course... not turned lesbian overnight), my food plan of the day, with estimated cals:
- Breakfast Babyfood jar (Apple Blueberries... prollt the least yummy variant) with muesli, handful of grapes +/- 300 cals
-lunch, 5 cherrie tomatoes, a carrot, 5 radishes an apple and a small cup of left over couscous salad +/- 450 cals
-snack: granola bar and banana +/- 200 cals
-dinner: chicken, tomato and aubergine stir with some rice +/- 450 cal

That is like 1400 cals... so I guess my cal counting is fine! Just wanted to check I wasn't overeating or undereating! Although the BMR says I need to consume 1100 if I wanna lose weight though... I am a bit confused. Well I might ask later in another part of the forum.

So I will start the study, xxMilaxx
 
I really liked reading your journal so far but I don't have time to post more right now I have to go workout.
 
First of all: thank you soooo much guys for the feedback! It really helps me!
Second of all: OMG how tired am I!!!! I did my swimming and only ate what I wrote above (although I was bad and ate another small bowl of couscous when I got home just now).
But I am so tired, like physically. The swimming doesn't make me sore like dancing used to do, the kind of sore where you flinch at every movement, where you can't cough, where you think if I do one more split in my life my legs will never be able to come together again... but it makes my muscles tired. Extremely tired! Like I wake up and everything feels fine, no pain, then I walk to the bus stop and everything aches dully! And then when I swim it is ok for a little while, but onve I am cooled down again it is worse than in the morning!
I guess this is only week nr.2 so eventually I will get used to it and the days will be easier! Also I o 10 laps then I do 5 minutes of water aerobics (like pulling my knees to my chest kind of exercise, or turning my upper body without the lower, you know the kind. I thought they were doing nothing but today after my 3 sets of 12 of each, my bum was aching!!!!
The only problem I have with swimming is that I just don't find the right time for it, currently I am going before lunch (so like 1pm to 2pm) and then have lunch afterwards, but the afternoon is almost useless when I do that because I am sooo tired.
So evenings would be the best time, but 3 times a week the swim team trains there and I can't be in the gym at that time, so it would either be 6-7pm (before the team swims, which still is kind of early) or 8-9pm (after them) but my bf is in the swim team and that would make us not have dinner together which is our only together time anyways these days! Well I will figure it out eventually.
On a more positive note: I have lost some inch or so in circumference because my pants slid down today, really badly!!! And I ran to the bus and was not out of breath... well almost!

On a completely different topic, I went to see an osteopath today about my neck and head aches and well after 2 hours of examining me (in 4!!!) they said I have what is known as the "dancer syndrome", which is hypermobility of all joints but with inflammation in many of them. All the joints from my second vertebrae to down to the middle of my back (that is I think like 7 intervertebral spaces) are inflammed and make my muscles tense on that area, to protect my body from the lesioned joints. But at the same time the stiff muscles are just not giving the joints the space they need to heal themselves (sort of).
So they tried to unblock the muscles, to give the joints some relief, and they told me not to swim breaststroke anymore (which is the only stroke I know!!!) or to at least wear goggles and do the whole thing without straining my neck. Oh well, I guess I can do it, if my neck and head don't hurt afterwards!

Ok, that was my day, bf is about to come home and we have to tidy up the house because my flatmate is coming home tonight. And the house looks bad!!!!
Til tomorrow, little diary, xxMilaxx
 
I am down... a very good friend of mine's best friend was killed at VA Tech. I knew him when he came to visit her 2 years ago for Spring break. He was a very nice guy. And now he is dead... unconceivable!

Still I am not gonna let this bring me down, I just had breakfast (well late!!), my usual cereal (I have changed muesli for another kind of cereal, but I think it doesn't keep me full as long, so I might change back. Also it doesn't adapt to the Babyfood as well...) and a banana.
I didn't have time to shop yesterday, so I am gonna eat some salad at lunch (from our lunch bar in college) and for dinner we were going out, but the weather is not as nice as we expected, so we might just do movies and then have a big salad afterwards.
To snack I will have a kiwi, an apple and my beloved granola bar.

Will post later this evening at some point again, xxMilaxx
 
OK this is me again, for a quick cal overview:
breakfast: cereal and banana--> 250 cal
lunch: 5 cherry tomatoes, fruit (melon and grapes... yummy!!), a salad and some roasted veg --> (I am gonna estimate) 500 cal
snack: apple and 2 granola bars (one preswim and one post swim) --> 350 cal
dinner: salad --> 300 cal (again est.)
So i am at about 1400 cals... I am really not sure if this is too much or too little or just right. I am not weighing myself till Sunday so it is gonna be a surprise. I know I said I was nto gonna count cals, but every now and again I need to check. Anyhow I have stopped eating all kinds of junk, processed food, bread of all kinds, dairy products, sugar and substitutes of sugar and sodas.. so I am pretty restricted on high cal (and hidden cal) stuff to eat!

My swimming time problem has been solved: the pool closes at 7 for everyone except the swim team, and today i went 6-7 and it was a disaster!!!! Full of people!!! I mean there were at times 10 persons per lane! It is impossible to swim there. And they were so slow! I am not fast by any means (I mean how fast can you be doing breaststroke??) but man, I found myself starting to swim when "slow person" was more than half a pool away and after half a minute I would be stuck behind "slow person" practically standing in the water. When I surpassed them they did not look happy, so really the only option is, going back to lunch time where I swim nicely and all alone!
Otherwise I did fine and I am damn proud of myself, because I really didn't feel like swimming and not only did I go, I even swam more than my minimum! So well done me!!! And I did my aquaaerobics!

See y'all tomorrow, xxMilaxx
 
I don't feel so great. It is one of those days... I have also started since about yesterday to have the silly hunger all the time and all my life seems to revolve around eating. I wake up and have my breakfast and I used to feel full and satisfied with it, but I am not anymore, even though I have added a banana to the cereal!!
Then I am just sort of waiting for lunch time... I try to focus on studying but all I think is what I am gonna eat (even though I pack my lunch, so I am perfectly aware what it will be). And as soon as I finish lunch I am already desperate for dinner. I hate it, because I am eating enough, and the first days were fine and now, even though I have upped my portions I am never happy with it.
After dinner (and generally in the evenings) I have no problems though, I have my dinner (and I don't even eat the whole plate anymore) and then some fruit or other and then I am perfectly fine til breakfast!
I really don't know what to do. This was what made me quit last time!! I just want to eat all my forbiddies!!!

Well I had my unsatisfactory breakfast of apple sauce and cereal and a banana and my half l of water with a bit of lemon in it.
Lunch will be fruits and veg, dinner I am undecided.

Let's hope today is easier! xxMilaxx
 
OK back from my swim... I did my lowest nr of laps yet, only 30, but i did 15 back!!! That is a lot of back! And I did a good 20 min. of aquaaerobics (that I just invent... it is basically my warming up schedule from dancem only short and in the water!).
Food.. lets see, because of my unstillable hunger I ate a lot!
Breakfast: cereal + banana --> 200 cal
Snack *ashamed* granola bar --> 150 cal
Lunch: 1/3 cucumber, 7 cherry tomatoes, 20 grapes, 1 prune --> 200 cal (???)
Snack: banana, apple and granola bar --> 300 cal
So I am at about 850 already!!! And we are going out for dinner! But to have sushi which is low cal... well sort of...
Anyway, sometimes I read the diaries here and people have like 800 cal and they have eaten pizza and a burger or something, and I wonder how I can have 1500 only eating fresh fruit and veg (yeah I know the granola bars weigh me down... but still)... obviously I am not questioning anyone's counting of cals, I am just questioning my ability to devour soooo much fruit and veg!!

Otherwise I have been good, nothing forbidden was eaten, I went to buy choc (dark, just a little bit) but destiny showed me and there was non left, so I left.
I drank my water (although I never have problems with that to be honest) and did my swimming...
Till tomorrow (maybe I'll have a little bit of feedbackin here, it really helps me go on when I have some), xxMilaxx
 
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Ok very quick, the man is waiting for me in ten minutes:
So swimming was lame man, I did only 20 laps *ashamed* but I went although my neck is killing me and I was very slow because of the neck so I did a slow 20 laps, plus 10 min. of aerobics plus 10 mins of diving and jumps hihihi so much fun!!!
Food:
Breakfast: the babyfood was awful so I had to mix it down with some OJ, to make it edible, therefore more cereal went in, that was good because I felt nice and full! And a banana--> 300 cal (more or less)
Lunch: because soemone scared me saying I was getting no protein I ate an egg on top of my fuit and veg, so: 100g of tomatoes, 1/3 cucumber, hard boiled egg, 20 grapes, 5 radishes--> 300 cal
Snack (that lunch really filled me up, so was not as hungry as the past few days and only needed a smallish granola bar, although I also had an apple, a banana and a fruit-baby food jar in my bag, but they were not touched!): granola bar --> 100 cal
Dinner: I am gonna make fish and chinese stir fried rice, and fruit --> 500 cal
So that would be 1200... a bit low I guess but I felt full and satisfied, so it can't be wrong!

I feel great that t is Friday and I am still on the wagon! I did my swimming all days, and I ate right all days this week!
Tomorrow apart from swimming I am gonna rollerblade for an hour with my man (I opened a topic on this in Exercise for weightloss or something like that category, no one seems to read that one, so go and check it out: 'tis fun!!).
Good luck everyone, the weekend is always the hardest time for healthy eating and sports, but we will do it!!
Love, xxMilaxx
 
Morning report (only that 1:30 pm does not qualify as morning!), I had fruit breakfast (I do that on weekends sometimes), an apple, a kiwi, and 8 grapes (the only ones left over). Then we went for run/blade... man it was hard... especially getting there was really hard, it cost me 3/4 of the way to find an acceptable rythm and I arived dying, my asthma was playing up and my legs were trembling... but we did it 1.5 miles in about 10 minutes.
Then we sat there in the shade for a while (well I sat, he stretched and climbed a tree.... men!!;)) and then we came back. All in all we were out and about for about 45 minutes and we did between 3 and 4 miles.
I think we are gonna d it every saturday, it is really nice to do something together that is free! And I didn't feel as exhausted on my way back, so it is just getting the rythms right!
For lunch I will have a can of artichokes and some left over rice I think and dinner I dunno yet... we were thinking of going to a gig or some country music bar so we will probably have something on the way.

Ok need to go and tidy up a bit and then study! Found a new fav. song, which makes me happy every time I hear it, it is called Notturna Camden Lock by the Modena City Ramblers (it is in italian the language I speak with my man).
Love, xxMilaxx
 
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